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2 |1 |00:00:00 ~-~-> 00:00:05 |ICT: All right, so today I spent a little bit of time together with a topic
3 |2 |00:00:05 ~-~-> 00:00:15 |that I entitled trading nightmares for dreamscapes. When I was a younger guy, I
4 |3 |00:00:15 ~-~-> 00:00:17 |was 20, when I first started actually
5 |4 |00:00:18 ~-~-> 00:00:22 |putting my mind to learning how to trade and taking risk and whatnot in the
6 |5 |00:00:22 ~-~-> 00:00:29 |markets, being prodded along as a 13 and 14 year old and at 16 year old at the
7 |6 |00:00:29 ~-~-> 00:00:36 |Sunday morning brunches that turns into grandma's lunches and dinners, where the
8 |7 |00:00:37 ~-~-> 00:00:40 |family would come together, and an uncle obviously would keep prodding me,
9 |8 |00:00:40 ~-~-> 00:00:43 |telling me telling me all the time that the richest people in the world were
10 |9 |00:00:44 ~-~-> 00:00:53 |traders of futures and options, and those those seeds were planted way, way,
11 |10 |00:00:53 ~-~-> 00:01:00 |way early in my life, and didn't know at the time That that would culminate and
12 |11 |00:01:01 ~-~-> 00:01:12 |basically grow into, you know what you see today. So when I first started, I
13 |12 |00:01:12 ~-~-> 00:01:22 |came up in a time where that was my low point, like that was my low point. I
14 |13 |00:01:22 ~-~-> 00:01:31 |couldn't, I couldn't go any lower than that as a man, as a person, as a, you
15 |14 |00:01:31 ~-~-> 00:01:42 |know, recent divorcee, and everything at that time was just darkness, gloom. It
16 |15 |00:01:43 ~-~-> 00:01:49 |was very hard for me to be optimistic about anything. So I was living a night
17 |16 |00:01:50 ~-~-> 00:01:53 |daily. There was no light, there was no
18 |17 |00:01:56 ~-~-> 00:02:02 |optimistic perspective to hold on to. It just wasn't there. I felt defeated. I
19 |18 |00:02:02 ~-~-> 00:02:02 |felt
20 |19 |00:02:05 ~-~-> 00:02:16 |lost, really, I just didn't have a direction at all. And recently, upon
21 |20 |00:02:16 ~-~-> 00:02:25 |divorce, I met a young lady actually followed her home, creepy, right? But we
22 |21 |00:02:26 ~-~-> 00:02:36 |ended up getting together. And the few words that she gave one day when I told
23 |22 |00:02:36 ~-~-> 00:02:40 |her open, I opened up. And as men in the audience, you know this is very
24 |23 |00:02:40 ~-~-> 00:02:45 |difficult for us to do, and women, if you're listening, this is a life lesson
25 |24 |00:02:45 ~-~-> 00:02:52 |for you as well. If a man ever opens himself up to you, he's laying his neck
26 |25 |00:02:52 ~-~-> 00:02:57 |on your sword. He's literally trusting you with his emotions. He's trusting you
27 |26 |00:02:57 ~-~-> 00:03:06 |with his frailty. He's trusting you with how you respond, with destroying
28 |27 |00:03:06 ~-~-> 00:03:12 |basically, and he sees value in you to the degree that he's willing to give
29 |28 |00:03:12 ~-~-> 00:03:17 |this to you. And from a man's perspective, and every man in the
30 |29 |00:03:17 ~-~-> 00:03:21 |audience right now, if you agree, just say, I agree. But that's on point.
31 |30 |00:03:24 ~-~-> 00:03:31 |You're trusting this person to a degree that's way beyond fidelity, way beyond
32 |31 |00:03:31 ~-~-> 00:03:36 |just I want her to feel like I cherish her. You're trusting this person
33 |32 |00:03:36 ~-~-> 00:03:43 |entirely with your being where you're you're giving her this gift that you
34 |33 |00:03:43 ~-~-> 00:03:52 |can't give to anyone else. This is only entitled to them. And I shared that with
35 |34 |00:03:52 ~-~-> 00:03:57 |her. I was honest with her. I told her that I was broken hearted. I couldn't
36 |35 |00:03:57 ~-~-> 00:04:01 |imagine how this woman, who I was married to, and I get, I get some of
37 |36 |00:04:01 ~-~-> 00:04:03 |your high thinking, What's this got to do with trading? Has everything to do
38 |37 |00:04:03 ~-~-> 00:04:15 |with trading. Everything to do with trading. I was busted, torn up, and what
39 |38 |00:04:15 ~-~-> 00:04:25 |I saw in this young lady, I wanted that more, but I needed to break completely
40 |39 |00:04:25 ~-~-> 00:04:29 |away from the things that were shackling me. I needed to get away from all of
41 |40 |00:04:29 ~-~-> 00:04:36 |that, that torment that I put myself through. I needed to somehow restore
42 |41 |00:04:36 ~-~-> 00:04:40 |that old relationship that was absolutely not for me. It was toxic, and
43 |42 |00:04:40 ~-~-> 00:04:44 |I tried to be the white knight in a scenario that there was no saving that
44 |43 |00:04:44 ~-~-> 00:04:52 |situation, but God saw fit to put this young lady in my life. And I told her
45 |44 |00:04:52 ~-~-> 00:05:02 |that I was very hard pressed to find any optimistic thing outside of her. Her,
46 |45 |00:05:02 ~-~-> 00:05:08 |and I don't know what direction I'm going to go, and this is what I'm trying
47 |46 |00:05:08 ~-~-> 00:05:15 |to do right now, which was learning how to invest and trade, and I expected,
48 |47 |00:05:17 ~-~-> 00:05:22 |deep down inside, that she wouldn't be all that interested or really care that
49 |48 |00:05:22 ~-~-> 00:05:32 |much, but I felt that I had to give that to her. And every single day, every
50 |49 |00:05:32 ~-~-> 00:05:36 |single day when I wake up and I look at those markets and I look at those charts
51 |50 |00:05:37 ~-~-> 00:05:43 |before I talk to anybody, either online, on Telegram, anyone
52 |51 |00:05:45 ~-~-> 00:05:51 |I hear Shannon's voice. She said to me, when I told her what I wanted to do,
53 |52 |00:05:52 ~-~-> 00:05:57 |she said to me, and it didn't sound canned, like I believe she meant it
54 |53 |00:05:57 ~-~-> 00:06:05 |entirely and sincere. She said, Michael, I've only known for a short period of
55 |54 |00:06:05 ~-~-> 00:06:13 |time, but you seem very focused. You seem very passionate about this, and if
56 |55 |00:06:13 ~-~-> 00:06:18 |anything, you put yourself in the direction of going after I think this is
57 |56 |00:06:18 ~-~-> 00:06:23 |going to be it for you. I can see you doing this. And you know what she did?
58 |57 |00:06:23 ~-~-> 00:06:27 |She brought it up at dinner with her mother and father, with me sitting
59 |58 |00:06:27 ~-~-> 00:06:35 |there, and, man, I can't tell you, I can't tell you, the level of just
60 |59 |00:06:35 ~-~-> 00:06:39 |empowerment. Like I was like, Well, this is it. Now, all those times my uncle
61 |60 |00:06:39 ~-~-> 00:06:43 |spoke to me and said, You got to do this, you got to do this, you got to do
62 |61 |00:06:43 ~-~-> 00:06:47 |this. You got to do this. It didn't mean anything to me. I had started the
63 |62 |00:06:47 ~-~-> 00:06:53 |journey, not because of him, no disrespect to my uncle, Stan, but it
64 |63 |00:06:53 ~-~-> 00:06:56 |just felt like what was the option? Either I'm going to still work and do
65 |64 |00:06:56 ~-~-> 00:07:03 |these 13 hour days and make no money, or make a change. And my degree wasn't
66 |65 |00:07:03 ~-~-> 00:07:08 |getting me anywhere. No doors were opening up for for systems analyst,
67 |66 |00:07:09 ~-~-> 00:07:13 |despite my GPA and despite my my affinity for trading, and I'm not
68 |67 |00:07:13 ~-~-> 00:07:19 |trading, but for coding and and being involved in that industry, I did it from
69 |68 |00:07:19 ~-~-> 00:07:24 |sixth grade on, self taught most part, and that's why it was easy for me to go
70 |69 |00:07:24 ~-~-> 00:07:30 |through the actual epidemic of it. But when her father, Mr. Huff, who's gone on
71 |70 |00:07:30 ~-~-> 00:07:35 |to be with the Lord, he looked at her and smiled and turned to me, he said,
72 |71 |00:07:36 ~-~-> 00:07:42 |I've never heard her talk about anyone like that before, and I looked at her
73 |72 |00:07:42 ~-~-> 00:07:49 |mother, and I was like, I my face was burning. I was I was blushing like
74 |73 |00:07:49 ~-~-> 00:07:54 |crazy, and my the water was beaded up on my eyelid. I was like, Don't, don't,
75 |74 |00:07:54 ~-~-> 00:07:58 |don't. You dare let it drop in front of them, don't you? But I couldn't help it.
76 |75 |00:07:58 ~-~-> 00:08:03 |I couldn't help it because at that moment, these people weren't my family,
77 |76 |00:08:04 ~-~-> 00:08:08 |but I fell in love with them at that moment, I fell in love with that element
78 |77 |00:08:08 ~-~-> 00:08:17 |of family. I've never had that before. I've never experienced that before, and
79 |78 |00:08:17 ~-~-> 00:08:25 |they sowed in me a seed of optimism that I carry every single day, every single
80 |79 |00:08:25 ~-~-> 00:08:33 |day now, obviously, Mr. Huff, he's he's moved on. He can't see me in the natural
81 |80 |00:08:33 ~-~-> 00:08:42 |I'm sure he probably can see me now. And Miss Sharon Shannon's mother, she's
82 |81 |00:08:42 ~-~-> 00:08:47 |never had the opportunity to see where I'm at today, and Shannon, unless she's
83 |82 |00:08:47 ~-~-> 00:08:51 |aware of me online, which, out of respect for her, her family, her
84 |83 |00:08:51 ~-~-> 00:08:57 |marriage and whatnot, I don't ever do anything to the trifle in anyone else's
85 |84 |00:08:57 ~-~-> 00:09:01 |relationship. But we, we eventually, you know, a year and a half later,
86 |85 |00:09:01 ~-~-> 00:09:10 |separated, and no fault of anyone's just as I just made a poor choice at the
87 |86 |00:09:10 ~-~-> 00:09:16 |time, being insecure because of a previous relationship, I felt like it
88 |87 |00:09:16 ~-~-> 00:09:21 |was too good, and if I didn't get out of it, least I protected myself from her
89 |88 |00:09:21 ~-~-> 00:09:25 |hurting me, and I don't believe she ever would have done it. And if I would have
90 |89 |00:09:25 ~-~-> 00:09:30 |never met my present wife, I would like to think that I had a chance to get back
91 |90 |00:09:30 ~-~-> 00:09:34 |with her. That's not me saying that I love her more than my wife. I'm just
92 |91 |00:09:34 ~-~-> 00:09:38 |saying, if you were to ask me, and we were friends and we were talking being
93 |92 |00:09:38 ~-~-> 00:09:45 |honest, not some I'm doing here, I'm being honest with you, that young lady
94 |93 |00:09:46 ~-~-> 00:09:49 |made a lasting impression on me because of her words of encouragement, and I can
95 |94 |00:09:49 ~-~-> 00:09:56 |tell you to this day, there has never been another female, even my wife, that
96 |95 |00:09:56 ~-~-> 00:10:04 |has ever said those types. Of deep, reaching, lifting, empowerment. Like it
97 |96 |00:10:04 ~-~-> 00:10:12 |was like rocket fuel. It was like, I cannot fail now, like I can't fail now,
98 |97 |00:10:12 ~-~-> 00:10:18 |like, I know this is mine. Now I know it's mine because she could have said,
99 |98 |00:10:18 ~-~-> 00:10:21 |well, I'll believe it when I see it, because that's what my wife has always
100 |99 |00:10:21 ~-~-> 00:10:23 |said in the beginning of our relationship. Beginning of our
101 |100 |00:10:23 ~-~-> 00:10:27 |relationship. I believe when I see it, I believe when I see it. She came from a
102 |101 |00:10:27 ~-~-> 00:10:37 |family that was disjointed, dysfunctional, and Shannon didn't how
103 |102 |00:10:37 ~-~-> 00:10:42 |you raise your children has a lasting impression on how they're going to be as
104 |103 |00:10:43 ~-~-> 00:10:49 |adults. And it's a crazy paradigm. When you look at the contrast of people that
105 |104 |00:10:49 ~-~-> 00:10:55 |were raised like I was. I grew up in a broken home, dysfunctional and it was
106 |105 |00:10:55 ~-~-> 00:11:01 |very hard for me to see the pathway in front of me. I just know I wanted to get
107 |106 |00:11:01 ~-~-> 00:11:09 |out of that. I didn't want to stay in that type of dysfunctional family. And
108 |107 |00:11:09 ~-~-> 00:11:15 |trading seemed like that was the avenue, but I was afraid. I was afraid of doing
109 |108 |00:11:15 ~-~-> 00:11:24 |it, and I needed to be encouraged, because I felt like, you know if, if I'm
110 |109 |00:11:24 ~-~-> 00:11:29 |telling myself every day at that time that no one's going to believe I'm going
111 |110 |00:11:29 ~-~-> 00:11:33 |to be able to do this. If I'm saying that, and you probably have done this
112 |111 |00:11:33 ~-~-> 00:11:36 |yourself, think about it. Maybe that's where you're at right now. You're
113 |112 |00:11:36 ~-~-> 00:11:42 |thinking, nobody believes in me. Nobody believes I'm going to do this or be
114 |113 |00:11:42 ~-~-> 00:11:47 |successful. And you know what? When you say that to yourself, just like when I
115 |114 |00:11:47 ~-~-> 00:11:51 |said it to myself, That's a true statement. Wasn't expecting me to say
116 |115 |00:11:51 ~-~-> 00:11:56 |that, were you? It's actually a true statement. Because if you're saying
117 |116 |00:11:56 ~-~-> 00:12:02 |nobody believes I'm going to do it, you're stating emphatically that you
118 |117 |00:12:02 ~-~-> 00:12:14 |don't believe it either, because nobody includes you. Think about it, your
119 |118 |00:12:14 ~-~-> 00:12:20 |subconscious is speaking, and your subconscious is always, always the
120 |119 |00:12:20 ~-~-> 00:12:25 |truth. That's the part that you guard all the time. That's the part young man,
121 |120 |00:12:25 ~-~-> 00:12:29 |when you try to meet that young lady and have special time with her, talking
122 |121 |00:12:29 ~-~-> 00:12:34 |between the sheets, you're trying to impress her and woo her and think, Wow.
123 |122 |00:12:34 ~-~-> 00:12:38 |You know this guy's a really nice guy. I want to be with him. You put it on your
124 |123 |00:12:38 ~-~-> 00:12:43 |best clothes, your best cologne. You get your hair done up nice. You will make
125 |124 |00:12:43 ~-~-> 00:12:46 |the greatest impression. And you don't want to do anything rude. You don't want
126 |125 |00:12:46 ~-~-> 00:12:56 |to be in any way off putting to her. Well, you garner guard all these things,
127 |126 |00:12:56 ~-~-> 00:13:01 |these insecurities that you have, and when you speak those things like, nobody
128 |127 |00:13:01 ~-~-> 00:13:06 |believes I'm going to do this, you need to stop that, because I held on to that
129 |128 |00:13:06 ~-~-> 00:13:16 |for a long time. I was living nighttime every single day. And you know what
130 |129 |00:13:16 ~-~-> 00:13:24 |happens at nighttime? You dream, you have nightmares, you have good dreams.
131 |130 |00:13:24 ~-~-> 00:13:28 |And if you're like me, who studied it a lot when I was younger, you could have a
132 |131 |00:13:28 ~-~-> 00:13:33 |lucid dream. A lucid dream is where you actually wake up in your dream, and you
133 |132 |00:13:33 ~-~-> 00:13:37 |realize that you're not awake in the physical and you can do things in your
134 |133 |00:13:37 ~-~-> 00:13:42 |dream. That's neat. And my one of my favorite things is flying. I'm afraid of
135 |134 |00:13:42 ~-~-> 00:13:46 |heights, but in my dreams, I can fly. And there's lots of really good books on
136 |135 |00:13:46 ~-~-> 00:13:49 |lucid dreaming. If you want to look at it, I'm not going to try to teach lucid
137 |136 |00:13:49 ~-~-> 00:13:52 |dreaming, because I'm not capable of doing it. It's not something you can
138 |137 |00:13:52 ~-~-> 00:13:56 |say, Here it is. Here's an optimal trade entry, here's a fair value gap. It's not
139 |138 |00:13:56 ~-~-> 00:14:01 |like that, but it's something I journaled for a long time. And all the
140 |139 |00:14:01 ~-~-> 00:14:06 |things that I used to journal prior to that moment when Shannon said what she
141 |140 |00:14:06 ~-~-> 00:14:13 |said in that evening, that day, that day, sowed it in the annals of the
142 |141 |00:14:13 ~-~-> 00:14:22 |future that I was going to be who I am today. Now one could say, well, you
143 |142 |00:14:23 ~-~-> 00:14:27 |didn't have a good relationship. You broke up. Yeah, I made a bad choice. I
144 |143 |00:14:27 ~-~-> 00:14:31 |got too emotional about something, insecurities, and we broke up amicably,
145 |144 |00:14:31 ~-~-> 00:14:39 |like it was, it was not a hateful thing. So how could you say that's a good
146 |145 |00:14:39 ~-~-> 00:14:45 |thing? I believe God placed her in my life at that time to encourage me
147 |146 |00:14:45 ~-~-> 00:14:49 |because I needed it, much like many of you probably turn to me when I do these
148 |147 |00:14:52 ~-~-> 00:14:59 |motivational elements, I try to ground you, shake you by your lapels, and
149 |148 |00:14:59 ~-~-> 00:15:05 |remind you that you. This is normal stuff, folks, I'm not exempt to it. I'm
150 |149 |00:15:05 ~-~-> 00:15:08 |not ashamed to say I went through these types of things either. I'm actually
151 |150 |00:15:08 ~-~-> 00:15:15 |very thankful because recognizing those nightmares that I held on to, I chose, I
152 |151 |00:15:15 ~-~-> 00:15:26 |chose to keep putting on that garment of sorrow, that garment of fear. What if I
153 |152 |00:15:26 ~-~-> 00:15:32 |try really, really hard and I fail? That's what I was afraid of before I
154 |153 |00:15:32 ~-~-> 00:15:38 |even told her, knowing that I still laid it in her hands and she could have
155 |154 |00:15:38 ~-~-> 00:15:45 |destroyed me. She could have laughed in my face and said, What a crazy idea.
156 |155 |00:15:45 ~-~-> 00:15:48 |You're going to be working like everybody else. And I was expecting
157 |156 |00:15:49 ~-~-> 00:15:52 |expecting that to happen, because that's exactly what my family said.
158 |157 |00:15:55 ~-~-> 00:16:04 |That's exactly what my friends said. And we like to think that, you know our
159 |158 |00:16:04 ~-~-> 00:16:09 |family members. I mean, if I tell them what I'm going to do, they're going to
160 |159 |00:16:09 ~-~-> 00:16:13 |encourage me, like, yeah, Heck, yeah. That's the thing. That's it. That's the
161 |160 |00:16:13 ~-~-> 00:16:19 |thing. I can see you doing it, man, if you do, well, could you help me too?
162 |161 |00:16:19 ~-~-> 00:16:23 |That's what you want to hear in it. That's exactly what you want to hear.
163 |162 |00:16:23 ~-~-> 00:16:29 |But you don't ever hear that, do you? You're gonna do what you're gonna do
164 |163 |00:16:29 ~-~-> 00:16:33 |what. Hey, Hey, fellas, listen to this. Come over here. Tell her. Tell her what
165 |164 |00:16:33 ~-~-> 00:16:37 |you just said. You're gonna do what you're gonna push some buttons and your
166 |165 |00:16:37 ~-~-> 00:16:42 |money's gonna end up in your backyard. What did you just say to me? Come on,
167 |166 |00:16:42 ~-~-> 00:16:49 |come on. It's what happens, isn't it? And if you have not shared what you want
168 |167 |00:16:49 ~-~-> 00:16:52 |to do yet with your family members, don't be surprised. That's what they do
169 |168 |00:16:52 ~-~-> 00:16:59 |to you. It's normal. That's normal. It doesn't feel normal when it happens. It
170 |169 |00:16:59 ~-~-> 00:17:02 |feels personal. Feels like they're kicking dirt in your face. That's
171 |170 |00:17:03 ~-~-> 00:17:10 |exactly what it felt like for me at a time when I was already beaten up, tore
172 |171 |00:17:10 ~-~-> 00:17:18 |up from the floor, up, no direction in life. Feel like I wasted all that time
173 |172 |00:17:18 ~-~-> 00:17:26 |academically and couldn't even land an interview. Resumes going out every
174 |173 |00:17:26 ~-~-> 00:17:32 |single day, not one phone call ever. Now you can say, Well, you're a failure.
175 |174 |00:17:32 ~-~-> 00:17:37 |That's a that's a testimony right there. That's a failure right there. You know
176 |175 |00:17:37 ~-~-> 00:17:42 |what I see? I see a door being kept closed because I was never meant to go
177 |176 |00:17:42 ~-~-> 00:17:52 |through it. Hello, That'll preach right there. What I spent so much time from
178 |177 |00:17:52 ~-~-> 00:18:00 |sixth grade on, dreaming of getting a good job, getting my name on a little
179 |178 |00:18:00 ~-~-> 00:18:04 |plate on my desk, maybe having some people underneath me, I'm in charge of
180 |179 |00:18:05 ~-~-> 00:18:11 |that's not me. That was never supposed to be me, as much as I thought it was,
181 |180 |00:18:12 ~-~-> 00:18:16 |just like I thought my first wife was, that was my that was my queen, that was
182 |181 |00:18:16 ~-~-> 00:18:22 |my one time, and I'm one and done. Lost my Virginia tour, and I married her just
183 |182 |00:18:22 ~-~-> 00:18:28 |like that. That's the kind of person I am. I didn't want to be a player. I
184 |183 |00:18:28 ~-~-> 00:18:35 |didn't want to run around and see how many times I can get a dip. And we
185 |184 |00:18:35 ~-~-> 00:18:40 |separated, and it put me in a state where, well, I guess I'm just like
186 |185 |00:18:40 ~-~-> 00:18:44 |everybody else. And then I womanized, and I ran around, I did things with
187 |186 |00:18:44 ~-~-> 00:18:53 |married women, and I have an oldest son as a byproduct of that. Play stupid
188 |187 |00:18:53 ~-~-> 00:18:59 |games, win stupid prizes. You have all kinds of problems when you do things
189 |188 |00:18:59 ~-~-> 00:19:07 |like that. But that young lady's words of encouragement, I carry them today,
190 |189 |00:19:10 ~-~-> 00:19:18 |and when I talk to you, you think I'm talking to you, but I'm talking to my
191 |190 |00:19:18 ~-~-> 00:19:26 |kids. That's why it feels genuine. That's why it feels like you know me.
192 |191 |00:19:27 ~-~-> 00:19:31 |That's why it feels good when I tell you I believe in you. I think you're going
193 |192 |00:19:31 ~-~-> 00:19:34 |to do it, because I believe in my children. I believe that they're going
194 |193 |00:19:34 ~-~-> 00:19:40 |to do this. And all of you know me online. You never shared a meal with me.
195 |194 |00:19:42 ~-~-> 00:19:50 |You never met me at a pub, at a cafe, in passing, but you feel like you know me.
196 |195 |00:19:52 ~-~-> 00:19:58 |You feel like we've been friends for a long, long time. Because when I talk to
197 |196 |00:19:58 ~-~-> 00:20:04 |you, I talk to you since. Clearly, it's not scripted. I don't even know what I'm
198 |197 |00:20:04 ~-~-> 00:20:10 |going to say next. It just comes out. I let it all flow out evenly. It's all
199 |198 |00:20:10 ~-~-> 00:20:17 |based on real things, real things I experienced, and adversities, and if I
200 |199 |00:20:17 ~-~-> 00:20:21 |can go through it and come out of it. And I'm not special, folks. I know some
201 |200 |00:20:21 ~-~-> 00:20:25 |of you think I am. Like to think I'm should be lifted up on a hero pedestal.
202 |201 |00:20:25 ~-~-> 00:20:33 |I should never be lifted up on a hero pedestal. I have so many frailties, so
203 |202 |00:20:33 ~-~-> 00:20:37 |many insecurities. I could never do what I'm doing right now. If you're all
204 |203 |00:20:37 ~-~-> 00:20:45 |standing in front of me, I'm introverted, you would never imagine the
205 |204 |00:20:45 ~-~-> 00:20:50 |same person that talks to you like this. If we were in person, it wouldn't be
206 |205 |00:20:50 ~-~-> 00:20:58 |like that. Why? Because it's deep rooted in my childhood. I was a quiet kid, so
207 |206 |00:20:58 ~-~-> 00:21:02 |quiet I was afraid to talk out loud because the things I was thinking, I
208 |207 |00:21:02 ~-~-> 00:21:03 |thought I'd be in trouble, you
209 |208 |00:21:05 ~-~-> 00:21:13 |can fill in the blanks on that. So where am I going with this? Well, how's this
210 |209 |00:21:13 ~-~-> 00:21:17 |applicable to you? Well, when I was young, I had a lot of anxiety,
211 |210 |00:21:19 ~-~-> 00:21:28 |debilitating anxiety, fear of performance and life getting a job. What
212 |211 |00:21:28 ~-~-> 00:21:32 |if I make as much money as I want to? What if I don't get the job I want? What
213 |212 |00:21:32 ~-~-> 00:21:36 |if I don't go where I want to go and work for the company I want to work for?
214 |213 |00:21:38 ~-~-> 00:21:45 |And I would wake up with night terrors. You ever have one of them before? Just
215 |214 |00:21:45 ~-~-> 00:21:52 |wake up and you're gasping for air now. I was fit as a fiddle back then, so I
216 |215 |00:21:52 ~-~-> 00:21:57 |had no apnea. I had no nothing that would be classified as, oh, this sounds
217 |216 |00:21:57 ~-~-> 00:22:06 |like sleep apnea. I didn't have any of that. I had crippling anxiety, because
218 |217 |00:22:06 ~-~-> 00:22:17 |my mind is Supercharged. If you give me an idea and ask me to make this happen,
219 |218 |00:22:18 ~-~-> 00:22:22 |or I have an idea that comes to me. Now I can run with that and turn it into a
220 |219 |00:22:22 ~-~-> 00:22:33 |success story. Back then, everything was a nightmare unfolding. Everything was an
221 |220 |00:22:33 ~-~-> 00:22:39 |impossibility, and I made sure of it because I constantly dwelled on this is
222 |221 |00:22:39 ~-~-> 00:22:45 |probably going to end poorly. I shouldn't even bother doing this. Many
223 |222 |00:22:45 ~-~-> 00:22:48 |times I would have ideas I would write down on journal. This is what I think I
224 |223 |00:22:48 ~-~-> 00:22:52 |should be trying to do today. And then what would I do? Run the other direction
225 |224 |00:22:52 ~-~-> 00:22:57 |all day long. Never work towards it. Never try to do anything working towards
226 |225 |00:22:57 ~-~-> 00:23:04 |that idea, becoming fruitful or coming to pass. That's not procrastination
227 |226 |00:23:06 ~-~-> 00:23:11 |that's running away from it. There's a difference. See, procrastination is like
228 |227 |00:23:12 ~-~-> 00:23:16 |when I tell you to back test when I tell you you're not going to learn the things
229 |228 |00:23:16 ~-~-> 00:23:19 |I'm teaching you unless you literally go into your charts and back test them. It
230 |229 |00:23:20 ~-~-> 00:23:23 |doesn't mean go look at what this happened today and say, Yeah, that was
231 |230 |00:23:23 ~-~-> 00:23:32 |it. No, you got to dig through weeks and months of old news. So if you sit around
232 |231 |00:23:32 ~-~-> 00:23:38 |and procrastinate like that, you're never going to get good at this. What I
233 |232 |00:23:38 ~-~-> 00:23:43 |was doing as a young man was literally running from it. I wasn't just
234 |233 |00:23:43 ~-~-> 00:23:46 |stationary saying, you know, I'll get around to it eventually. No, I was
235 |234 |00:23:46 ~-~-> 00:23:52 |terrified, because I couldn't handle another failure. I couldn't accept
236 |235 |00:23:52 ~-~-> 00:23:57 |another defeat. I was at my lowest point, and I guarded that very next
237 |236 |00:23:57 ~-~-> 00:24:02 |thing all the time, expecting to walk through a door and see something like a
238 |237 |00:24:03 ~-~-> 00:24:08 |murder scene? Well, I knew it was going to happen eventually. That was my
239 |238 |00:24:08 ~-~-> 00:24:17 |mentality then, diametrically opposed to what it is today. Instead of thinking
240 |239 |00:24:17 ~-~-> 00:24:24 |back, then everything's going to be the worst case scenario. Everything is
241 |240 |00:24:26 ~-~-> 00:24:32 |always bad luck, and that's why I don't believe in luck. That's why I always
242 |241 |00:24:32 ~-~-> 00:24:36 |love my news at luck, okay? Because in trading, there is no luck. It's just
243 |242 |00:24:36 ~-~-> 00:24:42 |decisions, and that decision was correct or is incorrect. It doesn't mean that
244 |243 |00:24:42 ~-~-> 00:24:47 |your model is broken or doesn't work. Is incorrectly done. This means that you,
245 |244 |00:24:47 ~-~-> 00:24:53 |as the operator, you made an error. Correct it, don't do it again. Don't
246 |245 |00:24:53 ~-~-> 00:25:02 |repeat it. It's it's a binary response. You. If this happens, then it's this.
