002-ict-tw-spaces-2025-04-06-Shotgun-Saturday-Trading-Nightmares-For-Dreamscapes
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| 1 | 00:00:00 --> 00:00:05 | ICT: All right, so today I spent a little bit of time together with a topic |
| 2 | 00:00:05 --> 00:00:15 | that I entitled trading nightmares for dreamscapes. When I was a younger guy, I |
| 3 | 00:00:15 --> 00:00:17 | was 20, when I first started actually |
| 4 | 00:00:18 --> 00:00:22 | putting my mind to learning how to trade and taking risk and whatnot in the |
| 5 | 00:00:22 --> 00:00:29 | markets, being prodded along as a 13 and 14 year old and at 16 year old at the |
| 6 | 00:00:29 --> 00:00:36 | Sunday morning brunches that turns into grandma's lunches and dinners, where the |
| 7 | 00:00:37 --> 00:00:40 | family would come together, and an uncle obviously would keep prodding me, |
| 8 | 00:00:40 --> 00:00:43 | telling me telling me all the time that the richest people in the world were |
| 9 | 00:00:44 --> 00:00:53 | traders of futures and options, and those those seeds were planted way, way, |
| 10 | 00:00:53 --> 00:01:00 | way early in my life, and didn't know at the time That that would culminate and |
| 11 | 00:01:01 --> 00:01:12 | basically grow into, you know what you see today. So when I first started, I |
| 12 | 00:01:12 --> 00:01:22 | came up in a time where that was my low point, like that was my low point. I |
| 13 | 00:01:22 --> 00:01:31 | couldn't, I couldn't go any lower than that as a man, as a person, as a, you |
| 14 | 00:01:31 --> 00:01:42 | know, recent divorcee, and everything at that time was just darkness, gloom. It |
| 15 | 00:01:43 --> 00:01:49 | was very hard for me to be optimistic about anything. So I was living a night |
| 16 | 00:01:50 --> 00:01:53 | daily. There was no light, there was no |
| 17 | 00:01:56 --> 00:02:02 | optimistic perspective to hold on to. It just wasn't there. I felt defeated. I |
| 18 | 00:02:02 --> 00:02:02 | felt |
| 19 | 00:02:05 --> 00:02:16 | lost, really, I just didn't have a direction at all. And recently, upon |
| 20 | 00:02:16 --> 00:02:25 | divorce, I met a young lady actually followed her home, creepy, right? But we |
| 21 | 00:02:26 --> 00:02:36 | ended up getting together. And the few words that she gave one day when I told |
| 22 | 00:02:36 --> 00:02:40 | her open, I opened up. And as men in the audience, you know this is very |
| 23 | 00:02:40 --> 00:02:45 | difficult for us to do, and women, if you're listening, this is a life lesson |
| 24 | 00:02:45 --> 00:02:52 | for you as well. If a man ever opens himself up to you, he's laying his neck |
| 25 | 00:02:52 --> 00:02:57 | on your sword. He's literally trusting you with his emotions. He's trusting you |
| 26 | 00:02:57 --> 00:03:06 | with his frailty. He's trusting you with how you respond, with destroying |
| 27 | 00:03:06 --> 00:03:12 | basically, and he sees value in you to the degree that he's willing to give |
| 28 | 00:03:12 --> 00:03:17 | this to you. And from a man's perspective, and every man in the |
| 29 | 00:03:17 --> 00:03:21 | audience right now, if you agree, just say, I agree. But that's on point. |
| 30 | 00:03:24 --> 00:03:31 | You're trusting this person to a degree that's way beyond fidelity, way beyond |
| 31 | 00:03:31 --> 00:03:36 | just I want her to feel like I cherish her. You're trusting this person |
| 32 | 00:03:36 --> 00:03:43 | entirely with your being where you're you're giving her this gift that you |
| 33 | 00:03:43 --> 00:03:52 | can't give to anyone else. This is only entitled to them. And I shared that with |
| 34 | 00:03:52 --> 00:03:57 | her. I was honest with her. I told her that I was broken hearted. I couldn't |
| 35 | 00:03:57 --> 00:04:01 | imagine how this woman, who I was married to, and I get, I get some of |
| 36 | 00:04:01 --> 00:04:03 | your high thinking, What's this got to do with trading? Has everything to do |
| 37 | 00:04:03 --> 00:04:15 | with trading. Everything to do with trading. I was busted, torn up, and what |
| 38 | 00:04:15 --> 00:04:25 | I saw in this young lady, I wanted that more, but I needed to break completely |
| 39 | 00:04:25 --> 00:04:29 | away from the things that were shackling me. I needed to get away from all of |
| 40 | 00:04:29 --> 00:04:36 | that, that torment that I put myself through. I needed to somehow restore |
| 41 | 00:04:36 --> 00:04:40 | that old relationship that was absolutely not for me. It was toxic, and |
| 42 | 00:04:40 --> 00:04:44 | I tried to be the white knight in a scenario that there was no saving that |
| 43 | 00:04:44 --> 00:04:52 | situation, but God saw fit to put this young lady in my life. And I told her |
| 44 | 00:04:52 --> 00:05:02 | that I was very hard pressed to find any optimistic thing outside of her. Her, |
| 45 | 00:05:02 --> 00:05:08 | and I don't know what direction I'm going to go, and this is what I'm trying |
| 46 | 00:05:08 --> 00:05:15 | to do right now, which was learning how to invest and trade, and I expected, |
| 47 | 00:05:17 --> 00:05:22 | deep down inside, that she wouldn't be all that interested or really care that |
| 48 | 00:05:22 --> 00:05:32 | much, but I felt that I had to give that to her. And every single day, every |
| 49 | 00:05:32 --> 00:05:36 | single day when I wake up and I look at those markets and I look at those charts |
| 50 | 00:05:37 --> 00:05:43 | before I talk to anybody, either online, on Telegram, anyone |
| 51 | 00:05:45 --> 00:05:51 | I hear Shannon's voice. She said to me, when I told her what I wanted to do, |
| 52 | 00:05:52 --> 00:05:57 | she said to me, and it didn't sound canned, like I believe she meant it |
| 53 | 00:05:57 --> 00:06:05 | entirely and sincere. She said, Michael, I've only known for a short period of |
| 54 | 00:06:05 --> 00:06:13 | time, but you seem very focused. You seem very passionate about this, and if |
| 55 | 00:06:13 --> 00:06:18 | anything, you put yourself in the direction of going after I think this is |
| 56 | 00:06:18 --> 00:06:23 | going to be it for you. I can see you doing this. And you know what she did? |
| 57 | 00:06:23 --> 00:06:27 | She brought it up at dinner with her mother and father, with me sitting |
| 58 | 00:06:27 --> 00:06:35 | there, and, man, I can't tell you, I can't tell you, the level of just |
| 59 | 00:06:35 --> 00:06:39 | empowerment. Like I was like, Well, this is it. Now, all those times my uncle |
| 60 | 00:06:39 --> 00:06:43 | spoke to me and said, You got to do this, you got to do this, you got to do |
| 61 | 00:06:43 --> 00:06:47 | this. You got to do this. It didn't mean anything to me. I had started the |
| 62 | 00:06:47 --> 00:06:53 | journey, not because of him, no disrespect to my uncle, Stan, but it |
| 63 | 00:06:53 --> 00:06:56 | just felt like what was the option? Either I'm going to still work and do |
| 64 | 00:06:56 --> 00:07:03 | these 13 hour days and make no money, or make a change. And my degree wasn't |
| 65 | 00:07:03 --> 00:07:08 | getting me anywhere. No doors were opening up for for systems analyst, |
| 66 | 00:07:09 --> 00:07:13 | despite my GPA and despite my my affinity for trading, and I'm not |
| 67 | 00:07:13 --> 00:07:19 | trading, but for coding and and being involved in that industry, I did it from |
| 68 | 00:07:19 --> 00:07:24 | sixth grade on, self taught most part, and that's why it was easy for me to go |
| 69 | 00:07:24 --> 00:07:30 | through the actual epidemic of it. But when her father, Mr. Huff, who's gone on |
| 70 | 00:07:30 --> 00:07:35 | to be with the Lord, he looked at her and smiled and turned to me, he said, |
| 71 | 00:07:36 --> 00:07:42 | I've never heard her talk about anyone like that before, and I looked at her |
| 72 | 00:07:42 --> 00:07:49 | mother, and I was like, I my face was burning. I was I was blushing like |
| 73 | 00:07:49 --> 00:07:54 | crazy, and my the water was beaded up on my eyelid. I was like, Don't, don't, |
| 74 | 00:07:54 --> 00:07:58 | don't. You dare let it drop in front of them, don't you? But I couldn't help it. |
| 75 | 00:07:58 --> 00:08:03 | I couldn't help it because at that moment, these people weren't my family, |
| 76 | 00:08:04 --> 00:08:08 | but I fell in love with them at that moment, I fell in love with that element |
| 77 | 00:08:08 --> 00:08:17 | of family. I've never had that before. I've never experienced that before, and |
| 78 | 00:08:17 --> 00:08:25 | they sowed in me a seed of optimism that I carry every single day, every single |
| 79 | 00:08:25 --> 00:08:33 | day now, obviously, Mr. Huff, he's he's moved on. He can't see me in the natural |
| 80 | 00:08:33 --> 00:08:42 | I'm sure he probably can see me now. And Miss Sharon Shannon's mother, she's |
| 81 | 00:08:42 --> 00:08:47 | never had the opportunity to see where I'm at today, and Shannon, unless she's |
| 82 | 00:08:47 --> 00:08:51 | aware of me online, which, out of respect for her, her family, her |
| 83 | 00:08:51 --> 00:08:57 | marriage and whatnot, I don't ever do anything to the trifle in anyone else's |
| 84 | 00:08:57 --> 00:09:01 | relationship. But we, we eventually, you know, a year and a half later, |
| 85 | 00:09:01 --> 00:09:10 | separated, and no fault of anyone's just as I just made a poor choice at the |
| 86 | 00:09:10 --> 00:09:16 | time, being insecure because of a previous relationship, I felt like it |
| 87 | 00:09:16 --> 00:09:21 | was too good, and if I didn't get out of it, least I protected myself from her |
| 88 | 00:09:21 --> 00:09:25 | hurting me, and I don't believe she ever would have done it. And if I would have |
| 89 | 00:09:25 --> 00:09:30 | never met my present wife, I would like to think that I had a chance to get back |
| 90 | 00:09:30 --> 00:09:34 | with her. That's not me saying that I love her more than my wife. I'm just |
| 91 | 00:09:34 --> 00:09:38 | saying, if you were to ask me, and we were friends and we were talking being |
| 92 | 00:09:38 --> 00:09:45 | honest, not some I'm doing here, I'm being honest with you, that young lady |
| 93 | 00:09:46 --> 00:09:49 | made a lasting impression on me because of her words of encouragement, and I can |
| 94 | 00:09:49 --> 00:09:56 | tell you to this day, there has never been another female, even my wife, that |
| 95 | 00:09:56 --> 00:10:04 | has ever said those types. Of deep, reaching, lifting, empowerment. Like it |
| 96 | 00:10:04 --> 00:10:12 | was like rocket fuel. It was like, I cannot fail now, like I can't fail now, |
| 97 | 00:10:12 --> 00:10:18 | like, I know this is mine. Now I know it's mine because she could have said, |
| 98 | 00:10:18 --> 00:10:21 | well, I'll believe it when I see it, because that's what my wife has always |
| 99 | 00:10:21 --> 00:10:23 | said in the beginning of our relationship. Beginning of our |
| 100 | 00:10:23 --> 00:10:27 | relationship. I believe when I see it, I believe when I see it. She came from a |
| 101 | 00:10:27 --> 00:10:37 | family that was disjointed, dysfunctional, and Shannon didn't how |
| 102 | 00:10:37 --> 00:10:42 | you raise your children has a lasting impression on how they're going to be as |
| 103 | 00:10:43 --> 00:10:49 | adults. And it's a crazy paradigm. When you look at the contrast of people that |
| 104 | 00:10:49 --> 00:10:55 | were raised like I was. I grew up in a broken home, dysfunctional and it was |
| 105 | 00:10:55 --> 00:11:01 | very hard for me to see the pathway in front of me. I just know I wanted to get |
| 106 | 00:11:01 --> 00:11:09 | out of that. I didn't want to stay in that type of dysfunctional family. And |
| 107 | 00:11:09 --> 00:11:15 | trading seemed like that was the avenue, but I was afraid. I was afraid of doing |
| 108 | 00:11:15 --> 00:11:24 | it, and I needed to be encouraged, because I felt like, you know if, if I'm |
| 109 | 00:11:24 --> 00:11:29 | telling myself every day at that time that no one's going to believe I'm going |
| 110 | 00:11:29 --> 00:11:33 | to be able to do this. If I'm saying that, and you probably have done this |
| 111 | 00:11:33 --> 00:11:36 | yourself, think about it. Maybe that's where you're at right now. You're |
| 112 | 00:11:36 --> 00:11:42 | thinking, nobody believes in me. Nobody believes I'm going to do this or be |
| 113 | 00:11:42 --> 00:11:47 | successful. And you know what? When you say that to yourself, just like when I |
| 114 | 00:11:47 --> 00:11:51 | said it to myself, That's a true statement. Wasn't expecting me to say |
| 115 | 00:11:51 --> 00:11:56 | that, were you? It's actually a true statement. Because if you're saying |
| 116 | 00:11:56 --> 00:12:02 | nobody believes I'm going to do it, you're stating emphatically that you |
| 117 | 00:12:02 --> 00:12:14 | don't believe it either, because nobody includes you. Think about it, your |
| 118 | 00:12:14 --> 00:12:20 | subconscious is speaking, and your subconscious is always, always the |
| 119 | 00:12:20 --> 00:12:25 | truth. That's the part that you guard all the time. That's the part young man, |
| 120 | 00:12:25 --> 00:12:29 | when you try to meet that young lady and have special time with her, talking |
| 121 | 00:12:29 --> 00:12:34 | between the sheets, you're trying to impress her and woo her and think, Wow. |
| 122 | 00:12:34 --> 00:12:38 | You know this guy's a really nice guy. I want to be with him. You put it on your |
| 123 | 00:12:38 --> 00:12:43 | best clothes, your best cologne. You get your hair done up nice. You will make |
| 124 | 00:12:43 --> 00:12:46 | the greatest impression. And you don't want to do anything rude. You don't want |
| 125 | 00:12:46 --> 00:12:56 | to be in any way off putting to her. Well, you garner guard all these things, |
| 126 | 00:12:56 --> 00:13:01 | these insecurities that you have, and when you speak those things like, nobody |
| 127 | 00:13:01 --> 00:13:06 | believes I'm going to do this, you need to stop that, because I held on to that |
| 128 | 00:13:06 --> 00:13:16 | for a long time. I was living nighttime every single day. And you know what |
| 129 | 00:13:16 --> 00:13:24 | happens at nighttime? You dream, you have nightmares, you have good dreams. |
| 130 | 00:13:24 --> 00:13:28 | And if you're like me, who studied it a lot when I was younger, you could have a |
| 131 | 00:13:28 --> 00:13:33 | lucid dream. A lucid dream is where you actually wake up in your dream, and you |
| 132 | 00:13:33 --> 00:13:37 | realize that you're not awake in the physical and you can do things in your |
| 133 | 00:13:37 --> 00:13:42 | dream. That's neat. And my one of my favorite things is flying. I'm afraid of |
| 134 | 00:13:42 --> 00:13:46 | heights, but in my dreams, I can fly. And there's lots of really good books on |
| 135 | 00:13:46 --> 00:13:49 | lucid dreaming. If you want to look at it, I'm not going to try to teach lucid |
| 136 | 00:13:49 --> 00:13:52 | dreaming, because I'm not capable of doing it. It's not something you can |
| 137 | 00:13:52 --> 00:13:56 | say, Here it is. Here's an optimal trade entry, here's a fair value gap. It's not |
| 138 | 00:13:56 --> 00:14:01 | like that, but it's something I journaled for a long time. And all the |
| 139 | 00:14:01 --> 00:14:06 | things that I used to journal prior to that moment when Shannon said what she |
| 140 | 00:14:06 --> 00:14:13 | said in that evening, that day, that day, sowed it in the annals of the |
| 141 | 00:14:13 --> 00:14:22 | future that I was going to be who I am today. Now one could say, well, you |
| 142 | 00:14:23 --> 00:14:27 | didn't have a good relationship. You broke up. Yeah, I made a bad choice. I |
| 143 | 00:14:27 --> 00:14:31 | got too emotional about something, insecurities, and we broke up amicably, |
| 144 | 00:14:31 --> 00:14:39 | like it was, it was not a hateful thing. So how could you say that's a good |
| 145 | 00:14:39 --> 00:14:45 | thing? I believe God placed her in my life at that time to encourage me |
| 146 | 00:14:45 --> 00:14:49 | because I needed it, much like many of you probably turn to me when I do these |
| 147 | 00:14:52 --> 00:14:59 | motivational elements, I try to ground you, shake you by your lapels, and |
| 148 | 00:14:59 --> 00:15:05 | remind you that you. This is normal stuff, folks, I'm not exempt to it. I'm |
| 149 | 00:15:05 --> 00:15:08 | not ashamed to say I went through these types of things either. I'm actually |
| 150 | 00:15:08 --> 00:15:15 | very thankful because recognizing those nightmares that I held on to, I chose, I |
| 151 | 00:15:15 --> 00:15:26 | chose to keep putting on that garment of sorrow, that garment of fear. What if I |
| 152 | 00:15:26 --> 00:15:32 | try really, really hard and I fail? That's what I was afraid of before I |
| 153 | 00:15:32 --> 00:15:38 | even told her, knowing that I still laid it in her hands and she could have |
| 154 | 00:15:38 --> 00:15:45 | destroyed me. She could have laughed in my face and said, What a crazy idea. |
| 155 | 00:15:45 --> 00:15:48 | You're going to be working like everybody else. And I was expecting |
| 156 | 00:15:49 --> 00:15:52 | expecting that to happen, because that's exactly what my family said. |
| 157 | 00:15:55 --> 00:16:04 | That's exactly what my friends said. And we like to think that, you know our |
| 158 | 00:16:04 --> 00:16:09 | family members. I mean, if I tell them what I'm going to do, they're going to |
| 159 | 00:16:09 --> 00:16:13 | encourage me, like, yeah, Heck, yeah. That's the thing. That's it. That's the |
| 160 | 00:16:13 --> 00:16:19 | thing. I can see you doing it, man, if you do, well, could you help me too? |
| 161 | 00:16:19 --> 00:16:23 | That's what you want to hear in it. That's exactly what you want to hear. |
| 162 | 00:16:23 --> 00:16:29 | But you don't ever hear that, do you? You're gonna do what you're gonna do |
| 163 | 00:16:29 --> 00:16:33 | what. Hey, Hey, fellas, listen to this. Come over here. Tell her. Tell her what |
| 164 | 00:16:33 --> 00:16:37 | you just said. You're gonna do what you're gonna push some buttons and your |
| 165 | 00:16:37 --> 00:16:42 | money's gonna end up in your backyard. What did you just say to me? Come on, |
| 166 | 00:16:42 --> 00:16:49 | come on. It's what happens, isn't it? And if you have not shared what you want |
| 167 | 00:16:49 --> 00:16:52 | to do yet with your family members, don't be surprised. That's what they do |
| 168 | 00:16:52 --> 00:16:59 | to you. It's normal. That's normal. It doesn't feel normal when it happens. It |
| 169 | 00:16:59 --> 00:17:02 | feels personal. Feels like they're kicking dirt in your face. That's |
| 170 | 00:17:03 --> 00:17:10 | exactly what it felt like for me at a time when I was already beaten up, tore |
| 171 | 00:17:10 --> 00:17:18 | up from the floor, up, no direction in life. Feel like I wasted all that time |
| 172 | 00:17:18 --> 00:17:26 | academically and couldn't even land an interview. Resumes going out every |
| 173 | 00:17:26 --> 00:17:32 | single day, not one phone call ever. Now you can say, Well, you're a failure. |
| 174 | 00:17:32 --> 00:17:37 | That's a that's a testimony right there. That's a failure right there. You know |
| 175 | 00:17:37 --> 00:17:42 | what I see? I see a door being kept closed because I was never meant to go |
| 176 | 00:17:42 --> 00:17:52 | through it. Hello, That'll preach right there. What I spent so much time from |
| 177 | 00:17:52 --> 00:18:00 | sixth grade on, dreaming of getting a good job, getting my name on a little |
| 178 | 00:18:00 --> 00:18:04 | plate on my desk, maybe having some people underneath me, I'm in charge of |
| 179 | 00:18:05 --> 00:18:11 | that's not me. That was never supposed to be me, as much as I thought it was, |
| 180 | 00:18:12 --> 00:18:16 | just like I thought my first wife was, that was my that was my queen, that was |
| 181 | 00:18:16 --> 00:18:22 | my one time, and I'm one and done. Lost my Virginia tour, and I married her just |
| 182 | 00:18:22 --> 00:18:28 | like that. That's the kind of person I am. I didn't want to be a player. I |
| 183 | 00:18:28 --> 00:18:35 | didn't want to run around and see how many times I can get a dip. And we |
| 184 | 00:18:35 --> 00:18:40 | separated, and it put me in a state where, well, I guess I'm just like |
| 185 | 00:18:40 --> 00:18:44 | everybody else. And then I womanized, and I ran around, I did things with |
| 186 | 00:18:44 --> 00:18:53 | married women, and I have an oldest son as a byproduct of that. Play stupid |
| 187 | 00:18:53 --> 00:18:59 | games, win stupid prizes. You have all kinds of problems when you do things |
| 188 | 00:18:59 --> 00:19:07 | like that. But that young lady's words of encouragement, I carry them today, |
| 189 | 00:19:10 --> 00:19:18 | and when I talk to you, you think I'm talking to you, but I'm talking to my |
| 190 | 00:19:18 --> 00:19:26 | kids. That's why it feels genuine. That's why it feels like you know me. |
| 191 | 00:19:27 --> 00:19:31 | That's why it feels good when I tell you I believe in you. I think you're going |
| 192 | 00:19:31 --> 00:19:34 | to do it, because I believe in my children. I believe that they're going |
| 193 | 00:19:34 --> 00:19:40 | to do this. And all of you know me online. You never shared a meal with me. |
| 194 | 00:19:42 --> 00:19:50 | You never met me at a pub, at a cafe, in passing, but you feel like you know me. |
