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2 |1 |00:00:00 ~-~-> 00:00:04 |ICT: More folks, if you guys could just give me a heads up. Let me know audio is
3 |2 |00:00:04 ~-~-> 00:00:09 |okay, just send me a post on X just what a five by five. I don't know. You guys
4 |3 |00:00:09 ~-~-> 00:00:17 |can hear me fine. Thank you for that. Appreciate it. Some of you guys are
5 |4 |00:00:17 ~-~-> 00:00:23 |sleeping in today. Well, I guess it's time take another ride on the ghost
6 |5 |00:00:23 ~-~-> 00:00:24 |train. Huh? I
7 |6 |00:00:26 ~-~-> 00:00:35 |want to talk to you about things, people, circumstances that influence us,
8 |7 |00:00:36 ~-~-> 00:00:44 |and how that might be detrimental to you as a trader, developing trader, a person
9 |8 |00:00:44 ~-~-> 00:00:50 |in general, a parent, a loved one, a spouse, a significant other. All these
10 |9 |00:00:50 ~-~-> 00:00:58 |things tie together. And I have, I have a funny way of looking back in my own
11 |10 |00:00:58 ~-~-> 00:01:03 |personal life, and maybe it's a guilty pleasure for you as well. It's kind of
12 |11 |00:01:03 ~-~-> 00:01:11 |like if you looked at your life and someone made it into a movie. What
13 |12 |00:01:11 ~-~-> 00:01:17 |soundtrack would it use? Certainly, there'd be some favorite songs of your
14 |13 |00:01:17 ~-~-> 00:01:24 |own choosing that you would like to be implementing it as part of the
15 |14 |00:01:24 ~-~-> 00:01:30 |soundtrack. If your life was a movie, maybe it'd be a sampling of some old
16 |15 |00:01:30 ~-~-> 00:01:37 |classics, maybe some rock, maybe some jazz, maybe hip hop, maybe rap, heavy
17 |16 |00:01:37 ~-~-> 00:01:47 |metal grunge, if you were to add to ask me the same question, when my life
18 |17 |00:01:47 ~-~-> 00:01:55 |began, as in a circle trader, it was one with a lot of anxiety, a lot of hopes
19 |18 |00:01:55 ~-~-> 00:02:03 |and Dreams, but deep down inside, underneath the skin, I wouldn't was
20 |19 |00:02:03 ~-~-> 00:02:08 |gonna be able to do it, leaving a broken relationship, which we won't touch
21 |20 |00:02:08 ~-~-> 00:02:13 |anymore, because I've done I don't know, but I felt like I had something to
22 |21 |00:02:13 ~-~-> 00:02:17 |prove. But I was in my feels when I started learning how to trade. I was
23 |22 |00:02:17 ~-~-> 00:02:25 |really in my emotions. And if you were to ask me what, what would my soundtrack
24 |23 |00:02:25 ~-~-> 00:02:35 |be? Because while I was 20 by age, and they like to say the coming of age, or
25 |24 |00:02:35 ~-~-> 00:02:41 |coming of where you move from adolescence to adulthood might happen a
26 |25 |00:02:41 ~-~-> 00:02:50 |little bit younger than 20. I really started living when I was 20. It was
27 |26 |00:02:51 ~-~-> 00:02:58 |scary for me. I was at the most alone I've ever been with the height of the
28 |27 |00:02:58 ~-~-> 00:03:04 |majority of my friends were at the same time you ever had that feeling where you
29 |28 |00:03:04 ~-~-> 00:03:07 |know you have lots of friends, you have lots of friends that you've known for
30 |29 |00:03:08 ~-~-> 00:03:13 |ever, back to kindergarten, pre K, but you still feel lonely, like you're
31 |30 |00:03:13 ~-~-> 00:03:19 |alone, like you're in and of yourself an island, and no One can reach you, and
32 |31 |00:03:19 ~-~-> 00:03:27 |you can't reach them. That's what it was like for me. And just to tap in as a
33 |32 |00:03:27 ~-~-> 00:03:33 |segue into the previous message I was sharing with you last week where I
34 |33 |00:03:33 ~-~-> 00:03:37 |mentioned the young lady I was engaged to and met. Just want to mention her
35 |34 |00:03:37 ~-~-> 00:03:40 |briefly. That way, it kind of makes a little bit of sense of what I'm
36 |35 |00:03:40 ~-~-> 00:03:47 |referring to, right? Before I met her, if you were to ask me, What's your
37 |36 |00:03:47 ~-~-> 00:03:52 |favorite band, what's your favorite musician, what's your favorite songs?
38 |37 |00:03:53 ~-~-> 00:03:58 |And as over the years, you guys can see, I have a very diverse palette for music.
39 |38 |00:03:58 ~-~-> 00:04:04 |I like everything. I've always been a fan of music, but it taps into the raw
40 |39 |00:04:04 ~-~-> 00:04:07 |emotions of what you're going through right now and what you aspire to be and
41 |40 |00:04:07 ~-~-> 00:04:10 |what you're afraid is like come and you're hoping that you can navigate
42 |41 |00:04:10 ~-~-> 00:04:11 |around it.
43 |42 |00:04:16 ~-~-> 00:04:24 |For me, it's cowros. If there was one album that I could play for the rest of
44 |43 |00:04:24 ~-~-> 00:04:28 |my life every single day and never get tired of it, it's August and everything
45 |44 |00:04:28 ~-~-> 00:04:33 |after that would be my soundtrack. Every song in that order, you're
46 |45 |00:04:39 ~-~-> 00:04:44 |going to have a lot of innuendos, if you've ever listened to that band, or
47 |46 |00:04:44 ~-~-> 00:04:51 |even know what that album's about, I have a I have a guilty pleasure of
48 |47 |00:04:51 ~-~-> 00:04:57 |thinking to myself, somehow Adam was in some kind of a sink with me at that
49 |48 |00:04:57 ~-~-> 00:05:01 |time. Adam, the lead singer, I. When you compose all those songs, because if
50 |49 |00:05:01 ~-~-> 00:05:06 |there was any album, any song, any songwriter to ever tap into how I was
51 |50 |00:05:06 ~-~-> 00:05:15 |feeling and what I was going through, that man did it. Every lyric and every
52 |51 |00:05:15 ~-~-> 00:05:20 |one of those songs mean something to me. I have a memory attached to every single
53 |52 |00:05:20 ~-~-> 00:05:30 |one of them. And when I met Shannon, going to list those songs, and that's
54 |53 |00:05:30 ~-~-> 00:05:34 |exactly what that whirlwind relationship, romance, engagement, the
55 |54 |00:05:34 ~-~-> 00:05:41 |whole thing was just like that in that order. And I felt like the rain King.
56 |55 |00:05:42 ~-~-> 00:05:48 |When I was around her, I felt like I deserved a little more. I deserved to be
57 |56 |00:05:48 ~-~-> 00:05:56 |in the service of the Queen, and I made it rain every week for her, and she was
58 |57 |00:05:56 ~-~-> 00:06:00 |a critical facet to me healing.
59 |58 |00:06:09 ~-~-> 00:06:15 |A lot of the crows, Counting Crows don't get mixed up with the crows, which I
60 |59 |00:06:15 ~-~-> 00:06:24 |like to a lot of those songs were inspirational. To me doing well as a
61 |60 |00:06:24 ~-~-> 00:06:28 |trader, and when I would study, when I would look at charts, when I was doing
62 |61 |00:06:28 ~-~-> 00:06:32 |the actual charting, like drawing open, high, low and close on my price charts,
63 |62 |00:06:36 ~-~-> 00:06:43 |that CD would be playing on repeat. Just sometimes I would randomize the play,
64 |63 |00:06:43 ~-~-> 00:06:53 |shuffle it, but that was the CD that played. And this morning, when I got up
65 |64 |00:06:53 ~-~-> 00:07:01 |around 230 I was thinking myself, yeah, I used to, I used to worry about missing
66 |65 |00:07:01 ~-~-> 00:07:06 |life, because I wasn't going out to the clubs and the bars and doing the things
67 |66 |00:07:06 ~-~-> 00:07:13 |that my friends were doing, what my Murder of Crows was doing. If you don't
68 |67 |00:07:13 ~-~-> 00:07:21 |understand the title, when you have more than one crow or a group of crows. They
69 |68 |00:07:21 ~-~-> 00:07:31 |don't call it a flock. They call it a murder a crows. And online, you know,
70 |69 |00:07:31 ~-~-> 00:07:37 |online gaming and whatnot, Call of Duty, Battlefield and, you know, all those
71 |70 |00:07:37 ~-~-> 00:07:47 |types of things. My My name was always Murder of Crows. So that had a huge
72 |71 |00:07:47 ~-~-> 00:07:54 |impact on me. And if there was a montage and my life was a movie, there would be
73 |72 |00:07:54 ~-~-> 00:08:00 |Counting Crows, songs playing, and here I am, and there were the charts of
74 |73 |00:08:00 ~-~-> 00:08:03 |drawing the open, high, low on clothes, sweat on my brow, worrying about the
75 |74 |00:08:03 ~-~-> 00:08:10 |outcome. Silly, I know, but that's the kind of stuff you have to do. You have
76 |75 |00:08:10 ~-~-> 00:08:15 |to romanticize yourself and what you're going through to get through it. Men can
77 |76 |00:08:15 ~-~-> 00:08:20 |really resonate with that. They may not be admitting it in the presence of other
78 |77 |00:08:20 ~-~-> 00:08:24 |people, but deep down underneath the skin, they know what I just said. This
79 |78 |00:08:24 ~-~-> 00:08:32 |is true for them, too. And with Shannon, I had the opportunity to be free. I let
80 |79 |00:08:32 ~-~-> 00:08:36 |that bird underneath my skin, there was nothing come out and spread its wings,
81 |80 |00:08:37 ~-~-> 00:08:42 |and I shared the things that I would draw and right in my passions and where
82 |81 |00:08:42 ~-~-> 00:08:46 |my direction, like was really aiming for, and I felt like she was going to be
83 |82 |00:08:46 ~-~-> 00:08:52 |a part of it. So therefore it was like rocket fuel. So I had a very encouraging
84 |83 |00:08:53 ~-~-> 00:09:04 |member of my Murder of Crows in her but the rest of the murder were not so and
85 |84 |00:09:06 ~-~-> 00:09:10 |because it was so good being around her, it blinded me to the negative, toxic
86 |85 |00:09:10 ~-~-> 00:09:18 |relationships I had and others around me who I loved, genuinely, brotherly love,
87 |86 |00:09:18 ~-~-> 00:09:29 |and some of them stabbed me in the back when I thought about that this morning,
88 |87 |00:09:29 ~-~-> 00:09:34 |when I woke up, I was singing our morning room, looking at the glowing
89 |88 |00:09:34 ~-~-> 00:09:39 |lights of the deer's eyeballs as they look Good with the cars that pass
90 |89 |00:09:39 ~-~-> 00:09:50 |through. I'm thinking myself, years ago, all my friends were hopefully trying to
91 |90 |00:09:50 ~-~-> 00:09:54 |make it home about this time from the bars and the clubs, and I was up
92 |91 |00:09:55 ~-~-> 00:10:03 |reading, studying, looking at lines on. A graph and praying that these things
93 |92 |00:10:03 ~-~-> 00:10:08 |are going to lead me to a lifestyle that I wouldn't regret not doing those things
94 |93 |00:10:08 ~-~-> 00:10:09 |with them,
95 |94 |00:10:14 ~-~-> 00:10:24 |friends, listeners. This morning, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I am so
96 |95 |00:10:24 ~-~-> 00:10:32 |thankful that I didn't do those things. I don't have any regret not having done
97 |96 |00:10:32 ~-~-> 00:10:36 |so. I don't have any regret for pruning all of the toxic relationships and
98 |97 |00:10:36 ~-~-> 00:10:39 |friendships that were really not friendships. They were holding me back.
99 |98 |00:10:39 ~-~-> 00:10:46 |I can be honest with you and tell you my high school best friend, Larry, who
100 |99 |00:10:46 ~-~-> 00:10:53 |we're not friends with each other anymore. A lot of the things I did my
101 |100 |00:10:54 ~-~-> 00:10:58 |early trading career, I was trying to trade and make big money to impress him.
102 |101 |00:10:58 ~-~-> 00:10:58 |It
103 |102 |00:10:59 ~-~-> 00:11:04 |was stupid. It was dumb. You show them. Hey, man, look this. I mean $500
104 |103 |00:11:05 ~-~-> 00:11:16 |on corn, corn, yeah, 50, $50 percent the most, 10 cents you need. 500 bucks. I
105 |104 |00:11:16 ~-~-> 00:11:21 |had one contract on and to me, that was big money. I was more money that I was
106 |105 |00:11:21 ~-~-> 00:11:28 |earning in a week at my job. He was like, Man, that's that's pretty wild.
107 |106 |00:11:28 ~-~-> 00:11:32 |Can you can you teach me how to do that? That's exactly what I wanted to hear.
108 |107 |00:11:32 ~-~-> 00:11:35 |That's exactly what you want to hear when you tell your friends and family,
109 |108 |00:11:35 ~-~-> 00:11:43 |look what I do. I made this. And you want them to say, Wow, that was amazing.