247 |246 |00:25:02 ~-~-> 00:25:09 |And every time I make a losing decision, it's mine. I own it. Now, back then, if
248 |247 |00:25:09 ~-~-> 00:25:16 |something had happened to me, Well, this is this is the person that probably
249 |248 |00:25:16 ~-~-> 00:25:22 |caused this to happen to me. See, when you live a self defeating lifestyle, and
250 |249 |00:25:22 ~-~-> 00:25:27 |you live in fear and toxic What if thinking, what if I don't succeed? What
251 |250 |00:25:27 ~-~-> 00:25:33 |if I try really, really hard? What if I try so hard and I pour so much time and
252 |251 |00:25:33 ~-~-> 00:25:40 |effort into this, maybe even some money, even then, what happens if I fail? How
253 |252 |00:25:40 ~-~-> 00:25:45 |embarrassing would that be? How demoralizing would it be if I worked so
254 |253 |00:25:45 ~-~-> 00:25:51 |hard and I fail? That's exactly what I fed myself every single day. Is it no
255 |254 |00:25:51 ~-~-> 00:25:56 |surprise why I didn't have any ambition to pursue any of the ideas that would
256 |255 |00:25:56 ~-~-> 00:26:03 |come to me? Of course, not come to nobody's surprise, but see, that's the
257 |256 |00:26:03 ~-~-> 00:26:10 |benefit of hindsight, looking back at it now, but when you're thick of it, when
258 |257 |00:26:10 ~-~-> 00:26:17 |you're living it, you can't see it any other way. And you might be there right
259 |258 |00:26:17 ~-~-> 00:26:22 |now. You might have tried trading. And if you're really, really honest, and I'm
260 |259 |00:26:22 ~-~-> 00:26:26 |asking you to be honest, not with me, you don't need to share it publicly as a
261 |260 |00:26:26 ~-~-> 00:26:37 |response to me, but be honest with yourself. Did you rush it? Did you put a
262 |261 |00:26:37 ~-~-> 00:26:42 |little bit too much on your plate, more than you can handle by trading with real
263 |262 |00:26:42 ~-~-> 00:26:49 |money before you should have. Did you try to pass combines before you even
264 |263 |00:26:49 ~-~-> 00:26:55 |knew who you were? The things that make it tick, the things that hold you back,
265 |264 |00:26:55 ~-~-> 00:27:03 |but you don't think it's that. Did you rush it? Did you jump in and plunge
266 |265 |00:27:03 ~-~-> 00:27:07 |before you really knew what you were doing? Because I think if you were
267 |266 |00:27:07 ~-~-> 00:27:12 |honest, you would admit that that's exactly what you did. You see me,
268 |267 |00:27:12 ~-~-> 00:27:17 |there's lots of people out there making money, believe me, they had no problem
269 |268 |00:27:17 ~-~-> 00:27:23 |showing it to you. There's nothing wrong with that, in many ways, they're doing
270 |269 |00:27:23 ~-~-> 00:27:28 |what I did as a 20 year old. You had to broadcast it because I couldn't believe
271 |270 |00:27:28 ~-~-> 00:27:36 |it either. I couldn't believe it. I had to show everybody, not just because I
272 |271 |00:27:36 ~-~-> 00:27:41 |wanted to twist that knife and rub salt in the wound. For everybody said I would
273 |272 |00:27:41 ~-~-> 00:27:47 |never be able to do it, but I physically could not believe it. Remember, I'm an
274 |273 |00:27:47 ~-~-> 00:27:52 |avid lucid dreamer. I didn't know half the time if I was conscious or if I was
275 |274 |00:27:52 ~-~-> 00:27:56 |in a lucid dream during doing what I thought I should be doing. Sounds crazy,
276 |275 |00:27:56 ~-~-> 00:28:09 |doesn't it sounds like wild, but that's a dreamscape. I moved from nightmare to
277 |276 |00:28:09 ~-~-> 00:28:17 |dreamscape. I was living my dreams. I was not enduring my nightmares, and I
278 |277 |00:28:17 ~-~-> 00:28:22 |didn't recognize that right away, because I was doing things after the
279 |278 |00:28:22 ~-~-> 00:28:27 |words of a young lady that I was falling head over heels in love with and her
280 |279 |00:28:27 ~-~-> 00:28:33 |family literally just gave me the invitation that, hey, listen, don't even
281 |280 |00:28:33 ~-~-> 00:28:36 |bother asking me son. Give her the ring and welcome to the family. That's how I
282 |281 |00:28:36 ~-~-> 00:28:44 |interpreted that in true to form once I started making success, and I shared
283 |282 |00:28:44 ~-~-> 00:28:51 |with her, this is what I did. I made $11,000 today. Wow. Now today us. You
284 |283 |00:28:51 ~-~-> 00:28:55 |know today's terms of trading, $11,000 is nothing, right? I mean, nobody cares
285 |284 |00:28:55 ~-~-> 00:28:59 |about $11,000 when you can do it, $11,000 you can't even buy a small
286 |285 |00:28:59 ~-~-> 00:29:00 |county car anymore.
287 |286 |00:29:02 ~-~-> 00:29:10 |You but back in 1993 walking out of the movie theater, holding her hand, we
288 |287 |00:29:12 ~-~-> 00:29:19 |just walked out and saw the movie The Crow Brandon Lee, dark movie. I liked
289 |288 |00:29:19 ~-~-> 00:29:24 |it. It was awesome. She didn't care for the movie too much. And I said, you
290 |289 |00:29:24 ~-~-> 00:29:30 |know, this is the greatest day of my life right now, up to this moment, this
291 |290 |00:29:30 ~-~-> 00:29:37 |is the greatest day. I just got to share time with you. Watched Brandon Lee just
292 |291 |00:29:37 ~-~-> 00:29:41 |go crazy in a movie he died in. It was epic. It was awesome. The soundtrack was
293 |292 |00:29:41 ~-~-> 00:29:51 |awesome, and I made $11,000 and she was like, What? No way, are you crazy that
294 |293 |00:29:51 ~-~-> 00:29:54 |you made that just today? I was like, Well, it took three days to get to it,
295 |294 |00:29:54 ~-~-> 00:30:01 |but I did, yeah, here it is. I told you. Now here it is, gentlemen, this is
296 |295 |00:30:01 ~-~-> 00:30:04 |exactly what we're listening for when you're talking to your ladies, when
297 |296 |00:30:04 ~-~-> 00:30:07 |you're talking to your girlfriends, your wife, your spouse, your significant
298 |297 |00:30:07 ~-~-> 00:30:12 |other. Ladies, listen. This is what we're listening for. This is how you
299 |298 |00:30:12 ~-~-> 00:30:18 |wrap us around your finger. You want a man to stick with you and not run around
300 |299 |00:30:18 ~-~-> 00:30:22 |on you. You want a man that's going to say, You know what? I don't need to get
301 |300 |00:30:22 ~-~-> 00:30:27 |a dip anywhere else. I got everything I need right here. Because listen, ladies,
302 |301 |00:30:27 ~-~-> 00:30:30 |you might think you got something special between your legs. Everybody's
303 |302 |00:30:30 ~-~-> 00:30:34 |got that same thing down there. And men, you got the same thing too. It's how you
304 |303 |00:30:34 ~-~-> 00:30:42 |walk with it. It's what you do when you're not using it. And men give me an
305 |304 |00:30:42 ~-~-> 00:30:48 |amen if it ain't like this, this young lady literally confirmed what she said
306 |305 |00:30:48 ~-~-> 00:30:53 |the first time. I believe you're going to do it. I believe you're going to do
307 |306 |00:30:53 ~-~-> 00:30:58 |it. If there's any person out there that's going to do it, it's you. I
308 |307 |00:30:58 ~-~-> 00:31:02 |haven't known you that long, but I can tell you are very passionate about this.
309 |308 |00:31:04 ~-~-> 00:31:13 |She knew I was studying all the time, all the time, what is that? What's that
310 |309 |00:31:13 ~-~-> 00:31:18 |radio you're holding? I said it's not a radio. It's a quote truck. It tells me
311 |310 |00:31:18 ~-~-> 00:31:22 |what the price of soybeans and corn and live cattle, high grade, copper, all
312 |311 |00:31:22 ~-~-> 00:31:27 |that stuff. It tells me what the prices are right now. And she's like, You know
313 |312 |00:31:27 ~-~-> 00:31:34 |what that means? It's like, well, I'm learning, yep, that same guy you hear
314 |313 |00:31:34 ~-~-> 00:31:39 |now talks like he knows everything, right? I was vulnerable. In her hands
315 |314 |00:31:39 ~-~-> 00:31:43 |and in her presence, I was vulnerable. And she said, I
316 |315 |00:31:43 ~-~-> 00:31:53 |told you, you would be able to do this. Man, I don't care. I could have made a
317 |316 |00:31:53 ~-~-> 00:31:55 |million dollars on that trade.
318 |317 |00:31:57 ~-~-> 00:32:00 |Those words had way more you
319 |318 |00:32:02 ~-~-> 00:32:09 |are way more. I could have ran through a fucking wall. I was like Superman.
320 |319 |00:32:14 ~-~-> 00:32:21 |Ladies, you give your man that he ain't going nowhere. He ain't going nowhere.
321 |320 |00:32:30 ~-~-> 00:32:36 |And that that fueled me. I want to do another one of them, and I don't want to
322 |321 |00:32:36 ~-~-> 00:32:45 |make a mistake. So what was she doing? She was being my accountability agent,
323 |322 |00:32:46 ~-~-> 00:32:52 |the person that held me accountable. She would ask all the time, how much did you
324 |323 |00:32:52 ~-~-> 00:32:58 |risk doing that? How much did you spend to do that? See, in her mind, that's the
325 |324 |00:32:58 ~-~-> 00:33:06 |only thing she understood. It cost you something. What was the cost? And I
326 |325 |00:33:06 ~-~-> 00:33:12 |realized that if I take wild, reckless risks, and I'm trying to start a family
327 |326 |00:33:12 ~-~-> 00:33:19 |with this woman, I'm going to give her my name, because I eventually proposed
328 |327 |00:33:19 ~-~-> 00:33:23 |to her, she said, Yes, her parents were static. It was great. It was great. I
329 |328 |00:33:23 ~-~-> 00:33:27 |took her to harbor courts hotel, and there was two restaurants in there, and
330 |329 |00:33:27 ~-~-> 00:33:34 |they're both five star restaurants. Took a limousine ride down there and proposed
331 |330 |00:33:34 ~-~-> 00:33:39 |to her. And I was scared to death, man, I was scared to death, not because of
332 |331 |00:33:39 ~-~-> 00:33:42 |what she was gonna say, because of what she was going to say, because she
333 |332 |00:33:42 ~-~-> 00:33:45 |already told me she was going to say yes, because I couldn't wait. I told her
334 |333 |00:33:45 ~-~-> 00:33:50 |to give her my aunt's house, who I was living with at the time. I said, Listen,
335 |334 |00:33:50 ~-~-> 00:33:55 |I want to move out, and I want you to be my wife. She's like what? I said, Don't
336 |335 |00:33:55 ~-~-> 00:34:01 |worry, I've already asked your dad. He said, It's good. She's like, what I
337 |336 |00:34:01 ~-~-> 00:34:05 |said, Yeah, I got all this. It's got it all planned out. We're gonna go to Ruth.
338 |337 |00:34:05 ~-~-> 00:34:09 |Chris, I rented a limousine. She's, why'd you do this then? And she started
339 |338 |00:34:09 ~-~-> 00:34:13 |laughing. I said, because I can't wait. I can't wait. I want you to know how
340 |339 |00:34:13 ~-~-> 00:34:18 |much I want to be with you, how much you fulfill me, how much encouragement you
341 |340 |00:34:18 ~-~-> 00:34:26 |provide to me. Ladies, and gentlemen, isn't that what you want in significant
342 |341 |00:34:26 ~-~-> 00:34:34 |other? My life, every day, was writing love letters and love notes and hiding
343 |342 |00:34:34 ~-~-> 00:34:39 |it in things that she would find it underneath a couple layers of socks, in
344 |343 |00:34:39 ~-~-> 00:34:42 |between her books, because she was going to village early for business
345 |344 |00:34:42 ~-~-> 00:34:49 |management. Business Management and every Friday, every Friday, I alternated
346 |345 |00:34:49 ~-~-> 00:34:54 |12 roses being delivered to her house that her parents saw it every other
347 |346 |00:34:54 ~-~-> 00:35:02 |Friday, and her co workers saw it every other Friday. And. I i swooned and just
348 |347 |00:35:02 ~-~-> 00:35:12 |did everything I was Mr. Romantic. Why? Because this woman gave me everything as
349 |348 |00:35:12 ~-~-> 00:35:19 |a man who needed encouragement, she gave me lightning in a bottle, and I wanted
350 |349 |00:35:19 ~-~-> 00:35:22 |to impress her. I wanted her to feel like she could trust me, and kept me
351 |350 |00:35:22 ~-~-> 00:35:25 |from taking reckless, crazy risks.
352 |351 |00:35:31 ~-~-> 00:35:36 |Think about that. You want to succeed in life. You want to succeed in trading
353 |352 |00:35:38 ~-~-> 00:35:46 |your home life's got to be right. You can't be of two minds. And if you're out
354 |353 |00:35:46 ~-~-> 00:35:51 |there thinking, Well, I'm with her for right now, she's my right now. Thing,
355 |354 |00:35:51 ~-~-> 00:36:00 |she's my right now. Girl, my side piece. I keep it from her view. If you're
356 |355 |00:36:00 ~-~-> 00:36:03 |living like that, I'm gonna tell you right now, you're gonna fucking fail in
357 |356 |00:36:03 ~-~-> 00:36:16 |trading. You're gonna fail because what you're doing is all for you, just you.
358 |357 |00:36:17 ~-~-> 00:36:24 |You have no purpose, no measurement, no no guidelines, no boundaries, like a
359 |358 |00:36:24 ~-~-> 00:36:32 |cowboy, like a drunken cowboy, and you can't sustain that kind of stuff. Sure,
360 |359 |00:36:32 ~-~-> 00:36:34 |you might get a lick here and there. Catch a little bit of this, and catch a
361 |360 |00:36:34 ~-~-> 00:36:38 |little bit of that, and look real good. But eventually what happens? You're
362 |361 |00:36:41 ~-~-> 00:36:45 |going to see something else that catches your eye, and you're going to step
363 |362 |00:36:45 ~-~-> 00:36:50 |outside that relationship that you have with that breakdown girl and your side
364 |363 |00:36:50 ~-~-> 00:36:54 |piece to chase something else, because you have no morals, you have no
365 |364 |00:36:54 ~-~-> 00:37:00 |character, and you have no discipline, and you're not happy, so you're with
366 |365 |00:37:00 ~-~-> 00:37:07 |that person right now, occupying a space that you're really reserving for someone
367 |366 |00:37:07 ~-~-> 00:37:14 |that you probably will never meet because you keep making all poor
368 |367 |00:37:14 ~-~-> 00:37:19 |decisions. You're placing yourself in bars on the weekend, wasting your
369 |368 |00:37:19 ~-~-> 00:37:26 |frigging money smoking weed, drinking too much, doing stuff you shouldn't do.
370 |369 |00:37:27 ~-~-> 00:37:31 |Instead of focusing on Where are you going to be in 10 years? Where are you
371 |370 |00:37:33 ~-~-> 00:37:41 |going to be in five are you going to be able to support yourself? How about a
372 |371 |00:37:41 ~-~-> 00:37:44 |family? You see how things are expensive right now.
373 |372 |00:37:49 ~-~-> 00:37:55 |Jobs ain't doing it anymore, folks, you got to find ways to make money, and
374 |373 |00:37:55 ~-~-> 00:37:59 |there's no better way than what we do in trading.
375 |374 |00:38:01 ~-~-> 00:38:05 |You can write your own check, but you can't do it if your head's not right. So
376 |375 |00:38:09 ~-~-> 00:38:14 |this is what I mean when I say you gotta. You gotta fix a lot of things,
377 |376 |00:38:14 ~-~-> 00:38:18 |and you discover a lot of things. But many times I've had emails from from men
378 |377 |00:38:18 ~-~-> 00:38:25 |saying, Listen, I've been trying to do this, and I'm failing, and I'm not being
379 |378 |00:38:25 ~-~-> 00:38:29 |able to find consistency, and I lose and I do stupid things. And the first
380 |379 |00:38:29 ~-~-> 00:38:35 |question I ask all the time is, how's your home life? Well, you know, I'm with
381 |380 |00:38:35 ~-~-> 00:38:39 |somebody that doesn't even and I'm trying to impress them and try to right,
382 |381 |00:38:39 ~-~-> 00:38:48 |there you go. There's your problem. That's why I was messing up. I changed
383 |382 |00:38:48 ~-~-> 00:38:53 |my direction in trying to impress someone that didn't want to be with me,
384 |383 |00:38:53 ~-~-> 00:39:00 |that never, ever, ever gave me those words of encouragement, cheated on me. I
385 |384 |00:39:00 ~-~-> 00:39:09 |it, and then I find someone new who did everything opposite. And I wasn't trying
386 |385 |00:39:09 ~-~-> 00:39:16 |to impress her with, I'm smart. I wasn't trying to impress her with, I made X
387 |386 |00:39:16 ~-~-> 00:39:22 |amount of money with risking too much. What kind of message would that be?
388 |387 |00:39:22 ~-~-> 00:39:26 |Because she's she's asking for analytics. How much did you risk to make
389 |388 |00:39:26 ~-~-> 00:39:34 |that? $11,000 1200 bucks? Wow, that's good. Wow. That is really good. What is
390 |389 |00:39:34 ~-~-> 00:39:38 |she processing in her mind? Remember, she's going to school. Bill, Julie,
391 |390 |00:39:38 ~-~-> 00:39:49 |she's in her second year, third or third year of business management. She's
392 |391 |00:39:49 ~-~-> 00:39:56 |thinking, This guy's a keeper. He's not a gambler. He's not recklessly plunging
393 |392 |00:39:56 ~-~-> 00:40:00 |ahead. So if I got with him, he's not going to lose the mortgage. Lose the
394 |393 |00:40:00 ~-~-> 00:40:03 |house, lose everything. He's not going to put our our nest egg, if we're
395 |394 |00:40:03 ~-~-> 00:40:08 |putting it, you know, aside for the future. He's not going to put us in the
396 |395 |00:40:08 ~-~-> 00:40:14 |poor house. I recognize that. I'm thankful that I was able to be astute
397 |396 |00:40:14 ~-~-> 00:40:18 |enough at the time to recognize that, because if I would have been the cowboy
398 |397 |00:40:18 ~-~-> 00:40:25 |I was trying to be, trying to get my ex back, I think that I probably would have
399 |398 |00:40:25 ~-~-> 00:40:33 |sowed some discouragement, because I was transparent with her, and she was
400 |399 |00:40:35 ~-~-> 00:40:41 |sincere. She never poured it on thick. She never said over the top, you know,
401 |400 |00:40:41 ~-~-> 00:40:45 |embellishments of, oh, wow, you're just amazing. She just out of the blue. We
402 |401 |00:40:45 ~-~-> 00:40:50 |would be sitting there, and she'd think to herself, and she, you know what I was
403 |402 |00:40:50 ~-~-> 00:40:55 |thinking about this today, like you literally look at those things on that
404 |403 |00:40:55 ~-~-> 00:40:59 |paper, because back then, it wasn't like we have it right on our phone. Just push
405 |404 |00:40:59 ~-~-> 00:41:07 |a button. I had to physically draw the charts open, high, low and close. And I
406 |405 |00:41:07 ~-~-> 00:41:12 |was doing it with, like, 18 markets, tedious, very stupid. Should have just
407 |406 |00:41:12 ~-~-> 00:41:16 |picked one. And my real success came when I came to just 122, markets,
408 |407 |00:41:17 ~-~-> 00:41:25 |Valentine, s, p, but she would say to me, you know, like we would be in the
409 |408 |00:41:25 ~-~-> 00:41:29 |mall, and she would turn to me, she starts smile, says, you know, I think
410 |409 |00:41:29 ~-~-> 00:41:35 |it's crazy that you do what you do and you can make money doing that like
411 |410 |00:41:35 ~-~-> 00:41:43 |That's Wild. She never asked for anything. She never asked for anything.
412 |411 |00:41:43 ~-~-> 00:41:53 |The girlfriend got $11,000 engagement ring in 1993 do the math on that. Do the
413 |412 |00:41:53 ~-~-> 00:41:59 |inflationary markup on that today. That was the biggest one I could get at news
414 |413 |00:41:59 ~-~-> 00:42:06 |enough at the time, Charles Newson off. And why did I go there? Because Sharon,
415 |414 |00:42:06 ~-~-> 00:42:11 |her mother, said, Listen, we already accept you, but at least check the
416 |415 |00:42:11 ~-~-> 00:42:15 |display down there. I'm like, Okay, well, I got to make sure mommy, mommy
417 |416 |00:42:15 ~-~-> 00:42:27 |looks, you know, like she's got it together. I had to give back the
418 |417 |00:42:27 ~-~-> 00:42:34 |lippmans marquee diamond I got her that was the one she said yes to. But when we
419 |418 |00:42:34 ~-~-> 00:42:40 |were in Harbor, course, hotel, at the restaurant, and I was kneeling down in
420 |419 |00:42:40 ~-~-> 00:42:45 |my attempt to hide my shaking, trembling me because everybody was staring at me.
421 |420 |00:42:47 ~-~-> 00:42:54 |So you hear me in the way I talk. I'm not that way in person. I'm quiet, I'm
422 |421 |00:42:54 ~-~-> 00:42:59 |reserved. I'm always sitting in the room with my back in the corner, and I'm
423 |422 |00:42:59 ~-~-> 00:43:04 |observing everyone else. I don't walk in the room and try to command and own the
424 |423 |00:43:04 ~-~-> 00:43:08 |room, but you would expect that the way I talk to you in these presentations or
425 |424 |00:43:08 ~-~-> 00:43:14 |in my videos, why I have authority in that that area, that arena. I have
426 |425 |00:43:14 ~-~-> 00:43:20 |authority there. But if you meet me, you're not on the other side of my
427 |426 |00:43:20 ~-~-> 00:43:25 |trade, you're meeting me as the person Michael, I'm very reserved,
428 |427 |00:43:29 ~-~-> 00:43:35 |but when I was on my knee proposing to her, I was scared to death because I saw
429 |428 |00:43:35 ~-~-> 00:43:36 |everyone else looking at me,
430 |429 |00:43:38 ~-~-> 00:43:44 |and I was thinking to myself, am I lucid dreaming right now, or is this real?
431 |430 |00:43:44 ~-~-> 00:43:51 |Because if it's not real, I don't want to wake up. That's how good it was. And
432 |431 |00:43:51 ~-~-> 00:43:55 |I was afraid that they could see inside me and see all the frailties of me,
433 |432 |00:43:55 ~-~-> 00:44:02 |being afraid that I would lose this at any moment, at any moment, this all fade
434 |433 |00:44:02 ~-~-> 00:44:11 |away. Could they see that in me? Could they peer into my soul and see the
435 |434 |00:44:11 ~-~-> 00:44:15 |underlying fear of me not having this anymore? I didn't want to lose it,
436 |435 |00:44:18 ~-~-> 00:44:27 |making money, secondary, securing a life partner that believed in me, that
437 |436 |00:44:27 ~-~-> 00:44:31 |literally told her friends when I met them, this is my boyfriend. They
438 |437 |00:44:32 ~-~-> 00:44:38 |eventually became. This is my fiance. Oh, yeah, I don't know, but I said, What
439 |438 |00:44:38 ~-~-> 00:44:44 |do you do? She finishes it for him immediately. He scribbles on charts, and
440 |439 |00:44:44 ~-~-> 00:44:50 |money jumps into his bank account. And her girlfriend, ginger, was like, what I
441 |440 |00:44:50 ~-~-> 00:44:54 |was like, Well, it's a little bit more involved than that, but it's a that's a
442 |441 |00:44:54 ~-~-> 00:45:00 |nice way of being an icebreaker. And it was just, it was a very easy. Way for me
443 |442 |00:45:00 ~-~-> 00:45:04 |to open up, because otherwise I would not talk, and she knew that about me.
444 |443 |00:45:05 ~-~-> 00:45:11 |What did she do? Man, she tapped into my strength. She didn't put me on a spot
445 |444 |00:45:11 ~-~-> 00:45:20 |and embarrass me. Ladies, that's a lesson for you, and it will allow me to
446 |445 |00:45:20 ~-~-> 00:45:27 |come out of my shell, and so much so that I was out on the dance floor at
447 |446 |00:45:27 ~-~-> 00:45:32 |Partners, which is a bar that no longer exists in Maryland. That's how far she
448 |447 |00:45:32 ~-~-> 00:45:39 |took me, and I didn't drink, okay, but ginger, her girlfriend, and Shannon were
449 |448 |00:45:39 ~-~-> 00:45:43 |both grinding on my thighs and all the other people are in the room. We're all
450 |449 |00:45:43 ~-~-> 00:45:48 |just dancing around too. And I think myself, how did I end up here? Like this
451 |450 |00:45:48 ~-~-> 00:45:52 |is crazy. I never went back again. I thought. I said, Listen, you asked me to
452 |451 |00:45:52 ~-~-> 00:45:58 |do that with you. I went. You can clearly see that's not my own but ginger
453 |452 |00:45:58 ~-~-> 00:46:03 |and her boyfriend and her friends invited us out, so I wasn't permitted to
454 |453 |00:46:03 ~-~-> 00:46:09 |sit on the bar stool and drink Coca Cola only. I had to get up and stand on the
455 |454 |00:46:09 ~-~-> 00:46:17 |dance floor and let the viewers at least see me attempt to be a dance cool,
456 |455 |00:46:17 ~-~-> 00:46:21 |apparently, because that's about the equipment what I was doing, fun times,
457 |456 |00:46:21 ~-~-> 00:46:36 |but uncomfortable too. Now, insecurities creep in. Later. I'm making big money,
458 |457 |00:46:37 ~-~-> 00:46:43 |really big money, and I have a particular family member who had a lot
459 |458 |00:46:43 ~-~-> 00:46:51 |of trust in and they sewed an idea in my head that started taking over, and I can
460 |459 |00:46:51 ~-~-> 00:46:59 |look back now to get to the enemy, but I didn't recognize it. Then, what happens
461 |460 |00:46:59 ~-~-> 00:47:04 |if she's just with you for your money? And while she never asked for anything,
462 |461 |00:47:06 ~-~-> 00:47:12 |she never had to, I would always ask her mother, is there anything that she wants
463 |462 |00:47:12 ~-~-> 00:47:18 |right now? And I would leave it on her bed. I would get her keys and put it in
464 |463 |00:47:18 ~-~-> 00:47:22 |her trunk, and then tell her, Hey, look, can you check your trunk? I think I left
465 |464 |00:47:22 ~-~-> 00:47:26 |my hat and she'd find it. I would do stuff like that all the time, but I knew
466 |465 |00:47:26 ~-~-> 00:47:32 |enough to know that she was sincere about the encouragement she gave me. But
467 |466 |00:47:32 ~-~-> 00:47:37 |this family member made me start thinking, Am I really pouring on too
468 |467 |00:47:37 ~-~-> 00:47:42 |thick, buying her affection when she had already given it to me beforehand, I
469 |468 |00:47:42 ~-~-> 00:47:53 |lost sight of that. What was I doing? I was worrying about the money, just like
470 |469 |00:47:53 ~-~-> 00:47:56 |that happens in your trading when you worry about the money you lose. Make
471 |470 |00:47:56 ~-~-> 00:48:01 |stupid decisions. And I made a dumb decision. I mean a very, very dumb
472 |471 |00:48:01 ~-~-> 00:48:06 |decision, then gotta be careful. I say these things because it makes it sound
473 |472 |00:48:06 ~-~-> 00:48:10 |like dumb. Regretting being married to my wife. I'm not regretting at all being
474 |473 |00:48:10 ~-~-> 00:48:15 |married to my wife, but I can tap into my younger ears and tell you and relive
475 |474 |00:48:15 ~-~-> 00:48:24 |them. If I hand you my diary, it would be just like I'm saying it right now. It
476 |475 |00:48:24 ~-~-> 00:48:33 |reads like a novel. I have always looked back and thought to myself, How will my
477 |476 |00:48:33 ~-~-> 00:48:38 |life be if I want to listen to someone give me the worst idea to focus on
478 |477 |00:48:39 ~-~-> 00:48:44 |worrying about an outcome that never, probably would have ever, ever happened.