| 195 | 00:19:52 --> 00:19:58 | You feel like we've been friends for a long, long time. Because when I talk to |
| 196 | 00:19:58 --> 00:20:04 | you, I talk to you since. Clearly, it's not scripted. I don't even know what I'm |
| 197 | 00:20:04 --> 00:20:10 | going to say next. It just comes out. I let it all flow out evenly. It's all |
| 198 | 00:20:10 --> 00:20:17 | based on real things, real things I experienced, and adversities, and if I |
| 199 | 00:20:17 --> 00:20:21 | can go through it and come out of it. And I'm not special, folks. I know some |
| 200 | 00:20:21 --> 00:20:25 | of you think I am. Like to think I'm should be lifted up on a hero pedestal. |
| 201 | 00:20:25 --> 00:20:33 | I should never be lifted up on a hero pedestal. I have so many frailties, so |
| 202 | 00:20:33 --> 00:20:37 | many insecurities. I could never do what I'm doing right now. If you're all |
| 203 | 00:20:37 --> 00:20:45 | standing in front of me, I'm introverted, you would never imagine the |
| 204 | 00:20:45 --> 00:20:50 | same person that talks to you like this. If we were in person, it wouldn't be |
| 205 | 00:20:50 --> 00:20:58 | like that. Why? Because it's deep rooted in my childhood. I was a quiet kid, so |
| 206 | 00:20:58 --> 00:21:02 | quiet I was afraid to talk out loud because the things I was thinking, I |
| 207 | 00:21:02 --> 00:21:03 | thought I'd be in trouble, you |
| 208 | 00:21:05 --> 00:21:13 | can fill in the blanks on that. So where am I going with this? Well, how's this |
| 209 | 00:21:13 --> 00:21:17 | applicable to you? Well, when I was young, I had a lot of anxiety, |
| 210 | 00:21:19 --> 00:21:28 | debilitating anxiety, fear of performance and life getting a job. What |
| 211 | 00:21:28 --> 00:21:32 | if I make as much money as I want to? What if I don't get the job I want? What |
| 212 | 00:21:32 --> 00:21:36 | if I don't go where I want to go and work for the company I want to work for? |
| 213 | 00:21:38 --> 00:21:45 | And I would wake up with night terrors. You ever have one of them before? Just |
| 214 | 00:21:45 --> 00:21:52 | wake up and you're gasping for air now. I was fit as a fiddle back then, so I |
| 215 | 00:21:52 --> 00:21:57 | had no apnea. I had no nothing that would be classified as, oh, this sounds |
| 216 | 00:21:57 --> 00:22:06 | like sleep apnea. I didn't have any of that. I had crippling anxiety, because |
| 217 | 00:22:06 --> 00:22:17 | my mind is Supercharged. If you give me an idea and ask me to make this happen, |
| 218 | 00:22:18 --> 00:22:22 | or I have an idea that comes to me. Now I can run with that and turn it into a |
| 219 | 00:22:22 --> 00:22:33 | success story. Back then, everything was a nightmare unfolding. Everything was an |
| 220 | 00:22:33 --> 00:22:39 | impossibility, and I made sure of it because I constantly dwelled on this is |
| 221 | 00:22:39 --> 00:22:45 | probably going to end poorly. I shouldn't even bother doing this. Many |
| 222 | 00:22:45 --> 00:22:48 | times I would have ideas I would write down on journal. This is what I think I |
| 223 | 00:22:48 --> 00:22:52 | should be trying to do today. And then what would I do? Run the other direction |
| 224 | 00:22:52 --> 00:22:57 | all day long. Never work towards it. Never try to do anything working towards |
| 225 | 00:22:57 --> 00:23:04 | that idea, becoming fruitful or coming to pass. That's not procrastination |
| 226 | 00:23:06 --> 00:23:11 | that's running away from it. There's a difference. See, procrastination is like |
| 227 | 00:23:12 --> 00:23:16 | when I tell you to back test when I tell you you're not going to learn the things |
| 228 | 00:23:16 --> 00:23:19 | I'm teaching you unless you literally go into your charts and back test them. It |
| 229 | 00:23:20 --> 00:23:23 | doesn't mean go look at what this happened today and say, Yeah, that was |
| 230 | 00:23:23 --> 00:23:32 | it. No, you got to dig through weeks and months of old news. So if you sit around |
| 231 | 00:23:32 --> 00:23:38 | and procrastinate like that, you're never going to get good at this. What I |
| 232 | 00:23:38 --> 00:23:43 | was doing as a young man was literally running from it. I wasn't just |
| 233 | 00:23:43 --> 00:23:46 | stationary saying, you know, I'll get around to it eventually. No, I was |
| 234 | 00:23:46 --> 00:23:52 | terrified, because I couldn't handle another failure. I couldn't accept |
| 235 | 00:23:52 --> 00:23:57 | another defeat. I was at my lowest point, and I guarded that very next |
| 236 | 00:23:57 --> 00:24:02 | thing all the time, expecting to walk through a door and see something like a |
| 237 | 00:24:03 --> 00:24:08 | murder scene? Well, I knew it was going to happen eventually. That was my |
| 238 | 00:24:08 --> 00:24:17 | mentality then, diametrically opposed to what it is today. Instead of thinking |
| 239 | 00:24:17 --> 00:24:24 | back, then everything's going to be the worst case scenario. Everything is |
| 240 | 00:24:26 --> 00:24:32 | always bad luck, and that's why I don't believe in luck. That's why I always |
| 241 | 00:24:32 --> 00:24:36 | love my news at luck, okay? Because in trading, there is no luck. It's just |
| 242 | 00:24:36 --> 00:24:42 | decisions, and that decision was correct or is incorrect. It doesn't mean that |
| 243 | 00:24:42 --> 00:24:47 | your model is broken or doesn't work. Is incorrectly done. This means that you, |
| 244 | 00:24:47 --> 00:24:53 | as the operator, you made an error. Correct it, don't do it again. Don't |
| 245 | 00:24:53 --> 00:25:02 | repeat it. It's it's a binary response. You. If this happens, then it's this. |
| 246 | 00:25:02 --> 00:25:09 | And every time I make a losing decision, it's mine. I own it. Now, back then, if |
| 247 | 00:25:09 --> 00:25:16 | something had happened to me, Well, this is this is the person that probably |
| 248 | 00:25:16 --> 00:25:22 | caused this to happen to me. See, when you live a self defeating lifestyle, and |
| 249 | 00:25:22 --> 00:25:27 | you live in fear and toxic What if thinking, what if I don't succeed? What |
| 250 | 00:25:27 --> 00:25:33 | if I try really, really hard? What if I try so hard and I pour so much time and |
| 251 | 00:25:33 --> 00:25:40 | effort into this, maybe even some money, even then, what happens if I fail? How |
| 252 | 00:25:40 --> 00:25:45 | embarrassing would that be? How demoralizing would it be if I worked so |
| 253 | 00:25:45 --> 00:25:51 | hard and I fail? That's exactly what I fed myself every single day. Is it no |
| 254 | 00:25:51 --> 00:25:56 | surprise why I didn't have any ambition to pursue any of the ideas that would |
| 255 | 00:25:56 --> 00:26:03 | come to me? Of course, not come to nobody's surprise, but see, that's the |
| 256 | 00:26:03 --> 00:26:10 | benefit of hindsight, looking back at it now, but when you're thick of it, when |
| 257 | 00:26:10 --> 00:26:17 | you're living it, you can't see it any other way. And you might be there right |
| 258 | 00:26:17 --> 00:26:22 | now. You might have tried trading. And if you're really, really honest, and I'm |
| 259 | 00:26:22 --> 00:26:26 | asking you to be honest, not with me, you don't need to share it publicly as a |
| 260 | 00:26:26 --> 00:26:37 | response to me, but be honest with yourself. Did you rush it? Did you put a |
| 261 | 00:26:37 --> 00:26:42 | little bit too much on your plate, more than you can handle by trading with real |
| 262 | 00:26:42 --> 00:26:49 | money before you should have. Did you try to pass combines before you even |
| 263 | 00:26:49 --> 00:26:55 | knew who you were? The things that make it tick, the things that hold you back, |
| 264 | 00:26:55 --> 00:27:03 | but you don't think it's that. Did you rush it? Did you jump in and plunge |
| 265 | 00:27:03 --> 00:27:07 | before you really knew what you were doing? Because I think if you were |
| 266 | 00:27:07 --> 00:27:12 | honest, you would admit that that's exactly what you did. You see me, |
| 267 | 00:27:12 --> 00:27:17 | there's lots of people out there making money, believe me, they had no problem |
| 268 | 00:27:17 --> 00:27:23 | showing it to you. There's nothing wrong with that, in many ways, they're doing |
| 269 | 00:27:23 --> 00:27:28 | what I did as a 20 year old. You had to broadcast it because I couldn't believe |
| 270 | 00:27:28 --> 00:27:36 | it either. I couldn't believe it. I had to show everybody, not just because I |
| 271 | 00:27:36 --> 00:27:41 | wanted to twist that knife and rub salt in the wound. For everybody said I would |
| 272 | 00:27:41 --> 00:27:47 | never be able to do it, but I physically could not believe it. Remember, I'm an |
| 273 | 00:27:47 --> 00:27:52 | avid lucid dreamer. I didn't know half the time if I was conscious or if I was |
| 274 | 00:27:52 --> 00:27:56 | in a lucid dream during doing what I thought I should be doing. Sounds crazy, |
| 275 | 00:27:56 --> 00:28:09 | doesn't it sounds like wild, but that's a dreamscape. I moved from nightmare to |
| 276 | 00:28:09 --> 00:28:17 | dreamscape. I was living my dreams. I was not enduring my nightmares, and I |
| 277 | 00:28:17 --> 00:28:22 | didn't recognize that right away, because I was doing things after the |
| 278 | 00:28:22 --> 00:28:27 | words of a young lady that I was falling head over heels in love with and her |
| 279 | 00:28:27 --> 00:28:33 | family literally just gave me the invitation that, hey, listen, don't even |
| 280 | 00:28:33 --> 00:28:36 | bother asking me son. Give her the ring and welcome to the family. That's how I |
| 281 | 00:28:36 --> 00:28:44 | interpreted that in true to form once I started making success, and I shared |
| 282 | 00:28:44 --> 00:28:51 | with her, this is what I did. I made $11,000 today. Wow. Now today us. You |
| 283 | 00:28:51 --> 00:28:55 | know today's terms of trading, $11,000 is nothing, right? I mean, nobody cares |
| 284 | 00:28:55 --> 00:28:59 | about $11,000 when you can do it, $11,000 you can't even buy a small |
| 285 | 00:28:59 --> 00:29:00 | county car anymore. |
| 286 | 00:29:02 --> 00:29:10 | You but back in 1993 walking out of the movie theater, holding her hand, we |
| 287 | 00:29:12 --> 00:29:19 | just walked out and saw the movie The Crow Brandon Lee, dark movie. I liked |
| 288 | 00:29:19 --> 00:29:24 | it. It was awesome. She didn't care for the movie too much. And I said, you |
| 289 | 00:29:24 --> 00:29:30 | know, this is the greatest day of my life right now, up to this moment, this |
| 290 | 00:29:30 --> 00:29:37 | is the greatest day. I just got to share time with you. Watched Brandon Lee just |
| 291 | 00:29:37 --> 00:29:41 | go crazy in a movie he died in. It was epic. It was awesome. The soundtrack was |
| 292 | 00:29:41 --> 00:29:51 | awesome, and I made $11,000 and she was like, What? No way, are you crazy that |
| 293 | 00:29:51 --> 00:29:54 | you made that just today? I was like, Well, it took three days to get to it, |
| 294 | 00:29:54 --> 00:30:01 | but I did, yeah, here it is. I told you. Now here it is, gentlemen, this is |
| 295 | 00:30:01 --> 00:30:04 | exactly what we're listening for when you're talking to your ladies, when |
| 296 | 00:30:04 --> 00:30:07 | you're talking to your girlfriends, your wife, your spouse, your significant |
| 297 | 00:30:07 --> 00:30:12 | other. Ladies, listen. This is what we're listening for. This is how you |
| 298 | 00:30:12 --> 00:30:18 | wrap us around your finger. You want a man to stick with you and not run around |
| 299 | 00:30:18 --> 00:30:22 | on you. You want a man that's going to say, You know what? I don't need to get |
| 300 | 00:30:22 --> 00:30:27 | a dip anywhere else. I got everything I need right here. Because listen, ladies, |
| 301 | 00:30:27 --> 00:30:30 | you might think you got something special between your legs. Everybody's |
| 302 | 00:30:30 --> 00:30:34 | got that same thing down there. And men, you got the same thing too. It's how you |
| 303 | 00:30:34 --> 00:30:42 | walk with it. It's what you do when you're not using it. And men give me an |
| 304 | 00:30:42 --> 00:30:48 | amen if it ain't like this, this young lady literally confirmed what she said |
| 305 | 00:30:48 --> 00:30:53 | the first time. I believe you're going to do it. I believe you're going to do |
| 306 | 00:30:53 --> 00:30:58 | it. If there's any person out there that's going to do it, it's you. I |
| 307 | 00:30:58 --> 00:31:02 | haven't known you that long, but I can tell you are very passionate about this. |
| 308 | 00:31:04 --> 00:31:13 | She knew I was studying all the time, all the time, what is that? What's that |
| 309 | 00:31:13 --> 00:31:18 | radio you're holding? I said it's not a radio. It's a quote truck. It tells me |
| 310 | 00:31:18 --> 00:31:22 | what the price of soybeans and corn and live cattle, high grade, copper, all |
| 311 | 00:31:22 --> 00:31:27 | that stuff. It tells me what the prices are right now. And she's like, You know |
| 312 | 00:31:27 --> 00:31:34 | what that means? It's like, well, I'm learning, yep, that same guy you hear |
| 313 | 00:31:34 --> 00:31:39 | now talks like he knows everything, right? I was vulnerable. In her hands |
| 314 | 00:31:39 --> 00:31:43 | and in her presence, I was vulnerable. And she said, I |
| 315 | 00:31:43 --> 00:31:53 | told you, you would be able to do this. Man, I don't care. I could have made a |
| 316 | 00:31:53 --> 00:31:55 | million dollars on that trade. |
| 317 | 00:31:57 --> 00:32:00 | Those words had way more you |
| 318 | 00:32:02 --> 00:32:09 | are way more. I could have ran through a fucking wall. I was like Superman. |
| 319 | 00:32:14 --> 00:32:21 | Ladies, you give your man that he ain't going nowhere. He ain't going nowhere. |
| 320 | 00:32:30 --> 00:32:36 | And that that fueled me. I want to do another one of them, and I don't want to |
| 321 | 00:32:36 --> 00:32:45 | make a mistake. So what was she doing? She was being my accountability agent, |
| 322 | 00:32:46 --> 00:32:52 | the person that held me accountable. She would ask all the time, how much did you |
| 323 | 00:32:52 --> 00:32:58 | risk doing that? How much did you spend to do that? See, in her mind, that's the |
| 324 | 00:32:58 --> 00:33:06 | only thing she understood. It cost you something. What was the cost? And I |
| 325 | 00:33:06 --> 00:33:12 | realized that if I take wild, reckless risks, and I'm trying to start a family |
| 326 | 00:33:12 --> 00:33:19 | with this woman, I'm going to give her my name, because I eventually proposed |
| 327 | 00:33:19 --> 00:33:23 | to her, she said, Yes, her parents were static. It was great. It was great. I |
| 328 | 00:33:23 --> 00:33:27 | took her to harbor courts hotel, and there was two restaurants in there, and |
| 329 | 00:33:27 --> 00:33:34 | they're both five star restaurants. Took a limousine ride down there and proposed |
| 330 | 00:33:34 --> 00:33:39 | to her. And I was scared to death, man, I was scared to death, not because of |
| 331 | 00:33:39 --> 00:33:42 | what she was gonna say, because of what she was going to say, because she |
| 332 | 00:33:42 --> 00:33:45 | already told me she was going to say yes, because I couldn't wait. I told her |
| 333 | 00:33:45 --> 00:33:50 | to give her my aunt's house, who I was living with at the time. I said, Listen, |
| 334 | 00:33:50 --> 00:33:55 | I want to move out, and I want you to be my wife. She's like what? I said, Don't |
| 335 | 00:33:55 --> 00:34:01 | worry, I've already asked your dad. He said, It's good. She's like, what I |
| 336 | 00:34:01 --> 00:34:05 | said, Yeah, I got all this. It's got it all planned out. We're gonna go to Ruth. |
| 337 | 00:34:05 --> 00:34:09 | Chris, I rented a limousine. She's, why'd you do this then? And she started |
| 338 | 00:34:09 --> 00:34:13 | laughing. I said, because I can't wait. I can't wait. I want you to know how |
| 339 | 00:34:13 --> 00:34:18 | much I want to be with you, how much you fulfill me, how much encouragement you |
| 340 | 00:34:18 --> 00:34:26 | provide to me. Ladies, and gentlemen, isn't that what you want in significant |
| 341 | 00:34:26 --> 00:34:34 | other? My life, every day, was writing love letters and love notes and hiding |
| 342 | 00:34:34 --> 00:34:39 | it in things that she would find it underneath a couple layers of socks, in |
| 343 | 00:34:39 --> 00:34:42 | between her books, because she was going to village early for business |
| 344 | 00:34:42 --> 00:34:49 | management. Business Management and every Friday, every Friday, I alternated |
| 345 | 00:34:49 --> 00:34:54 | 12 roses being delivered to her house that her parents saw it every other |
| 346 | 00:34:54 --> 00:35:02 | Friday, and her co workers saw it every other Friday. And. I i swooned and just |
| 347 | 00:35:02 --> 00:35:12 | did everything I was Mr. Romantic. Why? Because this woman gave me everything as |
| 348 | 00:35:12 --> 00:35:19 | a man who needed encouragement, she gave me lightning in a bottle, and I wanted |
| 349 | 00:35:19 --> 00:35:22 | to impress her. I wanted her to feel like she could trust me, and kept me |
| 350 | 00:35:22 --> 00:35:25 | from taking reckless, crazy risks. |
| 351 | 00:35:31 --> 00:35:36 | Think about that. You want to succeed in life. You want to succeed in trading |
| 352 | 00:35:38 --> 00:35:46 | your home life's got to be right. You can't be of two minds. And if you're out |
| 353 | 00:35:46 --> 00:35:51 | there thinking, Well, I'm with her for right now, she's my right now. Thing, |
| 354 | 00:35:51 --> 00:36:00 | she's my right now. Girl, my side piece. I keep it from her view. If you're |
| 355 | 00:36:00 --> 00:36:03 | living like that, I'm gonna tell you right now, you're gonna fucking fail in |
| 356 | 00:36:03 --> 00:36:16 | trading. You're gonna fail because what you're doing is all for you, just you. |
| 357 | 00:36:17 --> 00:36:24 | You have no purpose, no measurement, no no guidelines, no boundaries, like a |
| 358 | 00:36:24 --> 00:36:32 | cowboy, like a drunken cowboy, and you can't sustain that kind of stuff. Sure, |
| 359 | 00:36:32 --> 00:36:34 | you might get a lick here and there. Catch a little bit of this, and catch a |
| 360 | 00:36:34 --> 00:36:38 | little bit of that, and look real good. But eventually what happens? You're |
| 361 | 00:36:41 --> 00:36:45 | going to see something else that catches your eye, and you're going to step |
| 362 | 00:36:45 --> 00:36:50 | outside that relationship that you have with that breakdown girl and your side |
| 363 | 00:36:50 --> 00:36:54 | piece to chase something else, because you have no morals, you have no |
| 364 | 00:36:54 --> 00:37:00 | character, and you have no discipline, and you're not happy, so you're with |
| 365 | 00:37:00 --> 00:37:07 | that person right now, occupying a space that you're really reserving for someone |
| 366 | 00:37:07 --> 00:37:14 | that you probably will never meet because you keep making all poor |
| 367 | 00:37:14 --> 00:37:19 | decisions. You're placing yourself in bars on the weekend, wasting your |
| 368 | 00:37:19 --> 00:37:26 | frigging money smoking weed, drinking too much, doing stuff you shouldn't do. |
| 369 | 00:37:27 --> 00:37:31 | Instead of focusing on Where are you going to be in 10 years? Where are you |
| 370 | 00:37:33 --> 00:37:41 | going to be in five are you going to be able to support yourself? How about a |
| 371 | 00:37:41 --> 00:37:44 | family? You see how things are expensive right now. |
| 372 | 00:37:49 --> 00:37:55 | Jobs ain't doing it anymore, folks, you got to find ways to make money, and |
| 373 | 00:37:55 --> 00:37:59 | there's no better way than what we do in trading. |
| 374 | 00:38:01 --> 00:38:05 | You can write your own check, but you can't do it if your head's not right. So |
| 375 | 00:38:09 --> 00:38:14 | this is what I mean when I say you gotta. You gotta fix a lot of things, |
| 376 | 00:38:14 --> 00:38:18 | and you discover a lot of things. But many times I've had emails from from men |
| 377 | 00:38:18 --> 00:38:25 | saying, Listen, I've been trying to do this, and I'm failing, and I'm not being |
| 378 | 00:38:25 --> 00:38:29 | able to find consistency, and I lose and I do stupid things. And the first |
| 379 | 00:38:29 --> 00:38:35 | question I ask all the time is, how's your home life? Well, you know, I'm with |
| 380 | 00:38:35 --> 00:38:39 | somebody that doesn't even and I'm trying to impress them and try to right, |
| 381 | 00:38:39 --> 00:38:48 | there you go. There's your problem. That's why I was messing up. I changed |
| 382 | 00:38:48 --> 00:38:53 | my direction in trying to impress someone that didn't want to be with me, |
| 383 | 00:38:53 --> 00:39:00 | that never, ever, ever gave me those words of encouragement, cheated on me. I |
| 384 | 00:39:00 --> 00:39:09 | it, and then I find someone new who did everything opposite. And I wasn't trying |
| 385 | 00:39:09 --> 00:39:16 | to impress her with, I'm smart. I wasn't trying to impress her with, I made X |
| 386 | 00:39:16 --> 00:39:22 | amount of money with risking too much. What kind of message would that be? |
| 387 | 00:39:22 --> 00:39:26 | Because she's she's asking for analytics. How much did you risk to make |
| 388 | 00:39:26 --> 00:39:34 | that? $11,000 1200 bucks? Wow, that's good. Wow. That is really good. What is |
| 389 | 00:39:34 --> 00:39:38 | she processing in her mind? Remember, she's going to school. Bill, Julie, |