110 |109 |00:11:44 ~-~-> 00:11:48 |Can you teach me how to do that? I don't make enough money, and if I had that
111 |110 |00:11:48 ~-~-> 00:11:55 |man, I could get that five liter GT Mustang, because that's what he said
112 |111 |00:11:55 ~-~-> 00:12:07 |back then, until we sit down, we start looking at the charts, and then suddenly
113 |112 |00:12:07 ~-~-> 00:12:12 |it requires a lot more thought, a lot more passion than simply saying, Well,
114 |113 |00:12:12 ~-~-> 00:12:15 |you know, it seems like the lottery scratch offs, and if it works out
115 |114 |00:12:15 ~-~-> 00:12:20 |consistently, once in a while, you know, I could pay My My dream cars. Car
116 |115 |00:12:20 ~-~-> 00:12:26 |payment. That was the extent of my friends perspective on trading. And
117 |116 |00:12:26 ~-~-> 00:12:35 |because I kept going, and they were my friends, I drug them along. Now some of
118 |117 |00:12:35 ~-~-> 00:12:38 |them honestly, you know, if they were being honest with you today, especially
119 |118 |00:12:38 ~-~-> 00:12:45 |the ones that weren't a lot of friends with if you ask them, you know, what is,
120 |119 |00:12:45 ~-~-> 00:12:51 |uh, what's your opinion? You know? Michael back then arrogant, conceited,
121 |120 |00:12:52 ~-~-> 00:13:01 |self centered poser, like fair skater back in the late 80s, it comes to mind,
122 |121 |00:13:01 ~-~-> 00:13:08 |doesn't it, because I was trying to find myself, and I was living that montage
123 |122 |00:13:08 ~-~-> 00:13:13 |moment every single day, trying to keep myself motivated, because I had no
124 |123 |00:13:13 ~-~-> 00:13:15 |motivation outside of That young lady that I met.
125 |124 |00:13:22 ~-~-> 00:13:26 |So I started taking some inventory in friends and people that hung around me.
126 |125 |00:13:26 ~-~-> 00:13:30 |I started doing really well, and they were benefiting by being friends with
127 |126 |00:13:30 ~-~-> 00:13:41 |me, associates more or less. And I started pruning them. Stopped returning
128 |127 |00:13:41 ~-~-> 00:13:52 |the phone calls, not returning their their request to hang out, because when
129 |128 |00:13:52 ~-~-> 00:13:56 |I would hang around them, I wouldn't feel good about myself. I felt like I
130 |129 |00:13:56 ~-~-> 00:14:01 |was being used. And some of you right now might have that going on right now,
131 |130 |00:14:01 ~-~-> 00:14:06 |and you're too afraid to prune it from your life, because you don't want
132 |131 |00:14:06 ~-~-> 00:14:11 |anybody to think that you're bad or you're not a good friend when chances
133 |132 |00:14:11 ~-~-> 00:14:16 |are, you probably been the better friend all along. You would probably bend over
134 |133 |00:14:16 ~-~-> 00:14:19 |backwards to help the people that are around you that don't have any support
135 |134 |00:14:19 ~-~-> 00:14:24 |structure for you, but you would gladly bend over backwards to do the same for
136 |135 |00:14:24 ~-~-> 00:14:32 |them that you expect from them. The fact that you're pouring out any amount of
137 |136 |00:14:32 ~-~-> 00:14:36 |time and energy into improving yourself is a testimony that's really who you
138 |137 |00:14:36 ~-~-> 00:14:41 |are. Some of you might say, I wouldn't do that. You would. If you have friends
139 |138 |00:14:41 ~-~-> 00:14:48 |that you love, you would, but if the shoes on the other foot, they wouldn't
140 |139 |00:14:48 ~-~-> 00:14:54 |do the same for you. And unfortunately, I had friends, and I say that loosely,
141 |140 |00:14:55 ~-~-> 00:15:00 |like that, and it became a deterrent to me doing well. It was. Influential in
142 |141 |00:15:00 ~-~-> 00:15:06 |the sense that I wanted to do things just to rub their nose in it, because
143 |142 |00:15:06 ~-~-> 00:15:12 |some of them, albeit dating back to pre K, I mean, it's before kindergarten,
144 |143 |00:15:13 ~-~-> 00:15:17 |friends with them, and they would look at me cockeyed, and I'd say, I'm going
145 |144 |00:15:17 ~-~-> 00:15:28 |to make enough to buy a house, cash in one trade. Now, saying that in 1993
146 |145 |00:15:29 ~-~-> 00:15:36 |didn't make any sense to anyone that I was raised as you know, remember, I came
147 |146 |00:15:36 ~-~-> 00:15:41 |from a place that no longer exists, was referred to as cardboard city, Villa
148 |147 |00:15:41 ~-~-> 00:15:46 |gardens. It literally was the lowest income housing, the cheapest building
149 |148 |00:15:46 ~-~-> 00:15:52 |structure you could ever have. That's what ICT grew up in. So I tasted all of
150 |149 |00:15:52 ~-~-> 00:15:56 |that poverty type stuff. I used to be on welfare. I had to go to the store and
151 |150 |00:15:56 ~-~-> 00:16:00 |give food stamps to get milk and bread, and because I was raised on it, I wasn't
152 |151 |00:16:00 ~-~-> 00:16:07 |embarrassed. I just figured that's how everything was. And as I grew up, my
153 |152 |00:16:07 ~-~-> 00:16:11 |Murder of Crows, the part of the flock, the birds of a feather, flock together,
154 |153 |00:16:11 ~-~-> 00:16:26 |I was a little bit different. I was a little bit different. Slowly, I was the
155 |154 |00:16:26 ~-~-> 00:16:29 |one that was the team captain. Everybody wanted to be on the side of and I wasn't
156 |155 |00:16:29 ~-~-> 00:16:36 |even good at sports, but I was influential. I would tell everybody when
157 |156 |00:16:36 ~-~-> 00:16:41 |they had an idea, that's exactly what you should be doing right now. That's
158 |157 |00:16:41 ~-~-> 00:16:45 |what I loved about Shannon, because that's who I wanted to be as a person. I
159 |158 |00:16:45 ~-~-> 00:16:50 |wanted to be an encourager, because I wanted to be reciprocated with other
160 |159 |00:16:50 ~-~-> 00:16:53 |people around me, and I wanted to be around a Murder of Crows with like
161 |160 |00:16:53 ~-~-> 00:17:00 |minded goals, aspirations never have a limiting perspective. But I didn't have
162 |161 |00:17:00 ~-~-> 00:17:06 |that in The Murder of Crows and friends I had growing up. I had doubters. I had
163 |162 |00:17:06 ~-~-> 00:17:16 |lazy people, under achievers, drop outs from school, weed heads, and Sad to say,
164 |163 |00:17:16 ~-~-> 00:17:21 |a lot of them aren't even living anymore. Those that are have been
165 |164 |00:17:21 ~-~-> 00:17:26 |married several different times, broken homes, in and out of jail several times.
166 |165 |00:17:26 ~-~-> 00:17:30 |And you probably can relate. You know, you know some people like that when you
167 |166 |00:17:30 ~-~-> 00:17:35 |grew up with them. Now that not all of them are like that, mind you, but the
168 |167 |00:17:35 ~-~-> 00:17:40 |majority of them are. And then ones that didn't do very well in life, they were
169 |168 |00:17:40 ~-~-> 00:17:48 |the ones that doubted me most. And right now you are in that August and
170 |169 |00:17:48 ~-~-> 00:17:54 |everything after moment in your career, you're just now learning. You're just
171 |170 |00:17:54 ~-~-> 00:17:57 |now tapping into, wow, this is a an opportunity for me. I've never thought
172 |171 |00:17:57 ~-~-> 00:18:04 |about doing this before. And you have other people around you that are
173 |172 |00:18:04 ~-~-> 00:18:10 |basically your Murder of Crows, like the expression is birds of a feather flock
174 |173 |00:18:10 ~-~-> 00:18:21 |together. And I didn't flock with them. They flocked with me. And as I gained
175 |174 |00:18:21 ~-~-> 00:18:28 |more in financial stability, I could afford more things. My generosity
176 |175 |00:18:28 ~-~-> 00:18:31 |allowed them to have the things that I was doing when we went through the
177 |176 |00:18:31 ~-~-> 00:18:35 |movies, I paid for everybody, everything, drinks, popcorn, snacks,
178 |177 |00:18:35 ~-~-> 00:18:39 |whatever. And after that, we went bowling, shooting, pool, whatever we
179 |178 |00:18:39 ~-~-> 00:18:46 |did, I paid for it. Now in today's terms, it wasn't that much money. But
180 |179 |00:18:46 ~-~-> 00:18:56 |back then, I was money bags, I was Rockefeller, and eventually I got to the
181 |180 |00:18:56 ~-~-> 00:18:59 |point where I wanted to do that stuff, because it made me feel better than
182 |181 |00:18:59 ~-~-> 00:19:06 |them, because they made me feel less than I really was, and that's how a
183 |182 |00:19:06 ~-~-> 00:19:14 |toxic relationship is balanced. Instead of letting go, you stay attached to it,
184 |183 |00:19:17 ~-~-> 00:19:20 |and that has a detrimental effect on you as a trader, because you're going to be
185 |184 |00:19:20 ~-~-> 00:19:26 |thinking about external things as reasons to do something well, you know,
186 |185 |00:19:26 ~-~-> 00:19:31 |there really isn't a setup in the charts right now, but you haven't really
187 |186 |00:19:31 ~-~-> 00:19:35 |impressed in a long time. Kim, yeah. Kim, I haven't seen her about seven
188 |187 |00:19:35 ~-~-> 00:19:40 |years, but I just saw her on Facebook and they a friend request suggestion
189 |188 |00:19:40 ~-~-> 00:19:43 |came up, and I bet you that would be a wonderful icebreaker. I said, Hey, girl,
190 |189 |00:19:44 ~-~-> 00:19:48 |hey girl, ain't seen you in a while. Hope everything's good, but check this
191 |190 |00:19:48 ~-~-> 00:19:54 |out. Look what I just did in high grade copper. What where are you? Where you
192 |191 |00:19:54 ~-~-> 00:19:59 |been, and what are you talking to me about that sport. It makes you do things
193 |192 |00:19:59 ~-~-> 00:20:04 |and think. Things and active way, and you really are uncharacteristically
194 |193 |00:20:04 ~-~-> 00:20:11 |doing any other time because you're trying to win the affection or respect
195 |194 |00:20:11 ~-~-> 00:20:21 |of people that don't have that same opinion of you and within in the
196 |195 |00:20:21 ~-~-> 00:20:30 |invitation of being on social media, you feel that impulse more than ever. I'm
197 |196 |00:20:30 ~-~-> 00:20:36 |going to show that person. I'm going to show ICT that I've been really studying.
198 |197 |00:20:36 ~-~-> 00:20:40 |I can't wait to go out there every single day and show him and everybody
199 |198 |00:20:40 ~-~-> 00:20:47 |that follows him. What I'm doing, I'm a member of The Murder of Crows, of ICT,
200 |199 |00:20:47 ~-~-> 00:21:01 |the cult the Horde, and probably I'm no escaping this label. I could be, very
201 |200 |00:21:01 ~-~-> 00:21:06 |well be influencing you, not directly, but indirectly, because you feel the
202 |201 |00:21:06 ~-~-> 00:21:09 |need that you have to live up to some expectation that I didn't place on you.
203 |202 |00:21:09 ~-~-> 00:21:16 |And you're going to be doing things outside of your model, or before you
204 |203 |00:21:16 ~-~-> 00:21:19 |even establish the model, you're going to follow, you're just going to dabble
205 |204 |00:21:19 ~-~-> 00:21:25 |here and there and hopefully be able to share something, and they're all wrong,
206 |205 |00:21:27 ~-~-> 00:21:34 |because you're trading for emotional response. And the worst thing that can
207 |206 |00:21:34 ~-~-> 00:21:38 |happen is, if you get it, then you're going to subconsciously think to
208 |207 |00:21:38 ~-~-> 00:21:42 |yourself, well, this is this is success. This is how I define success, because I
209 |208 |00:21:42 ~-~-> 00:21:47 |did this, because I was motivated to get a response. It's stimuli from people on
210 |209 |00:21:47 ~-~-> 00:21:57 |social media, ICT himself, or haters of ICT. And it becomes a quest to do
211 |210 |00:21:57 ~-~-> 00:22:02 |everything backwards, but justifying it before it even happens, and along the
212 |211 |00:22:02 ~-~-> 00:22:08 |way and then rewarding yourself if it happens, and calling that the right
213 |212 |00:22:08 ~-~-> 00:22:10 |process. And it's not
214 |213 |00:22:17 ~-~-> 00:22:27 |using your Murder of Crows you who among your friends and family that you've been
215 |214 |00:22:27 ~-~-> 00:22:35 |tight with up until this very moment, who are the ones that you really wish
216 |215 |00:22:35 ~-~-> 00:22:39 |you had the courage to say, I just don't want to be around them anymore, and I'm
217 |216 |00:22:39 ~-~-> 00:22:45 |going to politely excuse myself from their presence. You know who they are.