479 |478 |00:48:46 ~-~-> 00:48:51 |The enemy introduced. What if? Thinking again, on the toxic level, see, I didn't
480 |479 |00:48:51 ~-~-> 00:48:54 |look at Shannon every day and think, What if this doesn't go well? What if
481 |480 |00:48:54 ~-~-> 00:48:58 |this until this person, my family member, said, look at all the money
482 |481 |00:48:58 ~-~-> 00:49:05 |you're making right now. I can see it now as jealousy and envy, and they
483 |482 |00:49:05 ~-~-> 00:49:14 |wanted to disrupt a storybook ending to a very, very rotten beginning of a life,
484 |483 |00:49:14 ~-~-> 00:49:22 |and that's what family does. I hate to admit it. I hate to be the bearer of bad
485 |484 |00:49:22 ~-~-> 00:49:26 |news. I know, you know, some of you will say, No, not my family. Listen, if you
486 |485 |00:49:26 ~-~-> 00:49:30 |look around, there's one in your family. There's one that everybody wishes didn't
487 |486 |00:49:30 ~-~-> 00:49:34 |come to the cookout. There's always one of them that says, Well, you know, he's
488 |487 |00:49:34 ~-~-> 00:49:41 |got some issues. She's got some issues. And unfortunately, as a young man,
489 |488 |00:49:41 ~-~-> 00:49:47 |that's the one that held a whole lot of influence over me as a young man. And
490 |489 |00:49:47 ~-~-> 00:49:51 |then, because that idea was placed in my head, what the happened? I started
491 |490 |00:49:51 ~-~-> 00:50:00 |looking for signs that, is she a gold digger? Is she a gold digger? No. It.
492 |491 |00:50:00 ~-~-> 00:50:03 |She never was, but I was looking for it, and if you look for it hard enough,
493 |492 |00:50:05 ~-~-> 00:50:12 |you'll find it. And I never called her outside of her name. I was never rude,
494 |493 |00:50:12 ~-~-> 00:50:15 |but I just told her, I said, I don't think this is going to work out anymore.
495 |494 |00:50:16 ~-~-> 00:50:20 |And she was upset. She cried like crazy, like I didn't do anything. I knew you
496 |495 |00:50:20 ~-~-> 00:50:26 |didn't do anything, but I can't do this anymore. And now she did, guys, listen
497 |496 |00:50:26 ~-~-> 00:50:33 |to this. She gave me my ring back. Ladies, you're laughing right now,
498 |497 |00:50:33 ~-~-> 00:50:37 |aren't you? Hey, no way I would have gave it back. That's mine. That's mine,
499 |498 |00:50:37 ~-~-> 00:50:41 |and I didn't ask for it. In fact, I told her, I didn't answer the ring and gave
500 |499 |00:50:41 ~-~-> 00:50:47 |it back to her, and she goes, it's mine. If you give it back to me with your
501 |500 |00:50:47 ~-~-> 00:50:54 |name, and if I don't have your name, I don't deserve the ring. I'm gonna tell
502 |501 |00:50:54 ~-~-> 00:51:00 |you right now, my wife today would have never done that. That's not a knock
503 |502 |00:51:00 ~-~-> 00:51:07 |against her, but I'm just telling you the stark contrast, and that was my last
504 |503 |00:51:07 ~-~-> 00:51:12 |sign. I was making a mistake, and I still didn't see it because I was
505 |504 |00:51:12 ~-~-> 00:51:22 |worried about the money. I latched on to bad experiences. My previous wife left
506 |505 |00:51:22 ~-~-> 00:51:27 |me, and I didn't have anything, just a promise that I'm going through school
507 |506 |00:51:27 ~-~-> 00:51:31 |and when I get out, we're going to do good. Now I wasn't trading them. Wasn't
508 |507 |00:51:31 ~-~-> 00:51:36 |even trying to trade, but I was trying to have her believe in me, and she
509 |508 |00:51:36 ~-~-> 00:51:43 |didn't. And here's this young lady who I followed home drove up and down two
510 |509 |00:51:43 ~-~-> 00:51:46 |o'clock in the morning to four o'clock in the morning trying to find where her
511 |510 |00:51:46 ~-~-> 00:51:52 |car was, and then left a note with her brother for her to call me, and we got
512 |511 |00:51:52 ~-~-> 00:52:00 |together like that. That's that's crazy town in it. And she says, If you give me
513 |512 |00:52:00 ~-~-> 00:52:04 |your last name, then I then I deserve the ring, but because I'm not getting
514 |513 |00:52:04 ~-~-> 00:52:17 |your name, I don't deserve the ring. Now, that was the begin, beginning of
515 |514 |00:52:17 ~-~-> 00:52:27 |just total craziness. I was back in that middle of the sea without a rudder, no
516 |515 |00:52:27 ~-~-> 00:52:34 |sail, and regretting and she got with someone else, so I couldn't go back to
517 |516 |00:52:34 ~-~-> 00:52:41 |her. And here I am looking at these charts, figuring out, what am I gonna do
518 |517 |00:52:41 ~-~-> 00:52:49 |now? And I lost my support structure, I lost my accountability agent, the person
519 |518 |00:52:49 ~-~-> 00:52:56 |that kept me in line, and I started pursuing stupid stuff, doing this and
520 |519 |00:52:56 ~-~-> 00:52:59 |doing that, recklessly doing this, and listening to some goober on the internet
521 |520 |00:53:02 ~-~-> 00:53:06 |wasting money. Even tried to do Larry Williams eventually trying to take his
522 |521 |00:53:06 ~-~-> 00:53:12 |s, p signals on his 900 number. I never made money doing it. I couldn't afford
523 |522 |00:53:12 ~-~-> 00:53:17 |to stop loss he was using. I thought I could. I was like, well, I won't risk
524 |523 |00:53:17 ~-~-> 00:53:21 |that much. He's good. He's good trading his his stop loss ain't gonna get hit.
525 |524 |00:53:21 ~-~-> 00:53:25 |So I would do like one quarter of what he's risking, and I'd get you stopped
526 |525 |00:53:25 ~-~-> 00:53:28 |out or scared out of it and get out of the trade. So I never made money. I was
527 |526 |00:53:28 ~-~-> 00:53:29 |doing all the wrong things.
528 |527 |00:53:34 ~-~-> 00:53:44 |And I went back to Nightmare Night Time anxiety. And pushing the edge too hard
529 |528 |00:53:46 ~-~-> 00:53:48 |and losing sight of why I was even doing it,
530 |529 |00:53:56 ~-~-> 00:54:04 |until I tapped into what was doing the best in terms of keeping me on point
531 |530 |00:54:06 ~-~-> 00:54:15 |positive self talk. I would tell myself, think about what she said to you and
532 |531 |00:54:15 ~-~-> 00:54:21 |look at the effect it had over you. And I learned to do that practice of self
533 |532 |00:54:21 ~-~-> 00:54:25 |talk, I would tell myself, there's no emergency. See, anxiety comes when
534 |533 |00:54:25 ~-~-> 00:54:29 |you're trying to live up to everyone else's expectations or wants on their
535 |534 |00:54:29 ~-~-> 00:54:36 |schedule, on their timing, folks, you're never going to be comfortable in that
536 |535 |00:54:36 ~-~-> 00:54:42 |situation. You're never going to be satisfied because you're trying to live
537 |536 |00:54:42 ~-~-> 00:54:47 |your life to please other people. Instead of finding someone that's in
538 |537 |00:54:47 ~-~-> 00:54:52 |love with you as you are, you don't need to change. You don't need to outperform
539 |538 |00:54:52 ~-~-> 00:54:59 |what they fell in love with. And I found myself trying to do that with Shannon. I
540 |539 |00:54:59 ~-~-> 00:55:02 |want the top. Everything always had, always better, always better, always
541 |540 |00:55:02 ~-~-> 00:55:05 |better. And her girlfriend, Ginger's boyfriend, Hayden, he wanted to beat me
542 |541 |00:55:05 ~-~-> 00:55:09 |up beyond such I was spin, kicked his fucking ass, knocked his ass out then,
543 |542 |00:55:09 ~-~-> 00:55:12 |but he wanted to fight me because his girlfriend was telling him all the time,
544 |543 |00:55:12 ~-~-> 00:55:17 |why don't you do and I was like, Oh, shit, here it is. I mean, deep water. So
545 |544 |00:55:17 ~-~-> 00:55:22 |I became a toxic thing around them when I wasn't doing anything except for
546 |545 |00:55:22 ~-~-> 00:55:27 |trying to do what I felt I needed to do, which is out do what I ever did before,
547 |546 |00:55:27 ~-~-> 00:55:30 |to impress and make Shannon realize how much I love her and how much I'm pouring
548 |547 |00:55:30 ~-~-> 00:55:31 |into her.
549 |548 |00:55:37 ~-~-> 00:55:41 |If I was with my first wife and I had that kind of money coming in, I would
550 |549 |00:55:41 ~-~-> 00:55:47 |have been taking advantage of like crazy. It would have been like holding
551 |550 |00:55:47 ~-~-> 00:55:52 |on to a losing trade and giving it more money, all right. Well, I'm down $10,000
552 |551 |00:55:53 ~-~-> 00:56:03 |this is by five more contracts. It's average into it. So I thought about what
553 |552 |00:56:03 ~-~-> 00:56:10 |she gave me, and I hold on to it every day, today I think about those words. I
554 |553 |00:56:10 ~-~-> 00:56:16 |hear her voice exactly as she said it, and it makes me feel good every time,
555 |554 |00:56:16 ~-~-> 00:56:23 |every time I think of it, it makes me feel good. It encourages me. It reminds
556 |555 |00:56:23 ~-~-> 00:56:28 |me that, you know what I believe that was the Lord just tapping me and saying,
557 |556 |00:56:28 ~-~-> 00:56:33 |Listen, I've been trying to tell you your entire teenage life, this is where
558 |557 |00:56:33 ~-~-> 00:56:40 |you're supposed to be at so I had to use her to get your attention. So he got my
559 |558 |00:56:40 ~-~-> 00:56:46 |attention. Obviously, I didn't handle it well, mismanaged some of it, but I
560 |559 |00:56:46 ~-~-> 00:56:51 |changed my perspective to stop dwelling on the nightmarish aspects of life and
561 |560 |00:56:52 ~-~-> 00:56:58 |focusing on the dream skates being highly organized, very, very, very
562 |561 |00:56:58 ~-~-> 00:57:04 |detail oriented. I started changing the way I did my journals. See in my life
563 |562 |00:57:04 ~-~-> 00:57:09 |journal, I would close my day and be like, man. I such a wonderful day with
564 |563 |00:57:09 ~-~-> 00:57:13 |Shannon. I had a wonderful day doing this, this, this, and Shannon was always
565 |564 |00:57:13 ~-~-> 00:57:18 |in the middle of it. Contrast that with my trading journal, it was like, Man, I
566 |565 |00:57:18 ~-~-> 00:57:22 |f this up. I don't know why this isn't working. Why the f am I doing this all
567 |566 |00:57:22 ~-~-> 00:57:26 |the time, losing money on this type of setup? Why did I chase that? Why did I
568 |567 |00:57:26 ~-~-> 00:57:29 |go in there, doing too many contracts. I should have never listened to that
569 |568 |00:57:29 ~-~-> 00:57:37 |article in commodity magazine. What was that doing? Constantly beating myself
570 |569 |00:57:37 ~-~-> 00:57:44 |up. So what's my subconscious going to do? Well, I only find happiness in
571 |570 |00:57:44 ~-~-> 00:57:51 |Shannon, and I'm not happy trading. I'm miserable in trading. So what happens
572 |571 |00:57:51 ~-~-> 00:57:57 |when I put a trade on? Am I going to feel good and empowered? No, I don't
573 |572 |00:57:57 ~-~-> 00:58:04 |have Shannon anymore. My my support structure is gone, so I had to replace
574 |573 |00:58:04 ~-~-> 00:58:09 |her words of encouragement and accountability aspect with my trading
575 |574 |00:58:09 ~-~-> 00:58:15 |journal. And everything was a dreamcape in that sure I probably lost the trade.
576 |575 |00:58:15 ~-~-> 00:58:19 |Probably went in and tried it again, still lost on that one, but I would go
577 |576 |00:58:19 ~-~-> 00:58:25 |in and say, You know what? I'm thankful that I had this opportunity to learn two
578 |577 |00:58:25 ~-~-> 00:58:33 |lessons today that cost me money, so there's value behind it. Now, I had to
579 |578 |00:58:34 ~-~-> 00:58:38 |pay a price for this information. Now you can bitch and kick and scream and
580 |579 |00:58:38 ~-~-> 00:58:46 |say, I don't want to lose I want to find a model that never loses. Let me tell
581 |580 |00:58:46 ~-~-> 00:58:54 |you a secret. Okay, if you're writing things down, write this down. Every
582 |581 |00:58:54 ~-~-> 00:59:04 |trading approach or model is perfect. It's perfect. It's flawless. It doesn't
583 |582 |00:59:04 ~-~-> 00:59:12 |have any losing transactions that you never realize, that have you, every
584 |583 |00:59:12 ~-~-> 00:59:17 |system, every application, every indicator, every buy and sell
585 |584 |00:59:17 ~-~-> 00:59:22 |indication, you would get as a trader, no matter what you use, it's flawless,
586 |585 |00:59:24 ~-~-> 00:59:31 |until you go in and f it up. You can flip a quarter heads, you buy tails, you
587 |586 |00:59:31 ~-~-> 00:59:38 |short or simplify like this. When you're bullish, if it comes up heads, you'll
588 |587 |00:59:38 ~-~-> 00:59:41 |act. You'll take action and engage. If it comes up tails, don't take the trade.
589 |588 |00:59:41 ~-~-> 00:59:45 |Only risk one quarter of 1% over a year, you're gonna make money. Don't believe
590 |589 |00:59:45 ~-~-> 00:59:54 |me, test it. Test it as you're removing the emotions. You're removing the
591 |590 |00:59:54 ~-~-> 00:59:58 |outward stimuli that's causing you to take a trade with more contracts as you
592 |591 |00:59:58 ~-~-> 01:00:08 |should. You. We mess it up because we're holding on to toxic baggage the last
593 |592 |01:00:08 ~-~-> 01:00:13 |five trades. Man, you don't know. ICT, you weren't there. Man, I was. I'm at
594 |593 |01:00:13 ~-~-> 01:00:17 |the verge of blowing my my combine or losing my funded account. Yeah, I get
595 |594 |01:00:17 ~-~-> 01:00:22 |it. Man, I get it. I've never traded those sim, pop, firm, company accounts.
596 |595 |01:00:23 ~-~-> 01:00:27 |But I've been there. I've been there. We're almost I'm at the point where the
597 |596 |01:00:27 ~-~-> 01:00:37 |account is going to be blown. I'll have to add more money. I've been there, but
598 |597 |01:00:37 ~-~-> 01:00:43 |you have to sweet talk yourself. Remember, you got to be honest, like I
599 |598 |01:00:43 ~-~-> 01:00:51 |was with her, and she reciprocated sincerely and encouraged me. That's
600 |599 |01:00:51 ~-~-> 01:00:58 |exactly what you do in your trading journal. You have to love yourself. You
601 |600 |01:00:58 ~-~-> 01:01:02 |have to care about yourself enough not to talk down to yourself. Do not punch
602 |601 |01:01:02 ~-~-> 01:01:10 |down on your developing future self. If you do that, you're going to stagnate
603 |602 |01:01:11 ~-~-> 01:01:15 |and stunt your growth, and you're going to make it miserable as you go through
604 |603 |01:01:15 ~-~-> 01:01:20 |it. You want to make it longer than it has to be. Talk toxic in your in your
605 |604 |01:01:20 ~-~-> 01:01:26 |journal. Share your journal with someone else, and you're going to set yourself
606 |605 |01:01:26 ~-~-> 01:01:33 |up for ruin. You got to be honest, be able to pour yourself out in these
607 |606 |01:01:33 ~-~-> 01:01:40 |journals. Sweet talk yourself. Start looking through the lens of a dreamscape
608 |607 |01:01:40 ~-~-> 01:01:45 |where there's nothing negative. You ever notice in a dream, a good dream, there's
609 |608 |01:01:45 ~-~-> 01:01:53 |no villains. Think about that. There's no Well, something bad could have
610 |609 |01:01:53 ~-~-> 01:01:57 |happened here. That stuff doesn't happen, does it? What is your brain
611 |610 |01:01:57 ~-~-> 01:02:06 |telling you it's removed all of the toxicity of the everyday living, and
612 |611 |01:02:06 ~-~-> 01:02:12 |it's focusing on nurturing you. That's what that good dream is doing. It's
613 |612 |01:02:12 ~-~-> 01:02:17 |therapy for yourself, because you're going through something, and then you
614 |613 |01:02:17 ~-~-> 01:02:20 |have nightmares. When you have a nightmares, when things are going good.
615 |614 |01:02:20 ~-~-> 01:02:23 |Why? Because deep down inside, you're afraid shits about to go, tits up.
616 |615 |01:02:26 ~-~-> 01:02:27 |That's how the brain works.
617 |616 |01:02:28 ~-~-> 01:02:35 |I've never had a bad dream, ever, ever, ever, ever, because I had a bad day.
618 |617 |01:02:37 ~-~-> 01:02:41 |They always happened when I had a good day and I went to sleep, and my brain
619 |618 |01:02:41 ~-~-> 01:02:45 |was readying myself for, okay, eventually, this is what's about to
620 |619 |01:02:45 ~-~-> 01:02:50 |happen to you. You're you're tied up on a railroad track, and the guy's laughing
621 |620 |01:02:50 ~-~-> 01:02:53 |ring top, and he's got his boot on your neck laughing. He's going to jump out of
622 |621 |01:02:53 ~-~-> 01:02:57 |the way for train gets here, and you're just going to run you over for really
623 |622 |01:02:57 ~-~-> 01:03:02 |far extreme, obviously, but it's just to make light of not something funny, but
624 |623 |01:03:02 ~-~-> 01:03:09 |we wrestle with that. And because I have a very, very aggressive mind, it's a
625 |624 |01:03:09 ~-~-> 01:03:19 |hyper active brain. I easily lose attention on something because my mind's
626 |625 |01:03:19 ~-~-> 01:03:22 |gone 1000 miles an hour, constantly, constantly, constantly. I'm always
627 |626 |01:03:22 ~-~-> 01:03:27 |dealing with a thought or some concern jumping in ahead of the front of the
628 |627 |01:03:27 ~-~-> 01:03:32 |line. And I feel like, unless I'm highly organized, I spend my time anxiously
629 |628 |01:03:32 ~-~-> 01:03:37 |worrying about not managing the ideas that jump in front of me. That's what a
630 |629 |01:03:37 ~-~-> 01:03:43 |hyperactive creative mind does. But see today they'll call it that attention
631 |630 |01:03:43 ~-~-> 01:03:49 |deficit. You're retarded. You're something wrong with you, you're not in
632 |631 |01:03:49 ~-~-> 01:03:54 |my early years in school, I sucked at my grades because this was not I knew
633 |632 |01:03:54 ~-~-> 01:03:58 |enough that this is I'm not going to do this stuff when I get out like this is
634 |633 |01:03:58 ~-~-> 01:04:02 |all dumb, challenged me with something. And when I started learning computer
635 |634 |01:04:02 ~-~-> 01:04:09 |programming, suddenly math and science, I excelled in English, not so much,
636 |635 |01:04:09 ~-~-> 01:04:17 |social studies, not so much, but math and science, bam, I'm staying over after
637 |636 |01:04:17 ~-~-> 01:04:22 |class. Math teacher, look at me like, Don't you do anything outside of school,
638 |637 |01:04:22 ~-~-> 01:04:26 |like baseball? I said, Yeah, I did. I dropped that. I want to learn this. I
639 |638 |01:04:28 ~-~-> 01:04:36 |was learning basic language. Why? Because it interested me. So if you were
640 |639 |01:04:36 ~-~-> 01:04:39 |going through school and you felt like, man, yeah, I didn't do good in school,
641 |640 |01:04:39 ~-~-> 01:04:44 |it's not because you're a loser. It's not because you're stupid or you're
642 |641 |01:04:44 ~-~-> 01:04:48 |retarded or you have some learning disability. You have a supercharged
643 |642 |01:04:48 ~-~-> 01:04:54 |brain. God blessed you with a brain that's absolutely phenomenal. He gave
644 |643 |01:04:54 ~-~-> 01:04:58 |you something that he knows if you listen and obey what he's laying in
645 |644 |01:04:58 ~-~-> 01:05:02 |front of you as opportunities to use it. It. You're going to do things way beyond
646 |645 |01:05:02 ~-~-> 01:05:07 |the average person, way beyond it. But this world's lying to you, saying, Yeah,
647 |646 |01:05:07 ~-~-> 01:05:11 |you got a learning disability. Let me put you on some medication, because they
648 |647 |01:05:11 ~-~-> 01:05:14 |want to make you stupid with the medication, they want to dumb you down.
649 |648 |01:05:15 ~-~-> 01:05:22 |That's what they do. Everybody look let me tell you something, my youngest son,
650 |649 |01:05:24 ~-~-> 01:05:28 |we had him assessed, and he said, Well, he has a learning disability. And I
651 |650 |01:05:28 ~-~-> 01:05:34 |said, he ain't getting no no medicine, and I'll homeschool him. Thank you. This
652 |651 |01:05:34 ~-~-> 01:05:40 |boy has the most beautiful creativity and imagination. You give him anything
653 |652 |01:05:41 ~-~-> 01:05:49 |paper, wood, plastic, metal. He can put things together and shape things and
654 |653 |01:05:49 ~-~-> 01:05:54 |sculpture things. And like, like, he made a puppet, a hand puppet, okay, when
655 |654 |01:05:54 ~-~-> 01:05:58 |he was five years old. And my wife and I were like, What in the world? And I'm
656 |655 |01:05:59 ~-~-> 01:06:02 |not talking about like a sock with some buttons taped on it, like he went
657 |656 |01:06:02 ~-~-> 01:06:06 |through the whole process of making it. And there was no website that taught
658 |657 |01:06:06 ~-~-> 01:06:10 |him. He just sat down and his brain said, This is what I know the only use
659 |658 |01:06:10 ~-~-> 01:06:15 |this, this, this cut up an old t shirt here. Use this stick over here from a
660 |659 |01:06:15 ~-~-> 01:06:19 |pennant flag to use the one of the arms move around. And he on his own. He did
661 |660 |01:06:19 ~-~-> 01:06:26 |that retarded stupid, held back unequipped brains don't do that, okay,
662 |661 |01:06:26 ~-~-> 01:06:31 |but that's what the world will tell you. They're constantly beating you down.
663 |662 |01:06:31 ~-~-> 01:06:37 |They're constantly beating you down, and then here you are, just like I did. I'm
664 |663 |01:06:37 ~-~-> 01:06:42 |taking that mentality and placing it right in my journal. Why are you wasting
665 |664 |01:06:42 ~-~-> 01:06:47 |your time talking down to yourself? You need to stop that stuff. You need to cut
666 |665 |01:06:47 ~-~-> 01:06:52 |it out, because the only thing you're doing is reinforcing the anxiety that
667 |666 |01:06:52 ~-~-> 01:06:58 |you feel, and that anxiety will manifest itself in performance anxiety you can
668 |667 |01:06:58 ~-~-> 01:07:03 |learn every possible scenario the trade with my material or anyone else's, and
669 |668 |01:07:04 ~-~-> 01:07:09 |theoretically know exactly how to do it, but because you're holding on to things
670 |669 |01:07:09 ~-~-> 01:07:15 |that are toxic, but you won't admit it, you won't say, Yeah, I'm doing that.
671 |670 |01:07:15 ~-~-> 01:07:20 |Why? Because you're in love with the normalcy of it. See, it's normal to you
672 |671 |01:07:20 ~-~-> 01:07:23 |to hold on to that toxicity. That's why abusive relationships last as long as
673 |672 |01:07:23 ~-~-> 01:07:27 |they do, because they lie to themselves. You know what? I probably don't deserve
674 |673 |01:07:27 ~-~-> 01:07:31 |anything better than this anyway, at least I'm getting fed. At least I have a
675 |674 |01:07:31 ~-~-> 01:07:38 |roof over my head. It could be worse. I could be homeless. And we do that same
676 |675 |01:07:38 ~-~-> 01:07:44 |thing. We rationalize the poor excuse of studying, the poor excuse of back
677 |676 |01:07:44 ~-~-> 01:07:48 |testing, forward testing, tape reading, before we actually put real risk behind
678 |677 |01:07:48 ~-~-> 01:07:48 |the trade. And
679 |678 |01:07:54 ~-~-> 01:07:59 |then we make a mistake. We kick ourselves in the teeth. And that ain't
680 |679 |01:07:59 ~-~-> 01:08:05 |bad enough. You solidify it, and you talk down and you vilify yourself in
681 |680 |01:08:05 ~-~-> 01:08:08 |that journal, and you think that you're doing something constructive. You are.
682 |681 |01:08:09 ~-~-> 01:08:13 |You're constructively tearing down any future chance of you succeeding doing
683 |682 |01:08:13 ~-~-> 01:08:18 |this. If that hurts good, let it sting, because you have to know that what
684 |683 |01:08:18 ~-~-> 01:08:23 |you're doing, if you're doing that, it's wrong, it's wrong. You're holding
685 |684 |01:08:23 ~-~-> 01:08:27 |yourself back. You're stunting your growth, and you're filling your mind
686 |685 |01:08:27 ~-~-> 01:08:32 |with instead of creativity, instead of saying, Well, you know, this is what
687 |686 |01:08:32 ~-~-> 01:08:37 |I've been doing in the last six trades. Has been a losing trade. So I know this
688 |687 |01:08:37 ~-~-> 01:08:41 |stuff doesn't work. There has to be some kind of angle. ICT it's got to be some
689 |688 |01:08:41 ~-~-> 01:08:44 |kind of fraud. He's paying these people to put out there that they're making
690 |689 |01:08:44 ~-~-> 01:08:48 |money. It's all fake. It's all fraud. You start thinking about this silly shit
691 |690 |01:08:48 ~-~-> 01:08:55 |and you think it's real, because you have to make an accountability outside
692 |691 |01:08:55 ~-~-> 01:09:04 |yourself. It's it's something outside of you, instead of it's you. You can't this
693 |692 |01:09:04 ~-~-> 01:09:07 |is one of this is one of the biggest things I learned from Larry Williams.
694 |693 |01:09:08 ~-~-> 01:09:13 |See what I'm talking to you like now, that's what I got from Larry Williams,
695 |694 |01:09:13 ~-~-> 01:09:16 |four video tapes. I could care less about the things he was talking about.
