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1 00:00:00 --> 00:00:04 ICT: More folks, if you guys could just give me a heads up. Let me know audio is
2 00:00:04 --> 00:00:09 okay, just send me a post on X just what a five by five. I don't know. You guys
3 00:00:09 --> 00:00:17 can hear me fine. Thank you for that. Appreciate it. Some of you guys are
4 00:00:17 --> 00:00:23 sleeping in today. Well, I guess it's time take another ride on the ghost
5 00:00:23 --> 00:00:24 train. Huh? I
6 00:00:26 --> 00:00:35 want to talk to you about things, people, circumstances that influence us,
7 00:00:36 --> 00:00:44 and how that might be detrimental to you as a trader, developing trader, a person
8 00:00:44 --> 00:00:50 in general, a parent, a loved one, a spouse, a significant other. All these
9 00:00:50 --> 00:00:58 things tie together. And I have, I have a funny way of looking back in my own
10 00:00:58 --> 00:01:03 personal life, and maybe it's a guilty pleasure for you as well. It's kind of
11 00:01:03 --> 00:01:11 like if you looked at your life and someone made it into a movie. What
12 00:01:11 --> 00:01:17 soundtrack would it use? Certainly, there'd be some favorite songs of your
13 00:01:17 --> 00:01:24 own choosing that you would like to be implementing it as part of the
14 00:01:24 --> 00:01:30 soundtrack. If your life was a movie, maybe it'd be a sampling of some old
15 00:01:30 --> 00:01:37 classics, maybe some rock, maybe some jazz, maybe hip hop, maybe rap, heavy
16 00:01:37 --> 00:01:47 metal grunge, if you were to add to ask me the same question, when my life
17 00:01:47 --> 00:01:55 began, as in a circle trader, it was one with a lot of anxiety, a lot of hopes
18 00:01:55 --> 00:02:03 and Dreams, but deep down inside, underneath the skin, I wouldn't was
19 00:02:03 --> 00:02:08 gonna be able to do it, leaving a broken relationship, which we won't touch
20 00:02:08 --> 00:02:13 anymore, because I've done I don't know, but I felt like I had something to
21 00:02:13 --> 00:02:17 prove. But I was in my feels when I started learning how to trade. I was
22 00:02:17 --> 00:02:25 really in my emotions. And if you were to ask me what, what would my soundtrack
23 00:02:25 --> 00:02:35 be? Because while I was 20 by age, and they like to say the coming of age, or
24 00:02:35 --> 00:02:41 coming of where you move from adolescence to adulthood might happen a
25 00:02:41 --> 00:02:50 little bit younger than 20. I really started living when I was 20. It was
26 00:02:51 --> 00:02:58 scary for me. I was at the most alone I've ever been with the height of the
27 00:02:58 --> 00:03:04 majority of my friends were at the same time you ever had that feeling where you
28 00:03:04 --> 00:03:07 know you have lots of friends, you have lots of friends that you've known for
29 00:03:08 --> 00:03:13 ever, back to kindergarten, pre K, but you still feel lonely, like you're
30 00:03:13 --> 00:03:19 alone, like you're in and of yourself an island, and no One can reach you, and
31 00:03:19 --> 00:03:27 you can't reach them. That's what it was like for me. And just to tap in as a
32 00:03:27 --> 00:03:33 segue into the previous message I was sharing with you last week where I
33 00:03:33 --> 00:03:37 mentioned the young lady I was engaged to and met. Just want to mention her
34 00:03:37 --> 00:03:40 briefly. That way, it kind of makes a little bit of sense of what I'm
35 00:03:40 --> 00:03:47 referring to, right? Before I met her, if you were to ask me, What's your
36 00:03:47 --> 00:03:52 favorite band, what's your favorite musician, what's your favorite songs?
37 00:03:53 --> 00:03:58 And as over the years, you guys can see, I have a very diverse palette for music.
38 00:03:58 --> 00:04:04 I like everything. I've always been a fan of music, but it taps into the raw
39 00:04:04 --> 00:04:07 emotions of what you're going through right now and what you aspire to be and
40 00:04:07 --> 00:04:10 what you're afraid is like come and you're hoping that you can navigate
41 00:04:10 --> 00:04:11 around it.
42 00:04:16 --> 00:04:24 For me, it's cowros. If there was one album that I could play for the rest of
43 00:04:24 --> 00:04:28 my life every single day and never get tired of it, it's August and everything
44 00:04:28 --> 00:04:33 after that would be my soundtrack. Every song in that order, you're
45 00:04:39 --> 00:04:44 going to have a lot of innuendos, if you've ever listened to that band, or
46 00:04:44 --> 00:04:51 even know what that album's about, I have a I have a guilty pleasure of
47 00:04:51 --> 00:04:57 thinking to myself, somehow Adam was in some kind of a sink with me at that
48 00:04:57 --> 00:05:01 time. Adam, the lead singer, I. When you compose all those songs, because if
49 00:05:01 --> 00:05:06 there was any album, any song, any songwriter to ever tap into how I was
50 00:05:06 --> 00:05:15 feeling and what I was going through, that man did it. Every lyric and every
51 00:05:15 --> 00:05:20 one of those songs mean something to me. I have a memory attached to every single
52 00:05:20 --> 00:05:30 one of them. And when I met Shannon, going to list those songs, and that's
53 00:05:30 --> 00:05:34 exactly what that whirlwind relationship, romance, engagement, the
54 00:05:34 --> 00:05:41 whole thing was just like that in that order. And I felt like the rain King.
55 00:05:42 --> 00:05:48 When I was around her, I felt like I deserved a little more. I deserved to be
56 00:05:48 --> 00:05:56 in the service of the Queen, and I made it rain every week for her, and she was
57 00:05:56 --> 00:06:00 a critical facet to me healing.
58 00:06:09 --> 00:06:15 A lot of the crows, Counting Crows don't get mixed up with the crows, which I
59 00:06:15 --> 00:06:24 like to a lot of those songs were inspirational. To me doing well as a
60 00:06:24 --> 00:06:28 trader, and when I would study, when I would look at charts, when I was doing
61 00:06:28 --> 00:06:32 the actual charting, like drawing open, high, low and close on my price charts,
62 00:06:36 --> 00:06:43 that CD would be playing on repeat. Just sometimes I would randomize the play,
63 00:06:43 --> 00:06:53 shuffle it, but that was the CD that played. And this morning, when I got up
64 00:06:53 --> 00:07:01 around 230 I was thinking myself, yeah, I used to, I used to worry about missing
65 00:07:01 --> 00:07:06 life, because I wasn't going out to the clubs and the bars and doing the things
66 00:07:06 --> 00:07:13 that my friends were doing, what my Murder of Crows was doing. If you don't
67 00:07:13 --> 00:07:21 understand the title, when you have more than one crow or a group of crows. They
68 00:07:21 --> 00:07:31 don't call it a flock. They call it a murder a crows. And online, you know,
69 00:07:31 --> 00:07:37 online gaming and whatnot, Call of Duty, Battlefield and, you know, all those
70 00:07:37 --> 00:07:47 types of things. My My name was always Murder of Crows. So that had a huge
71 00:07:47 --> 00:07:54 impact on me. And if there was a montage and my life was a movie, there would be
72 00:07:54 --> 00:08:00 Counting Crows, songs playing, and here I am, and there were the charts of
73 00:08:00 --> 00:08:03 drawing the open, high, low on clothes, sweat on my brow, worrying about the
74 00:08:03 --> 00:08:10 outcome. Silly, I know, but that's the kind of stuff you have to do. You have
75 00:08:10 --> 00:08:15 to romanticize yourself and what you're going through to get through it. Men can
76 00:08:15 --> 00:08:20 really resonate with that. They may not be admitting it in the presence of other
77 00:08:20 --> 00:08:24 people, but deep down underneath the skin, they know what I just said. This
78 00:08:24 --> 00:08:32 is true for them, too. And with Shannon, I had the opportunity to be free. I let
79 00:08:32 --> 00:08:36 that bird underneath my skin, there was nothing come out and spread its wings,
80 00:08:37 --> 00:08:42 and I shared the things that I would draw and right in my passions and where
81 00:08:42 --> 00:08:46 my direction, like was really aiming for, and I felt like she was going to be
82 00:08:46 --> 00:08:52 a part of it. So therefore it was like rocket fuel. So I had a very encouraging
83 00:08:53 --> 00:09:04 member of my Murder of Crows in her but the rest of the murder were not so and
84 00:09:06 --> 00:09:10 because it was so good being around her, it blinded me to the negative, toxic
85 00:09:10 --> 00:09:18 relationships I had and others around me who I loved, genuinely, brotherly love,
86 00:09:18 --> 00:09:29 and some of them stabbed me in the back when I thought about that this morning,
87 00:09:29 --> 00:09:34 when I woke up, I was singing our morning room, looking at the glowing
88 00:09:34 --> 00:09:39 lights of the deer's eyeballs as they look Good with the cars that pass
89 00:09:39 --> 00:09:50 through. I'm thinking myself, years ago, all my friends were hopefully trying to
90 00:09:50 --> 00:09:54 make it home about this time from the bars and the clubs, and I was up
91 00:09:55 --> 00:10:03 reading, studying, looking at lines on. A graph and praying that these things
92 00:10:03 --> 00:10:08 are going to lead me to a lifestyle that I wouldn't regret not doing those things
93 00:10:08 --> 00:10:09 with them,
94 00:10:14 --> 00:10:24 friends, listeners. This morning, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I am so
95 00:10:24 --> 00:10:32 thankful that I didn't do those things. I don't have any regret not having done
96 00:10:32 --> 00:10:36 so. I don't have any regret for pruning all of the toxic relationships and
97 00:10:36 --> 00:10:39 friendships that were really not friendships. They were holding me back.
98 00:10:39 --> 00:10:46 I can be honest with you and tell you my high school best friend, Larry, who
99 00:10:46 --> 00:10:53 we're not friends with each other anymore. A lot of the things I did my
100 00:10:54 --> 00:10:58 early trading career, I was trying to trade and make big money to impress him.
101 00:10:58 --> 00:10:58 It
102 00:10:59 --> 00:11:04 was stupid. It was dumb. You show them. Hey, man, look this. I mean $500
103 00:11:05 --> 00:11:16 on corn, corn, yeah, 50, $50 percent the most, 10 cents you need. 500 bucks. I
104 00:11:16 --> 00:11:21 had one contract on and to me, that was big money. I was more money that I was
105 00:11:21 --> 00:11:28 earning in a week at my job. He was like, Man, that's that's pretty wild.
106 00:11:28 --> 00:11:32 Can you can you teach me how to do that? That's exactly what I wanted to hear.
107 00:11:32 --> 00:11:35 That's exactly what you want to hear when you tell your friends and family,
108 00:11:35 --> 00:11:43 look what I do. I made this. And you want them to say, Wow, that was amazing.