218 |217 |00:22:46 ~-~-> 00:22:54 |It might be one for others. It might be many. I can tell you, if you're a young
219 |218 |00:22:54 ~-~-> 00:23:02 |man, this is something you want to really put some thought into because
220 |219 |00:23:02 ~-~-> 00:23:09 |when you hang around certain people again, like the expression says birds of
221 |220 |00:23:09 ~-~-> 00:23:17 |a feather, it means they're all there in a common idea, they flock together. I
222 |221 |00:23:17 ~-~-> 00:23:26 |like ICT concepts, but I don't like ICT. Well, there's a there's a faction of
223 |222 |00:23:26 ~-~-> 00:23:30 |people out there like that. There's a faction out there. There's meanies like
224 |223 |00:23:30 ~-~-> 00:23:34 |maniacs like everything. They want to know what my kitchen drawers look like,
225 |224 |00:23:34 ~-~-> 00:23:40 |and how my utilities in my house arranged, and what's my circuit board
226 |225 |00:23:40 ~-~-> 00:23:46 |and my, you know, everything for my house, and what kind of interior do my
227 |226 |00:23:46 ~-~-> 00:23:50 |cars have, and what kind of underwear do I wear? And I'm not making things up,
228 |227 |00:23:50 ~-~-> 00:24:00 |these are actual questions I get, like, that's fanatic, that's unhealthy. Now I
229 |228 |00:24:00 ~-~-> 00:24:06 |get it. Don't get me wrong, in 1995 I thought to myself, I wonder what Larry
230 |229 |00:24:06 ~-~-> 00:24:11 |Williams house looks like inside. I wonder, does he have common furniture
231 |230 |00:24:11 ~-~-> 00:24:16 |like, you know, everybody else would go and get or do you have elaborate
232 |231 |00:24:16 ~-~-> 00:24:21 |sculptures and things like that? Yeah, I guess, in a way, you know, it's human
233 |232 |00:24:21 ~-~-> 00:24:29 |nature to think that kind of stuff, but we can take it to an extreme. But who in
234 |233 |00:24:29 ~-~-> 00:24:38 |your Murder of Crows needs to fly off and not come back? You got to prune
235 |234 |00:24:38 ~-~-> 00:24:43 |that. If you're in relationships, they're friends, and they're saying,
236 |235 |00:24:43 ~-~-> 00:24:47 |Nah, man, come on. You can go back. You can look at that stuff anytime. Let's go
237 |236 |00:24:47 ~-~-> 00:24:53 |to the club. Let's blow all of our money that we worked all week for trying to
238 |237 |00:24:53 ~-~-> 00:25:02 |get a score with somebody that you don't even know or what. They're caring, or if
239 |238 |00:25:02 ~-~-> 00:25:08 |they're even worth being with. I'm going to go so far as to say this, gentlemen,
240 |239 |00:25:09 ~-~-> 00:25:15 |you're not finding your wife in the club, and ladies, you're not finding
241 |240 |00:25:15 ~-~-> 00:25:23 |your husband in the club, but you are finding that right now moment that tells
242 |241 |00:25:23 ~-~-> 00:25:33 |you you're worth something. They're attracted to me. Yeah, baby, look at me.
243 |242 |00:25:36 ~-~-> 00:25:41 |Dressed to the Nines. I'm on it tonight. Look at me. Everybody's going to
244 |243 |00:25:41 ~-~-> 00:25:51 |recognize me tonight, but when you're trying to become a traitor, you gotta
245 |244 |00:25:51 ~-~-> 00:25:59 |stop thinking like that entirely. You gotta put walls up. You gotta guard your
246 |245 |00:25:59 ~-~-> 00:26:08 |mind. You gotta keep outward stimuli away from you, only letting in the good
247 |246 |00:26:08 ~-~-> 00:26:13 |you got a filter constantly, especially today, I don't, I don't think,
248 |247 |00:26:13 ~-~-> 00:26:18 |personally, no, I know. I know absolutely no, I'm going to be
249 |248 |00:26:18 ~-~-> 00:26:23 |completely honest with you. I don't think I would have been able to be who I
250 |249 |00:26:23 ~-~-> 00:26:32 |am today if social media, as it is today, was like it is in 1992 Now, mind
251 |250 |00:26:32 ~-~-> 00:26:36 |you, we had America Online. We had message boards, but sometimes you had to
252 |251 |00:26:36 ~-~-> 00:26:40 |wait a whole day before somebody responded, because everybody was in
253 |252 |00:26:41 ~-~-> 00:26:52 |everybody else's message board. But right now, right now, everyone has the
254 |253 |00:26:52 ~-~-> 00:26:58 |power of the tongue by pressing some keys and they can flatter you and tell
255 |254 |00:26:58 ~-~-> 00:27:05 |you you are amazing. Look at you. I want to be what you are right now. I wish I
256 |255 |00:27:05 ~-~-> 00:27:09 |could obtain what you have. I wish I could trade just like you. I wish I
257 |256 |00:27:09 ~-~-> 00:27:12 |could trade as long as you hold your trades. I wish I could get in and get
258 |257 |00:27:12 ~-~-> 00:27:20 |out like you. Your precision is unrivaled. And that same person that can
259 |258 |00:27:20 ~-~-> 00:27:24 |have such a glowing comment about one person can turn around and tear the
260 |259 |00:27:24 ~-~-> 00:27:36 |other person's throat out by saying, you are worthless scum, and I can tell you
261 |260 |00:27:36 ~-~-> 00:27:42 |honestly I'm like Teflon. Now, there ain't a person out there that can say
262 |261 |00:27:42 ~-~-> 00:27:46 |anything to me, and I'm going to be upset about it, because I've arrived.
263 |262 |00:27:46 ~-~-> 00:27:52 |I've been here for a long time, and it's a sport for me, but I could never have
264 |263 |00:27:52 ~-~-> 00:28:02 |done that in 1992 93 and 94 I would have been destroyed by the least of my trolls
265 |264 |00:28:02 ~-~-> 00:28:12 |today, then that's how fragile I was. I was frail, easily destroyed. I had no
266 |265 |00:28:12 ~-~-> 00:28:19 |confidence, I had passion, I had drive, but my own friends, my Murder of Crows,
267 |266 |00:28:19 ~-~-> 00:28:27 |did not have any support structure for me. Think about who your Murder of Crows
268 |267 |00:28:27 ~-~-> 00:28:32 |is on social media. Who do you hang around with? What influencers Do you
269 |268 |00:28:32 ~-~-> 00:28:39 |support? How do you behave around the other ones that is part of your click,
270 |269 |00:28:39 ~-~-> 00:28:45 |your flock, your Murder of Crows. Chances are, if you're honest, you
271 |270 |00:28:45 ~-~-> 00:28:48 |probably think to yourself, you know why? I probably should have never said
272 |271 |00:28:48 ~-~-> 00:28:52 |what I said, but I was just trying to get a rise out of one of my friends who
273 |272 |00:28:52 ~-~-> 00:28:55 |said something about this person, and then they said it because you want to
274 |273 |00:28:55 ~-~-> 00:29:00 |jump in, be part of it too. Because, hey, the flocks gotta stick together,
275 |274 |00:29:00 ~-~-> 00:29:02 |right birds of a feather,
276 |275 |00:29:09 ~-~-> 00:29:12 |and I put it off as a young man longer than I should have, because I thought I
277 |276 |00:29:12 ~-~-> 00:29:16 |was being a bad person. I was being an ugly person, when in reality, I was
278 |277 |00:29:16 ~-~-> 00:29:23 |being an ugly person. Because I was around them, they motivated me to behave
279 |278 |00:29:23 ~-~-> 00:29:30 |a certain way that is not characteristic of me, and because it gave me a rise out
280 |279 |00:29:30 ~-~-> 00:29:36 |of people that I wanted to impress. Outside of my murder of Cruz, I kept
281 |280 |00:29:36 ~-~-> 00:29:44 |doing it. I was getting a reward stimuli for doing things that I shouldn't have
282 |281 |00:29:44 ~-~-> 00:29:51 |been doing, kind of like drug addiction, right? Never done drugs in my life.
283 |282 |00:29:51 ~-~-> 00:29:57 |Never drank alcohol to the point of inebriation. And I say that one because
284 |283 |00:29:58 ~-~-> 00:30:02 |I did allow one. Touch my tongue and I spit it after that tasted like rear end.
285 |284 |00:30:04 ~-~-> 00:30:11 |How anybody can drink that stuff? I don't know man, but teach them. All I
286 |285 |00:30:11 ~-~-> 00:30:24 |know is, while I didn't do drugs, I was doing dopamine as a 20 year old, 21 year
287 |286 |00:30:24 ~-~-> 00:30:34 |old, 22 year old, 23 year old, 24 year old, 25 year old, my life was all about
288 |287 |00:30:34 ~-~-> 00:30:39 |getting the stimuli from other people. What could I do today,
289 |288 |00:30:40 ~-~-> 00:30:47 |materialistically, to get a rise out of other people. And none of it was ever
290 |289 |00:30:47 ~-~-> 00:30:53 |worth it. Everything I built up in my mind that, hey, this is this is going to
291 |290 |00:30:53 ~-~-> 00:30:59 |really knock their socks off. Well, now I don't like this car. I only bought
292 |291 |00:30:59 ~-~-> 00:31:02 |this car because everybody on the methods board said this was the car that
293 |292 |00:31:02 ~-~-> 00:31:06 |everybody needs To get. ZR one,
294 |293 |00:31:18 ~-~-> 00:31:29 |nursery rhyme titled Counting Crows, and says one for sorrow. That's the first
295 |294 |00:31:29 ~-~-> 00:31:35 |step you develop as a trader. You're sorrowful, you don't you're not happy
296 |295 |00:31:35 ~-~-> 00:31:39 |where you're at in life. You know you deserve more, you want more. You just
297 |296 |00:31:39 ~-~-> 00:31:45 |don't have a direction to that frame of mind to get going, because you don't
298 |297 |00:31:45 ~-~-> 00:31:50 |want to waste time doing it wrong, but you end up wasting time worrying about
299 |298 |00:31:50 ~-~-> 00:31:57 |doing it wrong. Is that just starting getting a baseline. That's the problem
300 |299 |00:31:57 ~-~-> 00:32:00 |that everybody may 1 come to me. They want to know, what's the perfect recipe
301 |300 |00:32:00 ~-~-> 00:32:08 |going through your content. There really isn't, there isn't one, because you need
302 |301 |00:32:08 ~-~-> 00:32:17 |to have one specific, I guess, characteristic, which is the desire to
303 |302 |00:32:17 ~-~-> 00:32:23 |begin, to start somewhere. Pick one playlist, everything I put out there is
304 |303 |00:32:23 ~-~-> 00:32:28 |going to have something that's going to attach itself to your career if you stay
305 |304 |00:32:28 ~-~-> 00:32:34 |in it long enough. But there isn't a perfect this is where everyone should
306 |305 |00:32:34 ~-~-> 00:32:41 |start. But we start in a position of sorrow. We don't have what we want. We
307 |306 |00:32:41 ~-~-> 00:32:46 |don't have enough. We want to live a better life. We want to provide better
308 |307 |00:32:46 ~-~-> 00:32:59 |for our family. Second person. Nursery rhyme is two for joy. We try to trade
309 |308 |00:33:00 ~-~-> 00:33:05 |and learn how to trade so that we can have a live, live a life of joy, afford
310 |309 |00:33:05 ~-~-> 00:33:11 |to find your things, go to places we've never would have other been able to ever
311 |310 |00:33:11 ~-~-> 00:33:20 |visit, be happy, because money, money, I can tell you right now, doesn't buy
312 |311 |00:33:20 ~-~-> 00:33:26 |anybody happiness. It does bring with a little bit of anxiety, because you're
313 |312 |00:33:26 ~-~-> 00:33:31 |always fearful of people out on the road driving in front of you, panic breaking
314 |313 |00:33:31 ~-~-> 00:33:38 |so you can rear end them. And I drive like an old man, unless I'm in my vets
315 |314 |00:33:38 ~-~-> 00:33:46 |by myself and kicks or great white or motley crew, if they're playing, then
316 |315 |00:33:46 ~-~-> 00:33:50 |I'm probably getting in a bad way and probably gonna get myself in trouble,
317 |316 |00:33:50 ~-~-> 00:34:00 |but otherwise, I drive like an old man. But I don't think that what you're going
318 |317 |00:34:00 ~-~-> 00:34:03 |to go into trading if you've just recently started, and if you're honest,
319 |318 |00:34:03 ~-~-> 00:34:08 |you think back to why you first got into trading. This is what I'm gonna do. This
320 |319 |00:34:08 ~-~-> 00:34:14 |is why I'm doing it. This is my whole structure behind what makes me a future
321 |320 |00:34:14 ~-~-> 00:34:18 |successful trader. I'm gonna live like this way, and my my ideals are gonna be
322 |321 |00:34:18 ~-~-> 00:34:23 |around this principle or these pillars and the ones that have finally arrived
323 |322 |00:34:23 ~-~-> 00:34:29 |at profitability, if they look back, they probably think to themselves, yeah,
324 |323 |00:34:30 ~-~-> 00:34:34 |this isn't what I thought it was. And my perspective on what was motivational in
325 |324 |00:34:34 ~-~-> 00:34:43 |beginning, I don't hold those same views now, because you're there. The third
326 |325 |00:34:43 ~-~-> 00:34:56 |verse in that nursery rhyme is three for girls I was treating with the pursuit of
327 |326 |00:34:57 ~-~-> 00:35:03 |being worth wanting to be with. It because I would have more money, because
328 |327 |00:35:03 ~-~-> 00:35:10 |I came from a impoverished upbringing, broken household, no father figure in my
329 |328 |00:35:10 ~-~-> 00:35:17 |life, consistently, a murderous father, literally, a murderous father who should
330 |329 |00:35:17 ~-~-> 00:35:23 |have never been recently let out of jail. Mother didn't want me, so I had
331 |330 |00:35:23 ~-~-> 00:35:31 |the perfect comeback story foundation Donna. I had it in it. I lived it. I was
332 |331 |00:35:31 ~-~-> 00:35:36 |sorrowful, broken, spirited. I was always daydreaming of future success, of
333 |332 |00:35:36 ~-~-> 00:35:42 |this and that. I lived vicariously through movie characters and a lot of
334 |333 |00:35:42 ~-~-> 00:35:47 |the things in my presentations, I tap into my boyhood, that child inside me
335 |334 |00:35:47 ~-~-> 00:35:58 |that no one should ever let grow up and my perspectives are rooted in things
336 |335 |00:35:58 ~-~-> 00:36:10 |that Were going to make me better than what I was. In deference to the other
337 |336 |00:36:10 ~-~-> 00:36:17 |part of my audience, the fourth verse is four for boys, so we're Counting Crows.