696 |695 |01:09:16 ~-~-> 01:09:20 |Technically, I knew that at the back of our hand when he would talk about, you
697 |696 |01:09:20 ~-~-> 01:09:23 |know, you gotta be responsible. You gotta be personally responsible, like
698 |697 |01:09:24 ~-~-> 01:09:29 |like he was Uncle Larry to me like that. That man still holds hero status to me,
699 |698 |01:09:29 ~-~-> 01:09:33 |and I know I preach against hero stuff, but not on the level of worshiping
700 |699 |01:09:33 ~-~-> 01:09:37 |online. Okay, I don't want anybody treating me like that. I don't deserve
701 |700 |01:09:37 ~-~-> 01:09:41 |that, and no other man deserves it either, and Larry doesn't either, but I
702 |701 |01:09:41 ~-~-> 01:09:47 |needed a father figure, and I tapped into his speaking points on how I'm
703 |702 |01:09:47 ~-~-> 01:09:53 |supposed to account and be responsible, because I wasn't responsible before that
704 |703 |01:09:53 ~-~-> 01:10:01 |trading forced responsibility because I was a very stationary person. You. Uh,
705 |704 |01:10:01 ~-~-> 01:10:08 |introverted in an introverted man was an extroverted girl that got married way
706 |705 |01:10:08 ~-~-> 01:10:14 |too young for all the wrong reasons. That's a that's a doomed that's a doomed
707 |706 |01:10:14 ~-~-> 01:10:18 |relationship. But because my heart was poured into it, I didn't want to let go
708 |707 |01:10:18 ~-~-> 01:10:23 |of it, just like you don't want to let go of what you think is normal. It's
709 |708 |01:10:23 ~-~-> 01:10:27 |normal for you to wake up every day and feel, what if something bad happens
710 |709 |01:10:27 ~-~-> 01:10:32 |sooner than I thought. It's funny, when you think about it said, like that,
711 |710 |01:10:32 ~-~-> 01:10:37 |isn't it that that's exactly what you do. Yeah. Well, you know, I woke up
712 |711 |01:10:37 ~-~-> 01:10:41 |feeling like I want to take a trade, but I wonder how fast I can blow this
713 |712 |01:10:41 ~-~-> 01:10:45 |account today. That's exactly what you're thinking. That's exactly what
714 |713 |01:10:45 ~-~-> 01:10:48 |you're thinking deep down inside, right before you push the button and you're
715 |714 |01:10:48 ~-~-> 01:10:53 |hoping that somehow you're wrong. That's your training model. I hope I'm wrong
716 |715 |01:10:53 ~-~-> 01:10:59 |today. Click. Well, I wasn't wrong today. Whoo. I love being in normalcy.
717 |716 |01:10:59 ~-~-> 01:11:03 |Better get some more money. What they do with this? Discount. What's that new
718 |717 |01:11:03 ~-~-> 01:11:12 |code for the prop firm? Again, I'm not making fun of you folks. I did this with
719 |718 |01:11:12 ~-~-> 01:11:20 |real money. That's way more painful, way more way more emotionally destabilizing,
720 |719 |01:11:20 ~-~-> 01:11:31 |the morally miserable. And I wasn't making a lot of money back then, so you
721 |720 |01:11:31 ~-~-> 01:11:38 |have to pour yourself into laying a dreamscape. Cheerlead yourself in your
722 |721 |01:11:38 ~-~-> 01:11:43 |journal instead of saying, What if something really bad goes on? What if I
723 |722 |01:11:43 ~-~-> 01:11:46 |lose? What if I blow the account? What happens if this doesn't work on my next
724 |723 |01:11:46 ~-~-> 01:11:54 |10 trades? Change that to what if I waited too long to be disorganized? How?
725 |724 |01:11:54 ~-~-> 01:11:59 |How? How incredible will I see my results turn around and be more
726 |725 |01:11:59 ~-~-> 01:12:02 |consistent when I'm not focused on the adversities that could happen, and I
727 |726 |01:12:02 ~-~-> 01:12:05 |don't know if they're going to happen, but if they do, that's why I have risk
728 |727 |01:12:05 ~-~-> 01:12:09 |management. That's why I have a stop loss. That's why I don't over leverage.
729 |728 |01:12:09 ~-~-> 01:12:12 |See, when you have a system and you have an organization and you have a model
730 |729 |01:12:12 ~-~-> 01:12:15 |that you say, I can't trade more than this many contracts. I can't take more
731 |730 |01:12:15 ~-~-> 01:12:21 |than this many trades per day. I can't risk this much money on any one
732 |731 |01:12:21 ~-~-> 01:12:26 |individual trade. You know what that does see men, we think that is, you
733 |732 |01:12:26 ~-~-> 01:12:33 |can't do something. You better not do it. You better not and the young punk in
734 |733 |01:12:33 ~-~-> 01:12:37 |US sees that sign says, Don't walk on the grass. What are we going to do? Say
735 |734 |01:12:37 ~-~-> 01:12:40 |it? You know what? That's going to I'm going to moon walk on that. That's what
736 |735 |01:12:40 ~-~-> 01:12:45 |that's how we're wired. We're cavemen. We're like Neanderthals. You have to do
737 |736 |01:12:45 ~-~-> 01:12:50 |this, this, this, this, you can't drive faster than 55 and don't cross the
738 |737 |01:12:50 ~-~-> 01:12:53 |yellow line. And what do we know the guy in front of us is going too slow. Get
739 |738 |01:12:53 ~-~-> 01:12:56 |the fuck out of my way. I'm crossing the yellow line and I'm doing 85 miles an
740 |739 |01:12:56 ~-~-> 01:13:01 |hour in a 35 mile an hour zone. Why? Because I'm a fucking caveman. That's
741 |740 |01:13:01 ~-~-> 01:13:08 |why I'm just wired that way. But you can't do that in trading. You can't do
742 |741 |01:13:08 ~-~-> 01:13:09 |that in trading. You're
743 |742 |01:13:10 ~-~-> 01:13:15 |gonna have your hinder parts handed to you expediently. It's gonna happen just
744 |743 |01:13:15 ~-~-> 01:13:16 |like that.
745 |744 |01:13:17 ~-~-> 01:13:21 |You're gonna think you're special. They happen so quickly for you that's Service
746 |745 |01:13:21 ~-~-> 01:13:36 |with a smile. You got to tell yourself, What if I get five winning trades in a
747 |746 |01:13:36 ~-~-> 01:13:43 |row? How exciting is that? And if it happens that you get a losing trade, you
748 |747 |01:13:43 ~-~-> 01:13:46 |don't go in there. Oh, well, I blew that. You say, You know what? This is
749 |748 |01:13:46 ~-~-> 01:13:50 |what I learned from taking that loss. And I'm glad I only lost a little bit. I
750 |749 |01:13:50 ~-~-> 01:13:53 |have this much money still in my trading account, and I am getting experience. I
751 |750 |01:13:53 ~-~-> 01:14:00 |am learning how to manage losses. Done, done. You're not I gotta get back real
752 |751 |01:14:00 ~-~-> 01:14:06 |quick. I gotta grab my club, walk outside my front door of my cane and go
753 |752 |01:14:06 ~-~-> 01:14:09 |find something bonking on the head and drag it back to my cake, because that's
754 |753 |01:14:09 ~-~-> 01:14:15 |what a caveman does. Caveman don't make good traders. You don't see any cavemen
755 |754 |01:14:16 ~-~-> 01:14:26 |trading, but you have to trade your nightmarish perspective for a dreamscape
756 |755 |01:14:26 ~-~-> 01:14:32 |perspective. You gotta really energize yourself and focus on the positives of
757 |756 |01:14:32 ~-~-> 01:14:37 |everything, even if it's a losing trade that is experience that you can't pay
758 |757 |01:14:37 ~-~-> 01:14:43 |for outside of what your loss was. You can't buy that in a book. I can't sell
759 |758 |01:14:43 ~-~-> 01:14:51 |you that experience. You have to experience it. No one can make you
760 |759 |01:14:51 ~-~-> 01:14:56 |better by having the idea instill in you that you're never going to have a losing
761 |760 |01:14:56 ~-~-> 01:15:02 |trade. But the people. That are doing the best in this industry are the ones
762 |761 |01:15:02 ~-~-> 01:15:05 |that are going to be upfront and say, You know what? Here's what's going to
763 |762 |01:15:05 ~-~-> 01:15:09 |happen to you. Okay, you're going to feel like you're ready to do it before
764 |763 |01:15:09 ~-~-> 01:15:14 |you should, and you're going to make the mistake. Everybody does it. I did it. I
765 |764 |01:15:14 ~-~-> 01:15:20 |rushed in there, I rushed in and I had my ass handed to me in one day. It
766 |765 |01:15:20 ~-~-> 01:15:24 |scared me. But that lesson I still hold today, it taught me that even though I
767 |766 |01:15:24 ~-~-> 01:15:31 |was wrong, somebody made 50% of my trade. Would it cost me for that option.
768 |767 |01:15:31 ~-~-> 01:15:38 |They made that in sleep, it woke up and the option value was in half. Fire sale.
769 |768 |01:15:38 ~-~-> 01:15:45 |See you later. Thanks for playing, Michael. That scared me. And the initial
770 |769 |01:15:45 ~-~-> 01:15:55 |fear transformed into, wait a minute, this is a net sum zero being Linda. The
771 |770 |01:15:55 ~-~-> 01:16:00 |bottom line is this, if you're losing somebody else is getting that money. So
772 |771 |01:16:00 ~-~-> 01:16:04 |who's getting it? The person that was right. So I changed my perspective to
773 |772 |01:16:05 ~-~-> 01:16:08 |what happens if I lose again? What happens if I blow another account? What
774 |773 |01:16:08 ~-~-> 01:16:11 |happens if I'm wrong all week long? What if I'm wrong in the direction? What if I
775 |774 |01:16:11 ~-~-> 01:16:14 |pick the wrong grain mark? Because back then, I was trading grains, soybeans,
776 |775 |01:16:14 ~-~-> 01:16:17 |oats, corn, wheat. I
777 |776 |01:16:22 ~-~-> 01:16:30 |said, You know what? I'm going to strip this down and remove all of these moving
778 |777 |01:16:30 ~-~-> 01:16:34 |parts. I got too many things, like a kid in the candy store. I don't know what I
779 |778 |01:16:34 ~-~-> 01:16:43 |want to grab next. I need to focus on one market bonds, and I was interested
780 |779 |01:16:43 ~-~-> 01:16:46 |in S P, hey, here's here's the thing. Okay, you want to see influence and
781 |780 |01:16:46 ~-~-> 01:16:53 |effect in my life. I was killing it in bonds, but because I kept watching those
782 |781 |01:16:53 ~-~-> 01:16:56 |videos Larry Williams saying, you know, I mean this much money in S P, I mean
783 |782 |01:16:56 ~-~-> 01:16:59 |this much money in S P, I mean this much money in S P, what am I hearing? You
784 |783 |01:17:00 ~-~-> 01:17:03 |better be trading S P, or you're not going to be like you're to be
785 |784 |01:17:03 ~-~-> 01:17:07 |like your hero. Sure. Get like Larry boy, get your ass in there and trade. S,
786 |785 |01:17:07 ~-~-> 01:17:08 |P, come on.
787 |786 |01:17:12 ~-~-> 01:17:19 |And while he only had a very small range daily couple handles daily, your average
788 |787 |01:17:19 ~-~-> 01:17:22 |stop loss is many times greater than the average daily range back when I was
789 |788 |01:17:22 ~-~-> 01:17:30 |trading the S, P, like we're cussing and pissing a fit, if you would have saw
790 |789 |01:17:30 ~-~-> 01:17:36 |what that volatility was like applied to today. Like you don't even know, like,
791 |790 |01:17:36 ~-~-> 01:17:40 |how good you got it right now. Like you have no idea how good you got it. Ask
792 |791 |01:17:41 ~-~-> 01:17:47 |somebody like Larry Williams, who's got, you know, decade more experience than I
793 |792 |01:17:47 ~-~-> 01:17:51 |do, and I lived those years, and he lived them before I did, and he's traded
794 |793 |01:17:51 ~-~-> 01:17:54 |that market more than I had and longer than I had. It was more contracts than I
795 |794 |01:17:54 ~-~-> 01:18:00 |ever did. Think about that. I guarantee, if you ask them, what's the volatility
796 |795 |01:18:00 ~-~-> 01:18:06 |like compared to today. And when you were trading in 1987 in 1990 up to 1995
797 |796 |01:18:07 ~-~-> 01:18:14 |the volatility was really, really constricted, but you can find setups.
798 |797 |01:18:17 ~-~-> 01:18:22 |And today you have the gift. You have the gift of what we prayed for. We
799 |798 |01:18:22 ~-~-> 01:18:28 |prayed to the illusionary gods of the market back then, please, market gods,
800 |799 |01:18:29 ~-~-> 01:18:34 |let this market move 10 handles today. It wouldn't. But the bottom line is, we
801 |800 |01:18:34 ~-~-> 01:18:39 |would do it. We had these problems of, if you talking to the screen, talking to
802 |801 |01:18:39 ~-~-> 01:18:43 |the charts, talking to the TV FNN, financial news network. It's literally,
803 |802 |01:18:43 ~-~-> 01:18:48 |see, I think it was someone said something bad about the market you're
804 |803 |01:18:48 ~-~-> 01:18:53 |in. Shut up, you so and so you're gonna make the market go down against me. Come
805 |804 |01:18:53 ~-~-> 01:19:02 |on, man. I've been there, but I don't do that now. Why? Because somebody else's
806 |805 |01:19:02 ~-~-> 01:19:08 |opinion, in my opinion, is wrong. Everybody else is wrong. Why do I think
807 |806 |01:19:08 ~-~-> 01:19:12 |that way? Is it narcissistic? No, outwardly looking at me, that sounds
808 |807 |01:19:12 ~-~-> 01:19:18 |like a narcissist. It sounds like this guy is full of himself. Well, that's
809 |808 |01:19:18 ~-~-> 01:19:23 |true, because I've filled myself up with positivity. I'm so sugary sweet with
810 |809 |01:19:23 ~-~-> 01:19:29 |love of myself that nobody's bringing me down. It's not going to happen, because
811 |810 |01:19:29 ~-~-> 01:19:34 |I did this to myself for years, for decades, feeding positivity in my
812 |811 |01:19:34 ~-~-> 01:19:40 |journal. It's like a superpower, you see it? I'm online. Somebody comes and talks
813 |812 |01:19:40 ~-~-> 01:19:43 |smack to me. I'm out there on X, nobody. I'm not hiding from anybody, but
814 |813 |01:19:43 ~-~-> 01:19:48 |somebody comes at me. I'm immediate bam, right back in your face. Give it to him,
815 |814 |01:19:48 ~-~-> 01:19:55 |and that's really why I'm on X, I can't put it damn I'm so addicted to just
816 |815 |01:19:55 ~-~-> 01:19:59 |slapping them around. I just love it. But if I'm going to be there myself,
817 |816 |01:19:59 ~-~-> 01:20:04 |you. Share some stuff too, right? I know, for the guys thinking right now,
818 |817 |01:20:04 ~-~-> 01:20:08 |but why did you wear on telegram right now? You've been real quiet in telegram?
819 |818 |01:20:10 ~-~-> 01:20:15 |Well, we were in a big move this week, so Daddy had take care of things, and I
820 |819 |01:20:15 ~-~-> 01:20:18 |didn't want to mess it up. And the Val says too high, and there's too many of
821 |820 |01:20:18 ~-~-> 01:20:22 |you. They're brand new. I don't want to say something and influence you in a
822 |821 |01:20:22 ~-~-> 01:20:28 |time when the market could absolutely take your head clean off. So I moved to
823 |822 |01:20:28 ~-~-> 01:20:32 |what the higher time frame, so you still got what I told you was going to happen,
824 |823 |01:20:32 ~-~-> 01:20:37 |and you've seen it, but if you wrecked yourself, you did it to yourself because
825 |824 |01:20:37 ~-~-> 01:20:40 |I was not in there calling one minute candlesticks where you could have been
826 |825 |01:20:40 ~-~-> 01:20:45 |influenced by me. That's responsibility. A 20 year old me on America Online, we
827 |826 |01:20:45 ~-~-> 01:20:49 |would have been in here with cowboy boots on. Let's stomp around in this
828 |827 |01:20:49 ~-~-> 01:20:55 |let's get it going. Let's get mud on the tires, baby. Now 53, years old this
829 |828 |01:20:55 ~-~-> 01:21:01 |year, a little reserved. I understand it. You know, I felt like I was addicted
830 |829 |01:21:01 ~-~-> 01:21:05 |to crack of looking at everything on the marketplace when I was coming up. If
831 |830 |01:21:05 ~-~-> 01:21:08 |anybody was talking about the market, I don't care what they were talking about,
832 |831 |01:21:08 ~-~-> 01:21:13 |Bollinger Bands, you know that silly stuff, moving average, crossovers, point
833 |832 |01:21:13 ~-~-> 01:21:18 |and figure charts, whatever it was I was there listening to it. I was like, keep
834 |833 |01:21:18 ~-~-> 01:21:26 |talking, baby. Keep talking. It's like Pillow Talk. Now, what I try to do, and
835 |834 |01:21:26 ~-~-> 01:21:31 |unfortunately, other people from other, I guess, persuasions of trading, they
836 |835 |01:21:31 ~-~-> 01:21:34 |don't like me, because I basically say everything that they're doing is wrong.
837 |836 |01:21:35 ~-~-> 01:21:40 |And that's me staying K faith. It's like, it's like in wrestling, I'm always
838 |837 |01:21:40 ~-~-> 01:21:45 |in character, always in character, meaning that if we're going to talk to
839 |838 |01:21:45 ~-~-> 01:21:49 |markets, we're going to talk to markets on my terms, because every one of you
840 |839 |01:21:49 ~-~-> 01:21:52 |don't know what the fuck you're doing, you're all lost. You don't know what
841 |840 |01:21:52 ~-~-> 01:21:55 |you're doing, so I don't want to hear your opinion. So if we're going to talk
842 |841 |01:21:55 ~-~-> 01:21:59 |about the markets, we're going to talk my language, and I'm going to do most of
843 |842 |01:21:59 ~-~-> 01:22:03 |the talking. It's not a discussion. You can ask me a question, but you're not
844 |843 |01:22:03 ~-~-> 01:22:06 |teaching me anything. You're never going to teach me anything. And I've done that
845 |844 |01:22:06 ~-~-> 01:22:14 |to myself Where I've basically mutated into this you can't even touch me, you
846 |845 |01:22:14 ~-~-> 01:22:21 |can't even get on my plane. You can't even do that. I had to do this to myself
847 |846 |01:22:21 ~-~-> 01:22:28 |because I was not mentally equipped, I was not confident, I did not have any
848 |847 |01:22:28 ~-~-> 01:22:33 |optimism as a young man, so I had to feed myself that just like anybody that
849 |848 |01:22:33 ~-~-> 01:22:38 |works out, you can go to the gym all you want, but if you're eating Twinkies and
850 |849 |01:22:38 ~-~-> 01:22:41 |Ho Hos, you are not feeling muscle. Okay? You're not doing it. You're not
851 |850 |01:22:41 ~-~-> 01:22:44 |washing it down with a diet. Because Diet Coke and thinking, wow, I'm saving
852 |851 |01:22:44 ~-~-> 01:22:48 |some calories. You're doing nothing for yourself but wrecking it. So I had to
853 |852 |01:22:48 ~-~-> 01:22:53 |feed myself good nutrition, and had to cut out all the junk food. That means
854 |853 |01:22:53 ~-~-> 01:22:57 |everybody else's bullshit, everybody else's opinion, all that stuff,
855 |854 |01:22:59 ~-~-> 01:23:07 |everybody else's stuff, is junk food. To me, I don't eat candy bars, I don't
856 |855 |01:23:07 ~-~-> 01:23:13 |drink milkshakes, I don't eat Ho Hos and Twinkies. I don't do that stuff. I have
857 |856 |01:23:13 ~-~-> 01:23:21 |a very bland, plain diet. It's not it's not really elaborate, and I don't use a
858 |857 |01:23:21 ~-~-> 01:23:27 |lot of spices either. And that's how I want my market discussion. It's what I
859 |858 |01:23:27 ~-~-> 01:23:32 |put on my plate. I don't care to know what you do in your market. I don't care
860 |859 |01:23:32 ~-~-> 01:23:36 |how you trade your market. But if someone wants to talk about their
861 |860 |01:23:36 ~-~-> 01:23:40 |adversities and how they overcame them, all street smarts, I'm not. I'm sorry,
862 |861 |01:23:40 ~-~-> 01:23:44 |not I'm sorry, not street smarts, Market Wizards, Volume One and Two after two,
863 |862 |01:23:44 ~-~-> 01:23:48 |everything else went to shit. But the those two, those two books, are great,
864 |863 |01:23:49 ~-~-> 01:23:53 |great. And I tapped into those not because they taught anybody how to
865 |864 |01:23:53 ~-~-> 01:24:01 |trade, and I've said this before, but because they shared experiences when,
866 |865 |01:24:01 ~-~-> 01:24:08 |when kit would do his ICT concepts. I don't know what it was something. It's a
867 |866 |01:24:08 ~-~-> 01:24:15 |name for it. He used to call it where, Tanya and a number of other online
868 |867 |01:24:15 ~-~-> 01:24:20 |Twitter personalities that have grown to be, you know, pillars now, you all see
869 |868 |01:24:20 ~-~-> 01:24:25 |them now, I love tapping into that and listening to them. I felt a little
870 |869 |01:24:25 ~-~-> 01:24:29 |uncomfortable because they put me in the spotlight too much, and that's why I
871 |870 |01:24:29 ~-~-> 01:24:34 |don't go to many people's live streams and make myself known, because it ends
872 |871 |01:24:34 ~-~-> 01:24:39 |up becoming Oh, it's ICT and it's disrespectful. But I loved listening to
873 |872 |01:24:39 ~-~-> 01:24:43 |other people's experiences, what they're going through, and sometimes you could
874 |873 |01:24:43 ~-~-> 01:24:48 |hear them weeping in front of you. You know what? I fucking love that not
875 |874 |01:24:48 ~-~-> 01:24:51 |because they're feeling pain or misery or discomfort, but because they're being
876 |875 |01:24:51 ~-~-> 01:24:54 |fucking real, genuine. They're not out there taking fucking pictures of their
877 |876 |01:24:54 ~-~-> 01:24:58 |fucking plate with some bullshit food on it, running around. Hey, hey buddy,
878 |877 |01:24:58 ~-~-> 01:25:01 |here. Take your phone. I'm gonna walk to. My car. Watch this. They're gonna
879 |878 |01:25:01 ~-~-> 01:25:04 |love this. This fucking car doesn't mean much. It doesn't cost that much. But
880 |879 |01:25:04 ~-~-> 01:25:07 |guess what? I'm walking with some music out to it. Look at this. Like a fucking
881 |880 |01:25:07 ~-~-> 01:25:11 |montage. Look at me, man. Look at me walking. Look at me walking. That means
882 |881 |01:25:11 ~-~-> 01:25:17 |I'm absolutely the best fucking trader in the world. Come at me, bro. They
883 |882 |01:25:17 ~-~-> 01:25:24 |weren't doing that. They weren't doing that. Everybody that came up and allowed
884 |883 |01:25:24 ~-~-> 01:25:28 |that voice to be heard through his presentation and his space, they were
885 |884 |01:25:28 ~-~-> 01:25:33 |talking from their heart, and then ones that got down real deep and showed their
886 |885 |01:25:33 ~-~-> 01:25:42 |vulnerability. I was weeping with them. They tugged at my heart strings, because
887 |886 |01:25:42 ~-~-> 01:25:46 |I lived like that too. I went through that. I went through the times where
888 |887 |01:25:46 ~-~-> 01:25:52 |nobody thought this was going to pan out. They weren't convinced at all that
889 |888 |01:25:52 ~-~-> 01:25:57 |this stuff was possible to make money, until I pulled their fucking annual
890 |889 |01:25:57 ~-~-> 01:26:02 |salary out of their fucking ass with one fucking trade and said, Don't you ever
891 |890 |01:26:02 ~-~-> 01:26:08 |tell me I can't do something. Don't you ever tell me that I can't do this. You
892 |891 |01:26:08 ~-~-> 01:26:14 |might reply and you sit back in your chair and say, this is living I got 40
893 |892 |01:26:14 ~-~-> 01:26:18 |hours, and maybe, if you're doing manager, 50 hours minimum, I got
894 |893 |01:26:18 ~-~-> 01:26:23 |insurance paid for. I got a mortgage being paid for I'm fucking set baby.
895 |894 |01:26:23 ~-~-> 01:26:28 |That ain't living me. That's slavery. And they brainwashed your ass thinking
896 |895 |01:26:28 ~-~-> 01:26:31 |that this is living good. That's the American dream. Fuck you. It's a
897 |896 |01:26:31 ~-~-> 01:26:38 |nightmare. That is a nightmare. You gotta change your perspective on what
898 |897 |01:26:38 ~-~-> 01:26:42 |they say is success in this world to saying I don't need to get up and do
899 |898 |01:26:42 ~-~-> 01:26:48 |shit today. I got money making money for me, whether I push a button in trading
900 |899 |01:26:48 ~-~-> 01:26:55 |at all ever taking down annual salaries of a fucking doctor every single month,
901 |900 |01:26:55 ~-~-> 01:27:05 |and I do nothing, nothing. Beat that shit. What's the what's the percentage
902 |901 |01:27:05 ~-~-> 01:27:08 |return on doing nothing but making that every month? What's that going to work
903 |902 |01:27:08 ~-~-> 01:27:09 |out to be?
904 |903 |01:27:10 ~-~-> 01:27:19 |Well, you don't do shit if you let these people, whether they're family members
905 |904 |01:27:19 ~-~-> 01:27:24 |or friends or online, people talk down to you, and you take that in. If you
906 |905 |01:27:24 ~-~-> 01:27:33 |absorb that and you let it affect you, you're laying down. You joined the
907 |906 |01:27:33 ~-~-> 01:27:37 |nobody class in that statement. Nobody believes in me. You gotta change that.
908 |907 |01:27:38 ~-~-> 01:27:42 |Everybody else is doubting me. Fucking good. I love it. This is gonna be so
909 |908 |01:27:42 ~-~-> 01:27:47 |much sweeter when I just live my life and they gotta lick it up. They gotta
910 |909 |01:27:47 ~-~-> 01:27:53 |lick it the fuck up. And I ain't gotta say shit. All I gotta do is walk out,
911 |910 |01:27:53 ~-~-> 01:28:01 |get in my fucking car and live, be seen in public. Be seen. Wow, that guy,
912 |911 |01:28:02 ~-~-> 01:28:06 |betcha, betcha, he's got his shit together. Better, betcha, she's got her
913 |912 |01:28:06 ~-~-> 01:28:14 |shit together. All you influencers, okay, some of you, I like, you need to
914 |913 |01:28:14 ~-~-> 01:28:20 |tone down all the proof with the materialistic stuff, because what you're
915 |914 |01:28:20 ~-~-> 01:28:25 |doing is exactly what the mistake I made when I was 20 years old. I was
916 |915 |01:28:25 ~-~-> 01:28:28 |projecting. Look at me. I'm successful. I wasted too much money on this car. I
917 |916 |01:28:28 ~-~-> 01:28:31 |wasted too much money on this bullshit. I've wasted too much money on jewelry
918 |917 |01:28:31 ~-~-> 01:28:34 |that I don't fucking even like. But guess what? I'm doing this. I know it's
919 |918 |01:28:34 ~-~-> 01:28:38 |gonna get your attention, because I need your attention back. Then I needed it. I
920 |919 |01:28:38 ~-~-> 01:28:43 |don't fucking need your attention. I made videos. Have been putting up? I
921 |920 |01:28:45 ~-~-> 01:28:54 |don't even want to do it like I don't want to do it. I'm at the latter portion
922 |921 |01:28:54 ~-~-> 01:29:00 |of my life, and all of that carnival like atmosphere isn't that interesting
923 |922 |01:29:00 ~-~-> 01:29:05 |to me anymore. Once in a while I'll come out here and pull something out like
924 |923 |01:29:05 ~-~-> 01:29:12 |this and some of your pants back to cussing again. When I get passionate and
925 |924 |01:29:12 ~-~-> 01:29:17 |energetic and I'm living old memories, it's going to tap into real motion. And
926 |925 |01:29:17 ~-~-> 01:29:27 |if that's offensive to you, deal with it. You You got a choice, folks, you're
927 |926 |01:29:27 ~-~-> 01:29:35 |gonna live in nightmare or you're gonna thrive in dreamscape. Everything is like
928 |927 |01:29:35 ~-~-> 01:29:39 |taking a ride on the good ship, lollipop baby, every fucking day is a good day,
929 |928 |01:29:39 ~-~-> 01:29:44 |every day is a good day. Every day is a good day. Every decision made is an
930 |929 |01:29:44 ~-~-> 01:29:48 |informed decision, and there's no regret in it. Why? Because we are
931 |930 |01:29:48 ~-~-> 01:29:52 |algorithmically principally oriented, oriented to trading. We're not looking
932 |931 |01:29:52 ~-~-> 01:29:57 |at guessing. We're not hoping a pattern forms. We're not trying to get in front
933 |932 |01:29:57 ~-~-> 01:29:59 |of a pattern that we're hoping is going to form. That's impulsive. We're.