109 00:11:44 --> 00:11:48 Can you teach me how to do that? I don't make enough money, and if I had that
110 00:11:48 --> 00:11:55 man, I could get that five liter GT Mustang, because that's what he said
111 00:11:55 --> 00:12:07 back then, until we sit down, we start looking at the charts, and then suddenly
112 00:12:07 --> 00:12:12 it requires a lot more thought, a lot more passion than simply saying, Well,
113 00:12:12 --> 00:12:15 you know, it seems like the lottery scratch offs, and if it works out
114 00:12:15 --> 00:12:20 consistently, once in a while, you know, I could pay My My dream cars. Car
115 00:12:20 --> 00:12:26 payment. That was the extent of my friends perspective on trading. And
116 00:12:26 --> 00:12:35 because I kept going, and they were my friends, I drug them along. Now some of
117 00:12:35 --> 00:12:38 them honestly, you know, if they were being honest with you today, especially
118 00:12:38 --> 00:12:45 the ones that weren't a lot of friends with if you ask them, you know, what is,
119 00:12:45 --> 00:12:51 uh, what's your opinion? You know? Michael back then arrogant, conceited,
120 00:12:52 --> 00:13:01 self centered poser, like fair skater back in the late 80s, it comes to mind,
121 00:13:01 --> 00:13:08 doesn't it, because I was trying to find myself, and I was living that montage
122 00:13:08 --> 00:13:13 moment every single day, trying to keep myself motivated, because I had no
123 00:13:13 --> 00:13:15 motivation outside of That young lady that I met.
124 00:13:22 --> 00:13:26 So I started taking some inventory in friends and people that hung around me.
125 00:13:26 --> 00:13:30 I started doing really well, and they were benefiting by being friends with
126 00:13:30 --> 00:13:41 me, associates more or less. And I started pruning them. Stopped returning
127 00:13:41 --> 00:13:52 the phone calls, not returning their their request to hang out, because when
128 00:13:52 --> 00:13:56 I would hang around them, I wouldn't feel good about myself. I felt like I
129 00:13:56 --> 00:14:01 was being used. And some of you right now might have that going on right now,
130 00:14:01 --> 00:14:06 and you're too afraid to prune it from your life, because you don't want
131 00:14:06 --> 00:14:11 anybody to think that you're bad or you're not a good friend when chances
132 00:14:11 --> 00:14:16 are, you probably been the better friend all along. You would probably bend over
133 00:14:16 --> 00:14:19 backwards to help the people that are around you that don't have any support
134 00:14:19 --> 00:14:24 structure for you, but you would gladly bend over backwards to do the same for
135 00:14:24 --> 00:14:32 them that you expect from them. The fact that you're pouring out any amount of
136 00:14:32 --> 00:14:36 time and energy into improving yourself is a testimony that's really who you
137 00:14:36 --> 00:14:41 are. Some of you might say, I wouldn't do that. You would. If you have friends
138 00:14:41 --> 00:14:48 that you love, you would, but if the shoes on the other foot, they wouldn't
139 00:14:48 --> 00:14:54 do the same for you. And unfortunately, I had friends, and I say that loosely,
140 00:14:55 --> 00:15:00 like that, and it became a deterrent to me doing well. It was. Influential in
141 00:15:00 --> 00:15:06 the sense that I wanted to do things just to rub their nose in it, because
142 00:15:06 --> 00:15:12 some of them, albeit dating back to pre K, I mean, it's before kindergarten,
143 00:15:13 --> 00:15:17 friends with them, and they would look at me cockeyed, and I'd say, I'm going
144 00:15:17 --> 00:15:28 to make enough to buy a house, cash in one trade. Now, saying that in 1993
145 00:15:29 --> 00:15:36 didn't make any sense to anyone that I was raised as you know, remember, I came
146 00:15:36 --> 00:15:41 from a place that no longer exists, was referred to as cardboard city, Villa
147 00:15:41 --> 00:15:46 gardens. It literally was the lowest income housing, the cheapest building
148 00:15:46 --> 00:15:52 structure you could ever have. That's what ICT grew up in. So I tasted all of
149 00:15:52 --> 00:15:56 that poverty type stuff. I used to be on welfare. I had to go to the store and
150 00:15:56 --> 00:16:00 give food stamps to get milk and bread, and because I was raised on it, I wasn't
151 00:16:00 --> 00:16:07 embarrassed. I just figured that's how everything was. And as I grew up, my
152 00:16:07 --> 00:16:11 Murder of Crows, the part of the flock, the birds of a feather, flock together,
153 00:16:11 --> 00:16:26 I was a little bit different. I was a little bit different. Slowly, I was the
154 00:16:26 --> 00:16:29 one that was the team captain. Everybody wanted to be on the side of and I wasn't
155 00:16:29 --> 00:16:36 even good at sports, but I was influential. I would tell everybody when
156 00:16:36 --> 00:16:41 they had an idea, that's exactly what you should be doing right now. That's
157 00:16:41 --> 00:16:45 what I loved about Shannon, because that's who I wanted to be as a person. I
158 00:16:45 --> 00:16:50 wanted to be an encourager, because I wanted to be reciprocated with other
159 00:16:50 --> 00:16:53 people around me, and I wanted to be around a Murder of Crows with like
160 00:16:53 --> 00:17:00 minded goals, aspirations never have a limiting perspective. But I didn't have
161 00:17:00 --> 00:17:06 that in The Murder of Crows and friends I had growing up. I had doubters. I had
162 00:17:06 --> 00:17:16 lazy people, under achievers, drop outs from school, weed heads, and Sad to say,
163 00:17:16 --> 00:17:21 a lot of them aren't even living anymore. Those that are have been
164 00:17:21 --> 00:17:26 married several different times, broken homes, in and out of jail several times.
165 00:17:26 --> 00:17:30 And you probably can relate. You know, you know some people like that when you
166 00:17:30 --> 00:17:35 grew up with them. Now that not all of them are like that, mind you, but the
167 00:17:35 --> 00:17:40 majority of them are. And then ones that didn't do very well in life, they were
168 00:17:40 --> 00:17:48 the ones that doubted me most. And right now you are in that August and
169 00:17:48 --> 00:17:54 everything after moment in your career, you're just now learning. You're just
170 00:17:54 --> 00:17:57 now tapping into, wow, this is a an opportunity for me. I've never thought
171 00:17:57 --> 00:18:04 about doing this before. And you have other people around you that are
172 00:18:04 --> 00:18:10 basically your Murder of Crows, like the expression is birds of a feather flock
173 00:18:10 --> 00:18:21 together. And I didn't flock with them. They flocked with me. And as I gained
174 00:18:21 --> 00:18:28 more in financial stability, I could afford more things. My generosity
175 00:18:28 --> 00:18:31 allowed them to have the things that I was doing when we went through the
176 00:18:31 --> 00:18:35 movies, I paid for everybody, everything, drinks, popcorn, snacks,
177 00:18:35 --> 00:18:39 whatever. And after that, we went bowling, shooting, pool, whatever we
178 00:18:39 --> 00:18:46 did, I paid for it. Now in today's terms, it wasn't that much money. But
179 00:18:46 --> 00:18:56 back then, I was money bags, I was Rockefeller, and eventually I got to the
180 00:18:56 --> 00:18:59 point where I wanted to do that stuff, because it made me feel better than
181 00:18:59 --> 00:19:06 them, because they made me feel less than I really was, and that's how a
182 00:19:06 --> 00:19:14 toxic relationship is balanced. Instead of letting go, you stay attached to it,
183 00:19:17 --> 00:19:20 and that has a detrimental effect on you as a trader, because you're going to be
184 00:19:20 --> 00:19:26 thinking about external things as reasons to do something well, you know,
185 00:19:26 --> 00:19:31 there really isn't a setup in the charts right now, but you haven't really
186 00:19:31 --> 00:19:35 impressed in a long time. Kim, yeah. Kim, I haven't seen her about seven
187 00:19:35 --> 00:19:40 years, but I just saw her on Facebook and they a friend request suggestion
188 00:19:40 --> 00:19:43 came up, and I bet you that would be a wonderful icebreaker. I said, Hey, girl,
189 00:19:44 --> 00:19:48 hey girl, ain't seen you in a while. Hope everything's good, but check this
190 00:19:48 --> 00:19:54 out. Look what I just did in high grade copper. What where are you? Where you
191 00:19:54 --> 00:19:59 been, and what are you talking to me about that sport. It makes you do things
192 00:19:59 --> 00:20:04 and think. Things and active way, and you really are uncharacteristically
193 00:20:04 --> 00:20:11 doing any other time because you're trying to win the affection or respect
194 00:20:11 --> 00:20:21 of people that don't have that same opinion of you and within in the
195 00:20:21 --> 00:20:30 invitation of being on social media, you feel that impulse more than ever. I'm
196 00:20:30 --> 00:20:36 going to show that person. I'm going to show ICT that I've been really studying.
197 00:20:36 --> 00:20:40 I can't wait to go out there every single day and show him and everybody
198 00:20:40 --> 00:20:47 that follows him. What I'm doing, I'm a member of The Murder of Crows, of ICT,
199 00:20:47 --> 00:21:01 the cult the Horde, and probably I'm no escaping this label. I could be, very
200 00:21:01 --> 00:21:06 well be influencing you, not directly, but indirectly, because you feel the
201 00:21:06 --> 00:21:09 need that you have to live up to some expectation that I didn't place on you.
202 00:21:09 --> 00:21:16 And you're going to be doing things outside of your model, or before you
203 00:21:16 --> 00:21:19 even establish the model, you're going to follow, you're just going to dabble
204 00:21:19 --> 00:21:25 here and there and hopefully be able to share something, and they're all wrong,
205 00:21:27 --> 00:21:34 because you're trading for emotional response. And the worst thing that can
206 00:21:34 --> 00:21:38 happen is, if you get it, then you're going to subconsciously think to
207 00:21:38 --> 00:21:42 yourself, well, this is this is success. This is how I define success, because I
208 00:21:42 --> 00:21:47 did this, because I was motivated to get a response. It's stimuli from people on
209 00:21:47 --> 00:21:57 social media, ICT himself, or haters of ICT. And it becomes a quest to do
210 00:21:57 --> 00:22:02 everything backwards, but justifying it before it even happens, and along the
211 00:22:02 --> 00:22:08 way and then rewarding yourself if it happens, and calling that the right
212 00:22:08 --> 00:22:10 process. And it's not
213 00:22:17 --> 00:22:27 using your Murder of Crows you who among your friends and family that you've been
214 00:22:27 --> 00:22:35 tight with up until this very moment, who are the ones that you really wish
215 00:22:35 --> 00:22:39 you had the courage to say, I just don't want to be around them anymore, and I'm
216 00:22:39 --> 00:22:45 going to politely excuse myself from their presence. You know who they are.