| 390 | 00:39:38 --> 00:39:49 | she's in her second year, third or third year of business management. She's |
| 391 | 00:39:49 --> 00:39:56 | thinking, This guy's a keeper. He's not a gambler. He's not recklessly plunging |
| 392 | 00:39:56 --> 00:40:00 | ahead. So if I got with him, he's not going to lose the mortgage. Lose the |
| 393 | 00:40:00 --> 00:40:03 | house, lose everything. He's not going to put our our nest egg, if we're |
| 394 | 00:40:03 --> 00:40:08 | putting it, you know, aside for the future. He's not going to put us in the |
| 395 | 00:40:08 --> 00:40:14 | poor house. I recognize that. I'm thankful that I was able to be astute |
| 396 | 00:40:14 --> 00:40:18 | enough at the time to recognize that, because if I would have been the cowboy |
| 397 | 00:40:18 --> 00:40:25 | I was trying to be, trying to get my ex back, I think that I probably would have |
| 398 | 00:40:25 --> 00:40:33 | sowed some discouragement, because I was transparent with her, and she was |
| 399 | 00:40:35 --> 00:40:41 | sincere. She never poured it on thick. She never said over the top, you know, |
| 400 | 00:40:41 --> 00:40:45 | embellishments of, oh, wow, you're just amazing. She just out of the blue. We |
| 401 | 00:40:45 --> 00:40:50 | would be sitting there, and she'd think to herself, and she, you know what I was |
| 402 | 00:40:50 --> 00:40:55 | thinking about this today, like you literally look at those things on that |
| 403 | 00:40:55 --> 00:40:59 | paper, because back then, it wasn't like we have it right on our phone. Just push |
| 404 | 00:40:59 --> 00:41:07 | a button. I had to physically draw the charts open, high, low and close. And I |
| 405 | 00:41:07 --> 00:41:12 | was doing it with, like, 18 markets, tedious, very stupid. Should have just |
| 406 | 00:41:12 --> 00:41:16 | picked one. And my real success came when I came to just 122, markets, |
| 407 | 00:41:17 --> 00:41:25 | Valentine, s, p, but she would say to me, you know, like we would be in the |
| 408 | 00:41:25 --> 00:41:29 | mall, and she would turn to me, she starts smile, says, you know, I think |
| 409 | 00:41:29 --> 00:41:35 | it's crazy that you do what you do and you can make money doing that like |
| 410 | 00:41:35 --> 00:41:43 | That's Wild. She never asked for anything. She never asked for anything. |
| 411 | 00:41:43 --> 00:41:53 | The girlfriend got $11,000 engagement ring in 1993 do the math on that. Do the |
| 412 | 00:41:53 --> 00:41:59 | inflationary markup on that today. That was the biggest one I could get at news |
| 413 | 00:41:59 --> 00:42:06 | enough at the time, Charles Newson off. And why did I go there? Because Sharon, |
| 414 | 00:42:06 --> 00:42:11 | her mother, said, Listen, we already accept you, but at least check the |
| 415 | 00:42:11 --> 00:42:15 | display down there. I'm like, Okay, well, I got to make sure mommy, mommy |
| 416 | 00:42:15 --> 00:42:27 | looks, you know, like she's got it together. I had to give back the |
| 417 | 00:42:27 --> 00:42:34 | lippmans marquee diamond I got her that was the one she said yes to. But when we |
| 418 | 00:42:34 --> 00:42:40 | were in Harbor, course, hotel, at the restaurant, and I was kneeling down in |
| 419 | 00:42:40 --> 00:42:45 | my attempt to hide my shaking, trembling me because everybody was staring at me. |
| 420 | 00:42:47 --> 00:42:54 | So you hear me in the way I talk. I'm not that way in person. I'm quiet, I'm |
| 421 | 00:42:54 --> 00:42:59 | reserved. I'm always sitting in the room with my back in the corner, and I'm |
| 422 | 00:42:59 --> 00:43:04 | observing everyone else. I don't walk in the room and try to command and own the |
| 423 | 00:43:04 --> 00:43:08 | room, but you would expect that the way I talk to you in these presentations or |
| 424 | 00:43:08 --> 00:43:14 | in my videos, why I have authority in that that area, that arena. I have |
| 425 | 00:43:14 --> 00:43:20 | authority there. But if you meet me, you're not on the other side of my |
| 426 | 00:43:20 --> 00:43:25 | trade, you're meeting me as the person Michael, I'm very reserved, |
| 427 | 00:43:29 --> 00:43:35 | but when I was on my knee proposing to her, I was scared to death because I saw |
| 428 | 00:43:35 --> 00:43:36 | everyone else looking at me, |
| 429 | 00:43:38 --> 00:43:44 | and I was thinking to myself, am I lucid dreaming right now, or is this real? |
| 430 | 00:43:44 --> 00:43:51 | Because if it's not real, I don't want to wake up. That's how good it was. And |
| 431 | 00:43:51 --> 00:43:55 | I was afraid that they could see inside me and see all the frailties of me, |
| 432 | 00:43:55 --> 00:44:02 | being afraid that I would lose this at any moment, at any moment, this all fade |
| 433 | 00:44:02 --> 00:44:11 | away. Could they see that in me? Could they peer into my soul and see the |
| 434 | 00:44:11 --> 00:44:15 | underlying fear of me not having this anymore? I didn't want to lose it, |
| 435 | 00:44:18 --> 00:44:27 | making money, secondary, securing a life partner that believed in me, that |
| 436 | 00:44:27 --> 00:44:31 | literally told her friends when I met them, this is my boyfriend. They |
| 437 | 00:44:32 --> 00:44:38 | eventually became. This is my fiance. Oh, yeah, I don't know, but I said, What |
| 438 | 00:44:38 --> 00:44:44 | do you do? She finishes it for him immediately. He scribbles on charts, and |
| 439 | 00:44:44 --> 00:44:50 | money jumps into his bank account. And her girlfriend, ginger, was like, what I |
| 440 | 00:44:50 --> 00:44:54 | was like, Well, it's a little bit more involved than that, but it's a that's a |
| 441 | 00:44:54 --> 00:45:00 | nice way of being an icebreaker. And it was just, it was a very easy. Way for me |
| 442 | 00:45:00 --> 00:45:04 | to open up, because otherwise I would not talk, and she knew that about me. |
| 443 | 00:45:05 --> 00:45:11 | What did she do? Man, she tapped into my strength. She didn't put me on a spot |
| 444 | 00:45:11 --> 00:45:20 | and embarrass me. Ladies, that's a lesson for you, and it will allow me to |
| 445 | 00:45:20 --> 00:45:27 | come out of my shell, and so much so that I was out on the dance floor at |
| 446 | 00:45:27 --> 00:45:32 | Partners, which is a bar that no longer exists in Maryland. That's how far she |
| 447 | 00:45:32 --> 00:45:39 | took me, and I didn't drink, okay, but ginger, her girlfriend, and Shannon were |
| 448 | 00:45:39 --> 00:45:43 | both grinding on my thighs and all the other people are in the room. We're all |
| 449 | 00:45:43 --> 00:45:48 | just dancing around too. And I think myself, how did I end up here? Like this |
| 450 | 00:45:48 --> 00:45:52 | is crazy. I never went back again. I thought. I said, Listen, you asked me to |
| 451 | 00:45:52 --> 00:45:58 | do that with you. I went. You can clearly see that's not my own but ginger |
| 452 | 00:45:58 --> 00:46:03 | and her boyfriend and her friends invited us out, so I wasn't permitted to |
| 453 | 00:46:03 --> 00:46:09 | sit on the bar stool and drink Coca Cola only. I had to get up and stand on the |
| 454 | 00:46:09 --> 00:46:17 | dance floor and let the viewers at least see me attempt to be a dance cool, |
| 455 | 00:46:17 --> 00:46:21 | apparently, because that's about the equipment what I was doing, fun times, |
| 456 | 00:46:21 --> 00:46:36 | but uncomfortable too. Now, insecurities creep in. Later. I'm making big money, |
| 457 | 00:46:37 --> 00:46:43 | really big money, and I have a particular family member who had a lot |
| 458 | 00:46:43 --> 00:46:51 | of trust in and they sewed an idea in my head that started taking over, and I can |
| 459 | 00:46:51 --> 00:46:59 | look back now to get to the enemy, but I didn't recognize it. Then, what happens |
| 460 | 00:46:59 --> 00:47:04 | if she's just with you for your money? And while she never asked for anything, |
| 461 | 00:47:06 --> 00:47:12 | she never had to, I would always ask her mother, is there anything that she wants |
| 462 | 00:47:12 --> 00:47:18 | right now? And I would leave it on her bed. I would get her keys and put it in |
| 463 | 00:47:18 --> 00:47:22 | her trunk, and then tell her, Hey, look, can you check your trunk? I think I left |
| 464 | 00:47:22 --> 00:47:26 | my hat and she'd find it. I would do stuff like that all the time, but I knew |
| 465 | 00:47:26 --> 00:47:32 | enough to know that she was sincere about the encouragement she gave me. But |
| 466 | 00:47:32 --> 00:47:37 | this family member made me start thinking, Am I really pouring on too |
| 467 | 00:47:37 --> 00:47:42 | thick, buying her affection when she had already given it to me beforehand, I |
| 468 | 00:47:42 --> 00:47:53 | lost sight of that. What was I doing? I was worrying about the money, just like |
| 469 | 00:47:53 --> 00:47:56 | that happens in your trading when you worry about the money you lose. Make |
| 470 | 00:47:56 --> 00:48:01 | stupid decisions. And I made a dumb decision. I mean a very, very dumb |
| 471 | 00:48:01 --> 00:48:06 | decision, then gotta be careful. I say these things because it makes it sound |
| 472 | 00:48:06 --> 00:48:10 | like dumb. Regretting being married to my wife. I'm not regretting at all being |
| 473 | 00:48:10 --> 00:48:15 | married to my wife, but I can tap into my younger ears and tell you and relive |
| 474 | 00:48:15 --> 00:48:24 | them. If I hand you my diary, it would be just like I'm saying it right now. It |
| 475 | 00:48:24 --> 00:48:33 | reads like a novel. I have always looked back and thought to myself, How will my |
| 476 | 00:48:33 --> 00:48:38 | life be if I want to listen to someone give me the worst idea to focus on |
| 477 | 00:48:39 --> 00:48:44 | worrying about an outcome that never, probably would have ever, ever happened. |
| 478 | 00:48:46 --> 00:48:51 | The enemy introduced. What if? Thinking again, on the toxic level, see, I didn't |
| 479 | 00:48:51 --> 00:48:54 | look at Shannon every day and think, What if this doesn't go well? What if |
| 480 | 00:48:54 --> 00:48:58 | this until this person, my family member, said, look at all the money |
| 481 | 00:48:58 --> 00:49:05 | you're making right now. I can see it now as jealousy and envy, and they |
| 482 | 00:49:05 --> 00:49:14 | wanted to disrupt a storybook ending to a very, very rotten beginning of a life, |
| 483 | 00:49:14 --> 00:49:22 | and that's what family does. I hate to admit it. I hate to be the bearer of bad |
| 484 | 00:49:22 --> 00:49:26 | news. I know, you know, some of you will say, No, not my family. Listen, if you |
| 485 | 00:49:26 --> 00:49:30 | look around, there's one in your family. There's one that everybody wishes didn't |
| 486 | 00:49:30 --> 00:49:34 | come to the cookout. There's always one of them that says, Well, you know, he's |
| 487 | 00:49:34 --> 00:49:41 | got some issues. She's got some issues. And unfortunately, as a young man, |
| 488 | 00:49:41 --> 00:49:47 | that's the one that held a whole lot of influence over me as a young man. And |
| 489 | 00:49:47 --> 00:49:51 | then, because that idea was placed in my head, what the happened? I started |
| 490 | 00:49:51 --> 00:50:00 | looking for signs that, is she a gold digger? Is she a gold digger? No. It. |
| 491 | 00:50:00 --> 00:50:03 | She never was, but I was looking for it, and if you look for it hard enough, |
| 492 | 00:50:05 --> 00:50:12 | you'll find it. And I never called her outside of her name. I was never rude, |
| 493 | 00:50:12 --> 00:50:15 | but I just told her, I said, I don't think this is going to work out anymore. |
| 494 | 00:50:16 --> 00:50:20 | And she was upset. She cried like crazy, like I didn't do anything. I knew you |
| 495 | 00:50:20 --> 00:50:26 | didn't do anything, but I can't do this anymore. And now she did, guys, listen |
| 496 | 00:50:26 --> 00:50:33 | to this. She gave me my ring back. Ladies, you're laughing right now, |
| 497 | 00:50:33 --> 00:50:37 | aren't you? Hey, no way I would have gave it back. That's mine. That's mine, |
| 498 | 00:50:37 --> 00:50:41 | and I didn't ask for it. In fact, I told her, I didn't answer the ring and gave |
| 499 | 00:50:41 --> 00:50:47 | it back to her, and she goes, it's mine. If you give it back to me with your |
| 500 | 00:50:47 --> 00:50:54 | name, and if I don't have your name, I don't deserve the ring. I'm gonna tell |
| 501 | 00:50:54 --> 00:51:00 | you right now, my wife today would have never done that. That's not a knock |
| 502 | 00:51:00 --> 00:51:07 | against her, but I'm just telling you the stark contrast, and that was my last |
| 503 | 00:51:07 --> 00:51:12 | sign. I was making a mistake, and I still didn't see it because I was |
| 504 | 00:51:12 --> 00:51:22 | worried about the money. I latched on to bad experiences. My previous wife left |
| 505 | 00:51:22 --> 00:51:27 | me, and I didn't have anything, just a promise that I'm going through school |
| 506 | 00:51:27 --> 00:51:31 | and when I get out, we're going to do good. Now I wasn't trading them. Wasn't |
| 507 | 00:51:31 --> 00:51:36 | even trying to trade, but I was trying to have her believe in me, and she |
| 508 | 00:51:36 --> 00:51:43 | didn't. And here's this young lady who I followed home drove up and down two |
| 509 | 00:51:43 --> 00:51:46 | o'clock in the morning to four o'clock in the morning trying to find where her |
| 510 | 00:51:46 --> 00:51:52 | car was, and then left a note with her brother for her to call me, and we got |
| 511 | 00:51:52 --> 00:52:00 | together like that. That's that's crazy town in it. And she says, If you give me |
| 512 | 00:52:00 --> 00:52:04 | your last name, then I then I deserve the ring, but because I'm not getting |
| 513 | 00:52:04 --> 00:52:17 | your name, I don't deserve the ring. Now, that was the begin, beginning of |
| 514 | 00:52:17 --> 00:52:27 | just total craziness. I was back in that middle of the sea without a rudder, no |
| 515 | 00:52:27 --> 00:52:34 | sail, and regretting and she got with someone else, so I couldn't go back to |
| 516 | 00:52:34 --> 00:52:41 | her. And here I am looking at these charts, figuring out, what am I gonna do |
| 517 | 00:52:41 --> 00:52:49 | now? And I lost my support structure, I lost my accountability agent, the person |
| 518 | 00:52:49 --> 00:52:56 | that kept me in line, and I started pursuing stupid stuff, doing this and |
| 519 | 00:52:56 --> 00:52:59 | doing that, recklessly doing this, and listening to some goober on the internet |
| 520 | 00:53:02 --> 00:53:06 | wasting money. Even tried to do Larry Williams eventually trying to take his |
| 521 | 00:53:06 --> 00:53:12 | s, p signals on his 900 number. I never made money doing it. I couldn't afford |
| 522 | 00:53:12 --> 00:53:17 | to stop loss he was using. I thought I could. I was like, well, I won't risk |
| 523 | 00:53:17 --> 00:53:21 | that much. He's good. He's good trading his his stop loss ain't gonna get hit. |
| 524 | 00:53:21 --> 00:53:25 | So I would do like one quarter of what he's risking, and I'd get you stopped |
| 525 | 00:53:25 --> 00:53:28 | out or scared out of it and get out of the trade. So I never made money. I was |
| 526 | 00:53:28 --> 00:53:29 | doing all the wrong things. |
| 527 | 00:53:34 --> 00:53:44 | And I went back to Nightmare Night Time anxiety. And pushing the edge too hard |
| 528 | 00:53:46 --> 00:53:48 | and losing sight of why I was even doing it, |
| 529 | 00:53:56 --> 00:54:04 | until I tapped into what was doing the best in terms of keeping me on point |
| 530 | 00:54:06 --> 00:54:15 | positive self talk. I would tell myself, think about what she said to you and |
| 531 | 00:54:15 --> 00:54:21 | look at the effect it had over you. And I learned to do that practice of self |
| 532 | 00:54:21 --> 00:54:25 | talk, I would tell myself, there's no emergency. See, anxiety comes when |
| 533 | 00:54:25 --> 00:54:29 | you're trying to live up to everyone else's expectations or wants on their |
| 534 | 00:54:29 --> 00:54:36 | schedule, on their timing, folks, you're never going to be comfortable in that |
| 535 | 00:54:36 --> 00:54:42 | situation. You're never going to be satisfied because you're trying to live |
| 536 | 00:54:42 --> 00:54:47 | your life to please other people. Instead of finding someone that's in |
| 537 | 00:54:47 --> 00:54:52 | love with you as you are, you don't need to change. You don't need to outperform |
| 538 | 00:54:52 --> 00:54:59 | what they fell in love with. And I found myself trying to do that with Shannon. I |
| 539 | 00:54:59 --> 00:55:02 | want the top. Everything always had, always better, always better, always |
| 540 | 00:55:02 --> 00:55:05 | better. And her girlfriend, Ginger's boyfriend, Hayden, he wanted to beat me |
| 541 | 00:55:05 --> 00:55:09 | up beyond such I was spin, kicked his fucking ass, knocked his ass out then, |
| 542 | 00:55:09 --> 00:55:12 | but he wanted to fight me because his girlfriend was telling him all the time, |
| 543 | 00:55:12 --> 00:55:17 | why don't you do and I was like, Oh, shit, here it is. I mean, deep water. So |
| 544 | 00:55:17 --> 00:55:22 | I became a toxic thing around them when I wasn't doing anything except for |
| 545 | 00:55:22 --> 00:55:27 | trying to do what I felt I needed to do, which is out do what I ever did before, |
| 546 | 00:55:27 --> 00:55:30 | to impress and make Shannon realize how much I love her and how much I'm pouring |
| 547 | 00:55:30 --> 00:55:31 | into her. |
| 548 | 00:55:37 --> 00:55:41 | If I was with my first wife and I had that kind of money coming in, I would |
| 549 | 00:55:41 --> 00:55:47 | have been taking advantage of like crazy. It would have been like holding |
| 550 | 00:55:47 --> 00:55:52 | on to a losing trade and giving it more money, all right. Well, I'm down $10,000 |
| 551 | 00:55:53 --> 00:56:03 | this is by five more contracts. It's average into it. So I thought about what |
| 552 | 00:56:03 --> 00:56:10 | she gave me, and I hold on to it every day, today I think about those words. I |
| 553 | 00:56:10 --> 00:56:16 | hear her voice exactly as she said it, and it makes me feel good every time, |
| 554 | 00:56:16 --> 00:56:23 | every time I think of it, it makes me feel good. It encourages me. It reminds |
| 555 | 00:56:23 --> 00:56:28 | me that, you know what I believe that was the Lord just tapping me and saying, |
| 556 | 00:56:28 --> 00:56:33 | Listen, I've been trying to tell you your entire teenage life, this is where |
| 557 | 00:56:33 --> 00:56:40 | you're supposed to be at so I had to use her to get your attention. So he got my |
| 558 | 00:56:40 --> 00:56:46 | attention. Obviously, I didn't handle it well, mismanaged some of it, but I |
| 559 | 00:56:46 --> 00:56:51 | changed my perspective to stop dwelling on the nightmarish aspects of life and |
| 560 | 00:56:52 --> 00:56:58 | focusing on the dream skates being highly organized, very, very, very |
| 561 | 00:56:58 --> 00:57:04 | detail oriented. I started changing the way I did my journals. See in my life |
| 562 | 00:57:04 --> 00:57:09 | journal, I would close my day and be like, man. I such a wonderful day with |
| 563 | 00:57:09 --> 00:57:13 | Shannon. I had a wonderful day doing this, this, this, and Shannon was always |
| 564 | 00:57:13 --> 00:57:18 | in the middle of it. Contrast that with my trading journal, it was like, Man, I |
| 565 | 00:57:18 --> 00:57:22 | f this up. I don't know why this isn't working. Why the f am I doing this all |
| 566 | 00:57:22 --> 00:57:26 | the time, losing money on this type of setup? Why did I chase that? Why did I |
| 567 | 00:57:26 --> 00:57:29 | go in there, doing too many contracts. I should have never listened to that |
| 568 | 00:57:29 --> 00:57:37 | article in commodity magazine. What was that doing? Constantly beating myself |
| 569 | 00:57:37 --> 00:57:44 | up. So what's my subconscious going to do? Well, I only find happiness in |
| 570 | 00:57:44 --> 00:57:51 | Shannon, and I'm not happy trading. I'm miserable in trading. So what happens |
| 571 | 00:57:51 --> 00:57:57 | when I put a trade on? Am I going to feel good and empowered? No, I don't |
| 572 | 00:57:57 --> 00:58:04 | have Shannon anymore. My my support structure is gone, so I had to replace |
| 573 | 00:58:04 --> 00:58:09 | her words of encouragement and accountability aspect with my trading |
| 574 | 00:58:09 --> 00:58:15 | journal. And everything was a dreamcape in that sure I probably lost the trade. |
| 575 | 00:58:15 --> 00:58:19 | Probably went in and tried it again, still lost on that one, but I would go |
| 576 | 00:58:19 --> 00:58:25 | in and say, You know what? I'm thankful that I had this opportunity to learn two |
| 577 | 00:58:25 --> 00:58:33 | lessons today that cost me money, so there's value behind it. Now, I had to |
| 578 | 00:58:34 --> 00:58:38 | pay a price for this information. Now you can bitch and kick and scream and |
| 579 | 00:58:38 --> 00:58:46 | say, I don't want to lose I want to find a model that never loses. Let me tell |
| 580 | 00:58:46 --> 00:58:54 | you a secret. Okay, if you're writing things down, write this down. Every |
| 581 | 00:58:54 --> 00:59:04 | trading approach or model is perfect. It's perfect. It's flawless. It doesn't |
| 582 | 00:59:04 --> 00:59:12 | have any losing transactions that you never realize, that have you, every |