934 |933 |01:30:00 ~-~-> 01:30:07 |We're waiting for the time. We're waiting for the fucking time. The time
935 |934 |01:30:07 ~-~-> 01:30:09 |is now. That's when you look for the setup,
936 |935 |01:30:11 ~-~-> 01:30:17 |play, tell is that guessing? Is that guesswork? I have done a clinic this
937 |936 |01:30:17 ~-~-> 01:30:24 |year. I have literally made a clinic proving, if you want to say you don't
938 |937 |01:30:24 ~-~-> 01:30:29 |believe in it anymore, good, you just failed the IQ test. You're a fucking
939 |938 |01:30:29 ~-~-> 01:30:34 |idiot. Because if you see this much evidence, proving that the markets are
940 |939 |01:30:34 ~-~-> 01:30:39 |absolutely systematically programmed, scripted to go to specific prices at
941 |940 |01:30:39 ~-~-> 01:30:44 |specific times and then get animated to go to a predetermined level. Guess what
942 |941 |01:30:44 ~-~-> 01:30:50 |that means? You're blind to it. If you can't see that, you're blind. And I
943 |942 |01:30:50 ~-~-> 01:30:58 |can't tolerate that. Now I have no tolerance for it. It's been fun up till
944 |943 |01:30:58 ~-~-> 01:31:03 |now, but I've pulled back the veil. You have no excuse now. You have no excuse
945 |944 |01:31:04 ~-~-> 01:31:10 |zero. You're either joining and jumping in the plasma pool, or you're getting
946 |945 |01:31:10 ~-~-> 01:31:14 |hell out of here. And that's exactly what this is today. This is a litmus
947 |946 |01:31:14 ~-~-> 01:31:23 |test for you. If you think, if you think that your supply and demand zones. Wipe
948 |947 |01:31:23 ~-~-> 01:31:29 |off horse, supply and demand, Elliot, wave pitch forks up your ass, all that
949 |948 |01:31:29 ~-~-> 01:31:33 |stuff. You think all that stuff means anything outside the element of time,
950 |949 |01:31:33 ~-~-> 01:31:33 |this is
951 |950 |01:31:35 ~-~-> 01:31:40 |when the market's going to move. This is when it's not going to move. I've shown
952 |951 |01:31:40 ~-~-> 01:31:46 |you that every week, every time I sat down
953 |952 |01:31:46 ~-~-> 01:31:50 |and told you, this is what the market's going to do. This is what the market do.
954 |953 |01:31:50 ~-~-> 01:31:53 |It's been a couple times I give you some cliffhangers. Something's going to
955 |954 |01:31:53 ~-~-> 01:31:56 |happen. Oh, look at this. He comes out, rookie sensation. That's not bragging,
956 |955 |01:31:56 ~-~-> 01:31:59 |folks. It's not bragging when it's facts. It's not bragging at all when
957 |956 |01:31:59 ~-~-> 01:32:05 |it's facts. You need to sit down and think to yourself, do you want to
958 |957 |01:32:05 ~-~-> 01:32:14 |subscribe to on unbelievable bullshit that's written about in books that is
959 |958 |01:32:14 ~-~-> 01:32:24 |archaic, that literally has you doing a 5050 outcome, 5050 5050 let me ask you a
960 |959 |01:32:24 ~-~-> 01:32:29 |question. We say it proverbially that every time we get in our car and drive
961 |960 |01:32:29 ~-~-> 01:32:33 |to work, we have a 5050 chance of getting in a car accident and dying. But
962 |961 |01:32:33 ~-~-> 01:32:39 |in reality, is it really 5050 it's not how many times you've been going there,
963 |962 |01:32:39 ~-~-> 01:32:43 |how many times you have accident next to never, right? For some of you that have
964 |963 |01:32:43 ~-~-> 01:32:47 |been blessed, for those of you recklessly driving, well, not for me.
965 |964 |01:32:47 ~-~-> 01:32:52 |ICT, I drive 85 miles an hour, man, I take speed bumps like hills to jump like
966 |965 |01:32:52 ~-~-> 01:32:55 |duties of hazard. So, you know, it's no surprise that I'm I'm having a lot of
967 |966 |01:32:55 ~-~-> 01:33:01 |adversity driving to work here in trading, we're not trying to do things
968 |967 |01:33:01 ~-~-> 01:33:07 |recklessly. We're waiting for our time. We are giving ourselves no permission,
969 |968 |01:33:07 ~-~-> 01:33:14 |and this is why it's hard. It's expensive forging that level of
970 |969 |01:33:14 ~-~-> 01:33:17 |responsibility and discipline, because it's going to cost you a lot, because
971 |970 |01:33:17 ~-~-> 01:33:21 |you're going to get to go through a lot of sitting, waiting, sitting and
972 |971 |01:33:21 ~-~-> 01:33:22 |waiting.
973 |972 |01:33:23 ~-~-> 01:33:27 |I saw this guy or this girl. She just got a payout. She did this, and she's
974 |973 |01:33:27 ~-~-> 01:33:30 |training this market. I'm training the wrong one. ICT, why aren't you trading?
975 |974 |01:33:30 ~-~-> 01:33:31 |Es damnit.
976 |975 |01:33:37 ~-~-> 01:33:46 |You need one market, folks, one. Limit your focus to one, and let that be your
977 |976 |01:33:46 ~-~-> 01:34:01 |entire career, career, you only need an imbalance in price. That's it. An
978 |977 |01:34:01 ~-~-> 01:34:08 |imbalance in price, no matter what market it is, is an opportunity. You do
979 |978 |01:34:08 ~-~-> 01:34:13 |not increase your likelihood of finding said opportunity by increasing the
980 |979 |01:34:13 ~-~-> 01:34:16 |number of markets you're following, what you're doing is diluting your attention.
981 |980 |01:34:16 ~-~-> 01:34:21 |I don't give a fuck who says otherwise. 90% of people talk that bullshit. Yeah,
982 |981 |01:34:21 ~-~-> 01:34:24 |I made so and so percentage 10 fucking years ago, unsubstantiated. You don't
983 |982 |01:34:24 ~-~-> 01:34:29 |have any proof of it, but you hang on the nuts of these people that they give
984 |983 |01:34:29 ~-~-> 01:34:33 |their opinion with no evidence that they even know they're talking about. Oh, I
985 |984 |01:34:33 ~-~-> 01:34:36 |really respect this so and so, so and so. Oh yeah, what is they shown? Well,
986 |985 |01:34:36 ~-~-> 01:34:44 |he just talks a lot and does a lot of shit posting. Well, okay, I I contrast
987 |986 |01:34:44 ~-~-> 01:34:48 |that with the real McCoy. You don't have to like me, folks, this is not a warm up
988 |987 |01:34:48 ~-~-> 01:34:51 |to ICT, you know, and wow, you know, he's my hero. That's not what this is.
989 |988 |01:34:52 ~-~-> 01:34:56 |I'm an anti hero. I don't want you to like me. I don't want you to like me,
990 |989 |01:34:56 ~-~-> 01:35:04 |but I do want you to listen. I. And I thought about that's all, saying this in
991 |990 |01:35:04 ~-~-> 01:35:11 |my comments, in the setting up the What is this space? Yeah, I could have like I
992 |991 |01:35:11 ~-~-> 01:35:17 |was going to go on YouTube, but I knew, Oh man, I knew. I knew, tapping into
993 |992 |01:35:17 ~-~-> 01:35:23 |this old painful stuff for me. Yeah, I'm going to use some colorful language, not
994 |993 |01:35:23 ~-~-> 01:35:29 |because I want to, because I I'm reliving stuff. Folks, go back to a
995 |994 |01:35:29 ~-~-> 01:35:34 |moment when you had your your teeth kicked in, and you're at the lowest low.
996 |995 |01:35:34 ~-~-> 01:35:39 |If you're human, you're going to feel it, man, you're going to feel it. And
997 |996 |01:35:39 ~-~-> 01:35:42 |I've had to hold back tears in this presentation with you a couple times
998 |997 |01:35:42 ~-~-> 01:35:47 |already, because those are wounds that don't really heal. They don't heal
999 |998 |01:35:47 ~-~-> 01:35:55 |entirely. So the way I forge the strength and the focus to move forward
1000 |999 |01:35:55 ~-~-> 01:36:00 |and not dwell on those old wounds, because nothing cuts deeper than a
1001 |1000 |01:36:00 ~-~-> 01:36:04 |family member telling you you're going to be a failure, especially the ones
1002 |1001 |01:36:04 ~-~-> 01:36:08 |that you look up to as a child, looking at them and thinking, I want to be like
1003 |1002 |01:36:08 ~-~-> 01:36:13 |them. They have a house, they had a swimming pool, they have two cars, they
1004 |1003 |01:36:13 ~-~-> 01:36:20 |make over 700 hours a week at their job, and then they tell you you're going to
1005 |1004 |01:36:20 ~-~-> 01:36:27 |fail. Instead of turning toxic and saying, Go fuck yourself, and I'm never
1006 |1005 |01:36:27 ~-~-> 01:36:30 |going to be around you anymore, I just took a step back and said, I'm not going
1007 |1006 |01:36:30 ~-~-> 01:36:35 |to tell them anymore what I'm going to do. I'm just going to do. See in
1008 |1007 |01:36:35 ~-~-> 01:36:40 |trading, there's talkers, and then there's doers. And if you're an
1009 |1008 |01:36:40 ~-~-> 01:36:44 |influencer and you're showing all the materialistic stuff, I don't care how
1010 |1009 |01:36:44 ~-~-> 01:36:48 |you made your money. Okay, make the money. Make it. But if you're taking so
1011 |1010 |01:36:48 ~-~-> 01:36:54 |much effort in producing content that shows, look at me and my lifestyle, and
1012 |1011 |01:36:54 ~-~-> 01:37:00 |you compare and contrast how much that is compared to here's what I do, trading
1013 |1012 |01:37:00 ~-~-> 01:37:06 |and here's me doing it and how I do it. Yeah, I'm not interested, and I'm sorry
1014 |1013 |01:37:06 ~-~-> 01:37:12 |if that offends you, but I'm not meaning to offend anybody, but what you're doing
1015 |1014 |01:37:12 ~-~-> 01:37:16 |is you're sugar coating your bullshit. And people that know what bullshit
1016 |1015 |01:37:16 ~-~-> 01:37:20 |tastes like, we know underneath the sugar coating, it's still shit. So we
1017 |1016 |01:37:20 ~-~-> 01:37:23 |don't eat it, we don't like it, we don't subscribe to it, we don't want to see
1018 |1017 |01:37:23 ~-~-> 01:37:29 |it, and that's why I never do those things. I don't ever do those things,
1019 |1018 |01:37:29 ~-~-> 01:37:33 |because that's not going to make you a better trader. It's not going to have
1020 |1019 |01:37:33 ~-~-> 01:37:37 |any impact on your bottom line ever. It's never going to do anything that
1021 |1020 |01:37:37 ~-~-> 01:37:42 |makes you better. Worst case scenario, if you see all the toys and how much
1022 |1021 |01:37:42 ~-~-> 01:37:45 |money I spend on this, and how much I do this and that, it's going to make you
1023 |1022 |01:37:45 ~-~-> 01:37:48 |feel like, well, I want to do like that, and I'm going to trade larger and more
1024 |1023 |01:37:48 ~-~-> 01:37:56 |frequent because I want to do what ICT does. And that's not going to pan out
1025 |1024 |01:37:56 ~-~-> 01:38:00 |well, because you're doing things wrong. You're trying to impulsively make
1026 |1025 |01:38:00 ~-~-> 01:38:04 |decisions and monetize those decisions on an extrapolated level. That means
1027 |1026 |01:38:04 ~-~-> 01:38:09 |over leveraging, over trading and doing things that are not even in the model
1028 |1027 |01:38:09 ~-~-> 01:38:12 |that you think you are supposed to be following, but you're gonna allow
1029 |1028 |01:38:12 ~-~-> 01:38:15 |yourself. That's still my model. I'm always supposed to be trading with one
1030 |1029 |01:38:15 ~-~-> 01:38:19 |micro but it I got the move. I got the money. I'm gonna do 15 contracts because
1031 |1030 |01:38:19 ~-~-> 01:38:28 |they said I could. Some funny shit, man, start a prosper. You ain't trading my
1032 |1031 |01:38:28 ~-~-> 01:38:32 |real accounts. Give them 15. Imagine contracts and let them blow it out and
1033 |1032 |01:38:32 ~-~-> 01:38:37 |give them a sale price, and they'll think you're doing them a favor. Oh,
1034 |1033 |01:38:37 ~-~-> 01:38:42 |man, that's the biggest fucking scam I've ever seen. But guess what? Guess
1035 |1034 |01:38:42 ~-~-> 01:38:48 |what? The people that listen, the people that really listen to what I told them
1036 |1035 |01:38:48 ~-~-> 01:38:53 |these markets are gonna do, guess what they're doing? Guess what the fuck
1037 |1036 |01:38:53 ~-~-> 01:38:58 |they're doing? They're going in there, kicking the front door in, stopping the
1038 |1037 |01:38:58 ~-~-> 01:39:02 |fuck around like they own the place, and taking their money. Oh, that's talking
1039 |1038 |01:39:02 ~-~-> 01:39:12 |about $500 I'm not talking about $10,000 millions, motherfucker millions. Oh, but
1040 |1039 |01:39:12 ~-~-> 01:39:20 |ICT, get the fuck out of here. Get out of here. That shit. You have been seeing
1041 |1040 |01:39:20 ~-~-> 01:39:26 |monstrous results by people using what I've been preaching. And guess what,
1042 |1041 |01:39:27 ~-~-> 01:39:36 |there's nothing holding you back, but you just you, just you. I'm not holding
1043 |1042 |01:39:36 ~-~-> 01:39:41 |you back. I'm talking to you on a medium that is not monetized. In fact,
1044 |1043 |01:39:41 ~-~-> 01:39:44 |everybody else is going to take what I'm doing right now and put it on their
1045 |1044 |01:39:44 ~-~-> 01:39:46 |YouTube channel and make ad revenue off of it. And I don't give a fuck.
1046 |1045 |01:39:52 ~-~-> 01:39:58 |Where's my motivation? I'm trying to put a boot in your ass. Listen, I told you,
1047 |1046 |01:39:59 ~-~-> 01:40:03 |in 2006 King. This is what's gonna happen. This guy's gonna get in there,
1048 |1047 |01:40:03 ~-~-> 01:40:08 |and they're gonna use him as the fall guy. We watched some Rick Monroe in 2020
1049 |1048 |01:40:09 ~-~-> 01:40:13 |and then endured four years of horseshit. And now they have the states
1050 |1049 |01:40:13 ~-~-> 01:40:21 |perfectly set, perfectly set. And here you have it. I don't give a flying fuck
1051 |1050 |01:40:21 ~-~-> 01:40:25 |with tariffs are going to be I don't care. Oil can go to $100 a fucking
1052 |1051 |01:40:25 ~-~-> 01:40:29 |barrel or 200 hours a barrel. I'm still driving my fucking v8 Corvettes. I'm not
1053 |1052 |01:40:29 ~-~-> 01:40:34 |giving a fuck. Inflation can't go high enough for me to be worried about it.
1054 |1053 |01:40:36 ~-~-> 01:40:39 |That's the mentality you get when you know what you're doing. When you know
1055 |1054 |01:40:39 ~-~-> 01:40:43 |what you're doing, you ain't worried about what the fucking grocery seat says
1056 |1055 |01:40:43 ~-~-> 01:40:47 |at the bottom line, you really don't. I feel it, because I know there's a lot of
1057 |1056 |01:40:47 ~-~-> 01:40:51 |you that listen to me, and maybe I'm hurting your feelings or making you feel
1058 |1057 |01:40:51 ~-~-> 01:40:54 |like, oh, you're a jerk. You're talking like that. I'm talking from a position
1059 |1058 |01:40:54 ~-~-> 01:40:59 |of being blessed, period. And it didn't just happen overnight. I had to work
1060 |1059 |01:40:59 ~-~-> 01:41:04 |towards things. I had to cut things out of my life. I had to make sacrifices
1061 |1060 |01:41:04 ~-~-> 01:41:08 |with friends and family and take myself away from a lot of things that people
1062 |1061 |01:41:08 ~-~-> 01:41:13 |want to do right now, and they think that's called success. It's not
1063 |1062 |01:41:15 ~-~-> 01:41:20 |influencers. Listen to me when you put that stuff out there and you show,
1064 |1063 |01:41:20 ~-~-> 01:41:24 |here's what I wasted my money on, knowing that there's gonna be a small
1065 |1064 |01:41:24 ~-~-> 01:41:30 |faction of us as the audience that's gonna say, wish I had that. And you
1066 |1065 |01:41:30 ~-~-> 01:41:33 |might see the trolling responses there. Oh, what about bullshit? You don't
1067 |1066 |01:41:33 ~-~-> 01:41:35 |really trade that much. You don't make that much money. You're an affiliate
1068 |1067 |01:41:35 ~-~-> 01:41:38 |marketer. You know, you're a girl, you're a guy that doesn't even know how
1069 |1068 |01:41:38 ~-~-> 01:41:41 |to trade. You've been caught paper trading before. All the bullshit.
1070 |1069 |01:41:41 ~-~-> 01:41:46 |They'll see those things mute them, but then they'll look at the one that says,
1071 |1070 |01:41:46 ~-~-> 01:41:51 |I wish I had what you have. And they take that inside, they file it away, and
1072 |1071 |01:41:51 ~-~-> 01:41:56 |they say, Yep. That builds me up. Yep. That proves that I know what I'm doing
1073 |1072 |01:41:56 ~-~-> 01:42:01 |and what I'm doing is the right decision. No, it's not I'm not saying
1074 |1073 |01:42:01 ~-~-> 01:42:05 |don't celebrate when you have something as a victory and you buy a toy, but if
1075 |1074 |01:42:05 ~-~-> 01:42:11 |your entire scheme, your whole presentation, is based on that, you're
1076 |1075 |01:42:11 ~-~-> 01:42:16 |actually not getting anything for yourself that's constructive. You're
1077 |1076 |01:42:16 ~-~-> 01:42:22 |sugar coating, you're masking and you're putting things behind blinders. You're
1078 |1077 |01:42:22 ~-~-> 01:42:26 |you're you're telling yourself that this is what you're doing, trading for when,
1079 |1078 |01:42:26 ~-~-> 01:42:29 |if you were really sitting down, if you and I were sitting down and we were
1080 |1079 |01:42:29 ~-~-> 01:42:34 |privately talking, no recordings, no cameras, I'm not going to tell anybody
1081 |1080 |01:42:34 ~-~-> 01:42:39 |what you're going to say. And I say to you, when you put that video out and you
1082 |1081 |01:42:39 ~-~-> 01:42:42 |don't really have the response that you were hoping you're going to get, what
1083 |1082 |01:42:42 ~-~-> 01:42:46 |does it do for? Get. What does it do for you? It sucks. I accepted a bigger pop
1084 |1083 |01:42:46 ~-~-> 01:42:53 |right now, internally, you're doing the same thing over and over and over again
1085 |1084 |01:42:53 ~-~-> 01:42:58 |with something outside of trading. The success of trading, you need to fall in
1086 |1085 |01:42:58 ~-~-> 01:43:01 |love with you doing the things that you're supposed to be doing as a
1087 |1086 |01:43:01 ~-~-> 01:43:05 |consistently profitable trader that is detail oriented. That's what your
1088 |1087 |01:43:05 ~-~-> 01:43:09 |primary focus should be. And guess what that means, you're gonna be fucking
1089 |1088 |01:43:09 ~-~-> 01:43:15 |boring. But guess what? I'm probably the richest boring mother fucker on x. I'm
1090 |1089 |01:43:15 ~-~-> 01:43:21 |boring as shit. I'm boring. And guess what that means, I got money. I got
1091 |1090 |01:43:21 ~-~-> 01:43:24 |money. I don't need to share or show what I spent my money on. I don't need
1092 |1091 |01:43:24 ~-~-> 01:43:27 |to do that. I do absolutely. I got my bank accounts. I don't need to be
1093 |1092 |01:43:27 ~-~-> 01:43:30 |reminded by somebody else saying, shit, you're successful. I know I'm
1094 |1093 |01:43:30 ~-~-> 01:43:34 |successful. I wake up knowing I'm successful. I'm thanking God every
1095 |1094 |01:43:34 ~-~-> 01:43:37 |single day that he's given me this position in life. I'm
1096 |1095 |01:43:37 ~-~-> 01:43:45 |thankful for that. Everything that I do in teaching you is geared towards that,
1097 |1096 |01:43:47 ~-~-> 01:43:53 |not materialism, not got this. Look how much money I wasting on Rolex. I'm in
1098 |1097 |01:43:53 ~-~-> 01:43:56 |the Rolex store. This is the Rolex I'm putting them on wrist, but I'm going on
1099 |1098 |01:43:56 ~-~-> 01:43:59 |a fucking arm black market and buying some knockoff horse shit, because you're
1100 |1099 |01:43:59 ~-~-> 01:44:03 |gonna see that thing on my wrist, and you think I spent 15, $30,000 whatever
1101 |1100 |01:44:03 ~-~-> 01:44:11 |Fuck you, you're a liar. I got watches cost more than your fucking house the
1102 |1101 |01:44:11 ~-~-> 01:44:18 |fuck out of here. So the point is this, you have to literally dial in and cut
1103 |1102 |01:44:18 ~-~-> 01:44:23 |out everything. And guess what that means, me included. Some of you are
1104 |1103 |01:44:23 ~-~-> 01:44:27 |ready right now, but you're holding on to the reins and saying, drive me
1105 |1104 |01:44:27 ~-~-> 01:44:37 |faster. I should say, Yeah, instead of just doing I'm talking to new people all
1106 |1105 |01:44:37 ~-~-> 01:44:41 |the time that's coming in. And so many of you are ready. You know enough.
1107 |1106 |01:44:42 ~-~-> 01:44:46 |You know enough. But you're not doing anything with it,
1108 |1107 |01:44:46 ~-~-> 01:44:50 |not properly. You're not but when you're in the in the community, like right now,
1109 |1108 |01:44:50 ~-~-> 01:44:53 |you're listening to me, You're looking well him listen. I see he really wound
1110 |1109 |01:44:53 ~-~-> 01:44:59 |up today. Got the answers. I do feel pretty good right now. Back in here,
1111 |1110 |01:44:59 ~-~-> 01:45:03 |you. That's the adrenaline endorphins. They'll wear off. I'll be I'll be crying
1112 |1111 |01:45:03 ~-~-> 01:45:09 |later on. But when you leave the element, when this, when this
1113 |1112 |01:45:09 ~-~-> 01:45:15 |presentation ends in the little dopamine wears off, what are you gonna be left
1114 |1113 |01:45:15 ~-~-> 01:45:20 |with? Well, that was fun. I have to listen to that next time when I feel a
1115 |1114 |01:45:20 ~-~-> 01:45:24 |little bit down and out, but you're going to be feeling down and out an hour
1116 |1115 |01:45:24 ~-~-> 01:45:29 |after this ends. Why? Because you're going to think about what I talked
1117 |1116 |01:45:29 ~-~-> 01:45:34 |about. You're going to think about how I pinned you in a corner and I said, these
1118 |1117 |01:45:34 ~-~-> 01:45:37 |are the things that you're doing and they're wrong. And you want to have
1119 |1118 |01:45:37 ~-~-> 01:45:40 |selective hearing when you're listening to me, like, well, that applies to
1120 |1119 |01:45:40 ~-~-> 01:45:43 |somebody else, not me, if you've done that in this presentation, might be
1121 |1120 |01:45:43 ~-~-> 01:45:51 |talking you're you're the person I'm talking to. You know enough to be
1122 |1121 |01:45:51 ~-~-> 01:45:55 |consistently profitable. You know enough to find setups that you never need to
1123 |1122 |01:45:55 ~-~-> 01:45:59 |watch another video by ICT, you don't ever need to listen to another Twitter
1124 |1123 |01:45:59 ~-~-> 01:46:04 |space. You don't ever need to listen to any kind of nothing. ICT, I have given
1125 |1124 |01:46:04 ~-~-> 01:46:13 |so many ways to skin this cat, but you know what rings constant? You gotta work
1126 |1125 |01:46:13 ~-~-> 01:46:19 |your ass off. There's no shortcuts to it. I don't care what they titled their
1127 |1126 |01:46:19 ~-~-> 01:46:24 |video. ICT, learned in five minutes. I studied everything. I'm gonna teach it
1128 |1127 |01:46:24 ~-~-> 01:46:27 |to you in this video, so that way you don't have to worry about doing what is
1129 |1128 |01:46:27 ~-~-> 01:46:30 |absolutely fucking required, which is back testing, studying and finding how
1130 |1129 |01:46:30 ~-~-> 01:46:36 |it works within you. Does it match your personality? Not all of you can trade a
1131 |1130 |01:46:36 ~-~-> 01:46:42 |turtle soup. Not all of you can trade the silver bullet now, because of the
1132 |1131 |01:46:42 ~-~-> 01:46:47 |first potential fair value gap is, come on. I mean, it's literally the very
1133 |1132 |01:46:47 ~-~-> 01:46:51 |first one that forms, and it's in a 30 minute window. It's very time specific
1134 |1133 |01:46:51 ~-~-> 01:46:56 |for the morning session, and it's used throughout the week. And now I gave you
1135 |1134 |01:46:56 ~-~-> 01:47:02 |the secrets to the afternoon session. Come on. Think about it. Think about it.
1136 |1135 |01:47:02 ~-~-> 01:47:06 |Think about what I gave you just for the afternoon. Fuck the morning session so
1137 |1136 |01:47:06 ~-~-> 01:47:11 |you're not even good at picking the direction in Pius. Who cares? Okay, let
1138 |1137 |01:47:13 ~-~-> 01:47:18 |the morning session trade. Come back around one o'clock in the afternoon,
1139 |1138 |01:47:18 ~-~-> 01:47:23 |Eastern Time, and wait for 130 start watching that opening range, that 30
1140 |1139 |01:47:23 ~-~-> 01:47:27 |minute opening range, and please, gentlemen, please stop talking about a
1141 |1140 |01:47:27 ~-~-> 01:47:35 |15 minute opening fucking range. You're literally bullshit. It's bullshit. Do it
1142 |1141 |01:47:35 ~-~-> 01:47:39 |on 30 minutes. I promise you the shit you're pretending that you're gonna find
1143 |1142 |01:47:39 ~-~-> 01:47:44 |eventually watching 15 minutes, it's gonna be perfect in 30 minutes, because
1144 |1143 |01:47:44 ~-~-> 01:47:47 |that is exactly what the algorithm uses. I don't give a shit. Nobody says I'm
1145 |1144 |01:47:47 ~-~-> 01:47:51 |proving it. Everybody has their opinion, but I fucking walked it in front of all
1146 |1145 |01:47:51 ~-~-> 01:47:57 |of you this year. All of you saw it. How many times have I been wrong? Fuck all.
1147 |1146 |01:47:57 ~-~-> 01:48:03 |None. I've been on it and I haven't even tried. I haven't even fucking tried
1148 |1147 |01:48:03 ~-~-> 01:48:08 |hard, and this is what I presented to you that's realistic for you. You can
1149 |1148 |01:48:08 ~-~-> 01:48:12 |obtain what I did this year. Every single one of you listening to my voice
1150 |1149 |01:48:12 ~-~-> 01:48:17 |can do what I showcased this year. That's not, that's not outperforming,
1151 |1150 |01:48:17 ~-~-> 01:48:22 |you know, unprecedented odds, that's that's in the realm of reasonable.