217 00:22:46 --> 00:22:54 It might be one for others. It might be many. I can tell you, if you're a young
218 00:22:54 --> 00:23:02 man, this is something you want to really put some thought into because
219 00:23:02 --> 00:23:09 when you hang around certain people again, like the expression says birds of
220 00:23:09 --> 00:23:17 a feather, it means they're all there in a common idea, they flock together. I
221 00:23:17 --> 00:23:26 like ICT concepts, but I don't like ICT. Well, there's a there's a faction of
222 00:23:26 --> 00:23:30 people out there like that. There's a faction out there. There's meanies like
223 00:23:30 --> 00:23:34 maniacs like everything. They want to know what my kitchen drawers look like,
224 00:23:34 --> 00:23:40 and how my utilities in my house arranged, and what's my circuit board
225 00:23:40 --> 00:23:46 and my, you know, everything for my house, and what kind of interior do my
226 00:23:46 --> 00:23:50 cars have, and what kind of underwear do I wear? And I'm not making things up,
227 00:23:50 --> 00:24:00 these are actual questions I get, like, that's fanatic, that's unhealthy. Now I
228 00:24:00 --> 00:24:06 get it. Don't get me wrong, in 1995 I thought to myself, I wonder what Larry
229 00:24:06 --> 00:24:11 Williams house looks like inside. I wonder, does he have common furniture
230 00:24:11 --> 00:24:16 like, you know, everybody else would go and get or do you have elaborate
231 00:24:16 --> 00:24:21 sculptures and things like that? Yeah, I guess, in a way, you know, it's human
232 00:24:21 --> 00:24:29 nature to think that kind of stuff, but we can take it to an extreme. But who in
233 00:24:29 --> 00:24:38 your Murder of Crows needs to fly off and not come back? You got to prune
234 00:24:38 --> 00:24:43 that. If you're in relationships, they're friends, and they're saying,
235 00:24:43 --> 00:24:47 Nah, man, come on. You can go back. You can look at that stuff anytime. Let's go
236 00:24:47 --> 00:24:53 to the club. Let's blow all of our money that we worked all week for trying to
237 00:24:53 --> 00:25:02 get a score with somebody that you don't even know or what. They're caring, or if
238 00:25:02 --> 00:25:08 they're even worth being with. I'm going to go so far as to say this, gentlemen,
239 00:25:09 --> 00:25:15 you're not finding your wife in the club, and ladies, you're not finding
240 00:25:15 --> 00:25:23 your husband in the club, but you are finding that right now moment that tells
241 00:25:23 --> 00:25:33 you you're worth something. They're attracted to me. Yeah, baby, look at me.
242 00:25:36 --> 00:25:41 Dressed to the Nines. I'm on it tonight. Look at me. Everybody's going to
243 00:25:41 --> 00:25:51 recognize me tonight, but when you're trying to become a traitor, you gotta
244 00:25:51 --> 00:25:59 stop thinking like that entirely. You gotta put walls up. You gotta guard your
245 00:25:59 --> 00:26:08 mind. You gotta keep outward stimuli away from you, only letting in the good
246 00:26:08 --> 00:26:13 you got a filter constantly, especially today, I don't, I don't think,
247 00:26:13 --> 00:26:18 personally, no, I know. I know absolutely no, I'm going to be
248 00:26:18 --> 00:26:23 completely honest with you. I don't think I would have been able to be who I
249 00:26:23 --> 00:26:32 am today if social media, as it is today, was like it is in 1992 Now, mind
250 00:26:32 --> 00:26:36 you, we had America Online. We had message boards, but sometimes you had to
251 00:26:36 --> 00:26:40 wait a whole day before somebody responded, because everybody was in
252 00:26:41 --> 00:26:52 everybody else's message board. But right now, right now, everyone has the
253 00:26:52 --> 00:26:58 power of the tongue by pressing some keys and they can flatter you and tell
254 00:26:58 --> 00:27:05 you you are amazing. Look at you. I want to be what you are right now. I wish I
255 00:27:05 --> 00:27:09 could obtain what you have. I wish I could trade just like you. I wish I
256 00:27:09 --> 00:27:12 could trade as long as you hold your trades. I wish I could get in and get
257 00:27:12 --> 00:27:20 out like you. Your precision is unrivaled. And that same person that can
258 00:27:20 --> 00:27:24 have such a glowing comment about one person can turn around and tear the
259 00:27:24 --> 00:27:36 other person's throat out by saying, you are worthless scum, and I can tell you
260 00:27:36 --> 00:27:42 honestly I'm like Teflon. Now, there ain't a person out there that can say
261 00:27:42 --> 00:27:46 anything to me, and I'm going to be upset about it, because I've arrived.
262 00:27:46 --> 00:27:52 I've been here for a long time, and it's a sport for me, but I could never have
263 00:27:52 --> 00:28:02 done that in 1992 93 and 94 I would have been destroyed by the least of my trolls
264 00:28:02 --> 00:28:12 today, then that's how fragile I was. I was frail, easily destroyed. I had no
265 00:28:12 --> 00:28:19 confidence, I had passion, I had drive, but my own friends, my Murder of Crows,
266 00:28:19 --> 00:28:27 did not have any support structure for me. Think about who your Murder of Crows
267 00:28:27 --> 00:28:32 is on social media. Who do you hang around with? What influencers Do you
268 00:28:32 --> 00:28:39 support? How do you behave around the other ones that is part of your click,
269 00:28:39 --> 00:28:45 your flock, your Murder of Crows. Chances are, if you're honest, you
270 00:28:45 --> 00:28:48 probably think to yourself, you know why? I probably should have never said
271 00:28:48 --> 00:28:52 what I said, but I was just trying to get a rise out of one of my friends who
272 00:28:52 --> 00:28:55 said something about this person, and then they said it because you want to
273 00:28:55 --> 00:29:00 jump in, be part of it too. Because, hey, the flocks gotta stick together,
274 00:29:00 --> 00:29:02 right birds of a feather,
275 00:29:09 --> 00:29:12 and I put it off as a young man longer than I should have, because I thought I
276 00:29:12 --> 00:29:16 was being a bad person. I was being an ugly person, when in reality, I was
277 00:29:16 --> 00:29:23 being an ugly person. Because I was around them, they motivated me to behave
278 00:29:23 --> 00:29:30 a certain way that is not characteristic of me, and because it gave me a rise out
279 00:29:30 --> 00:29:36 of people that I wanted to impress. Outside of my murder of Cruz, I kept
280 00:29:36 --> 00:29:44 doing it. I was getting a reward stimuli for doing things that I shouldn't have
281 00:29:44 --> 00:29:51 been doing, kind of like drug addiction, right? Never done drugs in my life.
282 00:29:51 --> 00:29:57 Never drank alcohol to the point of inebriation. And I say that one because
283 00:29:58 --> 00:30:02 I did allow one. Touch my tongue and I spit it after that tasted like rear end.
284 00:30:04 --> 00:30:11 How anybody can drink that stuff? I don't know man, but teach them. All I
285 00:30:11 --> 00:30:24 know is, while I didn't do drugs, I was doing dopamine as a 20 year old, 21 year
286 00:30:24 --> 00:30:34 old, 22 year old, 23 year old, 24 year old, 25 year old, my life was all about
287 00:30:34 --> 00:30:39 getting the stimuli from other people. What could I do today,
288 00:30:40 --> 00:30:47 materialistically, to get a rise out of other people. And none of it was ever
289 00:30:47 --> 00:30:53 worth it. Everything I built up in my mind that, hey, this is this is going to
290 00:30:53 --> 00:30:59 really knock their socks off. Well, now I don't like this car. I only bought
291 00:30:59 --> 00:31:02 this car because everybody on the methods board said this was the car that
292 00:31:02 --> 00:31:06 everybody needs To get. ZR one,
293 00:31:18 --> 00:31:29 nursery rhyme titled Counting Crows, and says one for sorrow. That's the first
294 00:31:29 --> 00:31:35 step you develop as a trader. You're sorrowful, you don't you're not happy
295 00:31:35 --> 00:31:39 where you're at in life. You know you deserve more, you want more. You just
296 00:31:39 --> 00:31:45 don't have a direction to that frame of mind to get going, because you don't
297 00:31:45 --> 00:31:50 want to waste time doing it wrong, but you end up wasting time worrying about
298 00:31:50 --> 00:31:57 doing it wrong. Is that just starting getting a baseline. That's the problem
299 00:31:57 --> 00:32:00 that everybody may 1 come to me. They want to know, what's the perfect recipe
300 00:32:00 --> 00:32:08 going through your content. There really isn't, there isn't one, because you need
301 00:32:08 --> 00:32:17 to have one specific, I guess, characteristic, which is the desire to
302 00:32:17 --> 00:32:23 begin, to start somewhere. Pick one playlist, everything I put out there is
303 00:32:23 --> 00:32:28 going to have something that's going to attach itself to your career if you stay
304 00:32:28 --> 00:32:34 in it long enough. But there isn't a perfect this is where everyone should
305 00:32:34 --> 00:32:41 start. But we start in a position of sorrow. We don't have what we want. We
306 00:32:41 --> 00:32:46 don't have enough. We want to live a better life. We want to provide better
307 00:32:46 --> 00:32:59 for our family. Second person. Nursery rhyme is two for joy. We try to trade
308 00:33:00 --> 00:33:05 and learn how to trade so that we can have a live, live a life of joy, afford
309 00:33:05 --> 00:33:11 to find your things, go to places we've never would have other been able to ever
310 00:33:11 --> 00:33:20 visit, be happy, because money, money, I can tell you right now, doesn't buy
311 00:33:20 --> 00:33:26 anybody happiness. It does bring with a little bit of anxiety, because you're
312 00:33:26 --> 00:33:31 always fearful of people out on the road driving in front of you, panic breaking
313 00:33:31 --> 00:33:38 so you can rear end them. And I drive like an old man, unless I'm in my vets
314 00:33:38 --> 00:33:46 by myself and kicks or great white or motley crew, if they're playing, then
315 00:33:46 --> 00:33:50 I'm probably getting in a bad way and probably gonna get myself in trouble,
316 00:33:50 --> 00:34:00 but otherwise, I drive like an old man. But I don't think that what you're going
317 00:34:00 --> 00:34:03 to go into trading if you've just recently started, and if you're honest,
318 00:34:03 --> 00:34:08 you think back to why you first got into trading. This is what I'm gonna do. This
319 00:34:08 --> 00:34:14 is why I'm doing it. This is my whole structure behind what makes me a future
320 00:34:14 --> 00:34:18 successful trader. I'm gonna live like this way, and my my ideals are gonna be
321 00:34:18 --> 00:34:23 around this principle or these pillars and the ones that have finally arrived
322 00:34:23 --> 00:34:29 at profitability, if they look back, they probably think to themselves, yeah,
323 00:34:30 --> 00:34:34 this isn't what I thought it was. And my perspective on what was motivational in
324 00:34:34 --> 00:34:43 beginning, I don't hold those same views now, because you're there. The third
325 00:34:43 --> 00:34:56 verse in that nursery rhyme is three for girls I was treating with the pursuit of
326 00:34:57 --> 00:35:03 being worth wanting to be with. It because I would have more money, because
327 00:35:03 --> 00:35:10 I came from a impoverished upbringing, broken household, no father figure in my
328 00:35:10 --> 00:35:17 life, consistently, a murderous father, literally, a murderous father who should
329 00:35:17 --> 00:35:23 have never been recently let out of jail. Mother didn't want me, so I had
330 00:35:23 --> 00:35:31 the perfect comeback story foundation Donna. I had it in it. I lived it. I was
331 00:35:31 --> 00:35:36 sorrowful, broken, spirited. I was always daydreaming of future success, of
332 00:35:36 --> 00:35:42 this and that. I lived vicariously through movie characters and a lot of
333 00:35:42 --> 00:35:47 the things in my presentations, I tap into my boyhood, that child inside me
334 00:35:47 --> 00:35:58 that no one should ever let grow up and my perspectives are rooted in things
335 00:35:58 --> 00:36:10 that Were going to make me better than what I was. In deference to the other
336 00:36:10 --> 00:36:17 part of my audience, the fourth verse is four for boys, so we're Counting Crows.