| 583 | 00:59:12 --> 00:59:17 | system, every application, every indicator, every buy and sell |
| 584 | 00:59:17 --> 00:59:22 | indication, you would get as a trader, no matter what you use, it's flawless, |
| 585 | 00:59:24 --> 00:59:31 | until you go in and f it up. You can flip a quarter heads, you buy tails, you |
| 586 | 00:59:31 --> 00:59:38 | short or simplify like this. When you're bullish, if it comes up heads, you'll |
| 587 | 00:59:38 --> 00:59:41 | act. You'll take action and engage. If it comes up tails, don't take the trade. |
| 588 | 00:59:41 --> 00:59:45 | Only risk one quarter of 1% over a year, you're gonna make money. Don't believe |
| 589 | 00:59:45 --> 00:59:54 | me, test it. Test it as you're removing the emotions. You're removing the |
| 590 | 00:59:54 --> 00:59:58 | outward stimuli that's causing you to take a trade with more contracts as you |
| 591 | 00:59:58 --> 01:00:08 | should. You. We mess it up because we're holding on to toxic baggage the last |
| 592 | 01:00:08 --> 01:00:13 | five trades. Man, you don't know. ICT, you weren't there. Man, I was. I'm at |
| 593 | 01:00:13 --> 01:00:17 | the verge of blowing my my combine or losing my funded account. Yeah, I get |
| 594 | 01:00:17 --> 01:00:22 | it. Man, I get it. I've never traded those sim, pop, firm, company accounts. |
| 595 | 01:00:23 --> 01:00:27 | But I've been there. I've been there. We're almost I'm at the point where the |
| 596 | 01:00:27 --> 01:00:37 | account is going to be blown. I'll have to add more money. I've been there, but |
| 597 | 01:00:37 --> 01:00:43 | you have to sweet talk yourself. Remember, you got to be honest, like I |
| 598 | 01:00:43 --> 01:00:51 | was with her, and she reciprocated sincerely and encouraged me. That's |
| 599 | 01:00:51 --> 01:00:58 | exactly what you do in your trading journal. You have to love yourself. You |
| 600 | 01:00:58 --> 01:01:02 | have to care about yourself enough not to talk down to yourself. Do not punch |
| 601 | 01:01:02 --> 01:01:10 | down on your developing future self. If you do that, you're going to stagnate |
| 602 | 01:01:11 --> 01:01:15 | and stunt your growth, and you're going to make it miserable as you go through |
| 603 | 01:01:15 --> 01:01:20 | it. You want to make it longer than it has to be. Talk toxic in your in your |
| 604 | 01:01:20 --> 01:01:26 | journal. Share your journal with someone else, and you're going to set yourself |
| 605 | 01:01:26 --> 01:01:33 | up for ruin. You got to be honest, be able to pour yourself out in these |
| 606 | 01:01:33 --> 01:01:40 | journals. Sweet talk yourself. Start looking through the lens of a dreamscape |
| 607 | 01:01:40 --> 01:01:45 | where there's nothing negative. You ever notice in a dream, a good dream, there's |
| 608 | 01:01:45 --> 01:01:53 | no villains. Think about that. There's no Well, something bad could have |
| 609 | 01:01:53 --> 01:01:57 | happened here. That stuff doesn't happen, does it? What is your brain |
| 610 | 01:01:57 --> 01:02:06 | telling you it's removed all of the toxicity of the everyday living, and |
| 611 | 01:02:06 --> 01:02:12 | it's focusing on nurturing you. That's what that good dream is doing. It's |
| 612 | 01:02:12 --> 01:02:17 | therapy for yourself, because you're going through something, and then you |
| 613 | 01:02:17 --> 01:02:20 | have nightmares. When you have a nightmares, when things are going good. |
| 614 | 01:02:20 --> 01:02:23 | Why? Because deep down inside, you're afraid shits about to go, tits up. |
| 615 | 01:02:26 --> 01:02:27 | That's how the brain works. |
| 616 | 01:02:28 --> 01:02:35 | I've never had a bad dream, ever, ever, ever, ever, because I had a bad day. |
| 617 | 01:02:37 --> 01:02:41 | They always happened when I had a good day and I went to sleep, and my brain |
| 618 | 01:02:41 --> 01:02:45 | was readying myself for, okay, eventually, this is what's about to |
| 619 | 01:02:45 --> 01:02:50 | happen to you. You're you're tied up on a railroad track, and the guy's laughing |
| 620 | 01:02:50 --> 01:02:53 | ring top, and he's got his boot on your neck laughing. He's going to jump out of |
| 621 | 01:02:53 --> 01:02:57 | the way for train gets here, and you're just going to run you over for really |
| 622 | 01:02:57 --> 01:03:02 | far extreme, obviously, but it's just to make light of not something funny, but |
| 623 | 01:03:02 --> 01:03:09 | we wrestle with that. And because I have a very, very aggressive mind, it's a |
| 624 | 01:03:09 --> 01:03:19 | hyper active brain. I easily lose attention on something because my mind's |
| 625 | 01:03:19 --> 01:03:22 | gone 1000 miles an hour, constantly, constantly, constantly. I'm always |
| 626 | 01:03:22 --> 01:03:27 | dealing with a thought or some concern jumping in ahead of the front of the |
| 627 | 01:03:27 --> 01:03:32 | line. And I feel like, unless I'm highly organized, I spend my time anxiously |
| 628 | 01:03:32 --> 01:03:37 | worrying about not managing the ideas that jump in front of me. That's what a |
| 629 | 01:03:37 --> 01:03:43 | hyperactive creative mind does. But see today they'll call it that attention |
| 630 | 01:03:43 --> 01:03:49 | deficit. You're retarded. You're something wrong with you, you're not in |
| 631 | 01:03:49 --> 01:03:54 | my early years in school, I sucked at my grades because this was not I knew |
| 632 | 01:03:54 --> 01:03:58 | enough that this is I'm not going to do this stuff when I get out like this is |
| 633 | 01:03:58 --> 01:04:02 | all dumb, challenged me with something. And when I started learning computer |
| 634 | 01:04:02 --> 01:04:09 | programming, suddenly math and science, I excelled in English, not so much, |
| 635 | 01:04:09 --> 01:04:17 | social studies, not so much, but math and science, bam, I'm staying over after |
| 636 | 01:04:17 --> 01:04:22 | class. Math teacher, look at me like, Don't you do anything outside of school, |
| 637 | 01:04:22 --> 01:04:26 | like baseball? I said, Yeah, I did. I dropped that. I want to learn this. I |
| 638 | 01:04:28 --> 01:04:36 | was learning basic language. Why? Because it interested me. So if you were |
| 639 | 01:04:36 --> 01:04:39 | going through school and you felt like, man, yeah, I didn't do good in school, |
| 640 | 01:04:39 --> 01:04:44 | it's not because you're a loser. It's not because you're stupid or you're |
| 641 | 01:04:44 --> 01:04:48 | retarded or you have some learning disability. You have a supercharged |
| 642 | 01:04:48 --> 01:04:54 | brain. God blessed you with a brain that's absolutely phenomenal. He gave |
| 643 | 01:04:54 --> 01:04:58 | you something that he knows if you listen and obey what he's laying in |
| 644 | 01:04:58 --> 01:05:02 | front of you as opportunities to use it. It. You're going to do things way beyond |
| 645 | 01:05:02 --> 01:05:07 | the average person, way beyond it. But this world's lying to you, saying, Yeah, |
| 646 | 01:05:07 --> 01:05:11 | you got a learning disability. Let me put you on some medication, because they |
| 647 | 01:05:11 --> 01:05:14 | want to make you stupid with the medication, they want to dumb you down. |
| 648 | 01:05:15 --> 01:05:22 | That's what they do. Everybody look let me tell you something, my youngest son, |
| 649 | 01:05:24 --> 01:05:28 | we had him assessed, and he said, Well, he has a learning disability. And I |
| 650 | 01:05:28 --> 01:05:34 | said, he ain't getting no no medicine, and I'll homeschool him. Thank you. This |
| 651 | 01:05:34 --> 01:05:40 | boy has the most beautiful creativity and imagination. You give him anything |
| 652 | 01:05:41 --> 01:05:49 | paper, wood, plastic, metal. He can put things together and shape things and |
| 653 | 01:05:49 --> 01:05:54 | sculpture things. And like, like, he made a puppet, a hand puppet, okay, when |
| 654 | 01:05:54 --> 01:05:58 | he was five years old. And my wife and I were like, What in the world? And I'm |
| 655 | 01:05:59 --> 01:06:02 | not talking about like a sock with some buttons taped on it, like he went |
| 656 | 01:06:02 --> 01:06:06 | through the whole process of making it. And there was no website that taught |
| 657 | 01:06:06 --> 01:06:10 | him. He just sat down and his brain said, This is what I know the only use |
| 658 | 01:06:10 --> 01:06:15 | this, this, this cut up an old t shirt here. Use this stick over here from a |
| 659 | 01:06:15 --> 01:06:19 | pennant flag to use the one of the arms move around. And he on his own. He did |
| 660 | 01:06:19 --> 01:06:26 | that retarded stupid, held back unequipped brains don't do that, okay, |
| 661 | 01:06:26 --> 01:06:31 | but that's what the world will tell you. They're constantly beating you down. |
| 662 | 01:06:31 --> 01:06:37 | They're constantly beating you down, and then here you are, just like I did. I'm |
| 663 | 01:06:37 --> 01:06:42 | taking that mentality and placing it right in my journal. Why are you wasting |
| 664 | 01:06:42 --> 01:06:47 | your time talking down to yourself? You need to stop that stuff. You need to cut |
| 665 | 01:06:47 --> 01:06:52 | it out, because the only thing you're doing is reinforcing the anxiety that |
| 666 | 01:06:52 --> 01:06:58 | you feel, and that anxiety will manifest itself in performance anxiety you can |
| 667 | 01:06:58 --> 01:07:03 | learn every possible scenario the trade with my material or anyone else's, and |
| 668 | 01:07:04 --> 01:07:09 | theoretically know exactly how to do it, but because you're holding on to things |
| 669 | 01:07:09 --> 01:07:15 | that are toxic, but you won't admit it, you won't say, Yeah, I'm doing that. |
| 670 | 01:07:15 --> 01:07:20 | Why? Because you're in love with the normalcy of it. See, it's normal to you |
| 671 | 01:07:20 --> 01:07:23 | to hold on to that toxicity. That's why abusive relationships last as long as |
| 672 | 01:07:23 --> 01:07:27 | they do, because they lie to themselves. You know what? I probably don't deserve |
| 673 | 01:07:27 --> 01:07:31 | anything better than this anyway, at least I'm getting fed. At least I have a |
| 674 | 01:07:31 --> 01:07:38 | roof over my head. It could be worse. I could be homeless. And we do that same |
| 675 | 01:07:38 --> 01:07:44 | thing. We rationalize the poor excuse of studying, the poor excuse of back |
| 676 | 01:07:44 --> 01:07:48 | testing, forward testing, tape reading, before we actually put real risk behind |
| 677 | 01:07:48 --> 01:07:48 | the trade. And |
| 678 | 01:07:54 --> 01:07:59 | then we make a mistake. We kick ourselves in the teeth. And that ain't |
| 679 | 01:07:59 --> 01:08:05 | bad enough. You solidify it, and you talk down and you vilify yourself in |
| 680 | 01:08:05 --> 01:08:08 | that journal, and you think that you're doing something constructive. You are. |
| 681 | 01:08:09 --> 01:08:13 | You're constructively tearing down any future chance of you succeeding doing |
| 682 | 01:08:13 --> 01:08:18 | this. If that hurts good, let it sting, because you have to know that what |
| 683 | 01:08:18 --> 01:08:23 | you're doing, if you're doing that, it's wrong, it's wrong. You're holding |
| 684 | 01:08:23 --> 01:08:27 | yourself back. You're stunting your growth, and you're filling your mind |
| 685 | 01:08:27 --> 01:08:32 | with instead of creativity, instead of saying, Well, you know, this is what |
| 686 | 01:08:32 --> 01:08:37 | I've been doing in the last six trades. Has been a losing trade. So I know this |
| 687 | 01:08:37 --> 01:08:41 | stuff doesn't work. There has to be some kind of angle. ICT it's got to be some |
| 688 | 01:08:41 --> 01:08:44 | kind of fraud. He's paying these people to put out there that they're making |
| 689 | 01:08:44 --> 01:08:48 | money. It's all fake. It's all fraud. You start thinking about this silly shit |
| 690 | 01:08:48 --> 01:08:55 | and you think it's real, because you have to make an accountability outside |
| 691 | 01:08:55 --> 01:09:04 | yourself. It's it's something outside of you, instead of it's you. You can't this |
| 692 | 01:09:04 --> 01:09:07 | is one of this is one of the biggest things I learned from Larry Williams. |
| 693 | 01:09:08 --> 01:09:13 | See what I'm talking to you like now, that's what I got from Larry Williams, |
| 694 | 01:09:13 --> 01:09:16 | four video tapes. I could care less about the things he was talking about. |
| 695 | 01:09:16 --> 01:09:20 | Technically, I knew that at the back of our hand when he would talk about, you |
| 696 | 01:09:20 --> 01:09:23 | know, you gotta be responsible. You gotta be personally responsible, like |
| 697 | 01:09:24 --> 01:09:29 | like he was Uncle Larry to me like that. That man still holds hero status to me, |
| 698 | 01:09:29 --> 01:09:33 | and I know I preach against hero stuff, but not on the level of worshiping |
| 699 | 01:09:33 --> 01:09:37 | online. Okay, I don't want anybody treating me like that. I don't deserve |
| 700 | 01:09:37 --> 01:09:41 | that, and no other man deserves it either, and Larry doesn't either, but I |
| 701 | 01:09:41 --> 01:09:47 | needed a father figure, and I tapped into his speaking points on how I'm |
| 702 | 01:09:47 --> 01:09:53 | supposed to account and be responsible, because I wasn't responsible before that |
| 703 | 01:09:53 --> 01:10:01 | trading forced responsibility because I was a very stationary person. You. Uh, |
| 704 | 01:10:01 --> 01:10:08 | introverted in an introverted man was an extroverted girl that got married way |
| 705 | 01:10:08 --> 01:10:14 | too young for all the wrong reasons. That's a that's a doomed that's a doomed |
| 706 | 01:10:14 --> 01:10:18 | relationship. But because my heart was poured into it, I didn't want to let go |
| 707 | 01:10:18 --> 01:10:23 | of it, just like you don't want to let go of what you think is normal. It's |
| 708 | 01:10:23 --> 01:10:27 | normal for you to wake up every day and feel, what if something bad happens |
| 709 | 01:10:27 --> 01:10:32 | sooner than I thought. It's funny, when you think about it said, like that, |
| 710 | 01:10:32 --> 01:10:37 | isn't it that that's exactly what you do. Yeah. Well, you know, I woke up |
| 711 | 01:10:37 --> 01:10:41 | feeling like I want to take a trade, but I wonder how fast I can blow this |
| 712 | 01:10:41 --> 01:10:45 | account today. That's exactly what you're thinking. That's exactly what |
| 713 | 01:10:45 --> 01:10:48 | you're thinking deep down inside, right before you push the button and you're |
| 714 | 01:10:48 --> 01:10:53 | hoping that somehow you're wrong. That's your training model. I hope I'm wrong |
| 715 | 01:10:53 --> 01:10:59 | today. Click. Well, I wasn't wrong today. Whoo. I love being in normalcy. |
| 716 | 01:10:59 --> 01:11:03 | Better get some more money. What they do with this? Discount. What's that new |
| 717 | 01:11:03 --> 01:11:12 | code for the prop firm? Again, I'm not making fun of you folks. I did this with |
| 718 | 01:11:12 --> 01:11:20 | real money. That's way more painful, way more way more emotionally destabilizing, |
| 719 | 01:11:20 --> 01:11:31 | the morally miserable. And I wasn't making a lot of money back then, so you |
| 720 | 01:11:31 --> 01:11:38 | have to pour yourself into laying a dreamscape. Cheerlead yourself in your |
| 721 | 01:11:38 --> 01:11:43 | journal instead of saying, What if something really bad goes on? What if I |
| 722 | 01:11:43 --> 01:11:46 | lose? What if I blow the account? What happens if this doesn't work on my next |
| 723 | 01:11:46 --> 01:11:54 | 10 trades? Change that to what if I waited too long to be disorganized? How? |
| 724 | 01:11:54 --> 01:11:59 | How? How incredible will I see my results turn around and be more |
| 725 | 01:11:59 --> 01:12:02 | consistent when I'm not focused on the adversities that could happen, and I |
| 726 | 01:12:02 --> 01:12:05 | don't know if they're going to happen, but if they do, that's why I have risk |
| 727 | 01:12:05 --> 01:12:09 | management. That's why I have a stop loss. That's why I don't over leverage. |
| 728 | 01:12:09 --> 01:12:12 | See, when you have a system and you have an organization and you have a model |
| 729 | 01:12:12 --> 01:12:15 | that you say, I can't trade more than this many contracts. I can't take more |
| 730 | 01:12:15 --> 01:12:21 | than this many trades per day. I can't risk this much money on any one |
| 731 | 01:12:21 --> 01:12:26 | individual trade. You know what that does see men, we think that is, you |
| 732 | 01:12:26 --> 01:12:33 | can't do something. You better not do it. You better not and the young punk in |
| 733 | 01:12:33 --> 01:12:37 | US sees that sign says, Don't walk on the grass. What are we going to do? Say |
| 734 | 01:12:37 --> 01:12:40 | it? You know what? That's going to I'm going to moon walk on that. That's what |
| 735 | 01:12:40 --> 01:12:45 | that's how we're wired. We're cavemen. We're like Neanderthals. You have to do |
| 736 | 01:12:45 --> 01:12:50 | this, this, this, this, you can't drive faster than 55 and don't cross the |
| 737 | 01:12:50 --> 01:12:53 | yellow line. And what do we know the guy in front of us is going too slow. Get |
| 738 | 01:12:53 --> 01:12:56 | the fuck out of my way. I'm crossing the yellow line and I'm doing 85 miles an |
| 739 | 01:12:56 --> 01:13:01 | hour in a 35 mile an hour zone. Why? Because I'm a fucking caveman. That's |
| 740 | 01:13:01 --> 01:13:08 | why I'm just wired that way. But you can't do that in trading. You can't do |
| 741 | 01:13:08 --> 01:13:09 | that in trading. You're |
| 742 | 01:13:10 --> 01:13:15 | gonna have your hinder parts handed to you expediently. It's gonna happen just |
| 743 | 01:13:15 --> 01:13:16 | like that. |
| 744 | 01:13:17 --> 01:13:21 | You're gonna think you're special. They happen so quickly for you that's Service |
| 745 | 01:13:21 --> 01:13:36 | with a smile. You got to tell yourself, What if I get five winning trades in a |
| 746 | 01:13:36 --> 01:13:43 | row? How exciting is that? And if it happens that you get a losing trade, you |
| 747 | 01:13:43 --> 01:13:46 | don't go in there. Oh, well, I blew that. You say, You know what? This is |
| 748 | 01:13:46 --> 01:13:50 | what I learned from taking that loss. And I'm glad I only lost a little bit. I |
| 749 | 01:13:50 --> 01:13:53 | have this much money still in my trading account, and I am getting experience. I |
| 750 | 01:13:53 --> 01:14:00 | am learning how to manage losses. Done, done. You're not I gotta get back real |
| 751 | 01:14:00 --> 01:14:06 | quick. I gotta grab my club, walk outside my front door of my cane and go |
| 752 | 01:14:06 --> 01:14:09 | find something bonking on the head and drag it back to my cake, because that's |
| 753 | 01:14:09 --> 01:14:15 | what a caveman does. Caveman don't make good traders. You don't see any cavemen |
| 754 | 01:14:16 --> 01:14:26 | trading, but you have to trade your nightmarish perspective for a dreamscape |
| 755 | 01:14:26 --> 01:14:32 | perspective. You gotta really energize yourself and focus on the positives of |
| 756 | 01:14:32 --> 01:14:37 | everything, even if it's a losing trade that is experience that you can't pay |
| 757 | 01:14:37 --> 01:14:43 | for outside of what your loss was. You can't buy that in a book. I can't sell |
| 758 | 01:14:43 --> 01:14:51 | you that experience. You have to experience it. No one can make you |
| 759 | 01:14:51 --> 01:14:56 | better by having the idea instill in you that you're never going to have a losing |
| 760 | 01:14:56 --> 01:15:02 | trade. But the people. That are doing the best in this industry are the ones |
| 761 | 01:15:02 --> 01:15:05 | that are going to be upfront and say, You know what? Here's what's going to |
| 762 | 01:15:05 --> 01:15:09 | happen to you. Okay, you're going to feel like you're ready to do it before |
| 763 | 01:15:09 --> 01:15:14 | you should, and you're going to make the mistake. Everybody does it. I did it. I |
| 764 | 01:15:14 --> 01:15:20 | rushed in there, I rushed in and I had my ass handed to me in one day. It |
| 765 | 01:15:20 --> 01:15:24 | scared me. But that lesson I still hold today, it taught me that even though I |
| 766 | 01:15:24 --> 01:15:31 | was wrong, somebody made 50% of my trade. Would it cost me for that option. |
| 767 | 01:15:31 --> 01:15:38 | They made that in sleep, it woke up and the option value was in half. Fire sale. |
| 768 | 01:15:38 --> 01:15:45 | See you later. Thanks for playing, Michael. That scared me. And the initial |
| 769 | 01:15:45 --> 01:15:55 | fear transformed into, wait a minute, this is a net sum zero being Linda. The |
| 770 | 01:15:55 --> 01:16:00 | bottom line is this, if you're losing somebody else is getting that money. So |
| 771 | 01:16:00 --> 01:16:04 | who's getting it? The person that was right. So I changed my perspective to |
| 772 | 01:16:05 --> 01:16:08 | what happens if I lose again? What happens if I blow another account? What |
| 773 | 01:16:08 --> 01:16:11 | happens if I'm wrong all week long? What if I'm wrong in the direction? What if I |
| 774 | 01:16:11 --> 01:16:14 | pick the wrong grain mark? Because back then, I was trading grains, soybeans, |
| 775 | 01:16:14 --> 01:16:17 | oats, corn, wheat. I |
| 776 | 01:16:22 --> 01:16:30 | said, You know what? I'm going to strip this down and remove all of these moving |
| 777 | 01:16:30 --> 01:16:34 | parts. I got too many things, like a kid in the candy store. I don't know what I |