1152 |1151 |01:48:23 ~-~-> 01:48:27 |Everything I taught you is already on the YouTube channel, and I use the
1153 |1152 |01:48:27 ~-~-> 01:48:33 |information that's in that YouTube channel all year long. I didn't reinvent
1154 |1153 |01:48:33 ~-~-> 01:48:39 |or twist and contort the logic you're waiting for this time. You're waiting
1155 |1154 |01:48:39 ~-~-> 01:48:43 |for this drawing liquidity to be a factor. Okay, I know it's going to
1156 |1155 |01:48:43 ~-~-> 01:48:47 |likely go there, and this is the time I'll just be looking for the setup. I
1157 |1156 |01:48:47 ~-~-> 01:48:50 |have to wait for the setup to be there. And then I gave you a criteria that
1158 |1157 |01:48:50 ~-~-> 01:48:55 |helps you frame a setup, how to manage your risk, how to take the trade and
1159 |1158 |01:48:55 ~-~-> 01:49:04 |manage it. None of you, none of you can say otherwise. You cannot deny that this
1160 |1159 |01:49:04 ~-~-> 01:49:10 |was outlined for the entirety of this year. I've laid this out for you. And
1161 |1160 |01:49:10 ~-~-> 01:49:18 |guess what? That's elementary that is grade school level, nothing compared to
1162 |1161 |01:49:18 ~-~-> 01:49:20 |what you can obtain if you use everything that I taught. And that is
1163 |1162 |01:49:20 ~-~-> 01:49:24 |not an invitation to go in there and say, oh shit, that's the invitation ICC
1164 |1163 |01:49:24 ~-~-> 01:49:29 |then waiting to give. Everybody needs to use everything the ICT uses everything
1165 |1164 |01:49:29 ~-~-> 01:49:30 |he's ever taught. You got to do all
1166 |1165 |01:49:30 ~-~-> 01:49:38 |that stuff. I don't do that. I am not in there taking every available trade I
1167 |1166 |01:49:38 ~-~-> 01:49:44 |would. I'm one person. I'm not omnipresent, like I I'm in one location
1168 |1167 |01:49:44 ~-~-> 01:49:49 |at one time, and my mind is focused on that market and the thing I'm looking
1169 |1168 |01:49:49 ~-~-> 01:49:52 |for, because I have an affinity for an outcome based on a higher time
1170 |1169 |01:49:52 ~-~-> 01:49:57 |expectation. But if I really want to get down a clown, I can go on that 15 second
1171 |1170 |01:49:57 ~-~-> 01:50:04 |chart, five second chart, and tear shit up. You. I'm always ready for that. But
1172 |1171 |01:50:04 ~-~-> 01:50:09 |for teaching purposes, this year, I gave you higher Time Frame, direction,
1173 |1172 |01:50:09 ~-~-> 01:50:13 |everything, how it should be mount and where should be impactful for turning
1174 |1173 |01:50:13 ~-~-> 01:50:17 |points, and all that criteria that would negate that idea if I'm wrong. So you
1175 |1174 |01:50:17 ~-~-> 01:50:23 |had a complete treatment. Everything was shown from the lens of if you studied
1176 |1175 |01:50:23 ~-~-> 01:50:27 |very diligently and you've been consistent about being positive in your
1177 |1176 |01:50:27 ~-~-> 01:50:31 |journaling, looking for the bright side of everything, not talking down to
1178 |1177 |01:50:31 ~-~-> 01:50:35 |yourself, not hanging around in circles where people like to trash my name or my
1179 |1178 |01:50:35 ~-~-> 01:50:39 |concept, to say they're they rebranded. Man, fuck you. Find somebody else out
1180 |1179 |01:50:39 ~-~-> 01:50:42 |there doing what you just watched me do this year, explaining in that detail,
1181 |1180 |01:50:42 ~-~-> 01:50:47 |that precise, and then put the lane, the lane tags of Wyckoff, which ain't there,
1182 |1181 |01:50:47 ~-~-> 01:50:51 |supply, demand, ain't there, Elliot we ain't there. None of that shits there.
1183 |1182 |01:50:51 ~-~-> 01:50:56 |See, that's the problem. They see me doing it. And then when it's done, oh,
1184 |1183 |01:50:56 ~-~-> 01:51:02 |well, you know, that's so and so, so and so. Okay, or you do the same thing the
1185 |1184 |01:51:02 ~-~-> 01:51:08 |next three months, you do it in front of everybody. Don't delete anything, and
1186 |1185 |01:51:08 ~-~-> 01:51:12 |don't ever fucking edit a fucking post, not one, and do it in a setting where
1187 |1186 |01:51:12 ~-~-> 01:51:17 |everybody can track it. Then your opinion matters, because right now all
1188 |1187 |01:51:17 ~-~-> 01:51:21 |you are fucking tongueless to me. You have no voice, you have no opinion that
1189 |1188 |01:51:21 ~-~-> 01:51:27 |matters zero and you fucking think I can't go out there and take that fucking
1190 |1189 |01:51:27 ~-~-> 01:51:31 |Robin's cup. I've made a mockery of that shit. I've literally have shown you that
1191 |1190 |01:51:31 ~-~-> 01:51:39 |it's nothing, it's nothing. That's nothing. It's more scary. It's more risk
1192 |1191 |01:51:39 ~-~-> 01:51:43 |for me to go out and do what I've been doing, putting my name on front see if I
1193 |1192 |01:51:43 ~-~-> 01:51:47 |take trades in Robbins. You don't know what trades I'm taking. You don't know.
1194 |1193 |01:51:47 ~-~-> 01:51:50 |You don't know what I'm doing. But guess what I'm doing here, I am stepping out
1195 |1194 |01:51:50 ~-~-> 01:51:53 |on stage say, here's what this one minute candle is going to do, and this
1196 |1195 |01:51:53 ~-~-> 01:51:56 |is the next one minute candle. It's going to go here, it's going to go here.
1197 |1196 |01:51:56 ~-~-> 01:51:59 |Now it's going to go up, it's going to go down here. It's not going to go here.
1198 |1197 |01:51:59 ~-~-> 01:52:03 |It's not gonna go here, baby, find somebody else that's doing that shit,
1199 |1198 |01:52:03 ~-~-> 01:52:09 |because it ain't fucking there, baby. It's just me good old fucking ICT talk
1200 |1199 |01:52:09 ~-~-> 01:52:13 |about a new fucking algorithm, man, you're fucking clueless. I couldn't do
1201 |1200 |01:52:13 ~-~-> 01:52:19 |this if there wasn't one. You honestly think that I could be that smart?
1202 |1201 |01:52:19 ~-~-> 01:52:25 |There's nobody that's smart. There's nobody that has that level of
1203 |1202 |01:52:25 ~-~-> 01:52:31 |discretionary risk taking and that perfect unless they're using something
1204 |1203 |01:52:31 ~-~-> 01:52:37 |that is completely scripted. And I proved it in a time frame that I can't
1205 |1204 |01:52:37 ~-~-> 01:52:44 |fake it in an audience level that's big enough to say, hey, that man did that,
1206 |1205 |01:52:45 ~-~-> 01:52:50 |and I don't have to be grandiose about it, and hang my fucking name on a
1207 |1206 |01:52:50 ~-~-> 01:52:55 |website and take a man who I'll have a lot of respect for and remove him. It's
1208 |1207 |01:52:55 ~-~-> 01:53:02 |coming, but I cannot do it while he's here. I won't do it, but it's gonna come
1209 |1208 |01:53:02 ~-~-> 01:53:07 |down. And when it's that time, then you'll see it. I'm not gonna announce
1210 |1209 |01:53:07 ~-~-> 01:53:12 |it. You're just gonna see it happen. So I love when you leave those little
1211 |1210 |01:53:12 ~-~-> 01:53:18 |comments. I love it, but Robins cup, but how's the Robins cup going? Yeah, how
1212 |1211 |01:53:18 ~-~-> 01:53:22 |about that 500,000 fucking dollars, baby? How about those three fucking
1213 |1212 |01:53:22 ~-~-> 01:53:29 |months of every day killing an ICT stop? We won't talk about that. Do we get the
1214 |1213 |01:53:30 ~-~-> 01:53:34 |fuck out of here? It's beautiful, and that's what I'm trying to tell you. So
1215 |1214 |01:53:34 ~-~-> 01:53:39 |you young men, very rarely it's the young ladies, but the young men, they
1216 |1215 |01:53:39 ~-~-> 01:53:42 |like. I can't wait to learn how to learn how to do this because I'm going to go
1217 |1216 |01:53:42 ~-~-> 01:53:44 |out there and defend your name. ICT, why
1218 |1217 |01:53:44 ~-~-> 01:53:49 |I'm having too much fun. You don't need to offend me. Can't you say I doing that
1219 |1218 |01:53:49 ~-~-> 01:53:52 |on my own at my leisure?
1220 |1219 |01:53:53 ~-~-> 01:53:57 |You're trying to do something in trading to justify an outcome that doesn't
1221 |1220 |01:53:57 ~-~-> 01:54:02 |matter. I'm not going to high five you. Yeah, you killed it for me. You really
1222 |1221 |01:54:02 ~-~-> 01:54:08 |defended you today, brother, I don't do that. You need to look at your job,
1223 |1222 |01:54:08 ~-~-> 01:54:13 |okay, look at your co workers and say, You know what, I'm slightly better than
1224 |1223 |01:54:13 ~-~-> 01:54:17 |you, and I don't really deserve to be in this bullshit, and I don't deserve the
1225 |1224 |01:54:17 ~-~-> 01:54:20 |low paid that they've given me. So you may resign yourself to doing this the
1226 |1225 |01:54:20 ~-~-> 01:54:25 |rest of your life. I'm not doing that. So in six to nine months, I'm going to
1227 |1226 |01:54:25 ~-~-> 01:54:30 |be replacing my income here, and then once I double it consistently, I'm going
1228 |1227 |01:54:30 ~-~-> 01:54:33 |to looking for the exit ramp. I'm going I'm out. I'm out. I'm not going to come
1229 |1228 |01:54:33 ~-~-> 01:54:37 |back here. You need to make plans. You need to live your life through a
1230 |1229 |01:54:37 ~-~-> 01:54:40 |dreamscape perspective. It means everything you want to see happen there
1231 |1230 |01:54:40 ~-~-> 01:54:44 |has to be a structure in place that leads to you getting there. And it has
1232 |1231 |01:54:44 ~-~-> 01:54:50 |to be practical. Not Well, I want to make $100,000 a week. I want to get you
1233 |1232 |01:54:50 ~-~-> 01:54:54 |know 30 counts on this prop firm, and this prop firm, that Prop firm, and I'm
1234 |1233 |01:54:54 ~-~-> 01:54:57 |going to do this, this, this, this, and then I'm going to sail off from the
1235 |1234 |01:54:57 ~-~-> 01:55:03 |sunset. There has to be a structure. Sure. Okay, there has to be an absolute,
1236 |1235 |01:55:03 ~-~-> 01:55:09 |defined structure to answer the guys that are complaining to me in my comment
1237 |1236 |01:55:09 ~-~-> 01:55:15 |section, dude, you're giving flowers to two guys that are ripping you off and
1238 |1237 |01:55:15 ~-~-> 01:55:21 |they're monetizing and teaching your stuff. Okay, listen, my biggest
1239 |1238 |01:55:21 ~-~-> 01:55:26 |complaint and how my name and my concepts have been abused and
1240 |1239 |01:55:26 ~-~-> 01:55:30 |prostituted is number one. My name brings attention, and if you want to get
1241 |1240 |01:55:30 ~-~-> 01:55:34 |ads and attention on your videos, just put three letters in your ICT and you're
1242 |1241 |01:55:34 ~-~-> 01:55:38 |going to click out of morbid curiosity. Okay, it doesn't mean that it's worth
1243 |1242 |01:55:38 ~-~-> 01:55:41 |watching the video. It just means that that's going to draw the initial click.
1244 |1243 |01:55:42 ~-~-> 01:55:47 |I have always maintained that my students are absolutely encouraged to go
1245 |1244 |01:55:47 ~-~-> 01:55:52 |out there and make a name for themselves with the content. Now that is not to
1246 |1245 |01:55:52 ~-~-> 01:55:56 |sell my outright fucking videos. Okay, because that's bullshit. Why anybody
1247 |1246 |01:55:56 ~-~-> 01:55:59 |would pay for them when they're on my YouTube channel. This is fucking
1248 |1247 |01:55:59 ~-~-> 01:56:03 |ridiculous, but people still do it. I still get emails right now. I got 12 of
1249 |1248 |01:56:03 ~-~-> 01:56:09 |them just this week, saying, How can I join the private mentorship? How the
1250 |1249 |01:56:09 ~-~-> 01:56:13 |fuck can you not see that I'm doing everything for free, like I'm not doing
1251 |1250 |01:56:13 ~-~-> 01:56:18 |anything paid nothing. But people still come to me, I guarantee you. And on
1252 |1251 |01:56:18 ~-~-> 01:56:21 |April 1, I was get I was so tempted. I was gonna put April 1 post up there,
1253 |1252 |01:56:21 ~-~-> 01:56:24 |mentorship, $250 mentorship two, $50 a month, but that would have been saved
1254 |1253 |01:56:24 ~-~-> 01:56:28 |and screenshot and able to be using it, you know, two years from now. So he does
1255 |1254 |01:56:28 ~-~-> 01:56:32 |a piece of shit. He said he was never gonna do a mentorship, and he threw it
1256 |1255 |01:56:32 ~-~-> 01:56:35 |there. It won't go over as well as I would like to see it go over, but if I
1257 |1256 |01:56:35 ~-~-> 01:56:39 |did a mentorship right now, I'm your all your students that you're paying, that's
1258 |1257 |01:56:39 ~-~-> 01:56:42 |paying you right now, they're leaving you. They're coming to my shit. All they
1259 |1258 |01:56:42 ~-~-> 01:56:45 |gotta do is see what I've been doing that telegram channel and I put that
1260 |1259 |01:56:45 ~-~-> 01:56:48 |shit on lockdown. Say, Hey, that's it. Nobody's gonna be able to come in here
1261 |1260 |01:56:48 ~-~-> 01:56:51 |unless they pay you're all looking for your fucking credit card. You're
1262 |1261 |01:56:51 ~-~-> 01:56:54 |throwing it at me. Please, let me be a part of that shit. I want to see this
1263 |1262 |01:56:54 ~-~-> 01:57:00 |happen every fucking day, but I'm not gonna do that. I'm taking a step back
1264 |1263 |01:57:01 ~-~-> 01:57:08 |and letting the people that I taught shine. And guess what? If you have
1265 |1264 |01:57:08 ~-~-> 01:57:17 |learned from me and you've done exceedingly well, Allah Kane Kyle and a
1266 |1265 |01:57:17 ~-~-> 01:57:23 |number of other people that you're about to see soon, if they market the approach
1267 |1266 |01:57:23 ~-~-> 01:57:26 |on how they used it in their own hands, I don't have a fucking problem with
1268 |1267 |01:57:26 ~-~-> 01:57:32 |that. I don't have a problem with that. Everybody knows how they got there.
1269 |1268 |01:57:32 ~-~-> 01:57:36 |They've worked their ass off for it. They put time into learning how to do
1270 |1269 |01:57:36 ~-~-> 01:57:39 |it. They didn't watch one fucking video and say, I got this figured out, baby.
1271 |1270 |01:57:39 ~-~-> 01:57:47 |It's easy man, they worked for it, and they are the highest paid mother fuckers
1272 |1271 |01:57:47 ~-~-> 01:57:52 |in the Prop industry, because everything's proper, yeah, prop pro, you
1273 |1272 |01:57:52 ~-~-> 01:58:03 |have two fucking Monsters, Monsters. So if they say, I'm going to write a book,
1274 |1273 |01:58:04 ~-~-> 01:58:07 |I'm going to teach how I use this information, because guess what? They
1275 |1274 |01:58:07 ~-~-> 01:58:13 |earned that. They earned it. My problem has always been people talking in
1276 |1275 |01:58:13 ~-~-> 01:58:18 |hindsight, soon as they grab that overlay, you know, pretend net long
1277 |1276 |01:58:18 ~-~-> 01:58:22 |position, or pretend that short position, where the color red is, where
1278 |1277 |01:58:22 ~-~-> 01:58:25 |your risk is, and the green is, or I think it's the color green, but it may
1279 |1278 |01:58:25 ~-~-> 01:58:32 |be another color and addition, it's just the trade I took. If you're gonna go
1280 |1279 |01:58:32 ~-~-> 01:58:36 |through the all the trouble of live streaming or making a video, saying,
1281 |1280 |01:58:36 ~-~-> 01:58:39 |here's the trade, and you're like, I think, I think I've got in here
1282 |1281 |01:58:39 ~-~-> 01:58:42 |seriously. I think it's bullshit, because if you took the trade, you're
1283 |1282 |01:58:43 ~-~-> 01:58:46 |going to show you took the trade, you're going to show those executions. You're
1284 |1283 |01:58:46 ~-~-> 01:58:51 |going to show yourself recorded doing those trades. Isn't it fucking funny?
1285 |1284 |01:58:52 ~-~-> 01:58:58 |Isn't it hilarious that everybody from our community that puts the effort in
1286 |1285 |01:58:58 ~-~-> 01:59:01 |learning how to do this stuff, predominantly, they're the ones that
1287 |1286 |01:59:01 ~-~-> 01:59:06 |show their whole fucking trade in recording from beginning to end. And I
1288 |1287 |01:59:06 ~-~-> 01:59:12 |am proud as a fucker. I'm so proud to see that because we are leading, we are
1289 |1288 |01:59:12 ~-~-> 01:59:20 |not following shit. We are not emulating anybody else, but everybody fucking body
1290 |1289 |01:59:20 ~-~-> 01:59:27 |else wants to emulate us. Why? Because we are cut from a different cough. We
1291 |1290 |01:59:27 ~-~-> 01:59:31 |don't think like retail traders. We do not think about what an indicator is
1292 |1291 |01:59:31 ~-~-> 01:59:34 |going to tell us to do. We are not subservient to bullshit.
1293 |1292 |01:59:37 ~-~-> 01:59:46 |We are on the razor edge of perfection in the marketplace. You can't get better
1294 |1293 |01:59:46 ~-~-> 01:59:49 |than to the tick. You can't talk to
1295 |1294 |01:59:52 ~-~-> 01:59:59 |me about a ball of fucking Bollinger Band. Get the hell out of here. You
1296 |1295 |01:59:59 ~-~-> 02:00:05 |don't know. Oh, you don't know what time that Bollinger Bands gonna touch price.
1297 |1296 |02:00:05 ~-~-> 02:00:09 |You're waiting for it. Well, guess what I've done? I've simplified that you're
1298 |1297 |02:00:09 ~-~-> 02:00:15 |waiting for a 10 minute window, or in deference to the final hour trading, 30
1299 |1298 |02:00:15 ~-~-> 02:00:20 |minutes with a 315, to 345 I had two guys leaving comments saying, I watched
1300 |1299 |02:00:20 ~-~-> 02:00:25 |your video last night. You've never mentioned 315 to 345 so now you're
1301 |1300 |02:00:25 ~-~-> 02:00:28 |bullshit. You're making up stuff. Okay, listen, guy, maybe you didn't watch
1302 |1301 |02:00:28 ~-~-> 02:00:31 |everything and listen to everything I've ever produced. Okay, but I absolutely
1303 |1302 |02:00:31 ~-~-> 02:00:36 |have called that there's four macros in just the last hour trading. So there's
1304 |1303 |02:00:36 ~-~-> 02:00:44 |your homeworks on me. Go find out what I told you, what they were. So I you need
1305 |1304 |02:00:44 ~-~-> 02:00:52 |to plan how you're going to be successful. Now, when I was younger, I
1306 |1305 |02:00:52 ~-~-> 02:00:57 |subscribed to rob report, and that was my motivation. That was my motivation
1307 |1306 |02:00:57 ~-~-> 02:01:05 |for boats, cars, watches. That's how I found patak. I fell in love with those
1308 |1307 |02:01:05 ~-~-> 02:01:12 |watches, and I've wasted a lot of money, I'm gonna lie, but that magazine was
1309 |1308 |02:01:12 ~-~-> 02:01:18 |like my as a child. As a child, we used to wait for the Sears catalog to come
1310 |1309 |02:01:18 ~-~-> 02:01:22 |in. I'm dating myself by saying that, but guess what? I'll be 53, years old,
1311 |1310 |02:01:22 ~-~-> 02:01:25 |in case you missed it, but the Sears catalog would come in right before
1312 |1311 |02:01:25 ~-~-> 02:01:29 |Thanksgiving, and we would take our ink pen and we scribble over top of
1313 |1312 |02:01:29 ~-~-> 02:01:37 |everything we wanted in the toy section as a kid. Well, when we have that same
1314 |1313 |02:01:37 ~-~-> 02:01:45 |spirit of expectation, we plan ahead like a child in Christmas, I had to
1315 |1314 |02:01:45 ~-~-> 02:01:51 |think like a child when I was 20 years old because I had been beaten down, you
1316 |1315 |02:01:51 ~-~-> 02:01:55 |know, emotionally in, psychologically with the way I was up my upbringing, it
1317 |1316 |02:01:55 ~-~-> 02:02:02 |wasn't nurturing. So I would have no problem living vicariously through movie
1318 |1317 |02:02:02 ~-~-> 02:02:07 |characters and superheroes and things like that, because it gave me an escape.
1319 |1318 |02:02:07 ~-~-> 02:02:11 |And I understand how some of you young men tap into me, and I'm like that for
1320 |1319 |02:02:11 ~-~-> 02:02:17 |you, but I'm I'm telling you, don't, don't let that be a problem, because it
1321 |1320 |02:02:17 ~-~-> 02:02:20 |can be. It becomes worship too much, and that's bullshit. I'm not worthy of
1322 |1321 |02:02:20 ~-~-> 02:02:24 |worship. I'm not supposed to be lifted up on a pedestal. I'm just like you. I
1323 |1322 |02:02:24 ~-~-> 02:02:28 |put my pants on the same fucking way, and I'm going through pain right now. If
1324 |1323 |02:02:28 ~-~-> 02:02:30 |you saw me, you'd be like, Man, you tore up, right?
1325 |1324 |02:02:31 ~-~-> 02:02:38 |I'm human, just like you are. But you need to plan how you're going to be
1326 |1325 |02:02:38 ~-~-> 02:02:39 |successful.
1327 |1326 |02:02:41 ~-~-> 02:02:45 |Doesn't mean go through the list of every supercar you ever wanted to have.
1328 |1327 |02:02:45 ~-~-> 02:02:52 |It doesn't mean plan on how you're going to show how you did this, bought that
1329 |1328 |02:02:52 ~-~-> 02:02:59 |one, went into debt for this one, but it does mean when I make this much money
1330 |1329 |02:02:59 ~-~-> 02:03:04 |and I reach this goal, I'm going to visit this destination, and that's what
1331 |1330 |02:03:04 ~-~-> 02:03:11 |I did. I had destinations outlined and schedules. I would like to get here.
1332 |1331 |02:03:11 ~-~-> 02:03:16 |What I said there, I would like to get to Fiji by this age, at this time, I
1333 |1332 |02:03:16 ~-~-> 02:03:20 |would like to get to Australia. I was going to go, but there's too many things
1334 |1333 |02:03:20 ~-~-> 02:03:23 |in Australia. They want to kill you. It's too easy. So I easy. So I stayed
1335 |1334 |02:03:23 ~-~-> 02:03:29 |away from Australia. But the idea of planning where we're going to spend our
1336 |1335 |02:03:29 ~-~-> 02:03:33 |success, the things that we want to do, like I always wanted a, you know, a nice
1337 |1336 |02:03:33 ~-~-> 02:03:36 |home. I still want a log cabin. I've been trying to talk my wife into it.
1338 |1337 |02:03:36 ~-~-> 02:03:39 |She's not, she's not big on the whole thing, but I think they're beautiful.
1339 |1338 |02:03:39 ~-~-> 02:03:43 |And I'm not talking about some Uncle Ben's bullshit, okay, I'm talking about
1340 |1339 |02:03:43 ~-~-> 02:03:50 |a really nice out in like Montana, big, big, sprawling log cabin, big ass
1341 |1340 |02:03:50 ~-~-> 02:03:55 |fireplace, you know, I to me, I think that would be awesome, even if we use it
1342 |1341 |02:03:55 ~-~-> 02:03:59 |for just a holiday season. That'd be awesome, but and get some horses and
1343 |1342 |02:03:59 ~-~-> 02:04:03 |stuff. You know, I was younger. My family had horses and stuff, so I I'm
1344 |1343 |02:04:03 ~-~-> 02:04:07 |used to having that. So that's for the guys who are saying, Why did you talk
1345 |1344 |02:04:07 ~-~-> 02:04:11 |about that neat hoof guy? Because I grew up around all that stuff. And when you
1346 |1345 |02:04:11 ~-~-> 02:04:16 |see it, you know, we don't look at it like, ooh. But anyway, I digress,
1347 |1346 |02:04:17 ~-~-> 02:04:24 |planning your success, and I'm going to close it. What do you want to acquire in
1348 |1347 |02:04:24 ~-~-> 02:04:29 |life? And you need to be very, very specific. If it's just lots of money,
1349 |1348 |02:04:29 ~-~-> 02:04:38 |that's not specific, and having $1 amount is not what I'm asking. Where are
1350 |1349 |02:04:38 ~-~-> 02:04:44 |you going to be living, and how are you going to be living? How is your How is
1351 |1350 |02:04:44 ~-~-> 02:04:48 |your ends going to be met? Are you rushing to get to something like a big
1352 |1351 |02:04:48 ~-~-> 02:04:52 |house, even if you pay cash for it, your big houses cost a lot of money when they
1353 |1352 |02:04:52 ~-~-> 02:04:57 |go down. Like you have to repair things, you have to replace things, you got to
1354 |1353 |02:04:57 ~-~-> 02:05:02 |just to paint my walls of my house, to. I got three years ago, two years ago,
1355 |1354 |02:05:03 ~-~-> 02:05:09 |something like that cost me $48,000 just to paint the walls not to see on I got
1356 |1355 |02:05:09 ~-~-> 02:05:15 |to do them this year. Where's that money going to come from? If you have a big
1357 |1356 |02:05:15 ~-~-> 02:05:20 |house, you want to buy big arsenal of cars, okay, that's going to cost you
1358 |1357 |02:05:20 ~-~-> 02:05:24 |lots of money and upkeep if you're going to keep them. To keep them or waste
1359 |1358 |02:05:24 ~-~-> 02:05:27 |money turning them and turning them, give them, give them back to get money.