337 00:36:17 --> 00:36:24 You want to hang out with the boys, you want to impress them, or ladies, you
338 00:36:24 --> 00:36:28 want the men to appreciate you, because you can earn it on your own. I'm going
339 00:36:30 --> 00:36:35 to tell you something ladies and a lot of my female students have learned this
340 00:36:35 --> 00:36:43 the hard way. Successful women are intimidating to men because most men are
341 00:36:43 --> 00:36:50 lazy. Most men won't put in the effort that you are doing right now, and the
342 00:36:50 --> 00:36:59 ones that are making lots of money, you make men insecure. And I actually
343 00:36:59 --> 00:37:05 counsel my female students to never tell the men that they're dating what they
344 00:37:05 --> 00:37:13 earn. Sure you can act like one of the old ladies on Facebook, part of the
345 00:37:13 --> 00:37:17 investment club. Yeah, we're, we're part of an investment club. You tell it to a
346 00:37:17 --> 00:37:21 guy like that, they're like, oh, yeah, good luck with that. I don't want to
347 00:37:21 --> 00:37:25 hear about it. It's not intimidating. It sounds like a bunch of old ladies
348 00:37:25 --> 00:37:28 sitting around cutting coupons and trading them off. I won't use this. What
349 00:37:28 --> 00:37:34 do you have that's not intimidating to men, but tell them that you're making
350 00:37:34 --> 00:37:41 $100,000 a month and they're going to shrivel up and they're not going to want
351 00:37:41 --> 00:37:46 to be around you, because they're going to feel insignificant. And it's sad,
352 00:37:46 --> 00:37:54 man. Men are like that. We're wired that way. Honestly, if, if I was transported
353 00:37:54 --> 00:37:58 back to being 20 year old, 20 years old, and I was dating someone that was making
354 00:37:58 --> 00:38:04 crazy amounts of money like that, I would be highly insecure as a man. So
355 00:38:04 --> 00:38:09 ladies, in my opinion, this is one thing that you don't have to be honest about,
356 00:38:09 --> 00:38:15 and I don't think it's a problem if you never bring it up. You're not lying.
357 00:38:15 --> 00:38:20 Your finances are not everybody's business, even the person you sleep with
358 00:38:24 --> 00:38:26 now your spouse, that changes it.
359 00:38:32 --> 00:38:37 But all of these factors, as we count through these crows, they're all
360 00:38:37 --> 00:38:46 influential in the fifth verse in that Counting Crows, nursery rhyme is five
361 00:38:46 --> 00:38:54 for silver. To me, I interpret that as well. If I don't get everything I want
362 00:38:54 --> 00:38:59 out of life, this is what I hope I at least get, like second second place. If
363 00:38:59 --> 00:39:08 I get this, then at least I can say it was worth it. That's Plan B. There's no
364 00:39:08 --> 00:39:13 plan B if you go in thinking to yourself, well, this is the consolation
365 00:39:13 --> 00:39:17 prize. This is the participation award for me, at least trying, you have
366 00:39:17 --> 00:39:20 already limited your perspective and your your efforts are right now, defined
367 00:39:20 --> 00:39:27 by this is all you're willing to accept. So are you really aiming for above and
368 00:39:27 --> 00:39:36 beyond that? No, because you've already fortified an acceptance of, well, this
369 00:39:36 --> 00:39:42 is, this is this will be good enough, sure I didn't make enough to quit my
370 00:39:42 --> 00:39:48 job. Sure, sure, sure. You know I didn't make enough to make all my ends meet,
371 00:39:49 --> 00:39:58 but this is enough for the rest of my career. You're limiting yourself. That's
372 00:39:58 --> 00:40:02 what I was doing by hoping I could win back. Next life. Instead of saying,
373 00:40:03 --> 00:40:10 imagine how much more pleasurable life would be if you let go of that pain and
374 00:40:10 --> 00:40:16 move on and leave her to her decision. She's damaged goods. Now you can't fix
375 00:40:16 --> 00:40:23 her. You tried everything. You can't fix her. And I don't want to spend a life
376 00:40:23 --> 00:40:30 trying to mend somebody else and never really live my own life. Some of you
377 00:40:31 --> 00:40:38 just heard that in itself, preaches you're trying to hold somebody together,
378 00:40:38 --> 00:40:43 and you're not even live in your own life. You're trying to hold a broken
379 00:40:43 --> 00:40:47 relationship together, and it's not meant to stay together. You're being
380 00:40:47 --> 00:40:52 shown the exit ramp, but you're saying, No, I'm a failure. If I leave it,
381 00:40:53 --> 00:40:57 they'll be right in all the things they said about me if I leave this toxic
382 00:40:57 --> 00:41:03 relationship, both sides. Folks, young men, young women, maybe even older
383 00:41:03 --> 00:41:15 folks, the six verses six for gold, that's what you're aiming for. First
384 00:41:15 --> 00:41:21 place, silver. Second. Nobody wants second. You always have the same view
385 00:41:22 --> 00:41:28 when you're second place, you get to see the backside of the guy in front. When I
386 00:41:28 --> 00:41:31 started trading, I didn't want to see the backside of anybody else. I
387 00:41:31 --> 00:41:35 immediately set my sights on who's the biggest one right now. That was Mr.
388 00:41:35 --> 00:41:43 Williams, and I signed it in my heart that I'm going to be the one that takes
389 00:41:43 --> 00:41:56 that away, and you will see it. I wanted to have a home, Freedom money,
390 00:41:56 --> 00:42:02 disposable money, silly money. And I wanted to never worry about price tags.
391 00:42:02 --> 00:42:09 I wanted to go wherever I wanted to go, to drop a hat just like that. That was
392 00:42:09 --> 00:42:17 my goal. And I didn't want just one home, and I didn't want just one car,
393 00:42:20 --> 00:42:30 because I grew up impoverished, you can tell honestly. You can tell when people
394 00:42:30 --> 00:42:42 get money, how do they behave? What do they start buying? They fill in those
395 00:42:42 --> 00:42:45 gaps and those holes in their heart, where they were hurt, where they were
396 00:42:45 --> 00:42:50 embarrassed. For me, I didn't have a car when all my friends growing up, they all
397 00:42:50 --> 00:42:57 had cars. I was the last guy. I was basically the scrub that TLC talks about
398 00:42:57 --> 00:43:02 in their song. I don't want no scrub hanging out the passenger side of their
399 00:43:02 --> 00:43:07 best friends, right? Trying to holler at me. That's that was me. And some of you
400 00:43:07 --> 00:43:13 think I'm the fly guy. Man ICT must have been this. I was the last one in my
401 00:43:13 --> 00:43:19 Murder of Crows to get a car. That's who you're listening to, the guy that can
402 00:43:20 --> 00:43:23 tell you every single candlestick where it's going to go next. To go next and
403 00:43:23 --> 00:43:28 where to find the next million but back then, you would have never recognized
404 00:43:28 --> 00:43:35 me. You never would have recognized me. But underneath the skin, I had a bird
405 00:43:35 --> 00:43:45 nesting, and it was ready to spread its wings. And my goal was to get to the
406 00:43:45 --> 00:43:53 gold standard of living. And by the grace of God, I have achieved that. You
407 00:43:53 --> 00:43:59 need to be setting your sights on something that what is your gold level
408 00:43:59 --> 00:44:06 achievement? What's the highest degree of what are you trying to obtain in this
409 00:44:06 --> 00:44:13 career as trading? And it needs to be lofty. It needs to be high up. These are
410 00:44:13 --> 00:44:18 goals. They're not well, you know, I just want to get this low, easy, hanging
411 00:44:18 --> 00:44:22 fruit objective of life. That's how you're trading to get consistently
412 00:44:22 --> 00:44:28 profitable. But in life, you gotta be aiming high all the time. Don't plateau.
413 00:44:28 --> 00:44:33 Don't be happy with what you've just succeeded that just recently, and say to
414 00:44:33 --> 00:44:37 yourself, well, you know, achieve that, because if you stop growing and stop
415 00:44:37 --> 00:44:44 reaching, you're going to wither. You won't remain flexible. You won't remain
416 00:44:44 --> 00:44:54 strong. And if you feel like you've done everything in life, wow, wow. What a
417 00:44:55 --> 00:45:00 what a terrible existence that would feel like, where's the purpose? And like
418 00:45:00 --> 00:45:00 then
419 00:45:06 --> 00:45:16 I had opinion of me being way up here in a fluence, and I couldn't reach it. I
420 00:45:18 --> 00:45:27 couldn't reach it until I change my perspective, God, if you allow me, then
421 00:45:27 --> 00:45:29 I will do this.
422 00:45:31 --> 00:45:37 I will share, I will teach, I'll provide, I will give you.
423 00:45:39 --> 00:45:45 Want to pray that it's answered. Easy, easily take yourself out of what you're
424 00:45:45 --> 00:45:49 asking for and make somebody else the recipient of what you're praying for.
425 00:45:50 --> 00:45:52 God answers those prayers,
426 00:45:55 --> 00:46:01 not God. Please, please, please, please, please, please, God, let me make
427 00:46:01 --> 00:46:06 $100,000 payout. Please, God. I hope God uses ICT to teach me how to be a six
428 00:46:06 --> 00:46:07 figure trader.
429 00:46:08 --> 00:46:12 I honestly believe. I mean this whole heart I don't believe God's in the
430 00:46:12 --> 00:46:18 business of answering ICT, least prayers like that. Okay, I'm certain that he's
431 00:46:18 --> 00:46:25 not thrilled to hear my name come up that many times. Number one, two, you're
432 00:46:25 --> 00:46:32 making about you. You're being a toxic member of your Murder of Crows, and you
433 00:46:32 --> 00:46:41 don't even realize it. You're being selfish, self centered. Which brings us
434 00:46:41 --> 00:46:52 to crow number seven. Seven for a secret never to be told. For me, for the
435 00:46:52 --> 00:47:00 longest time, I hid the difficulty that I had to endure learning all this stuff.
436 00:47:00 --> 00:47:04 When my friends would say, man, look at this guy. He does this, man, this guy
437 00:47:04 --> 00:47:10 just made $30,000 last week trading soybeans, and they're like, What is the
438 00:47:10 --> 00:47:16 soybean? I was like, Yeah, that's right. That's why I did that. I did that. Yo,
439 00:47:17 --> 00:47:20 like, you see what I'm doing in lean hogs. Lean hogs. Yeah, man, you Amen.