| 778 | 01:16:34 --> 01:16:43 | want to grab next. I need to focus on one market bonds, and I was interested |
| 779 | 01:16:43 --> 01:16:46 | in S P, hey, here's here's the thing. Okay, you want to see influence and |
| 780 | 01:16:46 --> 01:16:53 | effect in my life. I was killing it in bonds, but because I kept watching those |
| 781 | 01:16:53 --> 01:16:56 | videos Larry Williams saying, you know, I mean this much money in S P, I mean |
| 782 | 01:16:56 --> 01:16:59 | this much money in S P, I mean this much money in S P, what am I hearing? You |
| 783 | 01:17:00 --> 01:17:03 | better be trading S P, or you're not going to be like you're to be |
| 784 | 01:17:03 --> 01:17:07 | like your hero. Sure. Get like Larry boy, get your ass in there and trade. S, |
| 785 | 01:17:07 --> 01:17:08 | P, come on. |
| 786 | 01:17:12 --> 01:17:19 | And while he only had a very small range daily couple handles daily, your average |
| 787 | 01:17:19 --> 01:17:22 | stop loss is many times greater than the average daily range back when I was |
| 788 | 01:17:22 --> 01:17:30 | trading the S, P, like we're cussing and pissing a fit, if you would have saw |
| 789 | 01:17:30 --> 01:17:36 | what that volatility was like applied to today. Like you don't even know, like, |
| 790 | 01:17:36 --> 01:17:40 | how good you got it right now. Like you have no idea how good you got it. Ask |
| 791 | 01:17:41 --> 01:17:47 | somebody like Larry Williams, who's got, you know, decade more experience than I |
| 792 | 01:17:47 --> 01:17:51 | do, and I lived those years, and he lived them before I did, and he's traded |
| 793 | 01:17:51 --> 01:17:54 | that market more than I had and longer than I had. It was more contracts than I |
| 794 | 01:17:54 --> 01:18:00 | ever did. Think about that. I guarantee, if you ask them, what's the volatility |
| 795 | 01:18:00 --> 01:18:06 | like compared to today. And when you were trading in 1987 in 1990 up to 1995 |
| 796 | 01:18:07 --> 01:18:14 | the volatility was really, really constricted, but you can find setups. |
| 797 | 01:18:17 --> 01:18:22 | And today you have the gift. You have the gift of what we prayed for. We |
| 798 | 01:18:22 --> 01:18:28 | prayed to the illusionary gods of the market back then, please, market gods, |
| 799 | 01:18:29 --> 01:18:34 | let this market move 10 handles today. It wouldn't. But the bottom line is, we |
| 800 | 01:18:34 --> 01:18:39 | would do it. We had these problems of, if you talking to the screen, talking to |
| 801 | 01:18:39 --> 01:18:43 | the charts, talking to the TV FNN, financial news network. It's literally, |
| 802 | 01:18:43 --> 01:18:48 | see, I think it was someone said something bad about the market you're |
| 803 | 01:18:48 --> 01:18:53 | in. Shut up, you so and so you're gonna make the market go down against me. Come |
| 804 | 01:18:53 --> 01:19:02 | on, man. I've been there, but I don't do that now. Why? Because somebody else's |
| 805 | 01:19:02 --> 01:19:08 | opinion, in my opinion, is wrong. Everybody else is wrong. Why do I think |
| 806 | 01:19:08 --> 01:19:12 | that way? Is it narcissistic? No, outwardly looking at me, that sounds |
| 807 | 01:19:12 --> 01:19:18 | like a narcissist. It sounds like this guy is full of himself. Well, that's |
| 808 | 01:19:18 --> 01:19:23 | true, because I've filled myself up with positivity. I'm so sugary sweet with |
| 809 | 01:19:23 --> 01:19:29 | love of myself that nobody's bringing me down. It's not going to happen, because |
| 810 | 01:19:29 --> 01:19:34 | I did this to myself for years, for decades, feeding positivity in my |
| 811 | 01:19:34 --> 01:19:40 | journal. It's like a superpower, you see it? I'm online. Somebody comes and talks |
| 812 | 01:19:40 --> 01:19:43 | smack to me. I'm out there on X, nobody. I'm not hiding from anybody, but |
| 813 | 01:19:43 --> 01:19:48 | somebody comes at me. I'm immediate bam, right back in your face. Give it to him, |
| 814 | 01:19:48 --> 01:19:55 | and that's really why I'm on X, I can't put it damn I'm so addicted to just |
| 815 | 01:19:55 --> 01:19:59 | slapping them around. I just love it. But if I'm going to be there myself, |
| 816 | 01:19:59 --> 01:20:04 | you. Share some stuff too, right? I know, for the guys thinking right now, |
| 817 | 01:20:04 --> 01:20:08 | but why did you wear on telegram right now? You've been real quiet in telegram? |
| 818 | 01:20:10 --> 01:20:15 | Well, we were in a big move this week, so Daddy had take care of things, and I |
| 819 | 01:20:15 --> 01:20:18 | didn't want to mess it up. And the Val says too high, and there's too many of |
| 820 | 01:20:18 --> 01:20:22 | you. They're brand new. I don't want to say something and influence you in a |
| 821 | 01:20:22 --> 01:20:28 | time when the market could absolutely take your head clean off. So I moved to |
| 822 | 01:20:28 --> 01:20:32 | what the higher time frame, so you still got what I told you was going to happen, |
| 823 | 01:20:32 --> 01:20:37 | and you've seen it, but if you wrecked yourself, you did it to yourself because |
| 824 | 01:20:37 --> 01:20:40 | I was not in there calling one minute candlesticks where you could have been |
| 825 | 01:20:40 --> 01:20:45 | influenced by me. That's responsibility. A 20 year old me on America Online, we |
| 826 | 01:20:45 --> 01:20:49 | would have been in here with cowboy boots on. Let's stomp around in this |
| 827 | 01:20:49 --> 01:20:55 | let's get it going. Let's get mud on the tires, baby. Now 53, years old this |
| 828 | 01:20:55 --> 01:21:01 | year, a little reserved. I understand it. You know, I felt like I was addicted |
| 829 | 01:21:01 --> 01:21:05 | to crack of looking at everything on the marketplace when I was coming up. If |
| 830 | 01:21:05 --> 01:21:08 | anybody was talking about the market, I don't care what they were talking about, |
| 831 | 01:21:08 --> 01:21:13 | Bollinger Bands, you know that silly stuff, moving average, crossovers, point |
| 832 | 01:21:13 --> 01:21:18 | and figure charts, whatever it was I was there listening to it. I was like, keep |
| 833 | 01:21:18 --> 01:21:26 | talking, baby. Keep talking. It's like Pillow Talk. Now, what I try to do, and |
| 834 | 01:21:26 --> 01:21:31 | unfortunately, other people from other, I guess, persuasions of trading, they |
| 835 | 01:21:31 --> 01:21:34 | don't like me, because I basically say everything that they're doing is wrong. |
| 836 | 01:21:35 --> 01:21:40 | And that's me staying K faith. It's like, it's like in wrestling, I'm always |
| 837 | 01:21:40 --> 01:21:45 | in character, always in character, meaning that if we're going to talk to |
| 838 | 01:21:45 --> 01:21:49 | markets, we're going to talk to markets on my terms, because every one of you |
| 839 | 01:21:49 --> 01:21:52 | don't know what the fuck you're doing, you're all lost. You don't know what |
| 840 | 01:21:52 --> 01:21:55 | you're doing, so I don't want to hear your opinion. So if we're going to talk |
| 841 | 01:21:55 --> 01:21:59 | about the markets, we're going to talk my language, and I'm going to do most of |
| 842 | 01:21:59 --> 01:22:03 | the talking. It's not a discussion. You can ask me a question, but you're not |
| 843 | 01:22:03 --> 01:22:06 | teaching me anything. You're never going to teach me anything. And I've done that |
| 844 | 01:22:06 --> 01:22:14 | to myself Where I've basically mutated into this you can't even touch me, you |
| 845 | 01:22:14 --> 01:22:21 | can't even get on my plane. You can't even do that. I had to do this to myself |
| 846 | 01:22:21 --> 01:22:28 | because I was not mentally equipped, I was not confident, I did not have any |
| 847 | 01:22:28 --> 01:22:33 | optimism as a young man, so I had to feed myself that just like anybody that |
| 848 | 01:22:33 --> 01:22:38 | works out, you can go to the gym all you want, but if you're eating Twinkies and |
| 849 | 01:22:38 --> 01:22:41 | Ho Hos, you are not feeling muscle. Okay? You're not doing it. You're not |
| 850 | 01:22:41 --> 01:22:44 | washing it down with a diet. Because Diet Coke and thinking, wow, I'm saving |
| 851 | 01:22:44 --> 01:22:48 | some calories. You're doing nothing for yourself but wrecking it. So I had to |
| 852 | 01:22:48 --> 01:22:53 | feed myself good nutrition, and had to cut out all the junk food. That means |
| 853 | 01:22:53 --> 01:22:57 | everybody else's bullshit, everybody else's opinion, all that stuff, |
| 854 | 01:22:59 --> 01:23:07 | everybody else's stuff, is junk food. To me, I don't eat candy bars, I don't |
| 855 | 01:23:07 --> 01:23:13 | drink milkshakes, I don't eat Ho Hos and Twinkies. I don't do that stuff. I have |
| 856 | 01:23:13 --> 01:23:21 | a very bland, plain diet. It's not it's not really elaborate, and I don't use a |
| 857 | 01:23:21 --> 01:23:27 | lot of spices either. And that's how I want my market discussion. It's what I |
| 858 | 01:23:27 --> 01:23:32 | put on my plate. I don't care to know what you do in your market. I don't care |
| 859 | 01:23:32 --> 01:23:36 | how you trade your market. But if someone wants to talk about their |
| 860 | 01:23:36 --> 01:23:40 | adversities and how they overcame them, all street smarts, I'm not. I'm sorry, |
| 861 | 01:23:40 --> 01:23:44 | not I'm sorry, not street smarts, Market Wizards, Volume One and Two after two, |
| 862 | 01:23:44 --> 01:23:48 | everything else went to shit. But the those two, those two books, are great, |
| 863 | 01:23:49 --> 01:23:53 | great. And I tapped into those not because they taught anybody how to |
| 864 | 01:23:53 --> 01:24:01 | trade, and I've said this before, but because they shared experiences when, |
| 865 | 01:24:01 --> 01:24:08 | when kit would do his ICT concepts. I don't know what it was something. It's a |
| 866 | 01:24:08 --> 01:24:15 | name for it. He used to call it where, Tanya and a number of other online |
| 867 | 01:24:15 --> 01:24:20 | Twitter personalities that have grown to be, you know, pillars now, you all see |
| 868 | 01:24:20 --> 01:24:25 | them now, I love tapping into that and listening to them. I felt a little |
| 869 | 01:24:25 --> 01:24:29 | uncomfortable because they put me in the spotlight too much, and that's why I |
| 870 | 01:24:29 --> 01:24:34 | don't go to many people's live streams and make myself known, because it ends |
| 871 | 01:24:34 --> 01:24:39 | up becoming Oh, it's ICT and it's disrespectful. But I loved listening to |
| 872 | 01:24:39 --> 01:24:43 | other people's experiences, what they're going through, and sometimes you could |
| 873 | 01:24:43 --> 01:24:48 | hear them weeping in front of you. You know what? I fucking love that not |
| 874 | 01:24:48 --> 01:24:51 | because they're feeling pain or misery or discomfort, but because they're being |
| 875 | 01:24:51 --> 01:24:54 | fucking real, genuine. They're not out there taking fucking pictures of their |
| 876 | 01:24:54 --> 01:24:58 | fucking plate with some bullshit food on it, running around. Hey, hey buddy, |
| 877 | 01:24:58 --> 01:25:01 | here. Take your phone. I'm gonna walk to. My car. Watch this. They're gonna |
| 878 | 01:25:01 --> 01:25:04 | love this. This fucking car doesn't mean much. It doesn't cost that much. But |
| 879 | 01:25:04 --> 01:25:07 | guess what? I'm walking with some music out to it. Look at this. Like a fucking |
| 880 | 01:25:07 --> 01:25:11 | montage. Look at me, man. Look at me walking. Look at me walking. That means |
| 881 | 01:25:11 --> 01:25:17 | I'm absolutely the best fucking trader in the world. Come at me, bro. They |
| 882 | 01:25:17 --> 01:25:24 | weren't doing that. They weren't doing that. Everybody that came up and allowed |
| 883 | 01:25:24 --> 01:25:28 | that voice to be heard through his presentation and his space, they were |
| 884 | 01:25:28 --> 01:25:33 | talking from their heart, and then ones that got down real deep and showed their |
| 885 | 01:25:33 --> 01:25:42 | vulnerability. I was weeping with them. They tugged at my heart strings, because |
| 886 | 01:25:42 --> 01:25:46 | I lived like that too. I went through that. I went through the times where |
| 887 | 01:25:46 --> 01:25:52 | nobody thought this was going to pan out. They weren't convinced at all that |
| 888 | 01:25:52 --> 01:25:57 | this stuff was possible to make money, until I pulled their fucking annual |
| 889 | 01:25:57 --> 01:26:02 | salary out of their fucking ass with one fucking trade and said, Don't you ever |
| 890 | 01:26:02 --> 01:26:08 | tell me I can't do something. Don't you ever tell me that I can't do this. You |
| 891 | 01:26:08 --> 01:26:14 | might reply and you sit back in your chair and say, this is living I got 40 |
| 892 | 01:26:14 --> 01:26:18 | hours, and maybe, if you're doing manager, 50 hours minimum, I got |
| 893 | 01:26:18 --> 01:26:23 | insurance paid for. I got a mortgage being paid for I'm fucking set baby. |
| 894 | 01:26:23 --> 01:26:28 | That ain't living me. That's slavery. And they brainwashed your ass thinking |
| 895 | 01:26:28 --> 01:26:31 | that this is living good. That's the American dream. Fuck you. It's a |
| 896 | 01:26:31 --> 01:26:38 | nightmare. That is a nightmare. You gotta change your perspective on what |
| 897 | 01:26:38 --> 01:26:42 | they say is success in this world to saying I don't need to get up and do |
| 898 | 01:26:42 --> 01:26:48 | shit today. I got money making money for me, whether I push a button in trading |
| 899 | 01:26:48 --> 01:26:55 | at all ever taking down annual salaries of a fucking doctor every single month, |
| 900 | 01:26:55 --> 01:27:05 | and I do nothing, nothing. Beat that shit. What's the what's the percentage |
| 901 | 01:27:05 --> 01:27:08 | return on doing nothing but making that every month? What's that going to work |
| 902 | 01:27:08 --> 01:27:09 | out to be? |
| 903 | 01:27:10 --> 01:27:19 | Well, you don't do shit if you let these people, whether they're family members |
| 904 | 01:27:19 --> 01:27:24 | or friends or online, people talk down to you, and you take that in. If you |
| 905 | 01:27:24 --> 01:27:33 | absorb that and you let it affect you, you're laying down. You joined the |
| 906 | 01:27:33 --> 01:27:37 | nobody class in that statement. Nobody believes in me. You gotta change that. |
| 907 | 01:27:38 --> 01:27:42 | Everybody else is doubting me. Fucking good. I love it. This is gonna be so |
| 908 | 01:27:42 --> 01:27:47 | much sweeter when I just live my life and they gotta lick it up. They gotta |
| 909 | 01:27:47 --> 01:27:53 | lick it the fuck up. And I ain't gotta say shit. All I gotta do is walk out, |
| 910 | 01:27:53 --> 01:28:01 | get in my fucking car and live, be seen in public. Be seen. Wow, that guy, |
| 911 | 01:28:02 --> 01:28:06 | betcha, betcha, he's got his shit together. Better, betcha, she's got her |
| 912 | 01:28:06 --> 01:28:14 | shit together. All you influencers, okay, some of you, I like, you need to |
| 913 | 01:28:14 --> 01:28:20 | tone down all the proof with the materialistic stuff, because what you're |
| 914 | 01:28:20 --> 01:28:25 | doing is exactly what the mistake I made when I was 20 years old. I was |
| 915 | 01:28:25 --> 01:28:28 | projecting. Look at me. I'm successful. I wasted too much money on this car. I |
| 916 | 01:28:28 --> 01:28:31 | wasted too much money on this bullshit. I've wasted too much money on jewelry |
| 917 | 01:28:31 --> 01:28:34 | that I don't fucking even like. But guess what? I'm doing this. I know it's |
| 918 | 01:28:34 --> 01:28:38 | gonna get your attention, because I need your attention back. Then I needed it. I |
| 919 | 01:28:38 --> 01:28:43 | don't fucking need your attention. I made videos. Have been putting up? I |
| 920 | 01:28:45 --> 01:28:54 | don't even want to do it like I don't want to do it. I'm at the latter portion |
| 921 | 01:28:54 --> 01:29:00 | of my life, and all of that carnival like atmosphere isn't that interesting |
| 922 | 01:29:00 --> 01:29:05 | to me anymore. Once in a while I'll come out here and pull something out like |
| 923 | 01:29:05 --> 01:29:12 | this and some of your pants back to cussing again. When I get passionate and |
| 924 | 01:29:12 --> 01:29:17 | energetic and I'm living old memories, it's going to tap into real motion. And |
| 925 | 01:29:17 --> 01:29:27 | if that's offensive to you, deal with it. You You got a choice, folks, you're |
| 926 | 01:29:27 --> 01:29:35 | gonna live in nightmare or you're gonna thrive in dreamscape. Everything is like |
| 927 | 01:29:35 --> 01:29:39 | taking a ride on the good ship, lollipop baby, every fucking day is a good day, |
| 928 | 01:29:39 --> 01:29:44 | every day is a good day. Every day is a good day. Every decision made is an |
| 929 | 01:29:44 --> 01:29:48 | informed decision, and there's no regret in it. Why? Because we are |
| 930 | 01:29:48 --> 01:29:52 | algorithmically principally oriented, oriented to trading. We're not looking |
| 931 | 01:29:52 --> 01:29:57 | at guessing. We're not hoping a pattern forms. We're not trying to get in front |
| 932 | 01:29:57 --> 01:29:59 | of a pattern that we're hoping is going to form. That's impulsive. We're. |
| 933 | 01:30:00 --> 01:30:07 | We're waiting for the time. We're waiting for the fucking time. The time |
| 934 | 01:30:07 --> 01:30:09 | is now. That's when you look for the setup, |
| 935 | 01:30:11 --> 01:30:17 | play, tell is that guessing? Is that guesswork? I have done a clinic this |
| 936 | 01:30:17 --> 01:30:24 | year. I have literally made a clinic proving, if you want to say you don't |
| 937 | 01:30:24 --> 01:30:29 | believe in it anymore, good, you just failed the IQ test. You're a fucking |
| 938 | 01:30:29 --> 01:30:34 | idiot. Because if you see this much evidence, proving that the markets are |
| 939 | 01:30:34 --> 01:30:39 | absolutely systematically programmed, scripted to go to specific prices at |
| 940 | 01:30:39 --> 01:30:44 | specific times and then get animated to go to a predetermined level. Guess what |
| 941 | 01:30:44 --> 01:30:50 | that means? You're blind to it. If you can't see that, you're blind. And I |
| 942 | 01:30:50 --> 01:30:58 | can't tolerate that. Now I have no tolerance for it. It's been fun up till |
| 943 | 01:30:58 --> 01:31:03 | now, but I've pulled back the veil. You have no excuse now. You have no excuse |
| 944 | 01:31:04 --> 01:31:10 | zero. You're either joining and jumping in the plasma pool, or you're getting |
| 945 | 01:31:10 --> 01:31:14 | hell out of here. And that's exactly what this is today. This is a litmus |
| 946 | 01:31:14 --> 01:31:23 | test for you. If you think, if you think that your supply and demand zones. Wipe |
| 947 | 01:31:23 --> 01:31:29 | off horse, supply and demand, Elliot, wave pitch forks up your ass, all that |
| 948 | 01:31:29 --> 01:31:33 | stuff. You think all that stuff means anything outside the element of time, |
| 949 | 01:31:33 --> 01:31:33 | this is |
| 950 | 01:31:35 --> 01:31:40 | when the market's going to move. This is when it's not going to move. I've shown |
| 951 | 01:31:40 --> 01:31:46 | you that every week, every time I sat down |
| 952 | 01:31:46 --> 01:31:50 | and told you, this is what the market's going to do. This is what the market do. |
| 953 | 01:31:50 --> 01:31:53 | It's been a couple times I give you some cliffhangers. Something's going to |
| 954 | 01:31:53 --> 01:31:56 | happen. Oh, look at this. He comes out, rookie sensation. That's not bragging, |
| 955 | 01:31:56 --> 01:31:59 | folks. It's not bragging when it's facts. It's not bragging at all when |
| 956 | 01:31:59 --> 01:32:05 | it's facts. You need to sit down and think to yourself, do you want to |
| 957 | 01:32:05 --> 01:32:14 | subscribe to on unbelievable bullshit that's written about in books that is |
| 958 | 01:32:14 --> 01:32:24 | archaic, that literally has you doing a 5050 outcome, 5050 5050 let me ask you a |
| 959 | 01:32:24 --> 01:32:29 | question. We say it proverbially that every time we get in our car and drive |
| 960 | 01:32:29 --> 01:32:33 | to work, we have a 5050 chance of getting in a car accident and dying. But |
| 961 | 01:32:33 --> 01:32:39 | in reality, is it really 5050 it's not how many times you've been going there, |
| 962 | 01:32:39 --> 01:32:43 | how many times you have accident next to never, right? For some of you that have |
| 963 | 01:32:43 --> 01:32:47 | been blessed, for those of you recklessly driving, well, not for me. |
| 964 | 01:32:47 --> 01:32:52 | ICT, I drive 85 miles an hour, man, I take speed bumps like hills to jump like |
| 965 | 01:32:52 --> 01:32:55 | duties of hazard. So, you know, it's no surprise that I'm I'm having a lot of |
| 966 | 01:32:55 --> 01:33:01 | adversity driving to work here in trading, we're not trying to do things |
| 967 | 01:33:01 --> 01:33:07 | recklessly. We're waiting for our time. We are giving ourselves no permission, |
| 968 | 01:33:07 --> 01:33:14 | and this is why it's hard. It's expensive forging that level of |
| 969 | 01:33:14 --> 01:33:17 | responsibility and discipline, because it's going to cost you a lot, because |
| 970 | 01:33:17 --> 01:33:21 | you're going to get to go through a lot of sitting, waiting, sitting and |
| 971 | 01:33:21 --> 01:33:22 | waiting. |
| 972 | 01:33:23 --> 01:33:27 | I saw this guy or this girl. She just got a payout. She did this, and she's |