1360 |1359 |02:05:29 ~-~-> 02:05:36 |I did all those things. It's stupid. You can buy a super car and pay $15,000 for
1361 |1360 |02:05:36 ~-~-> 02:05:42 |the oil changes. That's stupid. That's dumb. And you're spending that money to
1362 |1361 |02:05:42 ~-~-> 02:05:47 |get a pop from people that you're not going to spend time with. You're
1363 |1362 |02:05:47 ~-~-> 02:05:54 |monetizing your personal expenses to fund a small, significant amount of
1364 |1363 |02:05:54 ~-~-> 02:05:59 |time, and whenever that response is given to you by adoration from people
1365 |1364 |02:05:59 ~-~-> 02:06:03 |that you're never going to meet. Man, I wish I was like so and so. Look at their
1366 |1365 |02:06:03 ~-~-> 02:06:07 |cars. Oh, I wish I was like him, because he made this much money so and so in
1367 |1366 |02:06:07 ~-~-> 02:06:12 |this trade. Once that said, it's over done, but you're stuck with the bill and
1368 |1367 |02:06:12 ~-~-> 02:06:21 |a waste of money. I learned those lessons in my 20s. I'm comfortable never
1369 |1368 |02:06:21 ~-~-> 02:06:26 |showing anybody anything. I don't need to do that. And that's the mentality I
1370 |1369 |02:06:26 ~-~-> 02:06:30 |want you as a student of mine, like you don't care what people think that you
1371 |1370 |02:06:30 ~-~-> 02:06:37 |make or don't have. Who cares? Who cares? Is it changing? If you honestly,
1372 |1371 |02:06:37 ~-~-> 02:06:41 |okay, you got a couple million dollars just in one bank account, just in one
1373 |1372 |02:06:41 ~-~-> 02:06:45 |and that's where you draw from, when things you gotta be paid, and what you
1374 |1373 |02:06:45 ~-~-> 02:06:48 |draw from for the year, when you know there's parties and you can be doing
1375 |1374 |02:06:48 ~-~-> 02:06:50 |gifts and vacations, and you're doing
1376 |1375 |02:06:50 ~-~-> 02:06:55 |this and doing that, anybody's opinion about you, what you can
1377 |1376 |02:06:55 ~-~-> 02:06:58 |and can't do, is it going to diminish the amount of money in that bank
1378 |1377 |02:06:58 ~-~-> 02:07:03 |account, the way these people fucking act on social media. You think that
1379 |1378 |02:07:03 ~-~-> 02:07:06 |they're going broke every time someone says something bad about them, that's
1380 |1379 |02:07:06 ~-~-> 02:07:10 |how you know when they're fucking really broke. If they're broke or on the cusp
1381 |1380 |02:07:10 ~-~-> 02:07:13 |of being broke at any given time, or just don't have any money at all,
1382 |1381 |02:07:13 ~-~-> 02:07:16 |they're the ones gonna be the loudest when you talk about money. Oh, you
1383 |1382 |02:07:16 ~-~-> 02:07:20 |broke. Oh, let me go ahead and defend myself. Show my stuff. Let me show my
1384 |1383 |02:07:20 ~-~-> 02:07:26 |stuff. That's how you know they don't have a lot of money. People that have a
1385 |1384 |02:07:26 ~-~-> 02:07:30 |lot of money, they don't spend any time worrying, because it's like, it's a UK
1386 |1385 |02:07:30 ~-~-> 02:07:35 |who are you? Who are you? And that's the problem right now you you're looking at
1387 |1386 |02:07:35 ~-~-> 02:07:43 |post millions problems before you even made $1 you're trying to live your life
1388 |1387 |02:07:43 ~-~-> 02:07:48 |like you got to defend yourself, defend who you're learning from, defend what
1389 |1388 |02:07:48 ~-~-> 02:07:54 |you're learning because you're too vocal in a position of ignorance. Still,
1390 |1389 |02:07:55 ~-~-> 02:07:59 |that's not the meaning remark. That's me saying some of you go out there and you
1391 |1390 |02:07:59 ~-~-> 02:08:03 |beat your chest and you say, ICT is the best way of trading blah, blah, blah,
1392 |1391 |02:08:03 ~-~-> 02:08:10 |but you can't do it yet. And when people throw you smack talk back, you clam up,
1393 |1392 |02:08:10 ~-~-> 02:08:15 |and that means you've completely took that, that counteractive response that
1394 |1393 |02:08:15 ~-~-> 02:08:19 |they give you, which is natural, right, if you're going to talk smack. So my own
1395 |1394 |02:08:19 ~-~-> 02:08:22 |internet's going to talk smack back and then probably working at Dunkin Donuts,
1396 |1395 |02:08:22 ~-~-> 02:08:25 |and they're never going to make it in life anywhere but that little remark,
1397 |1396 |02:08:25 ~-~-> 02:08:30 |because you're not equipped yet, that little remark is going to have a lasting
1398 |1397 |02:08:30 ~-~-> 02:08:34 |impression. It's going to cut you deep, and it's going to motivate you. Well,
1399 |1398 |02:08:34 ~-~-> 02:08:37 |I'm going to go on here. Watch. I'm going to take a trade, not a show. I'm
1400 |1399 |02:08:37 ~-~-> 02:08:41 |going to reply and show where my arrows are on this trade and Bada bing bada,
1401 |1400 |02:08:41 ~-~-> 02:08:46 |boom, I've redeemed. Think about how many times you've done that. How many
1402 |1401 |02:08:46 ~-~-> 02:08:50 |times have you done that? Because you feel like you gotta defend what you're
1403 |1402 |02:08:50 ~-~-> 02:08:57 |learning. Look around we, our community, and the giants that are rising up from
1404 |1403 |02:08:57 ~-~-> 02:09:03 |it are doing all the proof that's necessary. If it didn't work, they
1405 |1404 |02:09:03 ~-~-> 02:09:07 |wouldn't be taking millions of dollars out of these companies, and they're not
1406 |1405 |02:09:07 ~-~-> 02:09:14 |affiliates. Make that make sense. You don't need to defend anything. Put your
1407 |1406 |02:09:14 ~-~-> 02:09:19 |ass in the charts study. Don't worry about what I'm doing next in a new
1408 |1407 |02:09:19 ~-~-> 02:09:24 |video. I don't really want to do them. Okay, you have enough. You have enough.
1409 |1408 |02:09:25 ~-~-> 02:09:29 |And if you put yourself in front of the charts and you study and you work on
1410 |1409 |02:09:29 ~-~-> 02:09:34 |pruning yourself, that means removing dead branches, the twigs that are dried
1411 |1410 |02:09:34 ~-~-> 02:09:39 |up, it's not going to bear any fruit. It might be friendships. Maybe you're in a
1412 |1411 |02:09:39 ~-~-> 02:09:43 |friendship that's toxic as shit. Maybe you're around friends that you've known
1413 |1412 |02:09:43 ~-~-> 02:09:47 |all your life, and I did this, and they just are not subscribed to how you're
1414 |1413 |02:09:47 ~-~-> 02:09:50 |wanting to live your life, in the direction you're taking it, and all they
1415 |1414 |02:09:50 ~-~-> 02:09:54 |care about is weekend money. Girl money. I gotta get my job. I gotta you. Can you
1416 |1415 |02:09:54 ~-~-> 02:09:58 |borrow money? Can they borrow money from you? Because they're gonna be short on
1417 |1416 |02:09:58 ~-~-> 02:10:03 |this week so they can go to the bar and try. To get laid. I had people like that
1418 |1417 |02:10:03 ~-~-> 02:10:13 |in my life, not anymore, not anymore. I have my friends are on one hand now, and
1419 |1418 |02:10:13 ~-~-> 02:10:17 |one of them has the majority of my time, if I ever give it out. I have a very,
1420 |1419 |02:10:17 ~-~-> 02:10:21 |very small circle of friendship where I was younger. I had lots of friends, and
1421 |1420 |02:10:21 ~-~-> 02:10:26 |when I was coming up and making money, I had lots more fucking friends. I had
1422 |1421 |02:10:26 ~-~-> 02:10:29 |people that dream and fucking know me. They call me their best friend. Oh yeah,
1423 |1422 |02:10:29 ~-~-> 02:10:33 |I know. I know. I know him. He's He's loaded me. Watch this, watch this. And I
1424 |1423 |02:10:34 ~-~-> 02:10:37 |felt like I had to do stupid shit like pay for everybody's meal, pay for
1425 |1424 |02:10:37 ~-~-> 02:10:43 |everybody's entertainment, because I felt that I had to do those things or
1426 |1425 |02:10:43 ~-~-> 02:10:49 |they wouldn't believe me, because I was new money. New Money acts like that. I'm
1427 |1426 |02:10:49 ~-~-> 02:10:54 |telling you, when you make your money, don't act like new money. That means
1428 |1427 |02:10:54 ~-~-> 02:10:59 |don't go proven something that you already know for yourself. That's
1429 |1428 |02:10:59 ~-~-> 02:11:06 |weakness on your part and and lacking character, you have all the evidence
1430 |1429 |02:11:06 ~-~-> 02:11:09 |that you have in your own hands, in your own bank account and your own results.
1431 |1430 |02:11:09 ~-~-> 02:11:13 |There's no necessity for you to go out there and say, I'm going to go put this
1432 |1431 |02:11:13 ~-~-> 02:11:17 |out there in the ether, so that way they can remind me that this is real. That's
1433 |1432 |02:11:18 ~-~-> 02:11:23 |what you're doing. And the people that have put the work and effort into doing
1434 |1433 |02:11:23 ~-~-> 02:11:27 |this, they're not going out there for the sake of flaunting it. Now, do they
1435 |1434 |02:11:27 ~-~-> 02:11:33 |go out and buy nice things? Sure, sure, there's nothing wrong with that, but
1436 |1435 |02:11:33 ~-~-> 02:11:36 |they're not making that. That's the entirety of their presentation, and
1437 |1436 |02:11:36 ~-~-> 02:11:42 |that's who they are. They're showing you the receipts that they've done well, in
1438 |1437 |02:11:42 ~-~-> 02:11:49 |my opinion, none of you should do that. I understand if you, if you came from a
1439 |1438 |02:11:49 ~-~-> 02:11:53 |humble background like I did, you just want to have a little atta boy, at a
1440 |1439 |02:11:53 ~-~-> 02:11:57 |girl, you just want to have it okay? I understand, believe me, I understand, if
1441 |1440 |02:11:57 ~-~-> 02:12:01 |anybody doesn't understand it or understands it more than anybody else.
1442 |1441 |02:12:01 ~-~-> 02:12:04 |It's going to be me, because I felt like I had to prove everything to the whole
1443 |1442 |02:12:04 ~-~-> 02:12:11 |world. But when you change your nightmare focus of how everything is
1444 |1443 |02:12:11 ~-~-> 02:12:16 |bad, toxic, it's never going to work for you, and you trade that for everything
1445 |1444 |02:12:16 ~-~-> 02:12:20 |on the up and up in a ride on the good ship, lollipop, everything's just
1446 |1445 |02:12:20 ~-~-> 02:12:24 |perfect, and everything that happens to you is for a purpose, even when it is
1447 |1446 |02:12:24 ~-~-> 02:12:29 |slightly painful, we don't magnify it. We don't beat up a trade and say, Well,
1448 |1447 |02:12:29 ~-~-> 02:12:32 |yeah, you should have never lost that. You should have never let it hit the
1449 |1448 |02:12:32 ~-~-> 02:12:35 |stop. You knew it was gonna hit that stop, but you still kept the trade on.
1450 |1449 |02:12:35 ~-~-> 02:12:37 |Why did you do that? You should have took it off. You knew the stop was gonna
1451 |1450 |02:12:37 ~-~-> 02:12:40 |get hit. You should have saved some of the stop. Don't even do that either
1452 |1451 |02:12:41 ~-~-> 02:12:45 |because what you're doing is you're vilifying yourself. And right before you
1453 |1452 |02:12:45 ~-~-> 02:12:48 |trade, let me tell you something. This is what's scientifically going on behind
1454 |1453 |02:12:48 ~-~-> 02:12:52 |the scenes, chemically inside your brain, right before you push the button.
1455 |1454 |02:12:52 ~-~-> 02:12:56 |Even in a demo, all these people talk, oh, you got to trade with real money to
1456 |1455 |02:12:56 ~-~-> 02:13:02 |learn how to trade with a real account, because nothing's happening. There's no
1457 |1456 |02:13:02 ~-~-> 02:13:08 |sense of concern when it's a demo bullshit, bullshit. Tell me how you feel
1458 |1457 |02:13:08 ~-~-> 02:13:12 |when you blew that account the first time you did it. You're pissed off like,
1459 |1458 |02:13:12 ~-~-> 02:13:16 |Fuck the real money. That's scary shit. I ain't ready. Oh, just do a recycling
1460 |1459 |02:13:16 ~-~-> 02:13:21 |that's your dismissal of it. But you knew what that felt like. So the people
1461 |1460 |02:13:21 ~-~-> 02:13:26 |that talk that shit say, Oh yeah, that's horse shit. That's horse shit. You do
1462 |1461 |02:13:26 ~-~-> 02:13:29 |not learn how to trade jumping right into a live account and with 100 bucks,
1463 |1462 |02:13:29 ~-~-> 02:13:32 |you got to put something on the line. You have something on the line, your
1464 |1463 |02:13:32 ~-~-> 02:13:37 |pride, your ego, your sense of self worth, even in a demo, I don't give a
1465 |1464 |02:13:37 ~-~-> 02:13:41 |fuck what anybody tells you that's the truth. That is the truth. You know it
1466 |1465 |02:13:41 ~-~-> 02:13:45 |because you felt it before you hit the reset, and now, because you're trading
1467 |1466 |02:13:45 ~-~-> 02:13:50 |funded simulated accounts when you're paying that reset fee, you hate it. I
1468 |1467 |02:13:50 ~-~-> 02:13:55 |don't give a shit. It's 99% the fuck off. You don't want to pay that because
1469 |1468 |02:13:55 ~-~-> 02:13:59 |you fucked up. You did something you knew you damn well should have never
1470 |1469 |02:13:59 ~-~-> 02:14:05 |done, and you blew it. Well, guess what? You can take that experience and beat
1471 |1470 |02:14:05 ~-~-> 02:14:13 |yourself up for years like I did, punish yourself and remind yourself that you
1472 |1471 |02:14:13 ~-~-> 02:14:19 |don't deserve it. And the previous results are perfect illustrations of you
1473 |1472 |02:14:19 ~-~-> 02:14:28 |don't deserve it. Look how many times you mess it up. I had enigma. I had it
1474 |1473 |02:14:29 ~-~-> 02:14:36 |three years before I knew I had it. I was tinkering with it, changing this and
1475 |1474 |02:14:36 ~-~-> 02:14:40 |changing that. Instead of saying, What the hell dude like this, but my pursuit
1476 |1475 |02:14:40 ~-~-> 02:14:47 |of absolute perfection blinded me, because I had this deep, rooted desire
1477 |1476 |02:14:47 ~-~-> 02:14:51 |to feel significant, because my own family members cut me deep when they
1478 |1477 |02:14:51 ~-~-> 02:14:54 |said I wasn't going to be successful at it. Nobody's going to be able to do
1479 |1478 |02:14:54 ~-~-> 02:14:57 |that. That doesn't make any damn sense, because if anybody could do it,
1480 |1479 |02:14:57 ~-~-> 02:15:02 |everybody would be doing it. And my wife, I. I wanted to win her back with
1481 |1480 |02:15:02 ~-~-> 02:15:07 |success. In reality, I would have never wanted her back after what she's done if
1482 |1481 |02:15:07 ~-~-> 02:15:12 |I was thinking, you know, objectively, because I was hurt, I stayed in that
1483 |1482 |02:15:12 ~-~-> 02:15:16 |nightmarish perspective. Everything was bad, everything was toxic. And if you're
1484 |1483 |02:15:16 ~-~-> 02:15:20 |taking that perspective into your drink, into trading and in post trade, if you
1485 |1484 |02:15:20 ~-~-> 02:15:27 |have a bad example of execution, don't beat yourself up. Don't dwell on it and
1486 |1485 |02:15:27 ~-~-> 02:15:35 |don't don't solidify it and make a tribute to your demise on that one
1487 |1486 |02:15:35 ~-~-> 02:15:40 |transaction, because every single time, right before you push the button in your
1488 |1487 |02:15:40 ~-~-> 02:15:44 |trading, whether it be demo simulated account where you get paid out, if it's
1489 |1488 |02:15:44 ~-~-> 02:15:50 |profitable through these account companies or it's real money, it does
1490 |1489 |02:15:50 ~-~-> 02:15:53 |not matter. It's the same thing going on in your brain. You're worried about
1491 |1490 |02:15:53 ~-~-> 02:16:01 |being wrong. That is the God's honest truth. You are worried about being
1492 |1491 |02:16:01 ~-~-> 02:16:12 |wrong, even if it's demo I have had students literally email me, flipping
1493 |1492 |02:16:12 ~-~-> 02:16:16 |out, having anxiety attacks because they can't get even demo account results in
1494 |1493 |02:16:16 ~-~-> 02:16:20 |the beginning because they're rushing it. Understand. How can I fix this? You
1495 |1494 |02:16:20 ~-~-> 02:16:23 |need to learn how to learn how to trade and you need to manage yourself and stop
1496 |1495 |02:16:23 ~-~-> 02:16:31 |focusing on toxicity. You have to be your best and biggest cheerleader, and
1497 |1496 |02:16:31 ~-~-> 02:16:38 |that means you're nurturing your future self, whatever you record as negative.
1498 |1497 |02:16:38 ~-~-> 02:16:41 |That's like a father telling their son you're a miserable piece of shit. You're
1499 |1498 |02:16:41 ~-~-> 02:16:43 |never gonna amount to anything
1500 |1499 |02:16:44 ~-~-> 02:16:50 |that's gonna that's gonna haunt them the rest of their life. I had that with my
1501 |1500 |02:16:50 ~-~-> 02:16:57 |grandmother, honey, you're lazy. I can hear her southern twang. It's that shit
1502 |1501 |02:16:57 ~-~-> 02:17:02 |cut me. And guess what that was? That was rocket fuel, not in the beginning,
1503 |1502 |02:17:02 ~-~-> 02:17:06 |it was reminded this wasn't for me, and I was never gonna be successful, and I
1504 |1503 |02:17:06 ~-~-> 02:17:09 |never gonna mount the shit, and I'm lucky if I get a job. That's what it
1505 |1504 |02:17:09 ~-~-> 02:17:14 |made me think. But when I started applying this approach to how I think
1506 |1505 |02:17:14 ~-~-> 02:17:21 |and how I live my life, I'm the biggest super fucking hero I know I am see in
1507 |1506 |02:17:21 ~-~-> 02:17:25 |nightmares, your escape from that thing that's coming after you. It's
1508 |1507 |02:17:25 ~-~-> 02:17:33 |impossible, it's impossible. But guess what, in your dreams, impossible
1509 |1508 |02:17:33 ~-~-> 02:17:39 |becomes, I am I'm possible. I am possible. I am possible. I can do all
1510 |1509 |02:17:39 ~-~-> 02:17:46 |those things in dreams. And I sat my ass down, and I told myself, I'm going to
1511 |1510 |02:17:46 ~-~-> 02:17:54 |crack this shit, and I'm not leaving until I do. And I gave my entire waking
1512 |1511 |02:17:54 ~-~-> 02:18:01 |moments, even while driving, albeit unsafe. But I was doing everything I
1513 |1512 |02:18:01 ~-~-> 02:18:05 |could, every waking moment was poured into the marketplace. And I think after
1514 |1513 |02:18:05 ~-~-> 02:18:13 |this year, you can see the fruits of that. What's that guy at plays, chess,
1515 |1514 |02:18:13 ~-~-> 02:18:17 |Bobby Fisher? I think it is. Yeah, I'm the fucking Bobby Fisher of price
1516 |1515 |02:18:17 ~-~-> 02:18:21 |action. And you can call that narcissistic bragging, whatever fuck you
1517 |1516 |02:18:21 ~-~-> 02:18:26 |want to call it, but I literally can do this like it's nothing. I don't get
1518 |1517 |02:18:26 ~-~-> 02:18:29 |worried about missing a setup. I'm not worried about missing a time, okay? I
1519 |1518 |02:18:29 ~-~-> 02:18:34 |know all the setups in between macros too. So go fuck yourself. You can talk
1520 |1519 |02:18:34 ~-~-> 02:18:38 |all that bullshit from ignorance trying to make a name for yourself on insults.
1521 |1520 |02:18:38 ~-~-> 02:18:40 |You can't do shit you so how
1522 |1521 |02:18:45 ~-~-> 02:18:50 |are you going to leave from today? Besides saying you said a lot of
1523 |1522 |02:18:50 ~-~-> 02:18:51 |customers this time,
1524 |1523 |02:18:52 ~-~-> 02:19:03 |this is how you're going to leave it your time post trade. That means demo or
1525 |1524 |02:19:04 ~-~-> 02:19:11 |back testing or forward testing, tape reading. You need to sow seeds of
1526 |1525 |02:19:11 ~-~-> 02:19:16 |encouragement and reward yourself. Think about yourself right now as your as your
1527 |1526 |02:19:16 ~-~-> 02:19:20 |own child. Because in a lot of ways, if you're brand new into trading, you are
1528 |1527 |02:19:20 ~-~-> 02:19:25 |your own child. You're you're raising yourself. Now, if you're left to raise
1529 |1528 |02:19:25 ~-~-> 02:19:28 |yourself and you don't have any boundaries, you don't have any
1530 |1529 |02:19:28 ~-~-> 02:19:34 |parameters or or sense of discipline, you're going to be a mess. So what you
1531 |1530 |02:19:34 ~-~-> 02:19:37 |have to do is you have to be the good father figure, the good mother figure,
1532 |1531 |02:19:37 ~-~-> 02:19:44 |to yourself and tell yourself in those journals, this is what you did, right?
1533 |1532 |02:19:44 ~-~-> 02:19:50 |And I'm so happy for you. In essence, that's what you're doing, but you're not
1534 |1533 |02:19:50 ~-~-> 02:19:54 |talking to yourself in the third person, you're literally saying, I'm so thankful
1535 |1534 |02:19:54 ~-~-> 02:19:59 |that I got to see this pan out this way, and if it's an adverse response that you
1536 |1535 |02:19:59 ~-~-> 02:20:02 |were looking for. Earlier, and it didn't, I'm sorry if you're looking for
1537 |1536 |02:20:02 ~-~-> 02:20:06 |nothing a certain way to pan out and an adverse result was given to you in the
1538 |1537 |02:20:06 ~-~-> 02:20:11 |sense of a losing trade, or it would have hypothetically been a losing trade
1539 |1538 |02:20:11 ~-~-> 02:20:16 |if you're tape reading record the idea that, hey, look, I had the experience of
1540 |1539 |02:20:16 ~-~-> 02:20:20 |seeing this many executions hypothetically, and I've gained the
1541 |1540 |02:20:20 ~-~-> 02:20:25 |experience without having any of the risk in the hardships having done it. So
1542 |1541 |02:20:25 ~-~-> 02:20:30 |what you're doing is you're constantly reminding yourself of risk. The people
1543 |1542 |02:20:30 ~-~-> 02:20:34 |that blow up, they never have any sensitivity to risk. They have gamblers
1544 |1543 |02:20:34 ~-~-> 02:20:39 |numbness. That's why they keep blowing accounts, and they don't mind repaying
1545 |1544 |02:20:39 ~-~-> 02:20:43 |it. They suck. They can't do it and they still keep paying for it, because
1546 |1545 |02:20:43 ~-~-> 02:20:46 |they're numb to the risk. Why? Because they're only going to it's only going to
1547 |1546 |02:20:46 ~-~-> 02:20:52 |cost them whatever the reset fee is. And when they do 1000s of them, and they
1548 |1547 |02:20:52 ~-~-> 02:20:55 |look at that, I don't mean I could have really funded my own account if I would
1549 |1548 |02:20:55 ~-~-> 02:20:59 |have known how to trade in the beginning and just trade with one micro account or
1550 |1549 |02:20:59 ~-~-> 02:21:03 |one micro contract and only one execution per day, I probably would have
1551 |1550 |02:21:03 ~-~-> 02:21:08 |turned a profit and feel that much better about myself. Instead of this,
1552 |1551 |02:21:08 ~-~-> 02:21:13 |feeding this, this machine of nightmares, that's what you're doing.
1553 |1552 |02:21:13 ~-~-> 02:21:18 |You're just feeding nightmares with the same repeating, poor logic. You're not
1554 |1553 |02:21:18 ~-~-> 02:21:24 |doing anything to fix it. So you have to go back, go back to the origin of why
1555 |1554 |02:21:24 ~-~-> 02:21:27 |you're even here, to try to learn how to trade, and if it's for the wrong
1556 |1555 |02:21:27 ~-~-> 02:21:31 |reasons. Materialism. Show everybody that you're smart, show everybody that
1557 |1556 |02:21:31 ~-~-> 02:21:36 |you're rich. That's all the wrong reasons. Success is living well and not
1558 |1557 |02:21:36 ~-~-> 02:21:41 |needing to go around proven to everybody. You don't need to do that
1559 |1558 |02:21:41 ~-~-> 02:21:45 |because you're already comfortable. I don't know you can't sugarcoat me being
1560 |1559 |02:21:45 ~-~-> 02:21:49 |happy every day, waking up like I do. You. Tell me anything about how you
1561 |1560 |02:21:49 ~-~-> 02:21:55 |think I live is not going to make it any better than it already is. That's how
1562 |1561 |02:21:55 ~-~-> 02:21:59 |you define success. I am not worried about anybody else's opinion, whether it
1563 |1562 |02:21:59 ~-~-> 02:22:03 |be good or bad. It doesn't affect me. It literally has no effect over me, and I
1564 |1563 |02:22:03 ~-~-> 02:22:06 |like toying with everybody else that thinks that that bothers me. If it
1565 |1564 |02:22:06 ~-~-> 02:22:10 |bothered me, I wouldn't be on x. I wouldn't be there where everybody could
1566 |1565 |02:22:10 ~-~-> 02:22:15 |take a jab at me and you see how I am. But most of you aren't equipped to be
1567 |1566 |02:22:15 ~-~-> 02:22:20 |like that. Every little bad thing they say about me, you take it personal, like
1568 |1567 |02:22:20 ~-~-> 02:22:24 |they said it to you, like they talked about your dad. Don't you talk about my
1569 |1568 |02:22:24 ~-~-> 02:22:28 |dad? I'll bust your ass right here. That's how some of you act. And that
1570 |1569 |02:22:28 ~-~-> 02:22:33 |just shows that you're still immature in this you're still trying to find your
1571 |1570 |02:22:33 ~-~-> 02:22:38 |way in yourself, and by having a principle oriented approach to
1572 |1571 |02:22:38 ~-~-> 02:22:44 |journaling, you can trade nightmarish perspective on life and trading to a
1573 |1572 |02:22:44 ~-~-> 02:22:49 |dreamscape perspective where everything is a positive and you filter out all the
1574 |1573 |02:22:49 ~-~-> 02:22:55 |negativity, all of it, because if you allow one shred of it, it will it'll
1575 |1574 |02:22:55 ~-~-> 02:23:00 |fester. It's like this. It's the very, very small rock in your shoe. You can
1576 |1575 |02:23:00 ~-~-> 02:23:03 |have all the nicest cushion shoes, hiking shoes, Jordans, whatever the hell
1577 |1576 |02:23:03 ~-~-> 02:23:07 |you want to call it, best comfortable shoe in the world. Put a small little
1578 |1577 |02:23:07 ~-~-> 02:23:11 |pebble in that bitch and see what happens. That's what you're inviting.
1579 |1578 |02:23:11 ~-~-> 02:23:17 |That experience when you let one thing of toxicity into your journal, when you
1580 |1579 |02:23:17 ~-~-> 02:23:22 |let other people's influence into your circle. That means, if you're on social
1581 |1580 |02:23:22 ~-~-> 02:23:30 |media, in trading, and you're in like, the Twitter segment of x, or trading
1582 |1581 |02:23:30 ~-~-> 02:23:36 |segment of it, basically where we are and where I'm located, if you're not
1583 |1582 |02:23:36 ~-~-> 02:23:40 |equipped to handle things like this, don't ever talk. Don't comment to me.
1584 |1583 |02:23:40 ~-~-> 02:23:45 |Don't comment to anybody else. Don't share anything. Be a gray man, a gray
1585 |1584 |02:23:45 ~-~-> 02:23:50 |woman, where you're nobody notices you, and you're going to do so much better in
1586 |1585 |02:23:50 ~-~-> 02:23:55 |your development, 100% guaranteed, because you're not going to be
1587 |1586 |02:23:55 ~-~-> 02:23:58 |influenced adversely by someone's opinion, whether it be poor or toxic, it
1588 |1587 |02:23:58 ~-~-> 02:24:03 |may be completely unfounded, which most of it is, but you're going to take it
1589 |1588 |02:24:03 ~-~-> 02:24:07 |personal and you're going to dwell on that. And if you do a trade and it
1590 |1589 |02:24:07 ~-~-> 02:24:10 |misses, you're going to take, yeah, maybe there's people that do say ICTs
1591 |1590 |02:24:10 ~-~-> 02:24:13 |are fraud and ICT concepts are rebranded, or just that one thing,
1592 |1591 |02:24:13 ~-~-> 02:24:16 |anything negative, you're going to start thinking about, you're going to dwell on
1593 |1592 |02:24:16 ~-~-> 02:24:19 |it. Maybe they're true. Am I wasting my time? Because I'm telling you, I have so
1594 |1593 |02:24:19 ~-~-> 02:24:24 |many students that came back to me saying, I believe the bullshit. I messed
1595 |1594 |02:24:24 ~-~-> 02:24:29 |up, and I've been putting effort in, and now I've been behind some $1,000 here's
1596 |1595 |02:24:29 ~-~-> 02:24:33 |the Proceed, here's a receipt of it, here's what I'm doing. And they're
1597 |1596 |02:24:33 ~-~-> 02:24:38 |eating crow, basically saying you were right. Here I am telling you you're
1598 |1597 |02:24:38 ~-~-> 02:24:43 |right, and I'm thankful that I was smart enough to come back and listen to you,
1599 |1598 |02:24:43 ~-~-> 02:24:47 |because I'm the most practical guy that you're going to listen to in trading.
1600 |1599 |02:24:47 ~-~-> 02:24:51 |I've lived it all. I've done it all, and I'm proving it. There's nobody out there
1601 |1600 |02:24:51 ~-~-> 02:24:55 |that's going to be able to tell you that their system is going to operate and
1602 |1601 |02:24:55 ~-~-> 02:24:59 |give you the signal at this time of the day, every fucking day, and then do it.