440 00:47:26 --> 00:47:32 I never admitted to my friends, they never heard me, ever one time talk about
441 00:47:32 --> 00:47:38 the anxiety attacks, they never heard me talk about those sleepless nights of me
442 00:47:38 --> 00:47:44 literally crying tears, why I was so frustrated where I couldn't get to a
443 00:47:44 --> 00:47:53 plateau beyond where I was stuck at. I never admitted those things, because I
444 00:47:53 --> 00:47:59 felt back then as a 20 year old, if I did, I would give them the blade while I
445 00:47:59 --> 00:48:04 laid my head on it, and some of them would have done it just because misery
446 00:48:04 --> 00:48:07 loves company. They would love nothing more to have been able to say, You know
447 00:48:07 --> 00:48:12 what? I'm jealous of you, Michael, I'm jealous of whoever you are. Put your
448 00:48:12 --> 00:48:18 name in it. That's what most of your family members and friends really think
449 00:48:18 --> 00:48:24 of you. Look how toxic ugly people are on social media. These people would
450 00:48:24 --> 00:48:29 never say half the thing, 1/10 of the things they say to other people online,
451 00:48:29 --> 00:48:34 if they were standing right in front of them, I know absolutely 100% of
452 00:48:34 --> 00:48:37 everybody's ever said anything about me would never do that if I don't stand in
453 00:48:37 --> 00:48:41 front of them. I'm a God fearing man, but I would choke slam them right there,
454 00:48:41 --> 00:48:45 just like that, put my boot right on their neck, and they ask them, Do you
455 00:48:45 --> 00:48:49 really want me to let you up? Because that's how it really would go down.
456 00:48:54 --> 00:48:59 But you have a secret, and if you don't have one now, you're going to get one
457 00:48:59 --> 00:49:08 coming up as a trader, it's the things that you failed at most doing it a
458 00:49:08 --> 00:49:14 secret that'll never be told. And guess what happens when you let that out?
459 00:49:17 --> 00:49:21 Guess what happens when you stop guarding that and hiding it inside
460 00:49:21 --> 00:49:29 yourself and just say, This is what I used to wrestle with. This is what used
461 00:49:29 --> 00:49:35 to hold me back, and I have empowered it for so long by keeping it inside of my
462 00:49:35 --> 00:49:42 heart, causing me regret never being content with any measure of success and
463 00:49:42 --> 00:49:50 and growth. You gotta let that out. And where do you let it out? At you start by
464 00:49:50 --> 00:49:57 putting it in your journal. Your journal is your future self. You're having a
465 00:49:57 --> 00:50:03 conversation with your future self. You. And you got to put that down in written
466 00:50:03 --> 00:50:07 word. Whether you type it electronically or you do the high touch over high tech,
467 00:50:07 --> 00:50:15 like I do. I use a pen, but you have to record that, because it's therapy. It
468 00:50:16 --> 00:50:21 will allow you to release it, maybe all together, not right away, but gradually
469 00:50:21 --> 00:50:26 you'll let it go, but you're going to be so thankful that you recognize that
470 00:50:26 --> 00:50:29 years later, and you read that journal, and you think to yourself, you know
471 00:50:29 --> 00:50:32 what? I don't think that way anymore. I don't feel that way anymore. I don't
472 00:50:32 --> 00:50:36 feel defeated. I don't feel guarded all the time like someone could see the
473 00:50:36 --> 00:50:42 right words to me and cause me to crack and crumble right there, because you've
474 00:50:42 --> 00:50:47 arrived and you stop guarding something that's toxic. You're standing guard over
475 00:50:47 --> 00:50:51 something that's hurtful to you, that you're holding on to, some limiting
476 00:50:51 --> 00:50:57 factor that you've embraced, that you don't want anybody to know about. You
477 00:50:57 --> 00:51:04 hide that, and that's why people that have that, when they get money, they buy
478 00:51:04 --> 00:51:15 stuff, they're filling those voids. I grew up with a lot of a lot of men that
479 00:51:15 --> 00:51:20 came from the same type of background. And are, are you? Our basic neighborhood
480 00:51:20 --> 00:51:26 was divided. We had the white trash where I was from, and then we had Maple
481 00:51:26 --> 00:51:32 Crest, which was predominantly African American. And I had friends in both I
482 00:51:32 --> 00:51:35 had friends from my childhood that was mad at me because I had black friends
483 00:51:35 --> 00:51:39 and I had black friends who had friends that said they shouldn't be hanging with
484 00:51:39 --> 00:51:45 me. So I came from a neighborhood where they hang the Confederate flag, and
485 00:51:46 --> 00:51:52 that's the way it was, and that's not what I was, and I watched some of them.
486 00:51:54 --> 00:52:05 My real first friendship with a black friend was Alexander. This man today is
487 00:52:07 --> 00:52:14 a wonderful, upstanding person that literally hit every measure that I
488 00:52:14 --> 00:52:20 thought he would hit, and well beyond. But if you heard him speak, close your
489 00:52:20 --> 00:52:27 eyes and heard him speak, you would never see color. You would never see
490 00:52:27 --> 00:52:35 race. You would hear this young man is such a positive spirit, so encouraging.
491 00:52:36 --> 00:52:40 Everybody wanted to be on his team. Everybody wanted to hang out with him.
492 00:52:42 --> 00:52:48 And you know what? He didn't have much. He didn't come in with Jordans. He
493 00:52:51 --> 00:52:59 didn't come in with all the drip. He is how he carried himself. I wanted to be
494 00:52:59 --> 00:53:06 like Alexander. I wanted to be like Him. And when break dancing was coming up,
495 00:53:06 --> 00:53:10 and that came up when I was a kid, you know, he's the one taught me how to put
496 00:53:10 --> 00:53:14 the duct tape on my knees and and spin on my hand and do all kinds of break
497 00:53:14 --> 00:53:19 dancing stuff that, wait man, would probably kill me if I tried to. We did
498 00:53:19 --> 00:53:24 all that stuff together and break dancing brought everybody together.
499 00:53:25 --> 00:53:29 There was no division of white, black, Asian, this and Asian that. It's just
500 00:53:29 --> 00:53:32 everybody came together, just like music brings everybody together.
501 00:53:38 --> 00:53:47 But I've watched him start a small little business on the side. On the
502 00:53:47 --> 00:53:53 weekend, he didn't play sports and go into a travel team like that. He ran his
503 00:53:53 --> 00:53:55 own lawn care business.
504 00:53:57 --> 00:54:04 You know what he did with the money? He bought every pair of shoes that he
505 00:54:04 --> 00:54:11 loved. This guy had a room full of shoes, just shoes,
506 00:54:12 --> 00:54:18 and I asked him. I said, Well, what do you mean all these shoes for? He goes,
507 00:54:20 --> 00:54:24 Well, you seen what I wore when we were going to school. Sometimes they were
508 00:54:24 --> 00:54:28 beat up. They were dogged out. I said, Yeah, I've never paid that much
509 00:54:28 --> 00:54:32 attention to it, because I was wearing beaters too. Because, yeah, but I didn't
510 00:54:32 --> 00:54:38 want that. I looked at everybody else in school that had the nicer shoes, high
511 00:54:38 --> 00:54:49 top, Nikes. I wanted that. I wanted that. And he cried. She said, now I can
512 00:54:49 --> 00:54:54 afford it so I have more than I ever could dream. What is what was he doing?
513 00:54:55 --> 00:55:01 He's doing patchwork and feeling holes in his heart. I. And that's exactly what
514 00:55:01 --> 00:55:06 people do today. You want to see someone's real side. You want to really
515 00:55:06 --> 00:55:11 know who they are and how how long they've been hurting. Watch how they
516 00:55:11 --> 00:55:18 spend their money, cars, clothing, whatever, the things that they hurt from
517 00:55:18 --> 00:55:22 like for me, that's why I own more than one car, because I didn't have one. I
518 00:55:22 --> 00:55:28 was the last one among my friends. All these things are characteristics of
519 00:55:28 --> 00:55:35 someone that has finally found a way to put patches over what they've been
520 00:55:35 --> 00:55:40 dealing with, that secret that's never to be told, those hurtful things if you
521 00:55:40 --> 00:55:46 knew me, if you really knew me, this is what you would think about me if I
522 00:55:46 --> 00:55:50 shared that and you think it's a weakness, it's human nature. Everybody,
523 00:55:51 --> 00:55:55 everyone has frailties, everyone has shortcomings. Everyone has a time when
524 00:55:55 --> 00:56:04 they didn't do something or have access to something. I grew up in impoverished
525 00:56:04 --> 00:56:13 conditions, and I wanted to have nice things, but I learned as a 20 year old
526 00:56:13 --> 00:56:18 by having nice things and flaunting it. Everybody thinks you are Rick with a P
527 00:56:18 --> 00:56:27 in front of it. And I was, I was because I was guarding that secret never to be
528 00:56:27 --> 00:56:33 told. I didn't want them to understand how frail I was, even when I was
529 00:56:33 --> 00:56:37 starting to make money, if my friends would have turned to me said, Listen,
530 00:56:38 --> 00:56:45 you take this money away and you're nothing, that would have destroyed me. I
531 00:56:45 --> 00:56:50 would have had no defense against that, because I was using my new found money
532 00:56:50 --> 00:56:58 making as a definition of I'm better than you. When I was so far beneath
533 00:56:58 --> 00:57:07 them, they were stronger for being able to tolerate How arrogant I was. And some
534 00:57:07 --> 00:57:14 of you young men can't wait to be in that driver's seat, in that position in
535 00:57:14 --> 00:57:17 life, and you don't even realize what you're carrying right now is going to be
536 00:57:18 --> 00:57:23 detrimental to how you behave, how you're going to be perceived, and I'm
537 00:57:23 --> 00:57:28 thankful. I'm thankful I got humbled, and early on, I'm thankful even probably
538 00:57:28 --> 00:57:33 sounds crazy coming out of my mouth, right? But that's just me stirring the
539 00:57:33 --> 00:57:38 pot just to get people talking. But when I talk to you in the spaces like this,
540 00:57:38 --> 00:57:47 even last week too, they're truth. There's that's the real me. But again, I
541 00:57:47 --> 00:57:51 wouldn't be so comfortable to talk like this if in front, if we were in front of
542 00:57:55 --> 00:58:01 one another, because I still carry those things, those memories, those driving
543 00:58:01 --> 00:58:13 decision making, thoughts, intrusive thoughts, all of that has a lasting
544 00:58:13 --> 00:58:20 impression on people. They cut deep, and those wounds don't entirely heal. And
545 00:58:20 --> 00:58:27 the way I keep myself humble is I share them. I share those things with you.
546 00:58:29 --> 00:58:36 Because, number one, you need to remember that I am human. I have
547 00:58:36 --> 00:58:41 frailties just like you. I put my pants on the same way you do. And it hasn't
548 00:58:41 --> 00:58:45 always been easy. When I do things and I teach something, I show something, I
549 00:58:45 --> 00:58:51 execute in front of you, that seems easy now, but it was not easy all the time.