| 973 | 01:33:27 --> 01:33:30 | training this market. I'm training the wrong one. ICT, why aren't you trading? |
| 974 | 01:33:30 --> 01:33:31 | Es damnit. |
| 975 | 01:33:37 --> 01:33:46 | You need one market, folks, one. Limit your focus to one, and let that be your |
| 976 | 01:33:46 --> 01:34:01 | entire career, career, you only need an imbalance in price. That's it. An |
| 977 | 01:34:01 --> 01:34:08 | imbalance in price, no matter what market it is, is an opportunity. You do |
| 978 | 01:34:08 --> 01:34:13 | not increase your likelihood of finding said opportunity by increasing the |
| 979 | 01:34:13 --> 01:34:16 | number of markets you're following, what you're doing is diluting your attention. |
| 980 | 01:34:16 --> 01:34:21 | I don't give a fuck who says otherwise. 90% of people talk that bullshit. Yeah, |
| 981 | 01:34:21 --> 01:34:24 | I made so and so percentage 10 fucking years ago, unsubstantiated. You don't |
| 982 | 01:34:24 --> 01:34:29 | have any proof of it, but you hang on the nuts of these people that they give |
| 983 | 01:34:29 --> 01:34:33 | their opinion with no evidence that they even know they're talking about. Oh, I |
| 984 | 01:34:33 --> 01:34:36 | really respect this so and so, so and so. Oh yeah, what is they shown? Well, |
| 985 | 01:34:36 --> 01:34:44 | he just talks a lot and does a lot of shit posting. Well, okay, I I contrast |
| 986 | 01:34:44 --> 01:34:48 | that with the real McCoy. You don't have to like me, folks, this is not a warm up |
| 987 | 01:34:48 --> 01:34:51 | to ICT, you know, and wow, you know, he's my hero. That's not what this is. |
| 988 | 01:34:52 --> 01:34:56 | I'm an anti hero. I don't want you to like me. I don't want you to like me, |
| 989 | 01:34:56 --> 01:35:04 | but I do want you to listen. I. And I thought about that's all, saying this in |
| 990 | 01:35:04 --> 01:35:11 | my comments, in the setting up the What is this space? Yeah, I could have like I |
| 991 | 01:35:11 --> 01:35:17 | was going to go on YouTube, but I knew, Oh man, I knew. I knew, tapping into |
| 992 | 01:35:17 --> 01:35:23 | this old painful stuff for me. Yeah, I'm going to use some colorful language, not |
| 993 | 01:35:23 --> 01:35:29 | because I want to, because I I'm reliving stuff. Folks, go back to a |
| 994 | 01:35:29 --> 01:35:34 | moment when you had your your teeth kicked in, and you're at the lowest low. |
| 995 | 01:35:34 --> 01:35:39 | If you're human, you're going to feel it, man, you're going to feel it. And |
| 996 | 01:35:39 --> 01:35:42 | I've had to hold back tears in this presentation with you a couple times |
| 997 | 01:35:42 --> 01:35:47 | already, because those are wounds that don't really heal. They don't heal |
| 998 | 01:35:47 --> 01:35:55 | entirely. So the way I forge the strength and the focus to move forward |
| 999 | 01:35:55 --> 01:36:00 | and not dwell on those old wounds, because nothing cuts deeper than a |
| 1000 | 01:36:00 --> 01:36:04 | family member telling you you're going to be a failure, especially the ones |
| 1001 | 01:36:04 --> 01:36:08 | that you look up to as a child, looking at them and thinking, I want to be like |
| 1002 | 01:36:08 --> 01:36:13 | them. They have a house, they had a swimming pool, they have two cars, they |
| 1003 | 01:36:13 --> 01:36:20 | make over 700 hours a week at their job, and then they tell you you're going to |
| 1004 | 01:36:20 --> 01:36:27 | fail. Instead of turning toxic and saying, Go fuck yourself, and I'm never |
| 1005 | 01:36:27 --> 01:36:30 | going to be around you anymore, I just took a step back and said, I'm not going |
| 1006 | 01:36:30 --> 01:36:35 | to tell them anymore what I'm going to do. I'm just going to do. See in |
| 1007 | 01:36:35 --> 01:36:40 | trading, there's talkers, and then there's doers. And if you're an |
| 1008 | 01:36:40 --> 01:36:44 | influencer and you're showing all the materialistic stuff, I don't care how |
| 1009 | 01:36:44 --> 01:36:48 | you made your money. Okay, make the money. Make it. But if you're taking so |
| 1010 | 01:36:48 --> 01:36:54 | much effort in producing content that shows, look at me and my lifestyle, and |
| 1011 | 01:36:54 --> 01:37:00 | you compare and contrast how much that is compared to here's what I do, trading |
| 1012 | 01:37:00 --> 01:37:06 | and here's me doing it and how I do it. Yeah, I'm not interested, and I'm sorry |
| 1013 | 01:37:06 --> 01:37:12 | if that offends you, but I'm not meaning to offend anybody, but what you're doing |
| 1014 | 01:37:12 --> 01:37:16 | is you're sugar coating your bullshit. And people that know what bullshit |
| 1015 | 01:37:16 --> 01:37:20 | tastes like, we know underneath the sugar coating, it's still shit. So we |
| 1016 | 01:37:20 --> 01:37:23 | don't eat it, we don't like it, we don't subscribe to it, we don't want to see |
| 1017 | 01:37:23 --> 01:37:29 | it, and that's why I never do those things. I don't ever do those things, |
| 1018 | 01:37:29 --> 01:37:33 | because that's not going to make you a better trader. It's not going to have |
| 1019 | 01:37:33 --> 01:37:37 | any impact on your bottom line ever. It's never going to do anything that |
| 1020 | 01:37:37 --> 01:37:42 | makes you better. Worst case scenario, if you see all the toys and how much |
| 1021 | 01:37:42 --> 01:37:45 | money I spend on this, and how much I do this and that, it's going to make you |
| 1022 | 01:37:45 --> 01:37:48 | feel like, well, I want to do like that, and I'm going to trade larger and more |
| 1023 | 01:37:48 --> 01:37:56 | frequent because I want to do what ICT does. And that's not going to pan out |
| 1024 | 01:37:56 --> 01:38:00 | well, because you're doing things wrong. You're trying to impulsively make |
| 1025 | 01:38:00 --> 01:38:04 | decisions and monetize those decisions on an extrapolated level. That means |
| 1026 | 01:38:04 --> 01:38:09 | over leveraging, over trading and doing things that are not even in the model |
| 1027 | 01:38:09 --> 01:38:12 | that you think you are supposed to be following, but you're gonna allow |
| 1028 | 01:38:12 --> 01:38:15 | yourself. That's still my model. I'm always supposed to be trading with one |
| 1029 | 01:38:15 --> 01:38:19 | micro but it I got the move. I got the money. I'm gonna do 15 contracts because |
| 1030 | 01:38:19 --> 01:38:28 | they said I could. Some funny shit, man, start a prosper. You ain't trading my |
| 1031 | 01:38:28 --> 01:38:32 | real accounts. Give them 15. Imagine contracts and let them blow it out and |
| 1032 | 01:38:32 --> 01:38:37 | give them a sale price, and they'll think you're doing them a favor. Oh, |
| 1033 | 01:38:37 --> 01:38:42 | man, that's the biggest fucking scam I've ever seen. But guess what? Guess |
| 1034 | 01:38:42 --> 01:38:48 | what? The people that listen, the people that really listen to what I told them |
| 1035 | 01:38:48 --> 01:38:53 | these markets are gonna do, guess what they're doing? Guess what the fuck |
| 1036 | 01:38:53 --> 01:38:58 | they're doing? They're going in there, kicking the front door in, stopping the |
| 1037 | 01:38:58 --> 01:39:02 | fuck around like they own the place, and taking their money. Oh, that's talking |
| 1038 | 01:39:02 --> 01:39:12 | about $500 I'm not talking about $10,000 millions, motherfucker millions. Oh, but |
| 1039 | 01:39:12 --> 01:39:20 | ICT, get the fuck out of here. Get out of here. That shit. You have been seeing |
| 1040 | 01:39:20 --> 01:39:26 | monstrous results by people using what I've been preaching. And guess what, |
| 1041 | 01:39:27 --> 01:39:36 | there's nothing holding you back, but you just you, just you. I'm not holding |
| 1042 | 01:39:36 --> 01:39:41 | you back. I'm talking to you on a medium that is not monetized. In fact, |
| 1043 | 01:39:41 --> 01:39:44 | everybody else is going to take what I'm doing right now and put it on their |
| 1044 | 01:39:44 --> 01:39:46 | YouTube channel and make ad revenue off of it. And I don't give a fuck. |
| 1045 | 01:39:52 --> 01:39:58 | Where's my motivation? I'm trying to put a boot in your ass. Listen, I told you, |
| 1046 | 01:39:59 --> 01:40:03 | in 2006 King. This is what's gonna happen. This guy's gonna get in there, |
| 1047 | 01:40:03 --> 01:40:08 | and they're gonna use him as the fall guy. We watched some Rick Monroe in 2020 |
| 1048 | 01:40:09 --> 01:40:13 | and then endured four years of horseshit. And now they have the states |
| 1049 | 01:40:13 --> 01:40:21 | perfectly set, perfectly set. And here you have it. I don't give a flying fuck |
| 1050 | 01:40:21 --> 01:40:25 | with tariffs are going to be I don't care. Oil can go to $100 a fucking |
| 1051 | 01:40:25 --> 01:40:29 | barrel or 200 hours a barrel. I'm still driving my fucking v8 Corvettes. I'm not |
| 1052 | 01:40:29 --> 01:40:34 | giving a fuck. Inflation can't go high enough for me to be worried about it. |
| 1053 | 01:40:36 --> 01:40:39 | That's the mentality you get when you know what you're doing. When you know |
| 1054 | 01:40:39 --> 01:40:43 | what you're doing, you ain't worried about what the fucking grocery seat says |
| 1055 | 01:40:43 --> 01:40:47 | at the bottom line, you really don't. I feel it, because I know there's a lot of |
| 1056 | 01:40:47 --> 01:40:51 | you that listen to me, and maybe I'm hurting your feelings or making you feel |
| 1057 | 01:40:51 --> 01:40:54 | like, oh, you're a jerk. You're talking like that. I'm talking from a position |
| 1058 | 01:40:54 --> 01:40:59 | of being blessed, period. And it didn't just happen overnight. I had to work |
| 1059 | 01:40:59 --> 01:41:04 | towards things. I had to cut things out of my life. I had to make sacrifices |
| 1060 | 01:41:04 --> 01:41:08 | with friends and family and take myself away from a lot of things that people |
| 1061 | 01:41:08 --> 01:41:13 | want to do right now, and they think that's called success. It's not |
| 1062 | 01:41:15 --> 01:41:20 | influencers. Listen to me when you put that stuff out there and you show, |
| 1063 | 01:41:20 --> 01:41:24 | here's what I wasted my money on, knowing that there's gonna be a small |
| 1064 | 01:41:24 --> 01:41:30 | faction of us as the audience that's gonna say, wish I had that. And you |
| 1065 | 01:41:30 --> 01:41:33 | might see the trolling responses there. Oh, what about bullshit? You don't |
| 1066 | 01:41:33 --> 01:41:35 | really trade that much. You don't make that much money. You're an affiliate |
| 1067 | 01:41:35 --> 01:41:38 | marketer. You know, you're a girl, you're a guy that doesn't even know how |
| 1068 | 01:41:38 --> 01:41:41 | to trade. You've been caught paper trading before. All the bullshit. |
| 1069 | 01:41:41 --> 01:41:46 | They'll see those things mute them, but then they'll look at the one that says, |
| 1070 | 01:41:46 --> 01:41:51 | I wish I had what you have. And they take that inside, they file it away, and |
| 1071 | 01:41:51 --> 01:41:56 | they say, Yep. That builds me up. Yep. That proves that I know what I'm doing |
| 1072 | 01:41:56 --> 01:42:01 | and what I'm doing is the right decision. No, it's not I'm not saying |
| 1073 | 01:42:01 --> 01:42:05 | don't celebrate when you have something as a victory and you buy a toy, but if |
| 1074 | 01:42:05 --> 01:42:11 | your entire scheme, your whole presentation, is based on that, you're |
| 1075 | 01:42:11 --> 01:42:16 | actually not getting anything for yourself that's constructive. You're |
| 1076 | 01:42:16 --> 01:42:22 | sugar coating, you're masking and you're putting things behind blinders. You're |
| 1077 | 01:42:22 --> 01:42:26 | you're you're telling yourself that this is what you're doing, trading for when, |
| 1078 | 01:42:26 --> 01:42:29 | if you were really sitting down, if you and I were sitting down and we were |
| 1079 | 01:42:29 --> 01:42:34 | privately talking, no recordings, no cameras, I'm not going to tell anybody |
| 1080 | 01:42:34 --> 01:42:39 | what you're going to say. And I say to you, when you put that video out and you |
| 1081 | 01:42:39 --> 01:42:42 | don't really have the response that you were hoping you're going to get, what |
| 1082 | 01:42:42 --> 01:42:46 | does it do for? Get. What does it do for you? It sucks. I accepted a bigger pop |
| 1083 | 01:42:46 --> 01:42:53 | right now, internally, you're doing the same thing over and over and over again |
| 1084 | 01:42:53 --> 01:42:58 | with something outside of trading. The success of trading, you need to fall in |
| 1085 | 01:42:58 --> 01:43:01 | love with you doing the things that you're supposed to be doing as a |
| 1086 | 01:43:01 --> 01:43:05 | consistently profitable trader that is detail oriented. That's what your |
| 1087 | 01:43:05 --> 01:43:09 | primary focus should be. And guess what that means, you're gonna be fucking |
| 1088 | 01:43:09 --> 01:43:15 | boring. But guess what? I'm probably the richest boring mother fucker on x. I'm |
| 1089 | 01:43:15 --> 01:43:21 | boring as shit. I'm boring. And guess what that means, I got money. I got |
| 1090 | 01:43:21 --> 01:43:24 | money. I don't need to share or show what I spent my money on. I don't need |
| 1091 | 01:43:24 --> 01:43:27 | to do that. I do absolutely. I got my bank accounts. I don't need to be |
| 1092 | 01:43:27 --> 01:43:30 | reminded by somebody else saying, shit, you're successful. I know I'm |
| 1093 | 01:43:30 --> 01:43:34 | successful. I wake up knowing I'm successful. I'm thanking God every |
| 1094 | 01:43:34 --> 01:43:37 | single day that he's given me this position in life. I'm |
| 1095 | 01:43:37 --> 01:43:45 | thankful for that. Everything that I do in teaching you is geared towards that, |
| 1096 | 01:43:47 --> 01:43:53 | not materialism, not got this. Look how much money I wasting on Rolex. I'm in |
| 1097 | 01:43:53 --> 01:43:56 | the Rolex store. This is the Rolex I'm putting them on wrist, but I'm going on |
| 1098 | 01:43:56 --> 01:43:59 | a fucking arm black market and buying some knockoff horse shit, because you're |
| 1099 | 01:43:59 --> 01:44:03 | gonna see that thing on my wrist, and you think I spent 15, $30,000 whatever |
| 1100 | 01:44:03 --> 01:44:11 | Fuck you, you're a liar. I got watches cost more than your fucking house the |
| 1101 | 01:44:11 --> 01:44:18 | fuck out of here. So the point is this, you have to literally dial in and cut |
| 1102 | 01:44:18 --> 01:44:23 | out everything. And guess what that means, me included. Some of you are |
| 1103 | 01:44:23 --> 01:44:27 | ready right now, but you're holding on to the reins and saying, drive me |
| 1104 | 01:44:27 --> 01:44:37 | faster. I should say, Yeah, instead of just doing I'm talking to new people all |
| 1105 | 01:44:37 --> 01:44:41 | the time that's coming in. And so many of you are ready. You know enough. |
| 1106 | 01:44:42 --> 01:44:46 | You know enough. But you're not doing anything with it, |
| 1107 | 01:44:46 --> 01:44:50 | not properly. You're not but when you're in the in the community, like right now, |
| 1108 | 01:44:50 --> 01:44:53 | you're listening to me, You're looking well him listen. I see he really wound |
| 1109 | 01:44:53 --> 01:44:59 | up today. Got the answers. I do feel pretty good right now. Back in here, |
| 1110 | 01:44:59 --> 01:45:03 | you. That's the adrenaline endorphins. They'll wear off. I'll be I'll be crying |
| 1111 | 01:45:03 --> 01:45:09 | later on. But when you leave the element, when this, when this |
| 1112 | 01:45:09 --> 01:45:15 | presentation ends in the little dopamine wears off, what are you gonna be left |
| 1113 | 01:45:15 --> 01:45:20 | with? Well, that was fun. I have to listen to that next time when I feel a |
| 1114 | 01:45:20 --> 01:45:24 | little bit down and out, but you're going to be feeling down and out an hour |
| 1115 | 01:45:24 --> 01:45:29 | after this ends. Why? Because you're going to think about what I talked |
| 1116 | 01:45:29 --> 01:45:34 | about. You're going to think about how I pinned you in a corner and I said, these |
| 1117 | 01:45:34 --> 01:45:37 | are the things that you're doing and they're wrong. And you want to have |
| 1118 | 01:45:37 --> 01:45:40 | selective hearing when you're listening to me, like, well, that applies to |
| 1119 | 01:45:40 --> 01:45:43 | somebody else, not me, if you've done that in this presentation, might be |
| 1120 | 01:45:43 --> 01:45:51 | talking you're you're the person I'm talking to. You know enough to be |
| 1121 | 01:45:51 --> 01:45:55 | consistently profitable. You know enough to find setups that you never need to |
| 1122 | 01:45:55 --> 01:45:59 | watch another video by ICT, you don't ever need to listen to another Twitter |
| 1123 | 01:45:59 --> 01:46:04 | space. You don't ever need to listen to any kind of nothing. ICT, I have given |
| 1124 | 01:46:04 --> 01:46:13 | so many ways to skin this cat, but you know what rings constant? You gotta work |
| 1125 | 01:46:13 --> 01:46:19 | your ass off. There's no shortcuts to it. I don't care what they titled their |
| 1126 | 01:46:19 --> 01:46:24 | video. ICT, learned in five minutes. I studied everything. I'm gonna teach it |
| 1127 | 01:46:24 --> 01:46:27 | to you in this video, so that way you don't have to worry about doing what is |
| 1128 | 01:46:27 --> 01:46:30 | absolutely fucking required, which is back testing, studying and finding how |
| 1129 | 01:46:30 --> 01:46:36 | it works within you. Does it match your personality? Not all of you can trade a |
| 1130 | 01:46:36 --> 01:46:42 | turtle soup. Not all of you can trade the silver bullet now, because of the |
| 1131 | 01:46:42 --> 01:46:47 | first potential fair value gap is, come on. I mean, it's literally the very |
| 1132 | 01:46:47 --> 01:46:51 | first one that forms, and it's in a 30 minute window. It's very time specific |
| 1133 | 01:46:51 --> 01:46:56 | for the morning session, and it's used throughout the week. And now I gave you |
| 1134 | 01:46:56 --> 01:47:02 | the secrets to the afternoon session. Come on. Think about it. Think about it. |
| 1135 | 01:47:02 --> 01:47:06 | Think about what I gave you just for the afternoon. Fuck the morning session so |
| 1136 | 01:47:06 --> 01:47:11 | you're not even good at picking the direction in Pius. Who cares? Okay, let |
| 1137 | 01:47:13 --> 01:47:18 | the morning session trade. Come back around one o'clock in the afternoon, |
| 1138 | 01:47:18 --> 01:47:23 | Eastern Time, and wait for 130 start watching that opening range, that 30 |
| 1139 | 01:47:23 --> 01:47:27 | minute opening range, and please, gentlemen, please stop talking about a |
| 1140 | 01:47:27 --> 01:47:35 | 15 minute opening fucking range. You're literally bullshit. It's bullshit. Do it |
| 1141 | 01:47:35 --> 01:47:39 | on 30 minutes. I promise you the shit you're pretending that you're gonna find |
| 1142 | 01:47:39 --> 01:47:44 | eventually watching 15 minutes, it's gonna be perfect in 30 minutes, because |
| 1143 | 01:47:44 --> 01:47:47 | that is exactly what the algorithm uses. I don't give a shit. Nobody says I'm |
| 1144 | 01:47:47 --> 01:47:51 | proving it. Everybody has their opinion, but I fucking walked it in front of all |
| 1145 | 01:47:51 --> 01:47:57 | of you this year. All of you saw it. How many times have I been wrong? Fuck all. |
| 1146 | 01:47:57 --> 01:48:03 | None. I've been on it and I haven't even tried. I haven't even fucking tried |
| 1147 | 01:48:03 --> 01:48:08 | hard, and this is what I presented to you that's realistic for you. You can |
| 1148 | 01:48:08 --> 01:48:12 | obtain what I did this year. Every single one of you listening to my voice |
| 1149 | 01:48:12 --> 01:48:17 | can do what I showcased this year. That's not, that's not outperforming, |
| 1150 | 01:48:17 --> 01:48:22 | you know, unprecedented odds, that's that's in the realm of reasonable. |
| 1151 | 01:48:23 --> 01:48:27 | Everything I taught you is already on the YouTube channel, and I use the |
| 1152 | 01:48:27 --> 01:48:33 | information that's in that YouTube channel all year long. I didn't reinvent |
| 1153 | 01:48:33 --> 01:48:39 | or twist and contort the logic you're waiting for this time. You're waiting |
| 1154 | 01:48:39 --> 01:48:43 | for this drawing liquidity to be a factor. Okay, I know it's going to |
| 1155 | 01:48:43 --> 01:48:47 | likely go there, and this is the time I'll just be looking for the setup. I |
| 1156 | 01:48:47 --> 01:48:50 | have to wait for the setup to be there. And then I gave you a criteria that |
| 1157 | 01:48:50 --> 01:48:55 | helps you frame a setup, how to manage your risk, how to take the trade and |
| 1158 | 01:48:55 --> 01:49:04 | manage it. None of you, none of you can say otherwise. You cannot deny that this |
| 1159 | 01:49:04 --> 01:49:10 | was outlined for the entirety of this year. I've laid this out for you. And |
| 1160 | 01:49:10 --> 01:49:18 | guess what? That's elementary that is grade school level, nothing compared to |
| 1161 | 01:49:18 --> 01:49:20 | what you can obtain if you use everything that I taught. And that is |
| 1162 | 01:49:20 --> 01:49:24 | not an invitation to go in there and say, oh shit, that's the invitation ICC |
| 1163 | 01:49:24 --> 01:49:29 | then waiting to give. Everybody needs to use everything the ICT uses everything |
| 1164 | 01:49:29 --> 01:49:30 | he's ever taught. You got to do all |
| 1165 | 01:49:30 --> 01:49:38 | that stuff. I don't do that. I am not in there taking every available trade I |