1603 |1602 |02:24:59 ~-~-> 02:25:04 |Nobody. Not one mother fucker is going to be able to do that, but my students
1604 |1603 |02:25:04 ~-~-> 02:25:12 |can. They learned it from me and before me. It never existed. Never Existed. And
1605 |1604 |02:25:12 ~-~-> 02:25:17 |that's why I'm confident, because I know what time it is at all times it's time
1606 |1605 |02:25:17 ~-~-> 02:25:21 |to trade or it's not time to trade, that's how it works. I've defined
1607 |1606 |02:25:21 ~-~-> 02:25:27 |everything in those terms. If it's time to trade, I'll find a setup. You see him
1608 |1607 |02:25:27 ~-~-> 02:25:30 |the troll? Oh, he's got all these things he's gonna justify. So you're damn
1609 |1608 |02:25:30 ~-~-> 02:25:36 |right. I could fucking trade everything. I could trade it all. I could put all
1610 |1609 |02:25:36 ~-~-> 02:25:41 |these Mickey Mouse indicators on my chart, but still trade what I know and
1611 |1610 |02:25:41 ~-~-> 02:25:46 |use my PDA raise and time only the entries with the PD arrays when the
1612 |1611 |02:25:46 ~-~-> 02:25:50 |moving average is sloping down and you swear, up and down. Oh, it's working,
1613 |1612 |02:25:50 ~-~-> 02:25:54 |because the moving averages, no, I thought, I thought about doing that so
1614 |1613 |02:25:54 ~-~-> 02:25:58 |many times in the past, just the troll, just to do silly shit like that. But
1615 |1614 |02:25:58 ~-~-> 02:26:02 |it's like, you know, I would be causing more confusion by doing that, because
1616 |1615 |02:26:02 ~-~-> 02:26:05 |somebody's going to take that information as a joke, like I've done in
1617 |1616 |02:26:05 ~-~-> 02:26:10 |the past, and make it to be something it's not. So I have to be more guarded
1618 |1617 |02:26:10 ~-~-> 02:26:15 |in some of the things I do, in the antics that I do on x now, because it's
1619 |1618 |02:26:15 ~-~-> 02:26:22 |easy not to see my dry humor, and sometimes, because I can't edit I can,
1620 |1619 |02:26:22 ~-~-> 02:26:27 |but I won't edit any any post, and because I won't delete anything, once I
1621 |1620 |02:26:27 ~-~-> 02:26:31 |put it out there, it stays. And sometimes I wish I wouldn't have done
1622 |1621 |02:26:31 ~-~-> 02:26:35 |certain things, because I've had people email me say, I'm confused. You're
1623 |1622 |02:26:35 ~-~-> 02:26:37 |saying that these things don't work anymore. I'm like, No, I'm being
1624 |1623 |02:26:37 ~-~-> 02:26:40 |sarcastic, like they change the algorithm. They're not going to change
1625 |1624 |02:26:40 ~-~-> 02:26:44 |the algorithm. Okay, the market's going to go up or it's going to go down. And
1626 |1625 |02:26:44 ~-~-> 02:26:48 |the inefficiencies between two points of interest, whether it be a premium or
1627 |1626 |02:26:48 ~-~-> 02:26:52 |discount, there's going to be inefficiencies in between that it's
1628 |1627 |02:26:52 ~-~-> 02:26:56 |never a straight line, never a straight line. And the broader the difference in
1629 |1628 |02:26:56 ~-~-> 02:27:00 |chasm between the difference of the high end and the low end of that range you're
1630 |1629 |02:27:00 ~-~-> 02:27:04 |working towards in terms of defining premium and discount, the more
1631 |1630 |02:27:04 ~-~-> 02:27:06 |opportunity is going to be there. That means there's gonna be more PD arrays.
1632 |1631 |02:27:07 ~-~-> 02:27:12 |If it's a small range, only expect one or two at best. That right there is a
1633 |1632 |02:27:12 ~-~-> 02:27:16 |nugget for staying with me this long, the longer you look for the price run to
1634 |1633 |02:27:16 ~-~-> 02:27:21 |exist. You know, you're looking at an implied dealing range. That means where
1635 |1634 |02:27:21 ~-~-> 02:27:26 |it's at right now, where you think it's going. It hasn't done that yet. You can
1636 |1635 |02:27:26 ~-~-> 02:27:30 |grade that price swing and see where the lower quadrant equilibrium, upper
1637 |1636 |02:27:30 ~-~-> 02:27:35 |quadrant levels are. And you can anticipate, anticipate, scientifically
1638 |1637 |02:27:35 ~-~-> 02:27:40 |proven go back and back test that you'll see it where my PD arrays are going to
1639 |1638 |02:27:40 ~-~-> 02:27:44 |form. I know when my fair value gaps are going to form. I know when my order
1640 |1639 |02:27:44 ~-~-> 02:27:47 |blocks are going to form. I know when my institutional order flow entry drills
1641 |1640 |02:27:47 ~-~-> 02:27:52 |are going to form. I know when breakaway gaps. I've proven it, but every other
1642 |1641 |02:27:52 ~-~-> 02:27:57 |discipline in trading can't say the same, and that's what I speak against. I
1643 |1642 |02:27:57 ~-~-> 02:28:01 |speak against the infancy of all that other stuff. But anyone, anyone anyone
1644 |1643 |02:28:01 ~-~-> 02:28:04 |can start from any of that stuff. I started from that shift. It's it's all
1645 |1644 |02:28:04 ~-~-> 02:28:09 |trash, but I started there, and I'm glad that I did that, because it gives me a
1646 |1645 |02:28:09 ~-~-> 02:28:14 |greater affinity for my own life's work, because it's light years ahead of all
1647 |1646 |02:28:14 ~-~-> 02:28:20 |that other stuff. But I've said this in the past, anyone that has disciplined
1648 |1647 |02:28:20 ~-~-> 02:28:26 |themselves and they have respect for the measure of risk on every transaction,
1649 |1648 |02:28:26 ~-~-> 02:28:30 |and they're personally responsible. They don't blame anything outside themselves.
1650 |1649 |02:28:30 ~-~-> 02:28:34 |They don't blame their system. They push the button, or they don't push the
1651 |1650 |02:28:34 ~-~-> 02:28:38 |button. They assume the risk, or define the risk as it is per trade,
1652 |1651 |02:28:39 ~-~-> 02:28:47 |any system can be profitable, but I can give you literally my best model, my
1653 |1652 |02:28:47 ~-~-> 02:28:51 |best never going to share with nobody else. I could give that to somebody in
1654 |1653 |02:28:51 ~-~-> 02:28:56 |this community that's not proven themselves disciplined or profitable in
1655 |1654 |02:28:56 ~-~-> 02:29:01 |any capacity at all. It won't make that money now to a new trader, or someone
1656 |1655 |02:29:01 ~-~-> 02:29:05 |new or casual reader, or someone that's really not done anything in trading,
1657 |1656 |02:29:05 ~-~-> 02:29:08 |that's gonna sound like a bunch of shit, oh, then it's not the best, because it
1658 |1657 |02:29:08 ~-~-> 02:29:12 |should be easy. That doesn't work like that. That was the biggest lesson for
1659 |1658 |02:29:12 ~-~-> 02:29:15 |me. I thought that if I did everything Larry Williams said and put the
1660 |1659 |02:29:15 ~-~-> 02:29:19 |indicators on the chart like he said, it's gonna be easy. And it was. It was
1661 |1660 |02:29:19 ~-~-> 02:29:23 |fucking easy to blow down account. It was easy as shit to take the next losing
1662 |1661 |02:29:23 ~-~-> 02:29:26 |trade. It was real easy for me. It was like no trouble at all. It was fucking
1663 |1662 |02:29:27 ~-~-> 02:29:34 |like lightning. That was so hard, it was impossible. I was like, shit. This
1664 |1663 |02:29:34 ~-~-> 02:29:39 |Williams percent are it's like, it's in zero. It can't move any more than that,
1665 |1664 |02:29:40 ~-~-> 02:29:45 |and it's still going higher, it's still going lower, vice versa. And it was
1666 |1665 |02:29:45 ~-~-> 02:29:48 |like, What the hell am I supposed to do? Like I thought this indicator stopped
1667 |1666 |02:29:48 ~-~-> 02:29:53 |price. It was over bought. It just kept going for 19 fucking days. I was stuck
1668 |1667 |02:29:53 ~-~-> 02:30:00 |in a trade limit up. I'm short. I'm talking about fun and scary. I. I was
1669 |1668 |02:30:00 ~-~-> 02:30:04 |like, man, what. No. Hell if I would have been right. This would have been
1670 |1669 |02:30:04 ~-~-> 02:30:16 |amazing, but, but anyway, I've tapped into old memories and tapped into Old,
1671 |1670 |02:30:16 ~-~-> 02:30:21 |old experiences, and because I have so many of them, I could very easily make
1672 |1671 |02:30:21 ~-~-> 02:30:24 |this a lot longer, and honestly, I only wanted it to be about an hour long, but
1673 |1672 |02:30:26 ~-~-> 02:30:30 |get two and a half hours. It's long enough. It's about the length of a good
1674 |1673 |02:30:30 ~-~-> 02:30:34 |feature length movie, right? If you stayed this long, congratulations. It's
1675 |1674 |02:30:34 ~-~-> 02:30:44 |endurance training, but I want to close it with with this. If you enable
1676 |1675 |02:30:45 ~-~-> 02:30:51 |everyone that ever says or will say to you nay, saying that you can't do this
1677 |1676 |02:30:51 ~-~-> 02:30:55 |or you won't be successful at it, if you energize that with any concern or
1678 |1677 |02:30:55 ~-~-> 02:31:01 |thought, you give them that power, they don't have that power over you. And when
1679 |1678 |02:31:01 ~-~-> 02:31:05 |I was younger, I thought everybody that I loved had that power over me, but it's
1680 |1679 |02:31:05 ~-~-> 02:31:11 |granted to them by you. You have control over that. And when you change your
1681 |1680 |02:31:11 ~-~-> 02:31:15 |perspective, instead of focusing on the anxiety and aspects of potentially
1682 |1681 |02:31:15 ~-~-> 02:31:20 |negative results, and you say, I'm welcome if that happens, because it's
1683 |1682 |02:31:20 ~-~-> 02:31:25 |going to be a learning experience that is such a liberating perspective, you no
1684 |1683 |02:31:25 ~-~-> 02:31:29 |longer look at the hard right edge of that chart and be fearful of the
1685 |1684 |02:31:29 ~-~-> 02:31:34 |outcome, because you're looking at as I'm in a laboratory experiment back in
1686 |1685 |02:31:34 ~-~-> 02:31:39 |university, and I want to see the cause and effect and result of what is going
1687 |1686 |02:31:39 ~-~-> 02:31:44 |to happen next. This is my theoretical, scientifically anchored perspective, and
1688 |1687 |02:31:44 ~-~-> 02:31:50 |what I expect to see, and we're going to see what we get, and you get a baseline
1689 |1688 |02:31:50 ~-~-> 02:31:56 |of experience of the binary, yes, it worked. No, it didn't. And you're
1690 |1689 |02:31:56 ~-~-> 02:32:00 |completely detached from the emotional outcome of it, because you're not facing
1691 |1690 |02:32:00 ~-~-> 02:32:06 |money on the end of that in the beginning, and by you understanding and
1692 |1691 |02:32:06 ~-~-> 02:32:11 |recording your observations about yourself, the negative response, the
1693 |1692 |02:32:11 ~-~-> 02:32:16 |euphoric, I'm really better than I'm really thought I was. You need to guard
1694 |1693 |02:32:16 ~-~-> 02:32:20 |that both perspectives the extremes. You don't think that everything's going to
1695 |1694 |02:32:20 ~-~-> 02:32:23 |be a failure, and you don't think that you're better than everything. I better
1696 |1695 |02:32:23 ~-~-> 02:32:26 |than everything else, like you're not. You have to copy the walk the best of
1697 |1696 |02:32:26 ~-~-> 02:32:29 |the best, and you're not the worst of the worst. And you got to find where
1698 |1697 |02:32:29 ~-~-> 02:32:33 |those parameters are, where it's balanced. And you can only do that by
1699 |1698 |02:32:33 ~-~-> 02:32:37 |recording experiences, getting a baseline of this is what you thought was
1700 |1699 |02:32:37 ~-~-> 02:32:41 |going to do, and this is the outcome. How do you feel? Did you feel any
1701 |1700 |02:32:41 ~-~-> 02:32:45 |emotional tug of war in that transaction? And if you do, you need to
1702 |1701 |02:32:45 ~-~-> 02:32:49 |research that. What is the reason why you felt adversity? Why did you feel
1703 |1702 |02:32:49 ~-~-> 02:32:54 |anxious, even in the demo, even a tape reading session? What are you wrestling
1704 |1703 |02:32:54 ~-~-> 02:32:57 |with at the time, and what do I mean by that? What are you dealing with in your
1705 |1704 |02:32:57 ~-~-> 02:33:01 |personal life? Are you having a problem in your job? Are you sick? Are you are
1706 |1705 |02:33:01 ~-~-> 02:33:06 |you fighting a physical ailment? Are you without a job? Did you lose a job? Are
1707 |1706 |02:33:06 ~-~-> 02:33:09 |you potentially going to lose your job? Are you having a marital spat? Are you
1708 |1707 |02:33:09 ~-~-> 02:33:13 |going through a divorce? Is your is your children becoming problematic? You know
1709 |1708 |02:33:14 ~-~-> 02:33:19 |all those things are going to manifest in your decision making. And it's unfair
1710 |1709 |02:33:19 ~-~-> 02:33:26 |for you to not realize that those external forces that you may or may not
1711 |1710 |02:33:26 ~-~-> 02:33:29 |have any control over, that you're wrestling with subconsciously that is
1712 |1711 |02:33:29 ~-~-> 02:33:35 |not in any way indicative of you coming to a conclusion that you're a bad trader
1713 |1712 |02:33:35 ~-~-> 02:33:39 |because you're going through stress and you're not Learning well enough to
1714 |1713 |02:33:39 ~-~-> 02:33:44 |manage that stress. I'm thankful that God allowed me to go through severe
1715 |1714 |02:33:44 ~-~-> 02:33:50 |anxiety. My world shrunk down to just my bedroom, and I didn't like when my wife
1716 |1715 |02:33:50 ~-~-> 02:33:53 |came in. I didn't like when my children knocked on the door and I didn't want my
1717 |1716 |02:33:53 ~-~-> 02:33:59 |pets in me, near me. Where else, where can I go? My world shrank down to one
1718 |1717 |02:33:59 ~-~-> 02:34:04 |room and that I had to make a change because my world started shrinking and
1719 |1718 |02:34:04 ~-~-> 02:34:08 |shrinking and shrinking and gorophobia, they want to be around other people. And
1720 |1719 |02:34:08 ~-~-> 02:34:12 |if you're not careful, you'll do that. You'll go to furthest extremes that you
1721 |1720 |02:34:12 ~-~-> 02:34:15 |couldn't even imagine you would allow yourself to get to. And it's going to be
1722 |1721 |02:34:15 ~-~-> 02:34:20 |based on your performance on something that you didn't properly go into and
1723 |1722 |02:34:20 ~-~-> 02:34:26 |measure without any emotional stimuli attached to it, no monetary stigma
1724 |1723 |02:34:26 ~-~-> 02:34:30 |attached to the outcome making money. That's the last thing you're worried
1725 |1724 |02:34:30 ~-~-> 02:34:33 |about right now. You're not worried about the money. You need to wrestle
1726 |1725 |02:34:33 ~-~-> 02:34:37 |with who you are. What makes you feel scared? What makes you feel empowered?
1727 |1726 |02:34:37 ~-~-> 02:34:42 |When do you get cocky and arrogant? When do you get doubtful and concerned only
1728 |1727 |02:34:42 ~-~-> 02:34:45 |by back testing and recording those things are you ever going to really know
1729 |1728 |02:34:45 ~-~-> 02:34:49 |who you are, even if you're being successful right now, if you have not
1730 |1729 |02:34:49 ~-~-> 02:34:53 |been doing that part, you need to start applying that because it'll take you to
1731 |1730 |02:34:53 ~-~-> 02:34:59 |new levels and leave behind old devils you're wrestling with, things that you
1732 |1731 |02:34:59 ~-~-> 02:35:03 |choose to hold on to. It. You don't realize it, but until you journal, you
1733 |1732 |02:35:03 ~-~-> 02:35:07 |won't recognize them, and you won't be able to identify them. So that way, you
1734 |1733 |02:35:07 ~-~-> 02:35:11 |can comfortably say, You know what, I've been carrying you all this time, but I'm
1735 |1734 |02:35:11 ~-~-> 02:35:17 |not doing it anymore. I choose not to hold on to this anymore. And you
1736 |1735 |02:35:17 ~-~-> 02:35:20 |physically say it out loud, and you say, I'm no longer going to worry about the
1737 |1736 |02:35:20 ~-~-> 02:35:24 |concerns of my failed relationships in the past. I'm no longer to be concerned
1738 |1737 |02:35:24 ~-~-> 02:35:26 |about the other people's opinion, about how soon I should have been successful,
1739 |1738 |02:35:26 ~-~-> 02:35:31 |because many of you are on their schedule, not your own, and that causes
1740 |1739 |02:35:31 ~-~-> 02:35:35 |anxiety. You're trying to perform to everybody else's expectations. And these
1741 |1740 |02:35:35 ~-~-> 02:35:39 |people aren't fucking nobody, they're nobody. You've never seen them face to
1742 |1741 |02:35:39 ~-~-> 02:35:42 |face, but you know them by their name on social media. Oh, I hope that person
1743 |1742 |02:35:42 ~-~-> 02:35:46 |doesn't say something to me today. I go on, and I'm hoping I see all of them
1744 |1743 |02:35:46 ~-~-> 02:35:52 |come at me today. I love it. I love it, but you aren't equipped to be that way.
1745 |1744 |02:35:52 ~-~-> 02:35:57 |Because you don't have your success. You're not rooted in this is the
1746 |1745 |02:35:57 ~-~-> 02:36:01 |baseline that's grown in extrapolated terms of you're successful with it. You
1747 |1746 |02:36:01 ~-~-> 02:36:03 |know what you're going to do. You know how you can read price action, and
1748 |1747 |02:36:03 ~-~-> 02:36:07 |nobody's going to shake you. You have confidence that's unshakable. You're an
1749 |1748 |02:36:07 ~-~-> 02:36:11 |overcomer. Nobody's taking you out of your your rhythm and your grind. You are
1750 |1749 |02:36:11 ~-~-> 02:36:14 |dialed in, and you ain't got time for anybody that's a naysayer. If you get
1751 |1750 |02:36:14 ~-~-> 02:36:19 |away from me, you can't even get my attention. Goodbye. That's that's the
1752 |1751 |02:36:19 ~-~-> 02:36:23 |goal. But it doesn't happen overnight. It doesn't happen that transition to
1753 |1752 |02:36:23 ~-~-> 02:36:30 |that level of absolutely dialed in does not happen overnight. But is it is
1754 |1753 |02:36:30 ~-~-> 02:36:35 |achievable. If you knew me back then, what kind of a wreck I was, versus right
1755 |1754 |02:36:35 ~-~-> 02:36:39 |now, totally different. Absolutely like that. You'd swear at somebody else.
1756 |1755 |02:36:39 ~-~-> 02:36:49 |You'd swear with somebody else. It had to be somebody else, right? So I assume
1757 |1756 |02:36:49 ~-~-> 02:36:52 |it in here. I got so many things that just popped in my head. I can go on and
1758 |1757 |02:36:52 ~-~-> 02:36:57 |you're really good too, but we have to defer that to another one. Hopefully
1759 |1758 |02:36:57 ~-~-> 02:37:01 |I've given you something to think about today. If anything, I hope I entertain
1760 |1759 |02:37:01 ~-~-> 02:37:04 |you. Took your money off your own problems, if it's been rough for you or
1761 |1760 |02:37:04 ~-~-> 02:37:08 |whatever, we spent a little bit of time today. Maybe, maybe I made you smile,
1762 |1761 |02:37:08 ~-~-> 02:37:12 |maybe I made you laugh, maybe I pissed you off, good. That means you care. That
1763 |1762 |02:37:12 ~-~-> 02:37:15 |means you're engaged. And that's what I want for my audience, because if you
1764 |1763 |02:37:15 ~-~-> 02:37:19 |listen to me and you're engaged and you apply a little bit of what I'm teaching
1765 |1764 |02:37:19 ~-~-> 02:37:24 |you to do, you'll see results. It's always been that way. I've always said,
1766 |1765 |02:37:24 ~-~-> 02:37:28 |Don't believe me. Because I said, so don't believe my executions, because you
1767 |1766 |02:37:28 ~-~-> 02:37:32 |can do it too. And once you study it and you see it, and you ain't going to
1768 |1767 |02:37:32 ~-~-> 02:37:35 |listen to anybody else, they're never going to convince you otherwise. It's
1769 |1768 |02:37:35 ~-~-> 02:37:40 |not a cult, it's not mind control, it's not gatekeeping, it's not me trying to
1770 |1769 |02:37:40 ~-~-> 02:37:44 |control over you and and you just be a hateful person out there, always trying
1771 |1770 |02:37:44 ~-~-> 02:37:50 |to start up trouble. I use that aspect to draw a crowd, because if I can offend
1772 |1771 |02:37:50 ~-~-> 02:37:54 |somebody, either directly or indirectly, and I can get their audience to question
1773 |1772 |02:37:54 ~-~-> 02:37:57 |long enough to come here and listen to me and see what is this guy going on
1774 |1773 |02:37:57 ~-~-> 02:38:02 |about? Oh shit, that's how it works. I don't ever have it advertised. I don't
1775 |1774 |02:38:02 ~-~-> 02:38:06 |ever have to do any kind of monetized ads on Facebook, YouTube, none of that
1776 |1775 |02:38:06 ~-~-> 02:38:10 |bullshit. They know me because of word of mouth. I'm a good talker. I can I'm a
1777 |1776 |02:38:10 ~-~-> 02:38:15 |good shit talker, and I can walk the walk. And I let everybody have a piece
1778 |1777 |02:38:15 ~-~-> 02:38:18 |of the pie. I give them just not to throw me and think they got a opinion
1779 |1778 |02:38:18 ~-~-> 02:38:21 |about it. And I have enough where the people that really support me would go
1780 |1779 |02:38:21 ~-~-> 02:38:28 |to war for me, and I'm aiming for both camps to move to the middle. And so, you
1781 |1780 |02:38:28 ~-~-> 02:38:29 |know what? I don't
1782 |1781 |02:38:29 ~-~-> 02:38:33 |really care about the guy I'm in. I'm indifferent to the guy, but his shit
1783 |1782 |02:38:33 ~-~-> 02:38:37 |really works, and I'm I'm doing well now that's that is the outcome. I'm not here
1784 |1783 |02:38:37 ~-~-> 02:38:40 |for friends and family that you know, but hey, we're going to hang out
1785 |1784 |02:38:40 ~-~-> 02:38:44 |together. I'm here to change your life. That's all I'm here for. That's all I'm
1786 |1785 |02:38:44 ~-~-> 02:38:48 |here for, and all it takes is your effort and consistently applying it. If
1787 |1786 |02:38:48 ~-~-> 02:38:53 |you do that, I am guaranteeing you you will see changes. It won't happen
1788 |1787 |02:38:53 ~-~-> 02:38:57 |overnight. You won't be perfect, but you'll gradually move to a level where
1789 |1788 |02:38:57 ~-~-> 02:39:02 |you'll get more confidence, you'll respect risk the entire time. But
1790 |1789 |02:39:02 ~-~-> 02:39:07 |percentage wise, the percentage risk will be the same as you gain more equity
1791 |1790 |02:39:07 ~-~-> 02:39:11 |and make more money, but you're never risking any more than that one fixed
1792 |1791 |02:39:11 ~-~-> 02:39:18 |percent. It needs to be low, really, really low. And when I say start with
1793 |1792 |02:39:18 ~-~-> 02:39:23 |risking a quarter of 1% first question comes out of mind of people that listen
1794 |1793 |02:39:23 ~-~-> 02:39:26 |to me for the first time, yeah, but I can't make big money like that. Okay?
1795 |1794 |02:39:27 ~-~-> 02:39:34 |You failed at math. You failed at math because if you risk 25% of 1% a quarter
1796 |1795 |02:39:34 ~-~-> 02:39:44 |of 1% of whoever your equity is, and you're aiming for five to one okay? And
1797 |1796 |02:39:44 ~-~-> 02:39:50 |you can find that setup over time, a dozen, two dozen, three dozen times over
1798 |1797 |02:39:50 ~-~-> 02:39:53 |the course of a week, if you're in the lower time frames, that stuff compounds
1799 |1798 |02:39:53 ~-~-> 02:39:59 |quick, real, real quick. But you can't trade that way right away. It takes
1800 |1799 |02:39:59 ~-~-> 02:40:03 |time. It. Different stages and new levels and plateau. You hang around in a
1801 |1800 |02:40:03 ~-~-> 02:40:07 |little understanding, and then you gain more understanding, and you gain more
1802 |1801 |02:40:07 ~-~-> 02:40:12 |understanding. And it takes time. I am able to trade today in a manner that I
1803 |1802 |02:40:12 ~-~-> 02:40:18 |could not trade when I was 22 when I was 24 I couldn't trade as well as I can
1804 |1803 |02:40:18 ~-~-> 02:40:24 |trade right now. I had enigma. I had it in my hands, and I still would doubt. I
1805 |1804 |02:40:24 ~-~-> 02:40:28 |would wait. I would be like, I need more confirmation. I'm afraid to do this. I'm
1806 |1805 |02:40:28 ~-~-> 02:40:31 |afraid to do that. And I put on too many contracts, and the fact that I had that
1807 |1806 |02:40:31 ~-~-> 02:40:34 |much risk on would scare me out of the trade. I would close the trade. So am I
1808 |1807 |02:40:34 ~-~-> 02:40:38 |following the system? Absolutely not. But what am I finding? I'm finding where
1809 |1808 |02:40:38 ~-~-> 02:40:44 |my flaws are. That's what makes me so authoritative, like I I've lived all
1810 |1809 |02:40:44 ~-~-> 02:40:50 |this stuff. I No one's going to teach me anything. I'm unteachable when it comes
1811 |1810 |02:40:50 ~-~-> 02:40:55 |to trading because I have all my shit sorted and because I don't want to hear
1812 |1811 |02:40:55 ~-~-> 02:40:59 |anybody else's bullshit, I don't have anything broken, so I don't need anybody
1813 |1812 |02:40:59 ~-~-> 02:41:02 |else's opinion to help me fix anything. If you call that arrogance, if you call
1814 |1813 |02:41:02 ~-~-> 02:41:05 |that narcissistic, I don't give a shit what you call it. I call it winning.
1815 |1814 |02:41:06 ~-~-> 02:41:10 |That's that's me being comfortable in my own skin. I don't need any more outside
1816 |1815 |02:41:10 ~-~-> 02:41:15 |input, and I've already given you enough in ICT content. All you have to do is
1817 |1816 |02:41:15 ~-~-> 02:41:19 |dial in and what is it? What you want to do, and bloom where you're planted.
1818 |1817 |02:41:19 ~-~-> 02:41:23 |Don't try to do everything that I've ever taught. Don't try to apply every
1819 |1818 |02:41:23 ~-~-> 02:41:27 |fucking tool I've ever introduced. But there's a plethora of things that you
1820 |1819 |02:41:27 ~-~-> 02:41:32 |can literally, if you want to sample from my my whole Compendium, you can
1821 |1820 |02:41:32 ~-~-> 02:41:38 |come up with a model that's uniquely yours, and I've never traded. It isn't
1822 |1821 |02:41:38 ~-~-> 02:41:42 |that fascinating. I have so many PD array. So many ways to skin the cat get
1823 |1822 |02:41:42 ~-~-> 02:41:46 |into a trade. You could literally say, this is my model, and I've had this with
1824 |1823 |02:41:46 ~-~-> 02:41:50 |two people now, this is, this is how I'm applying this information. And I'm like,
1825 |1824 |02:41:50 ~-~-> 02:41:54 |wow, that's it. I've never looked at it that way, and that, to me, is
1826 |1825 |02:41:54 ~-~-> 02:41:59 |fascinating. It's fun, because I get to see how you brought your own personality
1827 |1826 |02:41:59 ~-~-> 02:42:04 |to my life's work, and I'm not trying to stunt anybody from doing that. I'm
1828 |1827 |02:42:04 ~-~-> 02:42:09 |encouraging you all to do that. You're not teaching me anything, but you're
1829 |1828 |02:42:09 ~-~-> 02:42:14 |showing me that it's so diverse. There's so many ways. And you're not limited by
1830 |1829 |02:42:14 ~-~-> 02:42:19 |my concepts, where everything else is limited, everything else is limited. You
1831 |1830 |02:42:19 ~-~-> 02:42:24 |have to wait for this to do a crossover, or flash this, or flash that bullshit.
1832 |1831 |02:42:24 ~-~-> 02:42:29 |All you gotta do is wait by the time. If you gotta watch, okay, you gotta set to
1833 |1832 |02:42:29 ~-~-> 02:42:35 |New York time. You know what you're looking for. With me, we set our time
1834 |1833 |02:42:35 ~-~-> 02:42:40 |based trades by our clock, and as long as you at the right time, you got the
1835 |1834 |02:42:40 ~-~-> 02:42:43 |right fucking trade. That's it. We're done. You.