550 00:58:53 --> 00:58:56 And there was many a nights where I believed that I was never going to be
551 00:58:56 --> 00:59:00 able to do what I could. Have never been told that I could do what I can do today
552 00:59:00 --> 00:59:06 back then, even at the height of my anxiety, conquering power of I'm able to
553 00:59:06 --> 00:59:09 do everything now, where nothing could go wrong. Now, I felt like I knew
554 00:59:09 --> 00:59:15 everything back then, what I have right now, I didn't even dream was possible
555 00:59:15 --> 00:59:26 back then. And I'm thankful like I'm thankful God humbled me in my 20s. He
556 00:59:26 --> 00:59:30 did it the right way, when, back then, I was praying that he would change the way
557 00:59:30 --> 00:59:34 he was doing it. And please, just let me be successful. Please, just let me do it
558 00:59:34 --> 00:59:37 right, right from the first time. I don't want to, I don't want to make any
559 00:59:37 --> 00:59:43 mistakes, because my family says this about me. They don't believe I'm going
560 00:59:43 --> 00:59:49 to do it, and I believe what they're saying is true, and I need you to change
561 00:59:49 --> 00:59:55 my perspective. Well, you got to be careful how you ask God to be a part of
562 00:59:55 --> 01:00:01 your life. I have found when you ask. God for courage. He gets you in
563 01:00:01 --> 01:00:06 positions where you're going to be scared a lot, because how do you develop
564 01:00:06 --> 01:00:15 courage? By going through something and be desensitized to it, asking, God,
565 01:00:15 --> 01:00:20 Lord, please give me patience. Oh, don't ask for that one. Don't ask for that
566 01:00:20 --> 01:00:24 one, because he's going to let you have it. He's going to give you so many
567 01:00:24 --> 01:00:29 things pounding on you, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. You want to learn
568 01:00:29 --> 01:00:35 patience. Okay? I'm going to put you through it because there's no better way
569 01:00:35 --> 01:00:37 of learning something, but by going through it, you
570 01:00:43 --> 01:00:53 I ask God to give you the vision to see good. Ask God to give you the power, the
571 01:00:53 --> 01:01:02 skill, the characteristic as a human being, to see good. And I'm confident
572 01:01:02 --> 01:01:06 what he's going to do is show you everything in yourself that's wrong,
573 01:01:06 --> 01:01:15 because that's what he did with me. That's exactly what he did with me. And
574 01:01:15 --> 01:01:26 I was embarrassed, ashamed, how I acted, how I spoke, what I thought, how I
575 01:01:26 --> 01:01:33 conducted myself. And if you're not careful, young men, if you get the
576 01:01:33 --> 01:01:38 success that you're looking for and a meteoric rise, and you have affluence,
577 01:01:38 --> 01:01:41 and in this industry, you get notoriety pretty quick, by what you earn. If
578 01:01:44 --> 01:01:51 you're not careful, everybody around you will change you, and you'll become
579 01:01:51 --> 01:01:54 something that you never imagined. And that doesn't mean it's good you
580 01:02:03 --> 01:02:12 in my mid 20s, not too long after separating from the young lady, I was
581 01:02:12 --> 01:02:21 given attention to this week and last week, I stopped thinking about being
582 01:02:21 --> 01:02:31 part of a Murder of Crows, and I wanted to be a murder of one. That means I
583 01:02:31 --> 01:02:38 wasn't trying to be a bird of a feather who flocks together. I wanted to be an
584 01:02:38 --> 01:02:49 eagle. I wanted to be an eagle. They fly higher than a crow. They fight. They fly
585 01:02:49 --> 01:03:03 faster than crow. And while crows are very, very adept to being intelligent.
586 01:03:03 --> 01:03:07 If you ever study the crows intelligence and problem solving skills, it's a
587 01:03:07 --> 01:03:10 fascinating thing. I love crows. I've always been fascinated with crows.
588 01:03:11 --> 01:03:17 Growing up in Maryland, everybody grows corn around here, and you see them all
589 01:03:17 --> 01:03:22 the time. They come outside your door, waking you up, crawling all the time,
590 01:03:23 --> 01:03:35 but I loved it. I love them, but I changed my perspective to like an eagle.
591 01:03:35 --> 01:03:44 And here's some funny facts about eagles. Did you know that an eagle can
592 01:03:44 --> 01:03:50 see a quarter, a 25 cent piece in American currency. If you flip it up in
593 01:03:50 --> 01:03:56 the air at one end of a football field and let it fall down, have an eagle at
594 01:03:56 --> 01:04:03 the other end of the football field, it can see that quarter, it has telescopic
595 01:04:03 --> 01:04:11 vision. Did you know that that's amazing, isn't it? But they say there's
596 01:04:11 --> 01:04:20 no creator. Did you know that an eagle, when it finds a mate, the female Eagle?
597 01:04:21 --> 01:04:28 Well, I will get a twig, like a small branch. It'll fly up really, really,
598 01:04:28 --> 01:04:32 really high. It'll circle around, wait for the male eagle to go up to where it
599 01:04:32 --> 01:04:36 is, and it'll basically wait for the male eagle to grab the twig that's in
600 01:04:36 --> 01:04:45 the claws of the female, and then it stops flapping its wings and starts free
601 01:04:45 --> 01:04:55 falling, and it judges the male eagle on his ability to hold on to that twig
602 01:04:56 --> 01:05:02 until it gets so close to the ground before it lets go. No, the male eagles
603 01:05:02 --> 01:05:07 that let go too, too quickly for the female, well, that's her proof that he's
604 01:05:07 --> 01:05:11 not. He's not the one for me. I'm not going to make babies. And eaglets with
605 01:05:11 --> 01:05:18 this one, they're not committed enough. Now, why would an eight Why would an
606 01:05:18 --> 01:05:27 eagle do this ritual? Because in the nest, once the female Eagle gives birth,
607 01:05:28 --> 01:05:34 if that small eaglet falls out of the nest, that female eagle has expectations
608 01:05:34 --> 01:05:37 on the male, you better go down there and fly and catch it before it hits the
609 01:05:37 --> 01:05:45 ground, and if it's going to give up before it should, that's not the right
610 01:05:45 --> 01:05:55 father. So she has high expectations. That's exactly what I saw in Shannon.
611 01:05:56 --> 01:06:00 She had high expectations, and I wanted to live up to that. See she changed me.
612 01:06:00 --> 01:06:11 She was a dividing factor in my life and who I was becoming. But sadly, eagles,
613 01:06:12 --> 01:06:17 when they get to a certain age, or if they lose their mate, because they only
614 01:06:17 --> 01:06:20 have one mate for their entire life, once they mate with one eagle, they
615 01:06:20 --> 01:06:24 never do it again with another they don't rock around find, oh, yeah. All
616 01:06:24 --> 01:06:28 got to do is find someone with a twig, hang out with them a little while, show
617 01:06:28 --> 01:06:34 them, you know, a carnival ride. Now get get me another one. That's not what they
618 01:06:34 --> 01:06:41 do. They only have one mate for one lifetime. That's it. That's principally
619 01:06:41 --> 01:06:45 oriented living in it. Oh, Michael, you're talking about a bird. What's this
620 01:06:45 --> 01:06:48 got to do with anything? It's everything to do with how we should look at things.
621 01:06:52 --> 01:07:03 But when they lose their meat, they stop flying. When they stop flying, they
622 01:07:03 --> 01:07:10 start walking on their claws, which they're not designed to do, they stop
623 01:07:10 --> 01:07:17 using their beak, and their feathers don't hold up because they're not
624 01:07:17 --> 01:07:25 flying, and they go through a period called molting, and they start getting
625 01:07:25 --> 01:07:30 this calcium build up on their beak, and their claws and their feet start
626 01:07:30 --> 01:07:38 deforming, and their feathers start to fall out. And most times, when an eagle
627 01:07:38 --> 01:07:44 gets in that situation, they're either easily taken by a predator, or they just
628 01:07:44 --> 01:07:51 die because they can't hunt anymore. And at that point, the ego has to make a
629 01:07:51 --> 01:07:58 choice, except it's demise, or it has to do something that's very, very painful.
630 01:08:00 --> 01:08:06 It needs to beat its beak against the hard surface, like a rock, to beat the
631 01:08:06 --> 01:08:17 calcium off of it. It needs to start trying to fly again. And sometimes, an
632 01:08:17 --> 01:08:24 eagle like that, other eagles that are still flying above, they notice it, and
633 01:08:24 --> 01:08:28 they go down, and they encourage them. It's beautiful. There's documentaries
634 01:08:28 --> 01:08:34 out there that show. It's a wonderful testimony of encouragement. And they fly
635 01:08:34 --> 01:08:38 the top of them. They drop fish to them so they can eat till they get their
636 01:08:38 --> 01:08:46 strength built up. They're not like hyenas who would cannibalize and just
637 01:08:46 --> 01:08:51 say, Well, you know, you're weak. We're going to take you out. Eagle thinks
638 01:08:51 --> 01:09:02 differently. I'm not surprised why the Lord didn't use well that he used Eagle,
639 01:09:03 --> 01:09:10 we shall mount up like eagles. Why did he say crow or ostrich or buzzard?
640 01:09:13 --> 01:09:26 Because eagles are majestic. Eagles the insignia of the Gospel of John. So I
641 01:09:26 --> 01:09:29 stopped trying to live like a crow who was crafty and smart and a good problem
642 01:09:29 --> 01:09:43 solver. I left a Murder of Crows became a murder of one, just one. And then I
643 01:09:43 --> 01:09:52 changed my feather. I look at life differently today. I appreciate the
644 01:09:52 --> 01:09:56 adversities I had, the things that you're praying to get through right now.
645 01:09:56 --> 01:10:01 Get to it quickly. You're going. Thankful for going through it later on.
646 01:10:02 --> 01:10:07 It doesn't feel like that right now. It does not feel like what you're going
647 01:10:07 --> 01:10:16 through is worth the trouble. But ask anybody that's finally arrived that's
648 01:10:16 --> 01:10:20 doing what they thought that they could do and wanted to do, and they can make
649 01:10:20 --> 01:10:28 their ends meet and more. It's funny how they look back like a mother during
650 01:10:29 --> 01:10:33 childbirth. They're crying. This is uncomfortable. Can't wait to get this
651 01:10:33 --> 01:10:39 baby out of me. I watched it happen. I'm thankful God, I'm thankful God didn't
652 01:10:39 --> 01:10:49 make me a woman, I don't know that's a lot, but as soon as that baby comes out
653 01:10:49 --> 01:10:57 and goes in their arms, they forget the pain. I've asked the mother of my
654 01:10:57 --> 01:11:01 children like, aren't you afraid that we're getting ready to go through that
655 01:11:01 --> 01:11:05 process together of making a baby, and you got to go through all that pain. She
656 01:11:05 --> 01:11:08 said, Yeah, I'm not looking forward to it, but then you have, I never hear a
657 01:11:08 --> 01:11:13 complaint about it after the baby was born. They don't, they don't, they don't
658 01:11:13 --> 01:11:19 think about it, because the joy of the baby in their arms overshadows all that.