| 1166 | 01:49:38 --> 01:49:44 | would. I'm one person. I'm not omnipresent, like I I'm in one location |
| 1167 | 01:49:44 --> 01:49:49 | at one time, and my mind is focused on that market and the thing I'm looking |
| 1168 | 01:49:49 --> 01:49:52 | for, because I have an affinity for an outcome based on a higher time |
| 1169 | 01:49:52 --> 01:49:57 | expectation. But if I really want to get down a clown, I can go on that 15 second |
| 1170 | 01:49:57 --> 01:50:04 | chart, five second chart, and tear shit up. You. I'm always ready for that. But |
| 1171 | 01:50:04 --> 01:50:09 | for teaching purposes, this year, I gave you higher Time Frame, direction, |
| 1172 | 01:50:09 --> 01:50:13 | everything, how it should be mount and where should be impactful for turning |
| 1173 | 01:50:13 --> 01:50:17 | points, and all that criteria that would negate that idea if I'm wrong. So you |
| 1174 | 01:50:17 --> 01:50:23 | had a complete treatment. Everything was shown from the lens of if you studied |
| 1175 | 01:50:23 --> 01:50:27 | very diligently and you've been consistent about being positive in your |
| 1176 | 01:50:27 --> 01:50:31 | journaling, looking for the bright side of everything, not talking down to |
| 1177 | 01:50:31 --> 01:50:35 | yourself, not hanging around in circles where people like to trash my name or my |
| 1178 | 01:50:35 --> 01:50:39 | concept, to say they're they rebranded. Man, fuck you. Find somebody else out |
| 1179 | 01:50:39 --> 01:50:42 | there doing what you just watched me do this year, explaining in that detail, |
| 1180 | 01:50:42 --> 01:50:47 | that precise, and then put the lane, the lane tags of Wyckoff, which ain't there, |
| 1181 | 01:50:47 --> 01:50:51 | supply, demand, ain't there, Elliot we ain't there. None of that shits there. |
| 1182 | 01:50:51 --> 01:50:56 | See, that's the problem. They see me doing it. And then when it's done, oh, |
| 1183 | 01:50:56 --> 01:51:02 | well, you know, that's so and so, so and so. Okay, or you do the same thing the |
| 1184 | 01:51:02 --> 01:51:08 | next three months, you do it in front of everybody. Don't delete anything, and |
| 1185 | 01:51:08 --> 01:51:12 | don't ever fucking edit a fucking post, not one, and do it in a setting where |
| 1186 | 01:51:12 --> 01:51:17 | everybody can track it. Then your opinion matters, because right now all |
| 1187 | 01:51:17 --> 01:51:21 | you are fucking tongueless to me. You have no voice, you have no opinion that |
| 1188 | 01:51:21 --> 01:51:27 | matters zero and you fucking think I can't go out there and take that fucking |
| 1189 | 01:51:27 --> 01:51:31 | Robin's cup. I've made a mockery of that shit. I've literally have shown you that |
| 1190 | 01:51:31 --> 01:51:39 | it's nothing, it's nothing. That's nothing. It's more scary. It's more risk |
| 1191 | 01:51:39 --> 01:51:43 | for me to go out and do what I've been doing, putting my name on front see if I |
| 1192 | 01:51:43 --> 01:51:47 | take trades in Robbins. You don't know what trades I'm taking. You don't know. |
| 1193 | 01:51:47 --> 01:51:50 | You don't know what I'm doing. But guess what I'm doing here, I am stepping out |
| 1194 | 01:51:50 --> 01:51:53 | on stage say, here's what this one minute candle is going to do, and this |
| 1195 | 01:51:53 --> 01:51:56 | is the next one minute candle. It's going to go here, it's going to go here. |
| 1196 | 01:51:56 --> 01:51:59 | Now it's going to go up, it's going to go down here. It's not going to go here. |
| 1197 | 01:51:59 --> 01:52:03 | It's not gonna go here, baby, find somebody else that's doing that shit, |
| 1198 | 01:52:03 --> 01:52:09 | because it ain't fucking there, baby. It's just me good old fucking ICT talk |
| 1199 | 01:52:09 --> 01:52:13 | about a new fucking algorithm, man, you're fucking clueless. I couldn't do |
| 1200 | 01:52:13 --> 01:52:19 | this if there wasn't one. You honestly think that I could be that smart? |
| 1201 | 01:52:19 --> 01:52:25 | There's nobody that's smart. There's nobody that has that level of |
| 1202 | 01:52:25 --> 01:52:31 | discretionary risk taking and that perfect unless they're using something |
| 1203 | 01:52:31 --> 01:52:37 | that is completely scripted. And I proved it in a time frame that I can't |
| 1204 | 01:52:37 --> 01:52:44 | fake it in an audience level that's big enough to say, hey, that man did that, |
| 1205 | 01:52:45 --> 01:52:50 | and I don't have to be grandiose about it, and hang my fucking name on a |
| 1206 | 01:52:50 --> 01:52:55 | website and take a man who I'll have a lot of respect for and remove him. It's |
| 1207 | 01:52:55 --> 01:53:02 | coming, but I cannot do it while he's here. I won't do it, but it's gonna come |
| 1208 | 01:53:02 --> 01:53:07 | down. And when it's that time, then you'll see it. I'm not gonna announce |
| 1209 | 01:53:07 --> 01:53:12 | it. You're just gonna see it happen. So I love when you leave those little |
| 1210 | 01:53:12 --> 01:53:18 | comments. I love it, but Robins cup, but how's the Robins cup going? Yeah, how |
| 1211 | 01:53:18 --> 01:53:22 | about that 500,000 fucking dollars, baby? How about those three fucking |
| 1212 | 01:53:22 --> 01:53:29 | months of every day killing an ICT stop? We won't talk about that. Do we get the |
| 1213 | 01:53:30 --> 01:53:34 | fuck out of here? It's beautiful, and that's what I'm trying to tell you. So |
| 1214 | 01:53:34 --> 01:53:39 | you young men, very rarely it's the young ladies, but the young men, they |
| 1215 | 01:53:39 --> 01:53:42 | like. I can't wait to learn how to learn how to do this because I'm going to go |
| 1216 | 01:53:42 --> 01:53:44 | out there and defend your name. ICT, why |
| 1217 | 01:53:44 --> 01:53:49 | I'm having too much fun. You don't need to offend me. Can't you say I doing that |
| 1218 | 01:53:49 --> 01:53:52 | on my own at my leisure? |
| 1219 | 01:53:53 --> 01:53:57 | You're trying to do something in trading to justify an outcome that doesn't |
| 1220 | 01:53:57 --> 01:54:02 | matter. I'm not going to high five you. Yeah, you killed it for me. You really |
| 1221 | 01:54:02 --> 01:54:08 | defended you today, brother, I don't do that. You need to look at your job, |
| 1222 | 01:54:08 --> 01:54:13 | okay, look at your co workers and say, You know what, I'm slightly better than |
| 1223 | 01:54:13 --> 01:54:17 | you, and I don't really deserve to be in this bullshit, and I don't deserve the |
| 1224 | 01:54:17 --> 01:54:20 | low paid that they've given me. So you may resign yourself to doing this the |
| 1225 | 01:54:20 --> 01:54:25 | rest of your life. I'm not doing that. So in six to nine months, I'm going to |
| 1226 | 01:54:25 --> 01:54:30 | be replacing my income here, and then once I double it consistently, I'm going |
| 1227 | 01:54:30 --> 01:54:33 | to looking for the exit ramp. I'm going I'm out. I'm out. I'm not going to come |
| 1228 | 01:54:33 --> 01:54:37 | back here. You need to make plans. You need to live your life through a |
| 1229 | 01:54:37 --> 01:54:40 | dreamscape perspective. It means everything you want to see happen there |
| 1230 | 01:54:40 --> 01:54:44 | has to be a structure in place that leads to you getting there. And it has |
| 1231 | 01:54:44 --> 01:54:50 | to be practical. Not Well, I want to make $100,000 a week. I want to get you |
| 1232 | 01:54:50 --> 01:54:54 | know 30 counts on this prop firm, and this prop firm, that Prop firm, and I'm |
| 1233 | 01:54:54 --> 01:54:57 | going to do this, this, this, this, and then I'm going to sail off from the |
| 1234 | 01:54:57 --> 01:55:03 | sunset. There has to be a structure. Sure. Okay, there has to be an absolute, |
| 1235 | 01:55:03 --> 01:55:09 | defined structure to answer the guys that are complaining to me in my comment |
| 1236 | 01:55:09 --> 01:55:15 | section, dude, you're giving flowers to two guys that are ripping you off and |
| 1237 | 01:55:15 --> 01:55:21 | they're monetizing and teaching your stuff. Okay, listen, my biggest |
| 1238 | 01:55:21 --> 01:55:26 | complaint and how my name and my concepts have been abused and |
| 1239 | 01:55:26 --> 01:55:30 | prostituted is number one. My name brings attention, and if you want to get |
| 1240 | 01:55:30 --> 01:55:34 | ads and attention on your videos, just put three letters in your ICT and you're |
| 1241 | 01:55:34 --> 01:55:38 | going to click out of morbid curiosity. Okay, it doesn't mean that it's worth |
| 1242 | 01:55:38 --> 01:55:41 | watching the video. It just means that that's going to draw the initial click. |
| 1243 | 01:55:42 --> 01:55:47 | I have always maintained that my students are absolutely encouraged to go |
| 1244 | 01:55:47 --> 01:55:52 | out there and make a name for themselves with the content. Now that is not to |
| 1245 | 01:55:52 --> 01:55:56 | sell my outright fucking videos. Okay, because that's bullshit. Why anybody |
| 1246 | 01:55:56 --> 01:55:59 | would pay for them when they're on my YouTube channel. This is fucking |
| 1247 | 01:55:59 --> 01:56:03 | ridiculous, but people still do it. I still get emails right now. I got 12 of |
| 1248 | 01:56:03 --> 01:56:09 | them just this week, saying, How can I join the private mentorship? How the |
| 1249 | 01:56:09 --> 01:56:13 | fuck can you not see that I'm doing everything for free, like I'm not doing |
| 1250 | 01:56:13 --> 01:56:18 | anything paid nothing. But people still come to me, I guarantee you. And on |
| 1251 | 01:56:18 --> 01:56:21 | April 1, I was get I was so tempted. I was gonna put April 1 post up there, |
| 1252 | 01:56:21 --> 01:56:24 | mentorship, $250 mentorship two, $50 a month, but that would have been saved |
| 1253 | 01:56:24 --> 01:56:28 | and screenshot and able to be using it, you know, two years from now. So he does |
| 1254 | 01:56:28 --> 01:56:32 | a piece of shit. He said he was never gonna do a mentorship, and he threw it |
| 1255 | 01:56:32 --> 01:56:35 | there. It won't go over as well as I would like to see it go over, but if I |
| 1256 | 01:56:35 --> 01:56:39 | did a mentorship right now, I'm your all your students that you're paying, that's |
| 1257 | 01:56:39 --> 01:56:42 | paying you right now, they're leaving you. They're coming to my shit. All they |
| 1258 | 01:56:42 --> 01:56:45 | gotta do is see what I've been doing that telegram channel and I put that |
| 1259 | 01:56:45 --> 01:56:48 | shit on lockdown. Say, Hey, that's it. Nobody's gonna be able to come in here |
| 1260 | 01:56:48 --> 01:56:51 | unless they pay you're all looking for your fucking credit card. You're |
| 1261 | 01:56:51 --> 01:56:54 | throwing it at me. Please, let me be a part of that shit. I want to see this |
| 1262 | 01:56:54 --> 01:57:00 | happen every fucking day, but I'm not gonna do that. I'm taking a step back |
| 1263 | 01:57:01 --> 01:57:08 | and letting the people that I taught shine. And guess what? If you have |
| 1264 | 01:57:08 --> 01:57:17 | learned from me and you've done exceedingly well, Allah Kane Kyle and a |
| 1265 | 01:57:17 --> 01:57:23 | number of other people that you're about to see soon, if they market the approach |
| 1266 | 01:57:23 --> 01:57:26 | on how they used it in their own hands, I don't have a fucking problem with |
| 1267 | 01:57:26 --> 01:57:32 | that. I don't have a problem with that. Everybody knows how they got there. |
| 1268 | 01:57:32 --> 01:57:36 | They've worked their ass off for it. They put time into learning how to do |
| 1269 | 01:57:36 --> 01:57:39 | it. They didn't watch one fucking video and say, I got this figured out, baby. |
| 1270 | 01:57:39 --> 01:57:47 | It's easy man, they worked for it, and they are the highest paid mother fuckers |
| 1271 | 01:57:47 --> 01:57:52 | in the Prop industry, because everything's proper, yeah, prop pro, you |
| 1272 | 01:57:52 --> 01:58:03 | have two fucking Monsters, Monsters. So if they say, I'm going to write a book, |
| 1273 | 01:58:04 --> 01:58:07 | I'm going to teach how I use this information, because guess what? They |
| 1274 | 01:58:07 --> 01:58:13 | earned that. They earned it. My problem has always been people talking in |
| 1275 | 01:58:13 --> 01:58:18 | hindsight, soon as they grab that overlay, you know, pretend net long |
| 1276 | 01:58:18 --> 01:58:22 | position, or pretend that short position, where the color red is, where |
| 1277 | 01:58:22 --> 01:58:25 | your risk is, and the green is, or I think it's the color green, but it may |
| 1278 | 01:58:25 --> 01:58:32 | be another color and addition, it's just the trade I took. If you're gonna go |
| 1279 | 01:58:32 --> 01:58:36 | through the all the trouble of live streaming or making a video, saying, |
| 1280 | 01:58:36 --> 01:58:39 | here's the trade, and you're like, I think, I think I've got in here |
| 1281 | 01:58:39 --> 01:58:42 | seriously. I think it's bullshit, because if you took the trade, you're |
| 1282 | 01:58:43 --> 01:58:46 | going to show you took the trade, you're going to show those executions. You're |
| 1283 | 01:58:46 --> 01:58:51 | going to show yourself recorded doing those trades. Isn't it fucking funny? |
| 1284 | 01:58:52 --> 01:58:58 | Isn't it hilarious that everybody from our community that puts the effort in |
| 1285 | 01:58:58 --> 01:59:01 | learning how to do this stuff, predominantly, they're the ones that |
| 1286 | 01:59:01 --> 01:59:06 | show their whole fucking trade in recording from beginning to end. And I |
| 1287 | 01:59:06 --> 01:59:12 | am proud as a fucker. I'm so proud to see that because we are leading, we are |
| 1288 | 01:59:12 --> 01:59:20 | not following shit. We are not emulating anybody else, but everybody fucking body |
| 1289 | 01:59:20 --> 01:59:27 | else wants to emulate us. Why? Because we are cut from a different cough. We |
| 1290 | 01:59:27 --> 01:59:31 | don't think like retail traders. We do not think about what an indicator is |
| 1291 | 01:59:31 --> 01:59:34 | going to tell us to do. We are not subservient to bullshit. |
| 1292 | 01:59:37 --> 01:59:46 | We are on the razor edge of perfection in the marketplace. You can't get better |
| 1293 | 01:59:46 --> 01:59:49 | than to the tick. You can't talk to |
| 1294 | 01:59:52 --> 01:59:59 | me about a ball of fucking Bollinger Band. Get the hell out of here. You |
| 1295 | 01:59:59 --> 02:00:05 | don't know. Oh, you don't know what time that Bollinger Bands gonna touch price. |
| 1296 | 02:00:05 --> 02:00:09 | You're waiting for it. Well, guess what I've done? I've simplified that you're |
| 1297 | 02:00:09 --> 02:00:15 | waiting for a 10 minute window, or in deference to the final hour trading, 30 |
| 1298 | 02:00:15 --> 02:00:20 | minutes with a 315, to 345 I had two guys leaving comments saying, I watched |
| 1299 | 02:00:20 --> 02:00:25 | your video last night. You've never mentioned 315 to 345 so now you're |
| 1300 | 02:00:25 --> 02:00:28 | bullshit. You're making up stuff. Okay, listen, guy, maybe you didn't watch |
| 1301 | 02:00:28 --> 02:00:31 | everything and listen to everything I've ever produced. Okay, but I absolutely |
| 1302 | 02:00:31 --> 02:00:36 | have called that there's four macros in just the last hour trading. So there's |
| 1303 | 02:00:36 --> 02:00:44 | your homeworks on me. Go find out what I told you, what they were. So I you need |
| 1304 | 02:00:44 --> 02:00:52 | to plan how you're going to be successful. Now, when I was younger, I |
| 1305 | 02:00:52 --> 02:00:57 | subscribed to rob report, and that was my motivation. That was my motivation |
| 1306 | 02:00:57 --> 02:01:05 | for boats, cars, watches. That's how I found patak. I fell in love with those |
| 1307 | 02:01:05 --> 02:01:12 | watches, and I've wasted a lot of money, I'm gonna lie, but that magazine was |
| 1308 | 02:01:12 --> 02:01:18 | like my as a child. As a child, we used to wait for the Sears catalog to come |
| 1309 | 02:01:18 --> 02:01:22 | in. I'm dating myself by saying that, but guess what? I'll be 53, years old, |
| 1310 | 02:01:22 --> 02:01:25 | in case you missed it, but the Sears catalog would come in right before |
| 1311 | 02:01:25 --> 02:01:29 | Thanksgiving, and we would take our ink pen and we scribble over top of |
| 1312 | 02:01:29 --> 02:01:37 | everything we wanted in the toy section as a kid. Well, when we have that same |
| 1313 | 02:01:37 --> 02:01:45 | spirit of expectation, we plan ahead like a child in Christmas, I had to |
| 1314 | 02:01:45 --> 02:01:51 | think like a child when I was 20 years old because I had been beaten down, you |
| 1315 | 02:01:51 --> 02:01:55 | know, emotionally in, psychologically with the way I was up my upbringing, it |
| 1316 | 02:01:55 --> 02:02:02 | wasn't nurturing. So I would have no problem living vicariously through movie |
| 1317 | 02:02:02 --> 02:02:07 | characters and superheroes and things like that, because it gave me an escape. |
| 1318 | 02:02:07 --> 02:02:11 | And I understand how some of you young men tap into me, and I'm like that for |
| 1319 | 02:02:11 --> 02:02:17 | you, but I'm I'm telling you, don't, don't let that be a problem, because it |
| 1320 | 02:02:17 --> 02:02:20 | can be. It becomes worship too much, and that's bullshit. I'm not worthy of |
| 1321 | 02:02:20 --> 02:02:24 | worship. I'm not supposed to be lifted up on a pedestal. I'm just like you. I |
| 1322 | 02:02:24 --> 02:02:28 | put my pants on the same fucking way, and I'm going through pain right now. If |
| 1323 | 02:02:28 --> 02:02:30 | you saw me, you'd be like, Man, you tore up, right? |
| 1324 | 02:02:31 --> 02:02:38 | I'm human, just like you are. But you need to plan how you're going to be |
| 1325 | 02:02:38 --> 02:02:39 | successful. |
| 1326 | 02:02:41 --> 02:02:45 | Doesn't mean go through the list of every supercar you ever wanted to have. |
| 1327 | 02:02:45 --> 02:02:52 | It doesn't mean plan on how you're going to show how you did this, bought that |
| 1328 | 02:02:52 --> 02:02:59 | one, went into debt for this one, but it does mean when I make this much money |
| 1329 | 02:02:59 --> 02:03:04 | and I reach this goal, I'm going to visit this destination, and that's what |
| 1330 | 02:03:04 --> 02:03:11 | I did. I had destinations outlined and schedules. I would like to get here. |
| 1331 | 02:03:11 --> 02:03:16 | What I said there, I would like to get to Fiji by this age, at this time, I |
| 1332 | 02:03:16 --> 02:03:20 | would like to get to Australia. I was going to go, but there's too many things |
| 1333 | 02:03:20 --> 02:03:23 | in Australia. They want to kill you. It's too easy. So I easy. So I stayed |
| 1334 | 02:03:23 --> 02:03:29 | away from Australia. But the idea of planning where we're going to spend our |
| 1335 | 02:03:29 --> 02:03:33 | success, the things that we want to do, like I always wanted a, you know, a nice |
| 1336 | 02:03:33 --> 02:03:36 | home. I still want a log cabin. I've been trying to talk my wife into it. |
| 1337 | 02:03:36 --> 02:03:39 | She's not, she's not big on the whole thing, but I think they're beautiful. |
| 1338 | 02:03:39 --> 02:03:43 | And I'm not talking about some Uncle Ben's bullshit, okay, I'm talking about |
| 1339 | 02:03:43 --> 02:03:50 | a really nice out in like Montana, big, big, sprawling log cabin, big ass |
| 1340 | 02:03:50 --> 02:03:55 | fireplace, you know, I to me, I think that would be awesome, even if we use it |
| 1341 | 02:03:55 --> 02:03:59 | for just a holiday season. That'd be awesome, but and get some horses and |
| 1342 | 02:03:59 --> 02:04:03 | stuff. You know, I was younger. My family had horses and stuff, so I I'm |
| 1343 | 02:04:03 --> 02:04:07 | used to having that. So that's for the guys who are saying, Why did you talk |
| 1344 | 02:04:07 --> 02:04:11 | about that neat hoof guy? Because I grew up around all that stuff. And when you |
| 1345 | 02:04:11 --> 02:04:16 | see it, you know, we don't look at it like, ooh. But anyway, I digress, |
| 1346 | 02:04:17 --> 02:04:24 | planning your success, and I'm going to close it. What do you want to acquire in |
| 1347 | 02:04:24 --> 02:04:29 | life? And you need to be very, very specific. If it's just lots of money, |
| 1348 | 02:04:29 --> 02:04:38 | that's not specific, and having $1 amount is not what I'm asking. Where are |
| 1349 | 02:04:38 --> 02:04:44 | you going to be living, and how are you going to be living? How is your How is |
| 1350 | 02:04:44 --> 02:04:48 | your ends going to be met? Are you rushing to get to something like a big |
| 1351 | 02:04:48 --> 02:04:52 | house, even if you pay cash for it, your big houses cost a lot of money when they |
| 1352 | 02:04:52 --> 02:04:57 | go down. Like you have to repair things, you have to replace things, you got to |
| 1353 | 02:04:57 --> 02:05:02 | just to paint my walls of my house, to. I got three years ago, two years ago, |
| 1354 | 02:05:03 --> 02:05:09 | something like that cost me $48,000 just to paint the walls not to see on I got |
| 1355 | 02:05:09 --> 02:05:15 | to do them this year. Where's that money going to come from? If you have a big |
| 1356 | 02:05:15 --> 02:05:20 | house, you want to buy big arsenal of cars, okay, that's going to cost you |
| 1357 | 02:05:20 --> 02:05:24 | lots of money and upkeep if you're going to keep them. To keep them or waste |
| 1358 | 02:05:24 --> 02:05:27 | money turning them and turning them, give them, give them back to get money. |