338 |337 |00:36:17 ~-~-> 00:36:24 |You want to hang out with the boys, you want to impress them, or ladies, you
339 |338 |00:36:24 ~-~-> 00:36:28 |want the men to appreciate you, because you can earn it on your own. I'm going
340 |339 |00:36:30 ~-~-> 00:36:35 |to tell you something ladies and a lot of my female students have learned this
341 |340 |00:36:35 ~-~-> 00:36:43 |the hard way. Successful women are intimidating to men because most men are
342 |341 |00:36:43 ~-~-> 00:36:50 |lazy. Most men won't put in the effort that you are doing right now, and the
343 |342 |00:36:50 ~-~-> 00:36:59 |ones that are making lots of money, you make men insecure. And I actually
344 |343 |00:36:59 ~-~-> 00:37:05 |counsel my female students to never tell the men that they're dating what they
345 |344 |00:37:05 ~-~-> 00:37:13 |earn. Sure you can act like one of the old ladies on Facebook, part of the
346 |345 |00:37:13 ~-~-> 00:37:17 |investment club. Yeah, we're, we're part of an investment club. You tell it to a
347 |346 |00:37:17 ~-~-> 00:37:21 |guy like that, they're like, oh, yeah, good luck with that. I don't want to
348 |347 |00:37:21 ~-~-> 00:37:25 |hear about it. It's not intimidating. It sounds like a bunch of old ladies
349 |348 |00:37:25 ~-~-> 00:37:28 |sitting around cutting coupons and trading them off. I won't use this. What
350 |349 |00:37:28 ~-~-> 00:37:34 |do you have that's not intimidating to men, but tell them that you're making
351 |350 |00:37:34 ~-~-> 00:37:41 |$100,000 a month and they're going to shrivel up and they're not going to want
352 |351 |00:37:41 ~-~-> 00:37:46 |to be around you, because they're going to feel insignificant. And it's sad,
353 |352 |00:37:46 ~-~-> 00:37:54 |man. Men are like that. We're wired that way. Honestly, if, if I was transported
354 |353 |00:37:54 ~-~-> 00:37:58 |back to being 20 year old, 20 years old, and I was dating someone that was making
355 |354 |00:37:58 ~-~-> 00:38:04 |crazy amounts of money like that, I would be highly insecure as a man. So
356 |355 |00:38:04 ~-~-> 00:38:09 |ladies, in my opinion, this is one thing that you don't have to be honest about,
357 |356 |00:38:09 ~-~-> 00:38:15 |and I don't think it's a problem if you never bring it up. You're not lying.
358 |357 |00:38:15 ~-~-> 00:38:20 |Your finances are not everybody's business, even the person you sleep with
359 |358 |00:38:24 ~-~-> 00:38:26 |now your spouse, that changes it.
360 |359 |00:38:32 ~-~-> 00:38:37 |But all of these factors, as we count through these crows, they're all
361 |360 |00:38:37 ~-~-> 00:38:46 |influential in the fifth verse in that Counting Crows, nursery rhyme is five
362 |361 |00:38:46 ~-~-> 00:38:54 |for silver. To me, I interpret that as well. If I don't get everything I want
363 |362 |00:38:54 ~-~-> 00:38:59 |out of life, this is what I hope I at least get, like second second place. If
364 |363 |00:38:59 ~-~-> 00:39:08 |I get this, then at least I can say it was worth it. That's Plan B. There's no
365 |364 |00:39:08 ~-~-> 00:39:13 |plan B if you go in thinking to yourself, well, this is the consolation
366 |365 |00:39:13 ~-~-> 00:39:17 |prize. This is the participation award for me, at least trying, you have
367 |366 |00:39:17 ~-~-> 00:39:20 |already limited your perspective and your your efforts are right now, defined
368 |367 |00:39:20 ~-~-> 00:39:27 |by this is all you're willing to accept. So are you really aiming for above and
369 |368 |00:39:27 ~-~-> 00:39:36 |beyond that? No, because you've already fortified an acceptance of, well, this
370 |369 |00:39:36 ~-~-> 00:39:42 |is, this is this will be good enough, sure I didn't make enough to quit my
371 |370 |00:39:42 ~-~-> 00:39:48 |job. Sure, sure, sure. You know I didn't make enough to make all my ends meet,
372 |371 |00:39:49 ~-~-> 00:39:58 |but this is enough for the rest of my career. You're limiting yourself. That's
373 |372 |00:39:58 ~-~-> 00:40:02 |what I was doing by hoping I could win back. Next life. Instead of saying,
374 |373 |00:40:03 ~-~-> 00:40:10 |imagine how much more pleasurable life would be if you let go of that pain and
375 |374 |00:40:10 ~-~-> 00:40:16 |move on and leave her to her decision. She's damaged goods. Now you can't fix
376 |375 |00:40:16 ~-~-> 00:40:23 |her. You tried everything. You can't fix her. And I don't want to spend a life
377 |376 |00:40:23 ~-~-> 00:40:30 |trying to mend somebody else and never really live my own life. Some of you
378 |377 |00:40:31 ~-~-> 00:40:38 |just heard that in itself, preaches you're trying to hold somebody together,
379 |378 |00:40:38 ~-~-> 00:40:43 |and you're not even live in your own life. You're trying to hold a broken
380 |379 |00:40:43 ~-~-> 00:40:47 |relationship together, and it's not meant to stay together. You're being
381 |380 |00:40:47 ~-~-> 00:40:52 |shown the exit ramp, but you're saying, No, I'm a failure. If I leave it,
382 |381 |00:40:53 ~-~-> 00:40:57 |they'll be right in all the things they said about me if I leave this toxic
383 |382 |00:40:57 ~-~-> 00:41:03 |relationship, both sides. Folks, young men, young women, maybe even older
384 |383 |00:41:03 ~-~-> 00:41:15 |folks, the six verses six for gold, that's what you're aiming for. First
385 |384 |00:41:15 ~-~-> 00:41:21 |place, silver. Second. Nobody wants second. You always have the same view
386 |385 |00:41:22 ~-~-> 00:41:28 |when you're second place, you get to see the backside of the guy in front. When I
387 |386 |00:41:28 ~-~-> 00:41:31 |started trading, I didn't want to see the backside of anybody else. I
388 |387 |00:41:31 ~-~-> 00:41:35 |immediately set my sights on who's the biggest one right now. That was Mr.
389 |388 |00:41:35 ~-~-> 00:41:43 |Williams, and I signed it in my heart that I'm going to be the one that takes
390 |389 |00:41:43 ~-~-> 00:41:56 |that away, and you will see it. I wanted to have a home, Freedom money,
391 |390 |00:41:56 ~-~-> 00:42:02 |disposable money, silly money. And I wanted to never worry about price tags.
392 |391 |00:42:02 ~-~-> 00:42:09 |I wanted to go wherever I wanted to go, to drop a hat just like that. That was
393 |392 |00:42:09 ~-~-> 00:42:17 |my goal. And I didn't want just one home, and I didn't want just one car,
394 |393 |00:42:20 ~-~-> 00:42:30 |because I grew up impoverished, you can tell honestly. You can tell when people
395 |394 |00:42:30 ~-~-> 00:42:42 |get money, how do they behave? What do they start buying? They fill in those
396 |395 |00:42:42 ~-~-> 00:42:45 |gaps and those holes in their heart, where they were hurt, where they were
397 |396 |00:42:45 ~-~-> 00:42:50 |embarrassed. For me, I didn't have a car when all my friends growing up, they all
398 |397 |00:42:50 ~-~-> 00:42:57 |had cars. I was the last guy. I was basically the scrub that TLC talks about
399 |398 |00:42:57 ~-~-> 00:43:02 |in their song. I don't want no scrub hanging out the passenger side of their
400 |399 |00:43:02 ~-~-> 00:43:07 |best friends, right? Trying to holler at me. That's that was me. And some of you
401 |400 |00:43:07 ~-~-> 00:43:13 |think I'm the fly guy. Man ICT must have been this. I was the last one in my
402 |401 |00:43:13 ~-~-> 00:43:19 |Murder of Crows to get a car. That's who you're listening to, the guy that can
403 |402 |00:43:20 ~-~-> 00:43:23 |tell you every single candlestick where it's going to go next. To go next and
404 |403 |00:43:23 ~-~-> 00:43:28 |where to find the next million but back then, you would have never recognized
405 |404 |00:43:28 ~-~-> 00:43:35 |me. You never would have recognized me. But underneath the skin, I had a bird
406 |405 |00:43:35 ~-~-> 00:43:45 |nesting, and it was ready to spread its wings. And my goal was to get to the
407 |406 |00:43:45 ~-~-> 00:43:53 |gold standard of living. And by the grace of God, I have achieved that. You
408 |407 |00:43:53 ~-~-> 00:43:59 |need to be setting your sights on something that what is your gold level
409 |408 |00:43:59 ~-~-> 00:44:06 |achievement? What's the highest degree of what are you trying to obtain in this
410 |409 |00:44:06 ~-~-> 00:44:13 |career as trading? And it needs to be lofty. It needs to be high up. These are
411 |410 |00:44:13 ~-~-> 00:44:18 |goals. They're not well, you know, I just want to get this low, easy, hanging
412 |411 |00:44:18 ~-~-> 00:44:22 |fruit objective of life. That's how you're trading to get consistently
413 |412 |00:44:22 ~-~-> 00:44:28 |profitable. But in life, you gotta be aiming high all the time. Don't plateau.
414 |413 |00:44:28 ~-~-> 00:44:33 |Don't be happy with what you've just succeeded that just recently, and say to
415 |414 |00:44:33 ~-~-> 00:44:37 |yourself, well, you know, achieve that, because if you stop growing and stop
416 |415 |00:44:37 ~-~-> 00:44:44 |reaching, you're going to wither. You won't remain flexible. You won't remain
417 |416 |00:44:44 ~-~-> 00:44:54 |strong. And if you feel like you've done everything in life, wow, wow. What a
418 |417 |00:44:55 ~-~-> 00:45:00 |what a terrible existence that would feel like, where's the purpose? And like
419 |418 |00:45:00 ~-~-> 00:45:00 |then
420 |419 |00:45:06 ~-~-> 00:45:16 |I had opinion of me being way up here in a fluence, and I couldn't reach it. I
421 |420 |00:45:18 ~-~-> 00:45:27 |couldn't reach it until I change my perspective, God, if you allow me, then
422 |421 |00:45:27 ~-~-> 00:45:29 |I will do this.
423 |422 |00:45:31 ~-~-> 00:45:37 |I will share, I will teach, I'll provide, I will give you.
424 |423 |00:45:39 ~-~-> 00:45:45 |Want to pray that it's answered. Easy, easily take yourself out of what you're
425 |424 |00:45:45 ~-~-> 00:45:49 |asking for and make somebody else the recipient of what you're praying for.
426 |425 |00:45:50 ~-~-> 00:45:52 |God answers those prayers,
427 |426 |00:45:55 ~-~-> 00:46:01 |not God. Please, please, please, please, please, please, God, let me make
428 |427 |00:46:01 ~-~-> 00:46:06 |$100,000 payout. Please, God. I hope God uses ICT to teach me how to be a six
429 |428 |00:46:06 ~-~-> 00:46:07 |figure trader.
430 |429 |00:46:08 ~-~-> 00:46:12 |I honestly believe. I mean this whole heart I don't believe God's in the
431 |430 |00:46:12 ~-~-> 00:46:18 |business of answering ICT, least prayers like that. Okay, I'm certain that he's
432 |431 |00:46:18 ~-~-> 00:46:25 |not thrilled to hear my name come up that many times. Number one, two, you're
433 |432 |00:46:25 ~-~-> 00:46:32 |making about you. You're being a toxic member of your Murder of Crows, and you
434 |433 |00:46:32 ~-~-> 00:46:41 |don't even realize it. You're being selfish, self centered. Which brings us
435 |434 |00:46:41 ~-~-> 00:46:52 |to crow number seven. Seven for a secret never to be told. For me, for the
436 |435 |00:46:52 ~-~-> 00:47:00 |longest time, I hid the difficulty that I had to endure learning all this stuff.
437 |436 |00:47:00 ~-~-> 00:47:04 |When my friends would say, man, look at this guy. He does this, man, this guy
438 |437 |00:47:04 ~-~-> 00:47:10 |just made $30,000 last week trading soybeans, and they're like, What is the
439 |438 |00:47:10 ~-~-> 00:47:16 |soybean? I was like, Yeah, that's right. That's why I did that. I did that. Yo,
440 |439 |00:47:17 ~-~-> 00:47:20 |like, you see what I'm doing in lean hogs. Lean hogs. Yeah, man, you Amen.