659 01:11:19 --> 01:11:25 That's exactly what it's going to be like when you arrive. That's exactly
660 01:11:25 --> 01:11:29 what it's going to feel like when you look back and you know what, I'm
661 01:11:29 --> 01:11:33 successful. It doesn't matter who didn't believe me before. It doesn't matter the
662 01:11:33 --> 01:11:36 pain that I put myself through. It doesn't matter all the adversities and
663 01:11:36 --> 01:11:39 the time limits that I placed myself that had to keep being pushed out
664 01:11:39 --> 01:11:43 further and further. It doesn't matter all that stuff that was just growing
665 01:11:43 --> 01:11:49 pains. And I can look back, and you're going to be able to look back too and
666 01:11:49 --> 01:11:54 say, You know what? I made it bigger than it really was, because it's just
667 01:11:54 --> 01:11:58 impatience. You want it to stop. You want the easy living. You want the easy
668 01:11:58 --> 01:12:02 success. And if it's easy, success, it ain't worth doing.
669 01:12:04 --> 01:12:14 It ain't worth doing. If it's easy, would you be would you be satisfied?
670 01:12:15 --> 01:12:23 Would you feel successful? If all I ever promised that you would earn is 100 to
671 01:12:23 --> 01:12:28 200 hours a week. That's the best you could arrive at. And you got to that
672 01:12:28 --> 01:12:33 stage where, okay, yeah, he said I could do this, and now I'm doing it. Are you
673 01:12:33 --> 01:12:42 gonna be satisfied with that? No, no, it's equivalent to me writing a book
674 01:12:42 --> 01:12:49 titled How to avoid losing trades and losing market conditions. Would you buy
675 01:12:49 --> 01:12:54 a book like that if it was sitting next to a book that said all of my best
676 01:12:54 --> 01:13:03 models? I know what book you're going to buy, but you can't judge a book by its
677 01:13:03 --> 01:13:14 cover. All the things that you're going through right now, all of it, it may not
678 01:13:14 --> 01:13:18 be what you hoped for. It may not be how you imagined it was going to be. Maybe
679 01:13:18 --> 01:13:20 you thought it's gonna be easier for you. Maybe you did really, really good
680 01:13:20 --> 01:13:24 in school or in sports. And you thought it's going to translate easily for me. I
681 01:13:24 --> 01:13:29 dominated in high school sports and college sports. I was the MVP, I was
682 01:13:29 --> 01:13:37 the, you know, whatever. And then you discovered it's not what you thought. My
683 01:13:37 --> 01:13:41 uncle was, just like that. Very, very academically smart, book smart,
684 01:13:41 --> 01:13:47 absolutely. Book smart, failed on every occasion trying to be a trader, except
685 01:13:47 --> 01:13:52 for one time, his first time trying to trade in the 80s sugar, he made enough
686 01:13:52 --> 01:13:55 to buy condominium down the Eastern Shore. For those who've been around for
687 01:13:55 --> 01:13:59 a long time, you know the story. I'm not going to rehash it, but never could find
688 01:13:59 --> 01:14:07 anything beyond that, and he resented me as his nephew, because I figured it out.
689 01:14:08 --> 01:14:15 And he would never try to learn from me. He would make excuses and say, I'm a I'm
690 01:14:15 --> 01:14:19 a contrarian. If I tell him, Look, this is what I've been doing for the last 30
691 01:14:19 --> 01:14:23 trades, and this is how many times I did it right, and this is what I was doing.
692 01:14:23 --> 01:14:29 Try this, uncle. Stan, okay? And then once you do, he does the opposite. I'm
693 01:14:29 --> 01:14:34 I'm looking for a long, I'm looking for a long and weak, and he's trying to
694 01:14:34 --> 01:14:41 short it. What is he saying? I resent you. I want to prove you're wrong and
695 01:14:41 --> 01:14:47 I'm right. And he told me in tears years later, sitting in my car that cost more
696 01:14:47 --> 01:14:54 than his house, crying tears to me saying I was jealous and I couldn't
697 01:14:54 --> 01:14:59 understand why I wanted to do this so badly, and it happened easy for you. I.
698 01:15:00 --> 01:15:05 And I started crying back with him, and I said, you don't know. All the nights I
699 01:15:05 --> 01:15:11 sat there and was quietly hiding my crying, their bedroom was connected to
700 01:15:11 --> 01:15:20 my room with a closet. They could hear everything, but he couldn't hear me
701 01:15:20 --> 01:15:31 crying. I said, you think it was easy for me and it wasn't. I'm thankful that
702 01:15:31 --> 01:15:37 he was being used by God to put these seeds in me as a young man, I didn't
703 01:15:37 --> 01:15:43 respect it, I didn't appreciate it, even I acknowledge it, but that was the hand
704 01:15:43 --> 01:15:52 of the Lord, and I told him, I said, I don't know why he resisted me. I had
705 01:15:52 --> 01:15:58 every intentions of helping you, like I would literally spend all my time
706 01:15:58 --> 01:16:02 helping you, if you ask me, I'm basically doing every day I live in your
707 01:16:02 --> 01:16:09 house. He said, when you moved in, the idea was for you to get on your feet and
708 01:16:09 --> 01:16:14 move out, not get rich. He was speaking from his heart, and I knew right then
709 01:16:14 --> 01:16:23 and there. I can't reach him, jealousy, envy, and that's family. That's a man I
710 01:16:23 --> 01:16:28 looked up to as a father figure. And he had the he had the power to encourage me
711 01:16:28 --> 01:16:32 to join college, to go in there and ace the preliminary tests and prerequisites
712 01:16:32 --> 01:16:38 and just ace everything, and to see him say his highest degree of aptitude was
713 01:16:38 --> 01:16:43 in math. And he said, I don't even know the answers of those equations. How did
714 01:16:43 --> 01:16:46 you do that? I said, I don't know. Just I mean, I've always excelled in math and
715 01:16:46 --> 01:16:53 science after sixth grade, when I got introduced to coding and trading, I
716 01:16:53 --> 01:16:58 mean, not trading, but coding and making programs, it opened up my understanding.
717 01:16:58 --> 01:17:01 Because now finally, I have something that engages me, where prior to that, I
718 01:17:01 --> 01:17:07 sucked as a student, I'd be like me saying, okay, look, let's put ICT out
719 01:17:07 --> 01:17:11 there as quarterback or linebacker on the football team in school. I'm gonna
720 01:17:11 --> 01:17:20 feel miserably. I would feel miserably as a sports person. Couldn't do it all
721 01:17:20 --> 01:17:31 of my grade school. You know, records of aptitude sucked until sixth grade, and
722 01:17:31 --> 01:17:37 finally, I was engaged with something that I had an interest in, and it like
723 01:17:37 --> 01:17:43 it shot me up. It shot me up beyond the average student, and it changed my
724 01:17:43 --> 01:17:50 perspective and pursuits in life. And I could look back and see that transition
725 01:17:50 --> 01:17:56 period and all of these transition periods you're going through right now
726 01:17:56 --> 01:18:01 as a developing trader, they're probably uncomfortable for you. You want to get
727 01:18:01 --> 01:18:08 through them faster, and you want to slow yourself down. Learn from these
728 01:18:08 --> 01:18:16 periods, because these are when the tests are being distributed to you. What
729 01:18:16 --> 01:18:21 have you learned thus far? If you haven't learned anything, you're going
730 01:18:21 --> 01:18:28 to stay in that period longer until you learn the lessons. If you're feeling
731 01:18:28 --> 01:18:35 hardship or adversities, you need to be thinking, hey, what am I supposed to be
732 01:18:35 --> 01:18:42 learning from this? And when you dissect these periods in your time and your
733 01:18:42 --> 01:18:47 growth, you're going to find that number one, the learning is far more enjoyable
734 01:18:47 --> 01:18:55 and pleasurable, and you're not going to have this impatience always smothering
735 01:18:55 --> 01:19:00 you, because you're going to trust that. I know I'm in a period of transition
736 01:19:00 --> 01:19:07 right now, I'm going through a growing pain, and I am welcoming that. That's
737 01:19:07 --> 01:19:12 the attitude you should have. You should want more of that, because I had lots of
738 01:19:12 --> 01:19:19 them, and it supercharged my learning when I stopped trying to wrestle through
739 01:19:19 --> 01:19:26 that stuff, when I tried to pretend that it wasn't there, that it was some kind
740 01:19:26 --> 01:19:31 of punishment, some kind of aptitude measurement that showed I was never
741 01:19:31 --> 01:19:36 going to be able to do this. When I stopped classifying it as that and
742 01:19:36 --> 01:19:41 looking at it through the lens of this is actually me being molded and sculpted
743 01:19:41 --> 01:19:50 that by hands I can't see and I submit myself to it. What lessons would you
744 01:19:50 --> 01:19:55 have me to know and learn from this? That's the spirit you should have when
745 01:19:55 --> 01:19:59 you journal, not vilify yourself or vilify the conditions that you're going
746 01:19:59 --> 01:20:05 through. It, when you have these things that are impacting your growth and your
747 01:20:07 --> 01:20:12 your development, and you're constantly doing a measurement and a baseline
748 01:20:12 --> 01:20:17 evaluation of growth and what you're learning from it by journaling, you're
749 01:20:17 --> 01:20:22 doing the best that you could ever do. You're documenting it. So that means
750 01:20:22 --> 01:20:26 you're going to have a means of being able to, number one, look back and see
751 01:20:26 --> 01:20:31 exactly when and how you changed, because you're not going to remember
752 01:20:31 --> 01:20:39 everything. Think about all the trades that you've taken. Can you remember what
753 01:20:39 --> 01:20:44 the fact the worst five of them were what your entry price was, what was your
754 01:20:44 --> 01:20:54 What was your position sizing, what was your stop loss? I know mine. I know
755 01:20:54 --> 01:21:02 mine. I know my five best trades. I know what my leverage was. I know what month
756 01:21:02 --> 01:21:05 contract I was trading, and I know my how many contracts I was trading. I know
757 01:21:05 --> 01:21:09 my entry price and my stop losses. They were meaningful things to me. I
758 01:21:09 --> 01:21:17 celebrated those a lot, a lot in the America Line. I bragged about it. I brag
759 01:21:17 --> 01:21:19 baby. I was like, This is who I am. I
760 01:21:25 --> 01:21:30 You have to know yourself like that. You got to know every detail. Don't hide
761 01:21:30 --> 01:21:35 away or shy away from. Well, you know, this is probably, you know, going to be
762 01:21:36 --> 01:21:42 uncomfortable someone else knew about this. No, you know what's more
763 01:21:42 --> 01:21:49 encouraging to me? You know what's more interesting to me listening to what
764 01:21:49 --> 01:21:57 people went through, what they went through, to get to where they are today?