441 |440 |00:47:26 ~-~-> 00:47:32 |I never admitted to my friends, they never heard me, ever one time talk about
442 |441 |00:47:32 ~-~-> 00:47:38 |the anxiety attacks, they never heard me talk about those sleepless nights of me
443 |442 |00:47:38 ~-~-> 00:47:44 |literally crying tears, why I was so frustrated where I couldn't get to a
444 |443 |00:47:44 ~-~-> 00:47:53 |plateau beyond where I was stuck at. I never admitted those things, because I
445 |444 |00:47:53 ~-~-> 00:47:59 |felt back then as a 20 year old, if I did, I would give them the blade while I
446 |445 |00:47:59 ~-~-> 00:48:04 |laid my head on it, and some of them would have done it just because misery
447 |446 |00:48:04 ~-~-> 00:48:07 |loves company. They would love nothing more to have been able to say, You know
448 |447 |00:48:07 ~-~-> 00:48:12 |what? I'm jealous of you, Michael, I'm jealous of whoever you are. Put your
449 |448 |00:48:12 ~-~-> 00:48:18 |name in it. That's what most of your family members and friends really think
450 |449 |00:48:18 ~-~-> 00:48:24 |of you. Look how toxic ugly people are on social media. These people would
451 |450 |00:48:24 ~-~-> 00:48:29 |never say half the thing, 1/10 of the things they say to other people online,
452 |451 |00:48:29 ~-~-> 00:48:34 |if they were standing right in front of them, I know absolutely 100% of
453 |452 |00:48:34 ~-~-> 00:48:37 |everybody's ever said anything about me would never do that if I don't stand in
454 |453 |00:48:37 ~-~-> 00:48:41 |front of them. I'm a God fearing man, but I would choke slam them right there,
455 |454 |00:48:41 ~-~-> 00:48:45 |just like that, put my boot right on their neck, and they ask them, Do you
456 |455 |00:48:45 ~-~-> 00:48:49 |really want me to let you up? Because that's how it really would go down.
457 |456 |00:48:54 ~-~-> 00:48:59 |But you have a secret, and if you don't have one now, you're going to get one
458 |457 |00:48:59 ~-~-> 00:49:08 |coming up as a trader, it's the things that you failed at most doing it a
459 |458 |00:49:08 ~-~-> 00:49:14 |secret that'll never be told. And guess what happens when you let that out?
460 |459 |00:49:17 ~-~-> 00:49:21 |Guess what happens when you stop guarding that and hiding it inside
461 |460 |00:49:21 ~-~-> 00:49:29 |yourself and just say, This is what I used to wrestle with. This is what used
462 |461 |00:49:29 ~-~-> 00:49:35 |to hold me back, and I have empowered it for so long by keeping it inside of my
463 |462 |00:49:35 ~-~-> 00:49:42 |heart, causing me regret never being content with any measure of success and
464 |463 |00:49:42 ~-~-> 00:49:50 |and growth. You gotta let that out. And where do you let it out? At you start by
465 |464 |00:49:50 ~-~-> 00:49:57 |putting it in your journal. Your journal is your future self. You're having a
466 |465 |00:49:57 ~-~-> 00:50:03 |conversation with your future self. You. And you got to put that down in written
467 |466 |00:50:03 ~-~-> 00:50:07 |word. Whether you type it electronically or you do the high touch over high tech,
468 |467 |00:50:07 ~-~-> 00:50:15 |like I do. I use a pen, but you have to record that, because it's therapy. It
469 |468 |00:50:16 ~-~-> 00:50:21 |will allow you to release it, maybe all together, not right away, but gradually
470 |469 |00:50:21 ~-~-> 00:50:26 |you'll let it go, but you're going to be so thankful that you recognize that
471 |470 |00:50:26 ~-~-> 00:50:29 |years later, and you read that journal, and you think to yourself, you know
472 |471 |00:50:29 ~-~-> 00:50:32 |what? I don't think that way anymore. I don't feel that way anymore. I don't
473 |472 |00:50:32 ~-~-> 00:50:36 |feel defeated. I don't feel guarded all the time like someone could see the
474 |473 |00:50:36 ~-~-> 00:50:42 |right words to me and cause me to crack and crumble right there, because you've
475 |474 |00:50:42 ~-~-> 00:50:47 |arrived and you stop guarding something that's toxic. You're standing guard over
476 |475 |00:50:47 ~-~-> 00:50:51 |something that's hurtful to you, that you're holding on to, some limiting
477 |476 |00:50:51 ~-~-> 00:50:57 |factor that you've embraced, that you don't want anybody to know about. You
478 |477 |00:50:57 ~-~-> 00:51:04 |hide that, and that's why people that have that, when they get money, they buy
479 |478 |00:51:04 ~-~-> 00:51:15 |stuff, they're filling those voids. I grew up with a lot of a lot of men that
480 |479 |00:51:15 ~-~-> 00:51:20 |came from the same type of background. And are, are you? Our basic neighborhood
481 |480 |00:51:20 ~-~-> 00:51:26 |was divided. We had the white trash where I was from, and then we had Maple
482 |481 |00:51:26 ~-~-> 00:51:32 |Crest, which was predominantly African American. And I had friends in both I
483 |482 |00:51:32 ~-~-> 00:51:35 |had friends from my childhood that was mad at me because I had black friends
484 |483 |00:51:35 ~-~-> 00:51:39 |and I had black friends who had friends that said they shouldn't be hanging with
485 |484 |00:51:39 ~-~-> 00:51:45 |me. So I came from a neighborhood where they hang the Confederate flag, and
486 |485 |00:51:46 ~-~-> 00:51:52 |that's the way it was, and that's not what I was, and I watched some of them.
487 |486 |00:51:54 ~-~-> 00:52:05 |My real first friendship with a black friend was Alexander. This man today is
488 |487 |00:52:07 ~-~-> 00:52:14 |a wonderful, upstanding person that literally hit every measure that I
489 |488 |00:52:14 ~-~-> 00:52:20 |thought he would hit, and well beyond. But if you heard him speak, close your
490 |489 |00:52:20 ~-~-> 00:52:27 |eyes and heard him speak, you would never see color. You would never see
491 |490 |00:52:27 ~-~-> 00:52:35 |race. You would hear this young man is such a positive spirit, so encouraging.
492 |491 |00:52:36 ~-~-> 00:52:40 |Everybody wanted to be on his team. Everybody wanted to hang out with him.
493 |492 |00:52:42 ~-~-> 00:52:48 |And you know what? He didn't have much. He didn't come in with Jordans. He
494 |493 |00:52:51 ~-~-> 00:52:59 |didn't come in with all the drip. He is how he carried himself. I wanted to be
495 |494 |00:52:59 ~-~-> 00:53:06 |like Alexander. I wanted to be like Him. And when break dancing was coming up,
496 |495 |00:53:06 ~-~-> 00:53:10 |and that came up when I was a kid, you know, he's the one taught me how to put
497 |496 |00:53:10 ~-~-> 00:53:14 |the duct tape on my knees and and spin on my hand and do all kinds of break
498 |497 |00:53:14 ~-~-> 00:53:19 |dancing stuff that, wait man, would probably kill me if I tried to. We did
499 |498 |00:53:19 ~-~-> 00:53:24 |all that stuff together and break dancing brought everybody together.
500 |499 |00:53:25 ~-~-> 00:53:29 |There was no division of white, black, Asian, this and Asian that. It's just
501 |500 |00:53:29 ~-~-> 00:53:32 |everybody came together, just like music brings everybody together.
502 |501 |00:53:38 ~-~-> 00:53:47 |But I've watched him start a small little business on the side. On the
503 |502 |00:53:47 ~-~-> 00:53:53 |weekend, he didn't play sports and go into a travel team like that. He ran his
504 |503 |00:53:53 ~-~-> 00:53:55 |own lawn care business.
505 |504 |00:53:57 ~-~-> 00:54:04 |You know what he did with the money? He bought every pair of shoes that he
506 |505 |00:54:04 ~-~-> 00:54:11 |loved. This guy had a room full of shoes, just shoes,
507 |506 |00:54:12 ~-~-> 00:54:18 |and I asked him. I said, Well, what do you mean all these shoes for? He goes,
508 |507 |00:54:20 ~-~-> 00:54:24 |Well, you seen what I wore when we were going to school. Sometimes they were
509 |508 |00:54:24 ~-~-> 00:54:28 |beat up. They were dogged out. I said, Yeah, I've never paid that much
510 |509 |00:54:28 ~-~-> 00:54:32 |attention to it, because I was wearing beaters too. Because, yeah, but I didn't
511 |510 |00:54:32 ~-~-> 00:54:38 |want that. I looked at everybody else in school that had the nicer shoes, high
512 |511 |00:54:38 ~-~-> 00:54:49 |top, Nikes. I wanted that. I wanted that. And he cried. She said, now I can
513 |512 |00:54:49 ~-~-> 00:54:54 |afford it so I have more than I ever could dream. What is what was he doing?
514 |513 |00:54:55 ~-~-> 00:55:01 |He's doing patchwork and feeling holes in his heart. I. And that's exactly what
515 |514 |00:55:01 ~-~-> 00:55:06 |people do today. You want to see someone's real side. You want to really
516 |515 |00:55:06 ~-~-> 00:55:11 |know who they are and how how long they've been hurting. Watch how they
517 |516 |00:55:11 ~-~-> 00:55:18 |spend their money, cars, clothing, whatever, the things that they hurt from
518 |517 |00:55:18 ~-~-> 00:55:22 |like for me, that's why I own more than one car, because I didn't have one. I
519 |518 |00:55:22 ~-~-> 00:55:28 |was the last one among my friends. All these things are characteristics of
520 |519 |00:55:28 ~-~-> 00:55:35 |someone that has finally found a way to put patches over what they've been
521 |520 |00:55:35 ~-~-> 00:55:40 |dealing with, that secret that's never to be told, those hurtful things if you
522 |521 |00:55:40 ~-~-> 00:55:46 |knew me, if you really knew me, this is what you would think about me if I
523 |522 |00:55:46 ~-~-> 00:55:50 |shared that and you think it's a weakness, it's human nature. Everybody,
524 |523 |00:55:51 ~-~-> 00:55:55 |everyone has frailties, everyone has shortcomings. Everyone has a time when
525 |524 |00:55:55 ~-~-> 00:56:04 |they didn't do something or have access to something. I grew up in impoverished
526 |525 |00:56:04 ~-~-> 00:56:13 |conditions, and I wanted to have nice things, but I learned as a 20 year old
527 |526 |00:56:13 ~-~-> 00:56:18 |by having nice things and flaunting it. Everybody thinks you are Rick with a P
528 |527 |00:56:18 ~-~-> 00:56:27 |in front of it. And I was, I was because I was guarding that secret never to be
529 |528 |00:56:27 ~-~-> 00:56:33 |told. I didn't want them to understand how frail I was, even when I was
530 |529 |00:56:33 ~-~-> 00:56:37 |starting to make money, if my friends would have turned to me said, Listen,
531 |530 |00:56:38 ~-~-> 00:56:45 |you take this money away and you're nothing, that would have destroyed me. I
532 |531 |00:56:45 ~-~-> 00:56:50 |would have had no defense against that, because I was using my new found money
533 |532 |00:56:50 ~-~-> 00:56:58 |making as a definition of I'm better than you. When I was so far beneath
534 |533 |00:56:58 ~-~-> 00:57:07 |them, they were stronger for being able to tolerate How arrogant I was. And some
535 |534 |00:57:07 ~-~-> 00:57:14 |of you young men can't wait to be in that driver's seat, in that position in
536 |535 |00:57:14 ~-~-> 00:57:17 |life, and you don't even realize what you're carrying right now is going to be
537 |536 |00:57:18 ~-~-> 00:57:23 |detrimental to how you behave, how you're going to be perceived, and I'm
538 |537 |00:57:23 ~-~-> 00:57:28 |thankful. I'm thankful I got humbled, and early on, I'm thankful even probably
539 |538 |00:57:28 ~-~-> 00:57:33 |sounds crazy coming out of my mouth, right? But that's just me stirring the
540 |539 |00:57:33 ~-~-> 00:57:38 |pot just to get people talking. But when I talk to you in the spaces like this,
541 |540 |00:57:38 ~-~-> 00:57:47 |even last week too, they're truth. There's that's the real me. But again, I
542 |541 |00:57:47 ~-~-> 00:57:51 |wouldn't be so comfortable to talk like this if in front, if we were in front of
543 |542 |00:57:55 ~-~-> 00:58:01 |one another, because I still carry those things, those memories, those driving
544 |543 |00:58:01 ~-~-> 00:58:13 |decision making, thoughts, intrusive thoughts, all of that has a lasting
545 |544 |00:58:13 ~-~-> 00:58:20 |impression on people. They cut deep, and those wounds don't entirely heal. And
546 |545 |00:58:20 ~-~-> 00:58:27 |the way I keep myself humble is I share them. I share those things with you.
547 |546 |00:58:29 ~-~-> 00:58:36 |Because, number one, you need to remember that I am human. I have
548 |547 |00:58:36 ~-~-> 00:58:41 |frailties just like you. I put my pants on the same way you do. And it hasn't
549 |548 |00:58:41 ~-~-> 00:58:45 |always been easy. When I do things and I teach something, I show something, I
550 |549 |00:58:45 ~-~-> 00:58:51 |execute in front of you, that seems easy now, but it was not easy all the time.
551 |550 |00:58:53 ~-~-> 00:58:56 |And there was many a nights where I believed that I was never going to be
552 |551 |00:58:56 ~-~-> 00:59:00 |able to do what I could. Have never been told that I could do what I can do today
553 |552 |00:59:00 ~-~-> 00:59:06 |back then, even at the height of my anxiety, conquering power of I'm able to
554 |553 |00:59:06 ~-~-> 00:59:09 |do everything now, where nothing could go wrong. Now, I felt like I knew
555 |554 |00:59:09 ~-~-> 00:59:15 |everything back then, what I have right now, I didn't even dream was possible
556 |555 |00:59:15 ~-~-> 00:59:26 |back then. And I'm thankful like I'm thankful God humbled me in my 20s. He
557 |556 |00:59:26 ~-~-> 00:59:30 |did it the right way, when, back then, I was praying that he would change the way
558 |557 |00:59:30 ~-~-> 00:59:34 |he was doing it. And please, just let me be successful. Please, just let me do it
559 |558 |00:59:34 ~-~-> 00:59:37 |right, right from the first time. I don't want to, I don't want to make any
560 |559 |00:59:37 ~-~-> 00:59:43 |mistakes, because my family says this about me. They don't believe I'm going
561 |560 |00:59:43 ~-~-> 00:59:49 |to do it, and I believe what they're saying is true, and I need you to change
562 |561 |00:59:49 ~-~-> 00:59:55 |my perspective. Well, you got to be careful how you ask God to be a part of
563 |562 |00:59:55 ~-~-> 01:00:01 |your life. I have found when you ask. God for courage. He gets you in
564 |563 |01:00:01 ~-~-> 01:00:06 |positions where you're going to be scared a lot, because how do you develop
565 |564 |01:00:06 ~-~-> 01:00:15 |courage? By going through something and be desensitized to it, asking, God,
566 |565 |01:00:15 ~-~-> 01:00:20 |Lord, please give me patience. Oh, don't ask for that one. Don't ask for that
567 |566 |01:00:20 ~-~-> 01:00:24 |one, because he's going to let you have it. He's going to give you so many
568 |567 |01:00:24 ~-~-> 01:00:29 |things pounding on you, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. You want to learn
569 |568 |01:00:29 ~-~-> 01:00:35 |patience. Okay? I'm going to put you through it because there's no better way
570 |569 |01:00:35 ~-~-> 01:00:37 |of learning something, but by going through it, you
571 |570 |01:00:43 ~-~-> 01:00:53 |I ask God to give you the vision to see good. Ask God to give you the power, the
572 |571 |01:00:53 ~-~-> 01:01:02 |skill, the characteristic as a human being, to see good. And I'm confident
573 |572 |01:01:02 ~-~-> 01:01:06 |what he's going to do is show you everything in yourself that's wrong,
574 |573 |01:01:06 ~-~-> 01:01:15 |because that's what he did with me. That's exactly what he did with me. And
575 |574 |01:01:15 ~-~-> 01:01:26 |I was embarrassed, ashamed, how I acted, how I spoke, what I thought, how I
576 |575 |01:01:26 ~-~-> 01:01:33 |conducted myself. And if you're not careful, young men, if you get the
577 |576 |01:01:33 ~-~-> 01:01:38 |success that you're looking for and a meteoric rise, and you have affluence,
578 |577 |01:01:38 ~-~-> 01:01:41 |and in this industry, you get notoriety pretty quick, by what you earn. If
579 |578 |01:01:44 ~-~-> 01:01:51 |you're not careful, everybody around you will change you, and you'll become
580 |579 |01:01:51 ~-~-> 01:01:54 |something that you never imagined. And that doesn't mean it's good you
581 |580 |01:02:03 ~-~-> 01:02:12 |in my mid 20s, not too long after separating from the young lady, I was
582 |581 |01:02:12 ~-~-> 01:02:21 |given attention to this week and last week, I stopped thinking about being
583 |582 |01:02:21 ~-~-> 01:02:31 |part of a Murder of Crows, and I wanted to be a murder of one. That means I
584 |583 |01:02:31 ~-~-> 01:02:38 |wasn't trying to be a bird of a feather who flocks together. I wanted to be an
585 |584 |01:02:38 ~-~-> 01:02:49 |eagle. I wanted to be an eagle. They fly higher than a crow. They fight. They fly
586 |585 |01:02:49 ~-~-> 01:03:03 |faster than crow. And while crows are very, very adept to being intelligent.
587 |586 |01:03:03 ~-~-> 01:03:07 |If you ever study the crows intelligence and problem solving skills, it's a
588 |587 |01:03:07 ~-~-> 01:03:10 |fascinating thing. I love crows. I've always been fascinated with crows.
589 |588 |01:03:11 ~-~-> 01:03:17 |Growing up in Maryland, everybody grows corn around here, and you see them all
590 |589 |01:03:17 ~-~-> 01:03:22 |the time. They come outside your door, waking you up, crawling all the time,
591 |590 |01:03:23 ~-~-> 01:03:35 |but I loved it. I love them, but I changed my perspective to like an eagle.
592 |591 |01:03:35 ~-~-> 01:03:44 |And here's some funny facts about eagles. Did you know that an eagle can
593 |592 |01:03:44 ~-~-> 01:03:50 |see a quarter, a 25 cent piece in American currency. If you flip it up in
594 |593 |01:03:50 ~-~-> 01:03:56 |the air at one end of a football field and let it fall down, have an eagle at
595 |594 |01:03:56 ~-~-> 01:04:03 |the other end of the football field, it can see that quarter, it has telescopic
596 |595 |01:04:03 ~-~-> 01:04:11 |vision. Did you know that that's amazing, isn't it? But they say there's
597 |596 |01:04:11 ~-~-> 01:04:20 |no creator. Did you know that an eagle, when it finds a mate, the female Eagle?
598 |597 |01:04:21 ~-~-> 01:04:28 |Well, I will get a twig, like a small branch. It'll fly up really, really,
599 |598 |01:04:28 ~-~-> 01:04:32 |really high. It'll circle around, wait for the male eagle to go up to where it
600 |599 |01:04:32 ~-~-> 01:04:36 |is, and it'll basically wait for the male eagle to grab the twig that's in
601 |600 |01:04:36 ~-~-> 01:04:45 |the claws of the female, and then it stops flapping its wings and starts free
602 |601 |01:04:45 ~-~-> 01:04:55 |falling, and it judges the male eagle on his ability to hold on to that twig
603 |602 |01:04:56 ~-~-> 01:05:02 |until it gets so close to the ground before it lets go. No, the male eagles
604 |603 |01:05:02 ~-~-> 01:05:07 |that let go too, too quickly for the female, well, that's her proof that he's
605 |604 |01:05:07 ~-~-> 01:05:11 |not. He's not the one for me. I'm not going to make babies. And eaglets with
606 |605 |01:05:11 ~-~-> 01:05:18 |this one, they're not committed enough. Now, why would an eight Why would an
607 |606 |01:05:18 ~-~-> 01:05:27 |eagle do this ritual? Because in the nest, once the female Eagle gives birth,
608 |607 |01:05:28 ~-~-> 01:05:34 |if that small eaglet falls out of the nest, that female eagle has expectations
609 |608 |01:05:34 ~-~-> 01:05:37 |on the male, you better go down there and fly and catch it before it hits the
610 |609 |01:05:37 ~-~-> 01:05:45 |ground, and if it's going to give up before it should, that's not the right
611 |610 |01:05:45 ~-~-> 01:05:55 |father. So she has high expectations. That's exactly what I saw in Shannon.
612 |611 |01:05:56 ~-~-> 01:06:00 |She had high expectations, and I wanted to live up to that. See she changed me.
613 |612 |01:06:00 ~-~-> 01:06:11 |She was a dividing factor in my life and who I was becoming. But sadly, eagles,
614 |613 |01:06:12 ~-~-> 01:06:17 |when they get to a certain age, or if they lose their mate, because they only
615 |614 |01:06:17 ~-~-> 01:06:20 |have one mate for their entire life, once they mate with one eagle, they
616 |615 |01:06:20 ~-~-> 01:06:24 |never do it again with another they don't rock around find, oh, yeah. All
617 |616 |01:06:24 ~-~-> 01:06:28 |got to do is find someone with a twig, hang out with them a little while, show
618 |617 |01:06:28 ~-~-> 01:06:34 |them, you know, a carnival ride. Now get get me another one. That's not what they
619 |618 |01:06:34 ~-~-> 01:06:41 |do. They only have one mate for one lifetime. That's it. That's principally
620 |619 |01:06:41 ~-~-> 01:06:45 |oriented living in it. Oh, Michael, you're talking about a bird. What's this
621 |620 |01:06:45 ~-~-> 01:06:48 |got to do with anything? It's everything to do with how we should look at things.
622 |621 |01:06:52 ~-~-> 01:07:03 |But when they lose their meat, they stop flying. When they stop flying, they
623 |622 |01:07:03 ~-~-> 01:07:10 |start walking on their claws, which they're not designed to do, they stop
624 |623 |01:07:10 ~-~-> 01:07:17 |using their beak, and their feathers don't hold up because they're not
625 |624 |01:07:17 ~-~-> 01:07:25 |flying, and they go through a period called molting, and they start getting
626 |625 |01:07:25 ~-~-> 01:07:30 |this calcium build up on their beak, and their claws and their feet start
627 |626 |01:07:30 ~-~-> 01:07:38 |deforming, and their feathers start to fall out. And most times, when an eagle
628 |627 |01:07:38 ~-~-> 01:07:44 |gets in that situation, they're either easily taken by a predator, or they just
629 |628 |01:07:44 ~-~-> 01:07:51 |die because they can't hunt anymore. And at that point, the ego has to make a
630 |629 |01:07:51 ~-~-> 01:07:58 |choice, except it's demise, or it has to do something that's very, very painful.
631 |630 |01:08:00 ~-~-> 01:08:06 |It needs to beat its beak against the hard surface, like a rock, to beat the
632 |631 |01:08:06 ~-~-> 01:08:17 |calcium off of it. It needs to start trying to fly again. And sometimes, an
633 |632 |01:08:17 ~-~-> 01:08:24 |eagle like that, other eagles that are still flying above, they notice it, and
634 |633 |01:08:24 ~-~-> 01:08:28 |they go down, and they encourage them. It's beautiful. There's documentaries
635 |634 |01:08:28 ~-~-> 01:08:34 |out there that show. It's a wonderful testimony of encouragement. And they fly
636 |635 |01:08:34 ~-~-> 01:08:38 |the top of them. They drop fish to them so they can eat till they get their
637 |636 |01:08:38 ~-~-> 01:08:46 |strength built up. They're not like hyenas who would cannibalize and just
638 |637 |01:08:46 ~-~-> 01:08:51 |say, Well, you know, you're weak. We're going to take you out. Eagle thinks
639 |638 |01:08:51 ~-~-> 01:09:02 |differently. I'm not surprised why the Lord didn't use well that he used Eagle,
640 |639 |01:09:03 ~-~-> 01:09:10 |we shall mount up like eagles. Why did he say crow or ostrich or buzzard?
641 |640 |01:09:13 ~-~-> 01:09:26 |Because eagles are majestic. Eagles the insignia of the Gospel of John. So I
642 |641 |01:09:26 ~-~-> 01:09:29 |stopped trying to live like a crow who was crafty and smart and a good problem
643 |642 |01:09:29 ~-~-> 01:09:43 |solver. I left a Murder of Crows became a murder of one, just one. And then I
644 |643 |01:09:43 ~-~-> 01:09:52 |changed my feather. I look at life differently today. I appreciate the
645 |644 |01:09:52 ~-~-> 01:09:56 |adversities I had, the things that you're praying to get through right now.
646 |645 |01:09:56 ~-~-> 01:10:01 |Get to it quickly. You're going. Thankful for going through it later on.
647 |646 |01:10:02 ~-~-> 01:10:07 |It doesn't feel like that right now. It does not feel like what you're going
648 |647 |01:10:07 ~-~-> 01:10:16 |through is worth the trouble. But ask anybody that's finally arrived that's
649 |648 |01:10:16 ~-~-> 01:10:20 |doing what they thought that they could do and wanted to do, and they can make
650 |649 |01:10:20 ~-~-> 01:10:28 |their ends meet and more. It's funny how they look back like a mother during
651 |650 |01:10:29 ~-~-> 01:10:33 |childbirth. They're crying. This is uncomfortable. Can't wait to get this
652 |651 |01:10:33 ~-~-> 01:10:39 |baby out of me. I watched it happen. I'm thankful God, I'm thankful God didn't
653 |652 |01:10:39 ~-~-> 01:10:49 |make me a woman, I don't know that's a lot, but as soon as that baby comes out
654 |653 |01:10:49 ~-~-> 01:10:57 |and goes in their arms, they forget the pain. I've asked the mother of my
655 |654 |01:10:57 ~-~-> 01:11:01 |children like, aren't you afraid that we're getting ready to go through that
656 |655 |01:11:01 ~-~-> 01:11:05 |process together of making a baby, and you got to go through all that pain. She
657 |656 |01:11:05 ~-~-> 01:11:08 |said, Yeah, I'm not looking forward to it, but then you have, I never hear a
658 |657 |01:11:08 ~-~-> 01:11:13 |complaint about it after the baby was born. They don't, they don't, they don't
659 |658 |01:11:13 ~-~-> 01:11:19 |think about it, because the joy of the baby in their arms overshadows all that.