765 01:21:58 --> 01:22:03 Because we all look at the end result like, wow. Look the Crown Champion, the
766 01:22:03 --> 01:22:07 person that has arrived, it's made this much money, has traded this long without
767 01:22:07 --> 01:22:12 a losing trade, who has won this competition? We see those things like
768 01:22:12 --> 01:22:16 that. And like, Wow, man, that's amazing. And you want to aspire to be
769 01:22:16 --> 01:22:26 like that or better. And they're all commendable. They're well done, yes, but
770 01:22:26 --> 01:22:33 as a mature person who has tasted success and has lived it, to me, the
771 01:22:33 --> 01:22:41 more interesting thing is what they went through. How did they handle it? How did
772 01:22:41 --> 01:22:48 they handle the the tug of war, so back and forth, sometimes not feeling like
773 01:22:48 --> 01:22:49 they're ever going to get
774 01:22:54 --> 01:23:01 it. That's That, to me, is more inspiring. That to me, is more of a
775 01:23:01 --> 01:23:08 testimony than what you acquired, or what level you obtained. Because if
776 01:23:08 --> 01:23:14 someone says, Yeah, I made a million dollars, and they blasted on on social
777 01:23:14 --> 01:23:18 media, every every social media, they're blasting it, wow, that's a million
778 01:23:18 --> 01:23:21 dollars. And we all think to ourselves, man, if I could just have a million
779 01:23:21 --> 01:23:25 dollars like that, I would be successful. I would be happy. I would be
780 01:23:25 --> 01:23:32 content. But what happens if the person comes out and says, Well, you know, I've
781 01:23:32 --> 01:23:41 been trying to do this for 20 years, and I've lost $250,000 trying all this time,
782 01:23:41 --> 01:23:47 and this is my first measure of success. Now, right away, there's gonna be a lot
783 01:23:47 --> 01:23:54 of people come out and say, Oh, this guy's a joker. See, he's a fraud. He's a
784 01:23:54 --> 01:23:58 clown. You can't, you can't really do it. He looking took him this long. And
785 01:23:58 --> 01:24:03 these are people that don't even have a loaning trade, ever, never even have a
786 01:24:03 --> 01:24:08 live account, and can't pass these prop firm challenges. But they're the ones
787 01:24:08 --> 01:24:18 that are opinionated, and I would love to see the backstory of what they went
788 01:24:18 --> 01:24:26 through, because that's what it's going to take for you. See, every book that's
789 01:24:26 --> 01:24:31 ever been written about trading should have a whole lot of the stuff I talk
790 01:24:31 --> 01:24:37 about, but I know the attention span of most of you is of a net you don't have
791 01:24:38 --> 01:24:43 anything beyond a Tiktok mentality. The older generation of my community has the
792 01:24:43 --> 01:24:49 capacity to think and they can appreciate and go beyond the scope of a
793 01:24:49 --> 01:24:54 five minute video, because they care about themselves enough to know I want
794 01:24:54 --> 01:24:59 to know more. If you're willing to share more, I'm ready for it, and I'm ready to
795 01:24:59 --> 01:25:05 receive it. I. But the present generation, they've been beaten into
796 01:25:05 --> 01:25:12 stupidity, thinking that five minute training is sufficient enough. It's not,
797 01:25:13 --> 01:25:17 it's not, it's a commercial. And think about how it is when you're watching
798 01:25:17 --> 01:25:20 your favorite program you want to get through the commercials right? You pay
799 01:25:21 --> 01:25:24 for YouTube premium to get around the ads when you're watching my videos.
800 01:25:26 --> 01:25:29 Don't talk to me about how you think you figured it all out. And you know, this
801 01:25:29 --> 01:25:32 is the better way of doing it. This is optimal learning. ICT, your archaic way
802 01:25:32 --> 01:25:36 of teaching these long winded things. These are all the conversations that
803 01:25:36 --> 01:25:39 you're going to want to have with yourself when you're going through it
804 01:25:39 --> 01:25:44 all. You don't see it. You don't recognize any of that. Yet, see that's
805 01:25:44 --> 01:25:48 proof that the people that talk like that in my comments, they're never going
806 01:25:48 --> 01:25:55 to arrive. They're never going to arrive. They're too critical about good
807 01:25:55 --> 01:26:03 medicine, about good information. I could be stingy. When I was 20, I wanted
808 01:26:03 --> 01:26:11 to be I was never gonna share anything of my best stuff, never. And that
809 01:26:11 --> 01:26:19 changed real quick when he said, is that really what you're gonna do? And I
810 01:26:19 --> 01:26:27 couldn't do anything, right? I it. My heavens were like brass. Every prayer
811 01:26:27 --> 01:26:35 denied, every trade denied, loss, loss, loss, loss, loss, loss, until I changed
812 01:26:35 --> 01:26:44 my perspective and it wasn't about me. I said, use me as an instrument and allow
813 01:26:44 --> 01:26:50 me to point right back to you. And if you give me this, I will do that,
814 01:26:57 --> 01:27:05 and that's how I live my life. I and you have to eventually get to the point
815 01:27:05 --> 01:27:10 where you're gonna have to make a decision. Are you gonna roll your
816 01:27:10 --> 01:27:14 sleeves up and say, You know what? I don't know how long the opposition and
817 01:27:14 --> 01:27:18 the adversities are gonna come. I don't know what adversities are gonna
818 01:27:18 --> 01:27:22 materialize in my development or my pursuit of this, but I am committing
819 01:27:22 --> 01:27:26 myself to no matter what it is, come hell or high water, I am absolutely
820 01:27:26 --> 01:27:30 dialed in. No one's going to say no to me and I am an accept Nope. You're not
821 01:27:30 --> 01:27:33 going to tell me I can't and I'm going to accept it. Nope, you're not going to
822 01:27:33 --> 01:27:38 tell me, ain't from me or ain't mine. Nope, it's mine. That's how it has to
823 01:27:38 --> 01:27:45 be. All you're doing is expecting a deferred payment that's coming to you,
824 01:27:46 --> 01:27:53 that success in the future, you own it. It's nothing short of what you do when
825 01:27:53 --> 01:27:58 you buy a magazine subscription. You pay for it in advance. You're paying for it,
826 01:27:59 --> 01:28:05 but you get it deferred, delivered later on. You ever think about like that? I
827 01:28:05 --> 01:28:10 can't wait to get the summer edition of Sports Illustrated when they do the
828 01:28:11 --> 01:28:18 swimsuit edition. You know what I'm talking about, man, but you paid for it
829 01:28:18 --> 01:28:23 in the beginning of the year. So that way that subscription comes to you at a
830 01:28:23 --> 01:28:29 later time. You got patience to wait for that, don't you? You spent good, hard,
831 01:28:29 --> 01:28:37 earned money for these subscriptions. You have cable TV the equivalent
832 01:28:37 --> 01:28:41 thereof. You pay the bill for the next month's ability to watch the programs,
833 01:28:42 --> 01:28:48 the games I got all access like Now you would think I'm a sports fan. I have
834 01:28:48 --> 01:28:53 every channel, every game that you ever watch, at my disposal, any any time I
835 01:28:53 --> 01:28:59 want, and I never do it. I don't know why. I just whatever channel, because
836 01:28:59 --> 01:29:02 I'm afraid if one of my friends do visit, they're like, hey, you know, can
837 01:29:02 --> 01:29:06 we watch? And I would be embarrassed if I couldn't pull it up. So that's why
838 01:29:06 --> 01:29:11 I've been for every year as an adult, I've paid for programming that I never
839 01:29:11 --> 01:29:16 watch. Am I hurting for it? Am I not able to make my bills because of that?
840 01:29:16 --> 01:29:22 Nope, but as a 20 year old, that would make no sense to me. Some of you are
841 01:29:22 --> 01:29:25 thinking, Well, why I said waste of money? No, it's not. It gives me peace
842 01:29:25 --> 01:29:31 of mind. It doesn't cost me anything. My programming in TV programming is a write
843 01:29:31 --> 01:29:37 off for me. I don't care about what it costs me for that stuff, because I use
844 01:29:37 --> 01:29:46 the information that comes through CNBC. I can write that off. It pipes into my
845 01:29:46 --> 01:29:52 office. I use it for information, so therefore it's a resource and tool, so I
846 01:29:52 --> 01:29:58 don't care what it costs me. Sure, sure, sure. I can watch that same access in my
847 01:29:58 --> 01:30:03 theater and watch John. I'm like, blaze through a bunch of men with lots of
848 01:30:03 --> 01:30:11 fireworks and such. That's the perks of being a businessman. But you have to
849 01:30:11 --> 01:30:16 change the way you think about things right now, if you've been beating
850 01:30:16 --> 01:30:20 yourself up or saying this doesn't happen fast enough for me, this isn't
851 01:30:20 --> 01:30:25 working out for me like I hoped it would. You remember, everybody that ever
852 01:30:25 --> 01:30:31 arrives doesn't do it overnight, and many of them have guarded that secret
853 01:30:31 --> 01:30:34 that it's never to be told, which was the hardship it took for them to go
854 01:30:34 --> 01:30:39 through it. And that's why I have a great admiration, a great deal of
855 01:30:39 --> 01:30:43 respect, for the people that come forward and say, You know what? It took
856 01:30:43 --> 01:30:47 longer than I thought. It was extremely hard for me to trust that what I was
857 01:30:47 --> 01:30:53 doing was going to pan out for me, but I stuck to it that that is someone you
858 01:30:53 --> 01:30:56 listen to, that is someone you subscribe to, that's someone that has a voice
859 01:30:56 --> 01:31:00 that's worth listening to, because anybody that comes out there and says
860 01:31:00 --> 01:31:05 they're the best, and it was easy for them. It was nothing for me to do this.
861 01:31:05 --> 01:31:09 They are fabricated. They're liars, and they're probably mimicking someone
862 01:31:09 --> 01:31:19 else's successful. And I'm hoping that you and my audience could appreciate
863 01:31:21 --> 01:31:27 that. It took you some real effort to get to it, that it was not easy. So that
864 01:31:27 --> 01:31:32 way, when you do arrive, it feels really good. That's not arrogance, that's not
865 01:31:32 --> 01:31:39 pride, it's accomplishment. The Lord says that you're more than an overcomer.
866 01:31:39 --> 01:31:43 Does that mean that you shouldn't feel good when you overcome something? No, it
867 01:31:43 --> 01:31:47 means that you should expect that you're going to overcome it, pursue it. Chase
868 01:31:47 --> 01:31:54 it down, take it by force. Don't sit back quietly, reserving yourself to
869 01:31:55 --> 01:31:58 whatever happens. I'm just going to accept that when the way it comes to me
870 01:31:58 --> 01:32:04 wrong, wrong, your perspective needs to be, I'm going after it and it can't
871 01:32:04 --> 01:32:08 outrun me, and I will overtake it, and it is mine.
872 01:32:16 --> 01:32:21 Maybe this doesn't maybe this doesn't do it for you today. Maybe this is not what
873 01:32:21 --> 01:32:24 you're expecting. Maybe you wanted to hear Stone Cold
874 01:32:26 --> 01:32:33 ICT like last week. Maybe that's what you're hoping for, and that's for
875 01:32:33 --> 01:32:36 entertainment that's to get the hooks in you, but
876 01:32:42 --> 01:32:50 once you hear and I have your ear, this is how I talk to you. This is how I
877 01:32:50 --> 01:32:54 encourage you, because this is what matters most. These are the lessons
878 01:32:54 --> 01:33:01 going to stick with you, not the rants, not the raving, you know, blue collar
879 01:33:01 --> 01:33:04 language this to get you to pay attention to me, because sometimes you
880 01:33:04 --> 01:33:08 feel like we're not on the same wavelength. So when I talk to you in a
881 01:33:08 --> 01:33:16 common tongue, like I was raised around, oh, you're one of us. ICT, no, no,
882 01:33:18 --> 01:33:19 you're becoming one of me. You
883 01:33:25 --> 01:33:27 that's it. We're done. You.