660 |659 |01:11:19 ~-~-> 01:11:25 |That's exactly what it's going to be like when you arrive. That's exactly
661 |660 |01:11:25 ~-~-> 01:11:29 |what it's going to feel like when you look back and you know what, I'm
662 |661 |01:11:29 ~-~-> 01:11:33 |successful. It doesn't matter who didn't believe me before. It doesn't matter the
663 |662 |01:11:33 ~-~-> 01:11:36 |pain that I put myself through. It doesn't matter all the adversities and
664 |663 |01:11:36 ~-~-> 01:11:39 |the time limits that I placed myself that had to keep being pushed out
665 |664 |01:11:39 ~-~-> 01:11:43 |further and further. It doesn't matter all that stuff that was just growing
666 |665 |01:11:43 ~-~-> 01:11:49 |pains. And I can look back, and you're going to be able to look back too and
667 |666 |01:11:49 ~-~-> 01:11:54 |say, You know what? I made it bigger than it really was, because it's just
668 |667 |01:11:54 ~-~-> 01:11:58 |impatience. You want it to stop. You want the easy living. You want the easy
669 |668 |01:11:58 ~-~-> 01:12:02 |success. And if it's easy, success, it ain't worth doing.
670 |669 |01:12:04 ~-~-> 01:12:14 |It ain't worth doing. If it's easy, would you be would you be satisfied?
671 |670 |01:12:15 ~-~-> 01:12:23 |Would you feel successful? If all I ever promised that you would earn is 100 to
672 |671 |01:12:23 ~-~-> 01:12:28 |200 hours a week. That's the best you could arrive at. And you got to that
673 |672 |01:12:28 ~-~-> 01:12:33 |stage where, okay, yeah, he said I could do this, and now I'm doing it. Are you
674 |673 |01:12:33 ~-~-> 01:12:42 |gonna be satisfied with that? No, no, it's equivalent to me writing a book
675 |674 |01:12:42 ~-~-> 01:12:49 |titled How to avoid losing trades and losing market conditions. Would you buy
676 |675 |01:12:49 ~-~-> 01:12:54 |a book like that if it was sitting next to a book that said all of my best
677 |676 |01:12:54 ~-~-> 01:13:03 |models? I know what book you're going to buy, but you can't judge a book by its
678 |677 |01:13:03 ~-~-> 01:13:14 |cover. All the things that you're going through right now, all of it, it may not
679 |678 |01:13:14 ~-~-> 01:13:18 |be what you hoped for. It may not be how you imagined it was going to be. Maybe
680 |679 |01:13:18 ~-~-> 01:13:20 |you thought it's gonna be easier for you. Maybe you did really, really good
681 |680 |01:13:20 ~-~-> 01:13:24 |in school or in sports. And you thought it's going to translate easily for me. I
682 |681 |01:13:24 ~-~-> 01:13:29 |dominated in high school sports and college sports. I was the MVP, I was
683 |682 |01:13:29 ~-~-> 01:13:37 |the, you know, whatever. And then you discovered it's not what you thought. My
684 |683 |01:13:37 ~-~-> 01:13:41 |uncle was, just like that. Very, very academically smart, book smart,
685 |684 |01:13:41 ~-~-> 01:13:47 |absolutely. Book smart, failed on every occasion trying to be a trader, except
686 |685 |01:13:47 ~-~-> 01:13:52 |for one time, his first time trying to trade in the 80s sugar, he made enough
687 |686 |01:13:52 ~-~-> 01:13:55 |to buy condominium down the Eastern Shore. For those who've been around for
688 |687 |01:13:55 ~-~-> 01:13:59 |a long time, you know the story. I'm not going to rehash it, but never could find
689 |688 |01:13:59 ~-~-> 01:14:07 |anything beyond that, and he resented me as his nephew, because I figured it out.
690 |689 |01:14:08 ~-~-> 01:14:15 |And he would never try to learn from me. He would make excuses and say, I'm a I'm
691 |690 |01:14:15 ~-~-> 01:14:19 |a contrarian. If I tell him, Look, this is what I've been doing for the last 30
692 |691 |01:14:19 ~-~-> 01:14:23 |trades, and this is how many times I did it right, and this is what I was doing.
693 |692 |01:14:23 ~-~-> 01:14:29 |Try this, uncle. Stan, okay? And then once you do, he does the opposite. I'm
694 |693 |01:14:29 ~-~-> 01:14:34 |I'm looking for a long, I'm looking for a long and weak, and he's trying to
695 |694 |01:14:34 ~-~-> 01:14:41 |short it. What is he saying? I resent you. I want to prove you're wrong and
696 |695 |01:14:41 ~-~-> 01:14:47 |I'm right. And he told me in tears years later, sitting in my car that cost more
697 |696 |01:14:47 ~-~-> 01:14:54 |than his house, crying tears to me saying I was jealous and I couldn't
698 |697 |01:14:54 ~-~-> 01:14:59 |understand why I wanted to do this so badly, and it happened easy for you. I.
699 |698 |01:15:00 ~-~-> 01:15:05 |And I started crying back with him, and I said, you don't know. All the nights I
700 |699 |01:15:05 ~-~-> 01:15:11 |sat there and was quietly hiding my crying, their bedroom was connected to
701 |700 |01:15:11 ~-~-> 01:15:20 |my room with a closet. They could hear everything, but he couldn't hear me
702 |701 |01:15:20 ~-~-> 01:15:31 |crying. I said, you think it was easy for me and it wasn't. I'm thankful that
703 |702 |01:15:31 ~-~-> 01:15:37 |he was being used by God to put these seeds in me as a young man, I didn't
704 |703 |01:15:37 ~-~-> 01:15:43 |respect it, I didn't appreciate it, even I acknowledge it, but that was the hand
705 |704 |01:15:43 ~-~-> 01:15:52 |of the Lord, and I told him, I said, I don't know why he resisted me. I had
706 |705 |01:15:52 ~-~-> 01:15:58 |every intentions of helping you, like I would literally spend all my time
707 |706 |01:15:58 ~-~-> 01:16:02 |helping you, if you ask me, I'm basically doing every day I live in your
708 |707 |01:16:02 ~-~-> 01:16:09 |house. He said, when you moved in, the idea was for you to get on your feet and
709 |708 |01:16:09 ~-~-> 01:16:14 |move out, not get rich. He was speaking from his heart, and I knew right then
710 |709 |01:16:14 ~-~-> 01:16:23 |and there. I can't reach him, jealousy, envy, and that's family. That's a man I
711 |710 |01:16:23 ~-~-> 01:16:28 |looked up to as a father figure. And he had the he had the power to encourage me
712 |711 |01:16:28 ~-~-> 01:16:32 |to join college, to go in there and ace the preliminary tests and prerequisites
713 |712 |01:16:32 ~-~-> 01:16:38 |and just ace everything, and to see him say his highest degree of aptitude was
714 |713 |01:16:38 ~-~-> 01:16:43 |in math. And he said, I don't even know the answers of those equations. How did
715 |714 |01:16:43 ~-~-> 01:16:46 |you do that? I said, I don't know. Just I mean, I've always excelled in math and
716 |715 |01:16:46 ~-~-> 01:16:53 |science after sixth grade, when I got introduced to coding and trading, I
717 |716 |01:16:53 ~-~-> 01:16:58 |mean, not trading, but coding and making programs, it opened up my understanding.
718 |717 |01:16:58 ~-~-> 01:17:01 |Because now finally, I have something that engages me, where prior to that, I
719 |718 |01:17:01 ~-~-> 01:17:07 |sucked as a student, I'd be like me saying, okay, look, let's put ICT out
720 |719 |01:17:07 ~-~-> 01:17:11 |there as quarterback or linebacker on the football team in school. I'm gonna
721 |720 |01:17:11 ~-~-> 01:17:20 |feel miserably. I would feel miserably as a sports person. Couldn't do it all
722 |721 |01:17:20 ~-~-> 01:17:31 |of my grade school. You know, records of aptitude sucked until sixth grade, and
723 |722 |01:17:31 ~-~-> 01:17:37 |finally, I was engaged with something that I had an interest in, and it like
724 |723 |01:17:37 ~-~-> 01:17:43 |it shot me up. It shot me up beyond the average student, and it changed my
725 |724 |01:17:43 ~-~-> 01:17:50 |perspective and pursuits in life. And I could look back and see that transition
726 |725 |01:17:50 ~-~-> 01:17:56 |period and all of these transition periods you're going through right now
727 |726 |01:17:56 ~-~-> 01:18:01 |as a developing trader, they're probably uncomfortable for you. You want to get
728 |727 |01:18:01 ~-~-> 01:18:08 |through them faster, and you want to slow yourself down. Learn from these
729 |728 |01:18:08 ~-~-> 01:18:16 |periods, because these are when the tests are being distributed to you. What
730 |729 |01:18:16 ~-~-> 01:18:21 |have you learned thus far? If you haven't learned anything, you're going
731 |730 |01:18:21 ~-~-> 01:18:28 |to stay in that period longer until you learn the lessons. If you're feeling
732 |731 |01:18:28 ~-~-> 01:18:35 |hardship or adversities, you need to be thinking, hey, what am I supposed to be
733 |732 |01:18:35 ~-~-> 01:18:42 |learning from this? And when you dissect these periods in your time and your
734 |733 |01:18:42 ~-~-> 01:18:47 |growth, you're going to find that number one, the learning is far more enjoyable
735 |734 |01:18:47 ~-~-> 01:18:55 |and pleasurable, and you're not going to have this impatience always smothering
736 |735 |01:18:55 ~-~-> 01:19:00 |you, because you're going to trust that. I know I'm in a period of transition
737 |736 |01:19:00 ~-~-> 01:19:07 |right now, I'm going through a growing pain, and I am welcoming that. That's
738 |737 |01:19:07 ~-~-> 01:19:12 |the attitude you should have. You should want more of that, because I had lots of
739 |738 |01:19:12 ~-~-> 01:19:19 |them, and it supercharged my learning when I stopped trying to wrestle through
740 |739 |01:19:19 ~-~-> 01:19:26 |that stuff, when I tried to pretend that it wasn't there, that it was some kind
741 |740 |01:19:26 ~-~-> 01:19:31 |of punishment, some kind of aptitude measurement that showed I was never
742 |741 |01:19:31 ~-~-> 01:19:36 |going to be able to do this. When I stopped classifying it as that and
743 |742 |01:19:36 ~-~-> 01:19:41 |looking at it through the lens of this is actually me being molded and sculpted
744 |743 |01:19:41 ~-~-> 01:19:50 |that by hands I can't see and I submit myself to it. What lessons would you
745 |744 |01:19:50 ~-~-> 01:19:55 |have me to know and learn from this? That's the spirit you should have when
746 |745 |01:19:55 ~-~-> 01:19:59 |you journal, not vilify yourself or vilify the conditions that you're going
747 |746 |01:19:59 ~-~-> 01:20:05 |through. It, when you have these things that are impacting your growth and your
748 |747 |01:20:07 ~-~-> 01:20:12 |your development, and you're constantly doing a measurement and a baseline
749 |748 |01:20:12 ~-~-> 01:20:17 |evaluation of growth and what you're learning from it by journaling, you're
750 |749 |01:20:17 ~-~-> 01:20:22 |doing the best that you could ever do. You're documenting it. So that means
751 |750 |01:20:22 ~-~-> 01:20:26 |you're going to have a means of being able to, number one, look back and see
752 |751 |01:20:26 ~-~-> 01:20:31 |exactly when and how you changed, because you're not going to remember
753 |752 |01:20:31 ~-~-> 01:20:39 |everything. Think about all the trades that you've taken. Can you remember what
754 |753 |01:20:39 ~-~-> 01:20:44 |the fact the worst five of them were what your entry price was, what was your
755 |754 |01:20:44 ~-~-> 01:20:54 |What was your position sizing, what was your stop loss? I know mine. I know
756 |755 |01:20:54 ~-~-> 01:21:02 |mine. I know my five best trades. I know what my leverage was. I know what month
757 |756 |01:21:02 ~-~-> 01:21:05 |contract I was trading, and I know my how many contracts I was trading. I know
758 |757 |01:21:05 ~-~-> 01:21:09 |my entry price and my stop losses. They were meaningful things to me. I
759 |758 |01:21:09 ~-~-> 01:21:17 |celebrated those a lot, a lot in the America Line. I bragged about it. I brag
760 |759 |01:21:17 ~-~-> 01:21:19 |baby. I was like, This is who I am. I
761 |760 |01:21:25 ~-~-> 01:21:30 |You have to know yourself like that. You got to know every detail. Don't hide
762 |761 |01:21:30 ~-~-> 01:21:35 |away or shy away from. Well, you know, this is probably, you know, going to be
763 |762 |01:21:36 ~-~-> 01:21:42 |uncomfortable someone else knew about this. No, you know what's more
764 |763 |01:21:42 ~-~-> 01:21:49 |encouraging to me? You know what's more interesting to me listening to what
765 |764 |01:21:49 ~-~-> 01:21:57 |people went through, what they went through, to get to where they are today?
766 |765 |01:21:58 ~-~-> 01:22:03 |Because we all look at the end result like, wow. Look the Crown Champion, the
767 |766 |01:22:03 ~-~-> 01:22:07 |person that has arrived, it's made this much money, has traded this long without
768 |767 |01:22:07 ~-~-> 01:22:12 |a losing trade, who has won this competition? We see those things like
769 |768 |01:22:12 ~-~-> 01:22:16 |that. And like, Wow, man, that's amazing. And you want to aspire to be
770 |769 |01:22:16 ~-~-> 01:22:26 |like that or better. And they're all commendable. They're well done, yes, but
771 |770 |01:22:26 ~-~-> 01:22:33 |as a mature person who has tasted success and has lived it, to me, the
772 |771 |01:22:33 ~-~-> 01:22:41 |more interesting thing is what they went through. How did they handle it? How did
773 |772 |01:22:41 ~-~-> 01:22:48 |they handle the the tug of war, so back and forth, sometimes not feeling like
774 |773 |01:22:48 ~-~-> 01:22:49 |they're ever going to get
775 |774 |01:22:54 ~-~-> 01:23:01 |it. That's That, to me, is more inspiring. That to me, is more of a
776 |775 |01:23:01 ~-~-> 01:23:08 |testimony than what you acquired, or what level you obtained. Because if
777 |776 |01:23:08 ~-~-> 01:23:14 |someone says, Yeah, I made a million dollars, and they blasted on on social
778 |777 |01:23:14 ~-~-> 01:23:18 |media, every every social media, they're blasting it, wow, that's a million
779 |778 |01:23:18 ~-~-> 01:23:21 |dollars. And we all think to ourselves, man, if I could just have a million
780 |779 |01:23:21 ~-~-> 01:23:25 |dollars like that, I would be successful. I would be happy. I would be
781 |780 |01:23:25 ~-~-> 01:23:32 |content. But what happens if the person comes out and says, Well, you know, I've
782 |781 |01:23:32 ~-~-> 01:23:41 |been trying to do this for 20 years, and I've lost $250,000 trying all this time,
783 |782 |01:23:41 ~-~-> 01:23:47 |and this is my first measure of success. Now, right away, there's gonna be a lot
784 |783 |01:23:47 ~-~-> 01:23:54 |of people come out and say, Oh, this guy's a joker. See, he's a fraud. He's a
785 |784 |01:23:54 ~-~-> 01:23:58 |clown. You can't, you can't really do it. He looking took him this long. And
786 |785 |01:23:58 ~-~-> 01:24:03 |these are people that don't even have a loaning trade, ever, never even have a
787 |786 |01:24:03 ~-~-> 01:24:08 |live account, and can't pass these prop firm challenges. But they're the ones
788 |787 |01:24:08 ~-~-> 01:24:18 |that are opinionated, and I would love to see the backstory of what they went
789 |788 |01:24:18 ~-~-> 01:24:26 |through, because that's what it's going to take for you. See, every book that's
790 |789 |01:24:26 ~-~-> 01:24:31 |ever been written about trading should have a whole lot of the stuff I talk
791 |790 |01:24:31 ~-~-> 01:24:37 |about, but I know the attention span of most of you is of a net you don't have
792 |791 |01:24:38 ~-~-> 01:24:43 |anything beyond a Tiktok mentality. The older generation of my community has the
793 |792 |01:24:43 ~-~-> 01:24:49 |capacity to think and they can appreciate and go beyond the scope of a
794 |793 |01:24:49 ~-~-> 01:24:54 |five minute video, because they care about themselves enough to know I want
795 |794 |01:24:54 ~-~-> 01:24:59 |to know more. If you're willing to share more, I'm ready for it, and I'm ready to
796 |795 |01:24:59 ~-~-> 01:25:05 |receive it. I. But the present generation, they've been beaten into
797 |796 |01:25:05 ~-~-> 01:25:12 |stupidity, thinking that five minute training is sufficient enough. It's not,
798 |797 |01:25:13 ~-~-> 01:25:17 |it's not, it's a commercial. And think about how it is when you're watching
799 |798 |01:25:17 ~-~-> 01:25:20 |your favorite program you want to get through the commercials right? You pay
800 |799 |01:25:21 ~-~-> 01:25:24 |for YouTube premium to get around the ads when you're watching my videos.
801 |800 |01:25:26 ~-~-> 01:25:29 |Don't talk to me about how you think you figured it all out. And you know, this
802 |801 |01:25:29 ~-~-> 01:25:32 |is the better way of doing it. This is optimal learning. ICT, your archaic way
803 |802 |01:25:32 ~-~-> 01:25:36 |of teaching these long winded things. These are all the conversations that
804 |803 |01:25:36 ~-~-> 01:25:39 |you're going to want to have with yourself when you're going through it
805 |804 |01:25:39 ~-~-> 01:25:44 |all. You don't see it. You don't recognize any of that. Yet, see that's
806 |805 |01:25:44 ~-~-> 01:25:48 |proof that the people that talk like that in my comments, they're never going
807 |806 |01:25:48 ~-~-> 01:25:55 |to arrive. They're never going to arrive. They're too critical about good
808 |807 |01:25:55 ~-~-> 01:26:03 |medicine, about good information. I could be stingy. When I was 20, I wanted
809 |808 |01:26:03 ~-~-> 01:26:11 |to be I was never gonna share anything of my best stuff, never. And that
810 |809 |01:26:11 ~-~-> 01:26:19 |changed real quick when he said, is that really what you're gonna do? And I
811 |810 |01:26:19 ~-~-> 01:26:27 |couldn't do anything, right? I it. My heavens were like brass. Every prayer
812 |811 |01:26:27 ~-~-> 01:26:35 |denied, every trade denied, loss, loss, loss, loss, loss, loss, until I changed
813 |812 |01:26:35 ~-~-> 01:26:44 |my perspective and it wasn't about me. I said, use me as an instrument and allow
814 |813 |01:26:44 ~-~-> 01:26:50 |me to point right back to you. And if you give me this, I will do that,
815 |814 |01:26:57 ~-~-> 01:27:05 |and that's how I live my life. I and you have to eventually get to the point
816 |815 |01:27:05 ~-~-> 01:27:10 |where you're gonna have to make a decision. Are you gonna roll your
817 |816 |01:27:10 ~-~-> 01:27:14 |sleeves up and say, You know what? I don't know how long the opposition and
818 |817 |01:27:14 ~-~-> 01:27:18 |the adversities are gonna come. I don't know what adversities are gonna
819 |818 |01:27:18 ~-~-> 01:27:22 |materialize in my development or my pursuit of this, but I am committing
820 |819 |01:27:22 ~-~-> 01:27:26 |myself to no matter what it is, come hell or high water, I am absolutely
821 |820 |01:27:26 ~-~-> 01:27:30 |dialed in. No one's going to say no to me and I am an accept Nope. You're not
822 |821 |01:27:30 ~-~-> 01:27:33 |going to tell me I can't and I'm going to accept it. Nope, you're not going to
823 |822 |01:27:33 ~-~-> 01:27:38 |tell me, ain't from me or ain't mine. Nope, it's mine. That's how it has to
824 |823 |01:27:38 ~-~-> 01:27:45 |be. All you're doing is expecting a deferred payment that's coming to you,
825 |824 |01:27:46 ~-~-> 01:27:53 |that success in the future, you own it. It's nothing short of what you do when
826 |825 |01:27:53 ~-~-> 01:27:58 |you buy a magazine subscription. You pay for it in advance. You're paying for it,
827 |826 |01:27:59 ~-~-> 01:28:05 |but you get it deferred, delivered later on. You ever think about like that? I
828 |827 |01:28:05 ~-~-> 01:28:10 |can't wait to get the summer edition of Sports Illustrated when they do the
829 |828 |01:28:11 ~-~-> 01:28:18 |swimsuit edition. You know what I'm talking about, man, but you paid for it
830 |829 |01:28:18 ~-~-> 01:28:23 |in the beginning of the year. So that way that subscription comes to you at a
831 |830 |01:28:23 ~-~-> 01:28:29 |later time. You got patience to wait for that, don't you? You spent good, hard,
832 |831 |01:28:29 ~-~-> 01:28:37 |earned money for these subscriptions. You have cable TV the equivalent
833 |832 |01:28:37 ~-~-> 01:28:41 |thereof. You pay the bill for the next month's ability to watch the programs,
834 |833 |01:28:42 ~-~-> 01:28:48 |the games I got all access like Now you would think I'm a sports fan. I have
835 |834 |01:28:48 ~-~-> 01:28:53 |every channel, every game that you ever watch, at my disposal, any any time I
836 |835 |01:28:53 ~-~-> 01:28:59 |want, and I never do it. I don't know why. I just whatever channel, because
837 |836 |01:28:59 ~-~-> 01:29:02 |I'm afraid if one of my friends do visit, they're like, hey, you know, can
838 |837 |01:29:02 ~-~-> 01:29:06 |we watch? And I would be embarrassed if I couldn't pull it up. So that's why
839 |838 |01:29:06 ~-~-> 01:29:11 |I've been for every year as an adult, I've paid for programming that I never
840 |839 |01:29:11 ~-~-> 01:29:16 |watch. Am I hurting for it? Am I not able to make my bills because of that?
841 |840 |01:29:16 ~-~-> 01:29:22 |Nope, but as a 20 year old, that would make no sense to me. Some of you are
842 |841 |01:29:22 ~-~-> 01:29:25 |thinking, Well, why I said waste of money? No, it's not. It gives me peace
843 |842 |01:29:25 ~-~-> 01:29:31 |of mind. It doesn't cost me anything. My programming in TV programming is a write
844 |843 |01:29:31 ~-~-> 01:29:37 |off for me. I don't care about what it costs me for that stuff, because I use
845 |844 |01:29:37 ~-~-> 01:29:46 |the information that comes through CNBC. I can write that off. It pipes into my
846 |845 |01:29:46 ~-~-> 01:29:52 |office. I use it for information, so therefore it's a resource and tool, so I
847 |846 |01:29:52 ~-~-> 01:29:58 |don't care what it costs me. Sure, sure, sure. I can watch that same access in my
848 |847 |01:29:58 ~-~-> 01:30:03 |theater and watch John. I'm like, blaze through a bunch of men with lots of
849 |848 |01:30:03 ~-~-> 01:30:11 |fireworks and such. That's the perks of being a businessman. But you have to
850 |849 |01:30:11 ~-~-> 01:30:16 |change the way you think about things right now, if you've been beating
851 |850 |01:30:16 ~-~-> 01:30:20 |yourself up or saying this doesn't happen fast enough for me, this isn't
852 |851 |01:30:20 ~-~-> 01:30:25 |working out for me like I hoped it would. You remember, everybody that ever
853 |852 |01:30:25 ~-~-> 01:30:31 |arrives doesn't do it overnight, and many of them have guarded that secret
854 |853 |01:30:31 ~-~-> 01:30:34 |that it's never to be told, which was the hardship it took for them to go
855 |854 |01:30:34 ~-~-> 01:30:39 |through it. And that's why I have a great admiration, a great deal of
856 |855 |01:30:39 ~-~-> 01:30:43 |respect, for the people that come forward and say, You know what? It took
857 |856 |01:30:43 ~-~-> 01:30:47 |longer than I thought. It was extremely hard for me to trust that what I was
858 |857 |01:30:47 ~-~-> 01:30:53 |doing was going to pan out for me, but I stuck to it that that is someone you
859 |858 |01:30:53 ~-~-> 01:30:56 |listen to, that is someone you subscribe to, that's someone that has a voice
860 |859 |01:30:56 ~-~-> 01:31:00 |that's worth listening to, because anybody that comes out there and says
861 |860 |01:31:00 ~-~-> 01:31:05 |they're the best, and it was easy for them. It was nothing for me to do this.
862 |861 |01:31:05 ~-~-> 01:31:09 |They are fabricated. They're liars, and they're probably mimicking someone
863 |862 |01:31:09 ~-~-> 01:31:19 |else's successful. And I'm hoping that you and my audience could appreciate
864 |863 |01:31:21 ~-~-> 01:31:27 |that. It took you some real effort to get to it, that it was not easy. So that
865 |864 |01:31:27 ~-~-> 01:31:32 |way, when you do arrive, it feels really good. That's not arrogance, that's not
866 |865 |01:31:32 ~-~-> 01:31:39 |pride, it's accomplishment. The Lord says that you're more than an overcomer.
867 |866 |01:31:39 ~-~-> 01:31:43 |Does that mean that you shouldn't feel good when you overcome something? No, it
868 |867 |01:31:43 ~-~-> 01:31:47 |means that you should expect that you're going to overcome it, pursue it. Chase
869 |868 |01:31:47 ~-~-> 01:31:54 |it down, take it by force. Don't sit back quietly, reserving yourself to
870 |869 |01:31:55 ~-~-> 01:31:58 |whatever happens. I'm just going to accept that when the way it comes to me
871 |870 |01:31:58 ~-~-> 01:32:04 |wrong, wrong, your perspective needs to be, I'm going after it and it can't
872 |871 |01:32:04 ~-~-> 01:32:08 |outrun me, and I will overtake it, and it is mine.
873 |872 |01:32:16 ~-~-> 01:32:21 |Maybe this doesn't maybe this doesn't do it for you today. Maybe this is not what
874 |873 |01:32:21 ~-~-> 01:32:24 |you're expecting. Maybe you wanted to hear Stone Cold
875 |874 |01:32:26 ~-~-> 01:32:33 |ICT like last week. Maybe that's what you're hoping for, and that's for
876 |875 |01:32:33 ~-~-> 01:32:36 |entertainment that's to get the hooks in you, but
877 |876 |01:32:42 ~-~-> 01:32:50 |once you hear and I have your ear, this is how I talk to you. This is how I
878 |877 |01:32:50 ~-~-> 01:32:54 |encourage you, because this is what matters most. These are the lessons
879 |878 |01:32:54 ~-~-> 01:33:01 |going to stick with you, not the rants, not the raving, you know, blue collar
880 |879 |01:33:01 ~-~-> 01:33:04 |language this to get you to pay attention to me, because sometimes you
881 |880 |01:33:04 ~-~-> 01:33:08 |feel like we're not on the same wavelength. So when I talk to you in a
882 |881 |01:33:08 ~-~-> 01:33:16 |common tongue, like I was raised around, oh, you're one of us. ICT, no, no,
883 |882 |01:33:18 ~-~-> 01:33:19 |you're becoming one of me. You
884 |883 |01:33:25 ~-~-> 01:33:27 |that's it. We're done. You.