| 1359 | 02:05:29 --> 02:05:36 | I did all those things. It's stupid. You can buy a super car and pay $15,000 for |
| 1360 | 02:05:36 --> 02:05:42 | the oil changes. That's stupid. That's dumb. And you're spending that money to |
| 1361 | 02:05:42 --> 02:05:47 | get a pop from people that you're not going to spend time with. You're |
| 1362 | 02:05:47 --> 02:05:54 | monetizing your personal expenses to fund a small, significant amount of |
| 1363 | 02:05:54 --> 02:05:59 | time, and whenever that response is given to you by adoration from people |
| 1364 | 02:05:59 --> 02:06:03 | that you're never going to meet. Man, I wish I was like so and so. Look at their |
| 1365 | 02:06:03 --> 02:06:07 | cars. Oh, I wish I was like him, because he made this much money so and so in |
| 1366 | 02:06:07 --> 02:06:12 | this trade. Once that said, it's over done, but you're stuck with the bill and |
| 1367 | 02:06:12 --> 02:06:21 | a waste of money. I learned those lessons in my 20s. I'm comfortable never |
| 1368 | 02:06:21 --> 02:06:26 | showing anybody anything. I don't need to do that. And that's the mentality I |
| 1369 | 02:06:26 --> 02:06:30 | want you as a student of mine, like you don't care what people think that you |
| 1370 | 02:06:30 --> 02:06:37 | make or don't have. Who cares? Who cares? Is it changing? If you honestly, |
| 1371 | 02:06:37 --> 02:06:41 | okay, you got a couple million dollars just in one bank account, just in one |
| 1372 | 02:06:41 --> 02:06:45 | and that's where you draw from, when things you gotta be paid, and what you |
| 1373 | 02:06:45 --> 02:06:48 | draw from for the year, when you know there's parties and you can be doing |
| 1374 | 02:06:48 --> 02:06:50 | gifts and vacations, and you're doing |
| 1375 | 02:06:50 --> 02:06:55 | this and doing that, anybody's opinion about you, what you can |
| 1376 | 02:06:55 --> 02:06:58 | and can't do, is it going to diminish the amount of money in that bank |
| 1377 | 02:06:58 --> 02:07:03 | account, the way these people fucking act on social media. You think that |
| 1378 | 02:07:03 --> 02:07:06 | they're going broke every time someone says something bad about them, that's |
| 1379 | 02:07:06 --> 02:07:10 | how you know when they're fucking really broke. If they're broke or on the cusp |
| 1380 | 02:07:10 --> 02:07:13 | of being broke at any given time, or just don't have any money at all, |
| 1381 | 02:07:13 --> 02:07:16 | they're the ones gonna be the loudest when you talk about money. Oh, you |
| 1382 | 02:07:16 --> 02:07:20 | broke. Oh, let me go ahead and defend myself. Show my stuff. Let me show my |
| 1383 | 02:07:20 --> 02:07:26 | stuff. That's how you know they don't have a lot of money. People that have a |
| 1384 | 02:07:26 --> 02:07:30 | lot of money, they don't spend any time worrying, because it's like, it's a UK |
| 1385 | 02:07:30 --> 02:07:35 | who are you? Who are you? And that's the problem right now you you're looking at |
| 1386 | 02:07:35 --> 02:07:43 | post millions problems before you even made $1 you're trying to live your life |
| 1387 | 02:07:43 --> 02:07:48 | like you got to defend yourself, defend who you're learning from, defend what |
| 1388 | 02:07:48 --> 02:07:54 | you're learning because you're too vocal in a position of ignorance. Still, |
| 1389 | 02:07:55 --> 02:07:59 | that's not the meaning remark. That's me saying some of you go out there and you |
| 1390 | 02:07:59 --> 02:08:03 | beat your chest and you say, ICT is the best way of trading blah, blah, blah, |
| 1391 | 02:08:03 --> 02:08:10 | but you can't do it yet. And when people throw you smack talk back, you clam up, |
| 1392 | 02:08:10 --> 02:08:15 | and that means you've completely took that, that counteractive response that |
| 1393 | 02:08:15 --> 02:08:19 | they give you, which is natural, right, if you're going to talk smack. So my own |
| 1394 | 02:08:19 --> 02:08:22 | internet's going to talk smack back and then probably working at Dunkin Donuts, |
| 1395 | 02:08:22 --> 02:08:25 | and they're never going to make it in life anywhere but that little remark, |
| 1396 | 02:08:25 --> 02:08:30 | because you're not equipped yet, that little remark is going to have a lasting |
| 1397 | 02:08:30 --> 02:08:34 | impression. It's going to cut you deep, and it's going to motivate you. Well, |
| 1398 | 02:08:34 --> 02:08:37 | I'm going to go on here. Watch. I'm going to take a trade, not a show. I'm |
| 1399 | 02:08:37 --> 02:08:41 | going to reply and show where my arrows are on this trade and Bada bing bada, |
| 1400 | 02:08:41 --> 02:08:46 | boom, I've redeemed. Think about how many times you've done that. How many |
| 1401 | 02:08:46 --> 02:08:50 | times have you done that? Because you feel like you gotta defend what you're |
| 1402 | 02:08:50 --> 02:08:57 | learning. Look around we, our community, and the giants that are rising up from |
| 1403 | 02:08:57 --> 02:09:03 | it are doing all the proof that's necessary. If it didn't work, they |
| 1404 | 02:09:03 --> 02:09:07 | wouldn't be taking millions of dollars out of these companies, and they're not |
| 1405 | 02:09:07 --> 02:09:14 | affiliates. Make that make sense. You don't need to defend anything. Put your |
| 1406 | 02:09:14 --> 02:09:19 | ass in the charts study. Don't worry about what I'm doing next in a new |
| 1407 | 02:09:19 --> 02:09:24 | video. I don't really want to do them. Okay, you have enough. You have enough. |
| 1408 | 02:09:25 --> 02:09:29 | And if you put yourself in front of the charts and you study and you work on |
| 1409 | 02:09:29 --> 02:09:34 | pruning yourself, that means removing dead branches, the twigs that are dried |
| 1410 | 02:09:34 --> 02:09:39 | up, it's not going to bear any fruit. It might be friendships. Maybe you're in a |
| 1411 | 02:09:39 --> 02:09:43 | friendship that's toxic as shit. Maybe you're around friends that you've known |
| 1412 | 02:09:43 --> 02:09:47 | all your life, and I did this, and they just are not subscribed to how you're |
| 1413 | 02:09:47 --> 02:09:50 | wanting to live your life, in the direction you're taking it, and all they |
| 1414 | 02:09:50 --> 02:09:54 | care about is weekend money. Girl money. I gotta get my job. I gotta you. Can you |
| 1415 | 02:09:54 --> 02:09:58 | borrow money? Can they borrow money from you? Because they're gonna be short on |
| 1416 | 02:09:58 --> 02:10:03 | this week so they can go to the bar and try. To get laid. I had people like that |
| 1417 | 02:10:03 --> 02:10:13 | in my life, not anymore, not anymore. I have my friends are on one hand now, and |
| 1418 | 02:10:13 --> 02:10:17 | one of them has the majority of my time, if I ever give it out. I have a very, |
| 1419 | 02:10:17 --> 02:10:21 | very small circle of friendship where I was younger. I had lots of friends, and |
| 1420 | 02:10:21 --> 02:10:26 | when I was coming up and making money, I had lots more fucking friends. I had |
| 1421 | 02:10:26 --> 02:10:29 | people that dream and fucking know me. They call me their best friend. Oh yeah, |
| 1422 | 02:10:29 --> 02:10:33 | I know. I know. I know him. He's He's loaded me. Watch this, watch this. And I |
| 1423 | 02:10:34 --> 02:10:37 | felt like I had to do stupid shit like pay for everybody's meal, pay for |
| 1424 | 02:10:37 --> 02:10:43 | everybody's entertainment, because I felt that I had to do those things or |
| 1425 | 02:10:43 --> 02:10:49 | they wouldn't believe me, because I was new money. New Money acts like that. I'm |
| 1426 | 02:10:49 --> 02:10:54 | telling you, when you make your money, don't act like new money. That means |
| 1427 | 02:10:54 --> 02:10:59 | don't go proven something that you already know for yourself. That's |
| 1428 | 02:10:59 --> 02:11:06 | weakness on your part and and lacking character, you have all the evidence |
| 1429 | 02:11:06 --> 02:11:09 | that you have in your own hands, in your own bank account and your own results. |
| 1430 | 02:11:09 --> 02:11:13 | There's no necessity for you to go out there and say, I'm going to go put this |
| 1431 | 02:11:13 --> 02:11:17 | out there in the ether, so that way they can remind me that this is real. That's |
| 1432 | 02:11:18 --> 02:11:23 | what you're doing. And the people that have put the work and effort into doing |
| 1433 | 02:11:23 --> 02:11:27 | this, they're not going out there for the sake of flaunting it. Now, do they |
| 1434 | 02:11:27 --> 02:11:33 | go out and buy nice things? Sure, sure, there's nothing wrong with that, but |
| 1435 | 02:11:33 --> 02:11:36 | they're not making that. That's the entirety of their presentation, and |
| 1436 | 02:11:36 --> 02:11:42 | that's who they are. They're showing you the receipts that they've done well, in |
| 1437 | 02:11:42 --> 02:11:49 | my opinion, none of you should do that. I understand if you, if you came from a |
| 1438 | 02:11:49 --> 02:11:53 | humble background like I did, you just want to have a little atta boy, at a |
| 1439 | 02:11:53 --> 02:11:57 | girl, you just want to have it okay? I understand, believe me, I understand, if |
| 1440 | 02:11:57 --> 02:12:01 | anybody doesn't understand it or understands it more than anybody else. |
| 1441 | 02:12:01 --> 02:12:04 | It's going to be me, because I felt like I had to prove everything to the whole |
| 1442 | 02:12:04 --> 02:12:11 | world. But when you change your nightmare focus of how everything is |
| 1443 | 02:12:11 --> 02:12:16 | bad, toxic, it's never going to work for you, and you trade that for everything |
| 1444 | 02:12:16 --> 02:12:20 | on the up and up in a ride on the good ship, lollipop, everything's just |
| 1445 | 02:12:20 --> 02:12:24 | perfect, and everything that happens to you is for a purpose, even when it is |
| 1446 | 02:12:24 --> 02:12:29 | slightly painful, we don't magnify it. We don't beat up a trade and say, Well, |
| 1447 | 02:12:29 --> 02:12:32 | yeah, you should have never lost that. You should have never let it hit the |
| 1448 | 02:12:32 --> 02:12:35 | stop. You knew it was gonna hit that stop, but you still kept the trade on. |
| 1449 | 02:12:35 --> 02:12:37 | Why did you do that? You should have took it off. You knew the stop was gonna |
| 1450 | 02:12:37 --> 02:12:40 | get hit. You should have saved some of the stop. Don't even do that either |
| 1451 | 02:12:41 --> 02:12:45 | because what you're doing is you're vilifying yourself. And right before you |
| 1452 | 02:12:45 --> 02:12:48 | trade, let me tell you something. This is what's scientifically going on behind |
| 1453 | 02:12:48 --> 02:12:52 | the scenes, chemically inside your brain, right before you push the button. |
| 1454 | 02:12:52 --> 02:12:56 | Even in a demo, all these people talk, oh, you got to trade with real money to |
| 1455 | 02:12:56 --> 02:13:02 | learn how to trade with a real account, because nothing's happening. There's no |
| 1456 | 02:13:02 --> 02:13:08 | sense of concern when it's a demo bullshit, bullshit. Tell me how you feel |
| 1457 | 02:13:08 --> 02:13:12 | when you blew that account the first time you did it. You're pissed off like, |
| 1458 | 02:13:12 --> 02:13:16 | Fuck the real money. That's scary shit. I ain't ready. Oh, just do a recycling |
| 1459 | 02:13:16 --> 02:13:21 | that's your dismissal of it. But you knew what that felt like. So the people |
| 1460 | 02:13:21 --> 02:13:26 | that talk that shit say, Oh yeah, that's horse shit. That's horse shit. You do |
| 1461 | 02:13:26 --> 02:13:29 | not learn how to trade jumping right into a live account and with 100 bucks, |
| 1462 | 02:13:29 --> 02:13:32 | you got to put something on the line. You have something on the line, your |
| 1463 | 02:13:32 --> 02:13:37 | pride, your ego, your sense of self worth, even in a demo, I don't give a |
| 1464 | 02:13:37 --> 02:13:41 | fuck what anybody tells you that's the truth. That is the truth. You know it |
| 1465 | 02:13:41 --> 02:13:45 | because you felt it before you hit the reset, and now, because you're trading |
| 1466 | 02:13:45 --> 02:13:50 | funded simulated accounts when you're paying that reset fee, you hate it. I |
| 1467 | 02:13:50 --> 02:13:55 | don't give a shit. It's 99% the fuck off. You don't want to pay that because |
| 1468 | 02:13:55 --> 02:13:59 | you fucked up. You did something you knew you damn well should have never |
| 1469 | 02:13:59 --> 02:14:05 | done, and you blew it. Well, guess what? You can take that experience and beat |
| 1470 | 02:14:05 --> 02:14:13 | yourself up for years like I did, punish yourself and remind yourself that you |
| 1471 | 02:14:13 --> 02:14:19 | don't deserve it. And the previous results are perfect illustrations of you |
| 1472 | 02:14:19 --> 02:14:28 | don't deserve it. Look how many times you mess it up. I had enigma. I had it |
| 1473 | 02:14:29 --> 02:14:36 | three years before I knew I had it. I was tinkering with it, changing this and |
| 1474 | 02:14:36 --> 02:14:40 | changing that. Instead of saying, What the hell dude like this, but my pursuit |
| 1475 | 02:14:40 --> 02:14:47 | of absolute perfection blinded me, because I had this deep, rooted desire |
| 1476 | 02:14:47 --> 02:14:51 | to feel significant, because my own family members cut me deep when they |
| 1477 | 02:14:51 --> 02:14:54 | said I wasn't going to be successful at it. Nobody's going to be able to do |
| 1478 | 02:14:54 --> 02:14:57 | that. That doesn't make any damn sense, because if anybody could do it, |
| 1479 | 02:14:57 --> 02:15:02 | everybody would be doing it. And my wife, I. I wanted to win her back with |
| 1480 | 02:15:02 --> 02:15:07 | success. In reality, I would have never wanted her back after what she's done if |
| 1481 | 02:15:07 --> 02:15:12 | I was thinking, you know, objectively, because I was hurt, I stayed in that |
| 1482 | 02:15:12 --> 02:15:16 | nightmarish perspective. Everything was bad, everything was toxic. And if you're |
| 1483 | 02:15:16 --> 02:15:20 | taking that perspective into your drink, into trading and in post trade, if you |
| 1484 | 02:15:20 --> 02:15:27 | have a bad example of execution, don't beat yourself up. Don't dwell on it and |
| 1485 | 02:15:27 --> 02:15:35 | don't don't solidify it and make a tribute to your demise on that one |
| 1486 | 02:15:35 --> 02:15:40 | transaction, because every single time, right before you push the button in your |
| 1487 | 02:15:40 --> 02:15:44 | trading, whether it be demo simulated account where you get paid out, if it's |
| 1488 | 02:15:44 --> 02:15:50 | profitable through these account companies or it's real money, it does |
| 1489 | 02:15:50 --> 02:15:53 | not matter. It's the same thing going on in your brain. You're worried about |
| 1490 | 02:15:53 --> 02:16:01 | being wrong. That is the God's honest truth. You are worried about being |
| 1491 | 02:16:01 --> 02:16:12 | wrong, even if it's demo I have had students literally email me, flipping |
| 1492 | 02:16:12 --> 02:16:16 | out, having anxiety attacks because they can't get even demo account results in |
| 1493 | 02:16:16 --> 02:16:20 | the beginning because they're rushing it. Understand. How can I fix this? You |
| 1494 | 02:16:20 --> 02:16:23 | need to learn how to learn how to trade and you need to manage yourself and stop |
| 1495 | 02:16:23 --> 02:16:31 | focusing on toxicity. You have to be your best and biggest cheerleader, and |
| 1496 | 02:16:31 --> 02:16:38 | that means you're nurturing your future self, whatever you record as negative. |
| 1497 | 02:16:38 --> 02:16:41 | That's like a father telling their son you're a miserable piece of shit. You're |
| 1498 | 02:16:41 --> 02:16:43 | never gonna amount to anything |
| 1499 | 02:16:44 --> 02:16:50 | that's gonna that's gonna haunt them the rest of their life. I had that with my |
| 1500 | 02:16:50 --> 02:16:57 | grandmother, honey, you're lazy. I can hear her southern twang. It's that shit |
| 1501 | 02:16:57 --> 02:17:02 | cut me. And guess what that was? That was rocket fuel, not in the beginning, |
| 1502 | 02:17:02 --> 02:17:06 | it was reminded this wasn't for me, and I was never gonna be successful, and I |
| 1503 | 02:17:06 --> 02:17:09 | never gonna mount the shit, and I'm lucky if I get a job. That's what it |
| 1504 | 02:17:09 --> 02:17:14 | made me think. But when I started applying this approach to how I think |
| 1505 | 02:17:14 --> 02:17:21 | and how I live my life, I'm the biggest super fucking hero I know I am see in |
| 1506 | 02:17:21 --> 02:17:25 | nightmares, your escape from that thing that's coming after you. It's |
| 1507 | 02:17:25 --> 02:17:33 | impossible, it's impossible. But guess what, in your dreams, impossible |
| 1508 | 02:17:33 --> 02:17:39 | becomes, I am I'm possible. I am possible. I am possible. I can do all |
| 1509 | 02:17:39 --> 02:17:46 | those things in dreams. And I sat my ass down, and I told myself, I'm going to |
| 1510 | 02:17:46 --> 02:17:54 | crack this shit, and I'm not leaving until I do. And I gave my entire waking |
| 1511 | 02:17:54 --> 02:18:01 | moments, even while driving, albeit unsafe. But I was doing everything I |
| 1512 | 02:18:01 --> 02:18:05 | could, every waking moment was poured into the marketplace. And I think after |
| 1513 | 02:18:05 --> 02:18:13 | this year, you can see the fruits of that. What's that guy at plays, chess, |
| 1514 | 02:18:13 --> 02:18:17 | Bobby Fisher? I think it is. Yeah, I'm the fucking Bobby Fisher of price |
| 1515 | 02:18:17 --> 02:18:21 | action. And you can call that narcissistic bragging, whatever fuck you |
| 1516 | 02:18:21 --> 02:18:26 | want to call it, but I literally can do this like it's nothing. I don't get |
| 1517 | 02:18:26 --> 02:18:29 | worried about missing a setup. I'm not worried about missing a time, okay? I |
| 1518 | 02:18:29 --> 02:18:34 | know all the setups in between macros too. So go fuck yourself. You can talk |
| 1519 | 02:18:34 --> 02:18:38 | all that bullshit from ignorance trying to make a name for yourself on insults. |
| 1520 | 02:18:38 --> 02:18:40 | You can't do shit you so how |
| 1521 | 02:18:45 --> 02:18:50 | are you going to leave from today? Besides saying you said a lot of |
| 1522 | 02:18:50 --> 02:18:51 | customers this time, |
| 1523 | 02:18:52 --> 02:19:03 | this is how you're going to leave it your time post trade. That means demo or |
| 1524 | 02:19:04 --> 02:19:11 | back testing or forward testing, tape reading. You need to sow seeds of |
| 1525 | 02:19:11 --> 02:19:16 | encouragement and reward yourself. Think about yourself right now as your as your |
| 1526 | 02:19:16 --> 02:19:20 | own child. Because in a lot of ways, if you're brand new into trading, you are |
| 1527 | 02:19:20 --> 02:19:25 | your own child. You're you're raising yourself. Now, if you're left to raise |
| 1528 | 02:19:25 --> 02:19:28 | yourself and you don't have any boundaries, you don't have any |
| 1529 | 02:19:28 --> 02:19:34 | parameters or or sense of discipline, you're going to be a mess. So what you |
| 1530 | 02:19:34 --> 02:19:37 | have to do is you have to be the good father figure, the good mother figure, |
| 1531 | 02:19:37 --> 02:19:44 | to yourself and tell yourself in those journals, this is what you did, right? |
| 1532 | 02:19:44 --> 02:19:50 | And I'm so happy for you. In essence, that's what you're doing, but you're not |
| 1533 | 02:19:50 --> 02:19:54 | talking to yourself in the third person, you're literally saying, I'm so thankful |
| 1534 | 02:19:54 --> 02:19:59 | that I got to see this pan out this way, and if it's an adverse response that you |
| 1535 | 02:19:59 --> 02:20:02 | were looking for. Earlier, and it didn't, I'm sorry if you're looking for |
| 1536 | 02:20:02 --> 02:20:06 | nothing a certain way to pan out and an adverse result was given to you in the |
| 1537 | 02:20:06 --> 02:20:11 | sense of a losing trade, or it would have hypothetically been a losing trade |
| 1538 | 02:20:11 --> 02:20:16 | if you're tape reading record the idea that, hey, look, I had the experience of |
| 1539 | 02:20:16 --> 02:20:20 | seeing this many executions hypothetically, and I've gained the |
| 1540 | 02:20:20 --> 02:20:25 | experience without having any of the risk in the hardships having done it. So |
| 1541 | 02:20:25 --> 02:20:30 | what you're doing is you're constantly reminding yourself of risk. The people |
| 1542 | 02:20:30 --> 02:20:34 | that blow up, they never have any sensitivity to risk. They have gamblers |
| 1543 | 02:20:34 --> 02:20:39 | numbness. That's why they keep blowing accounts, and they don't mind repaying |
| 1544 | 02:20:39 --> 02:20:43 | it. They suck. They can't do it and they still keep paying for it, because |
| 1545 | 02:20:43 --> 02:20:46 | they're numb to the risk. Why? Because they're only going to it's only going to |
| 1546 | 02:20:46 --> 02:20:52 | cost them whatever the reset fee is. And when they do 1000s of them, and they |
| 1547 | 02:20:52 --> 02:20:55 | look at that, I don't mean I could have really funded my own account if I would |
| 1548 | 02:20:55 --> 02:20:59 | have known how to trade in the beginning and just trade with one micro account or |
| 1549 | 02:20:59 --> 02:21:03 | one micro contract and only one execution per day, I probably would have |
| 1550 | 02:21:03 --> 02:21:08 | turned a profit and feel that much better about myself. Instead of this, |
| 1551 | 02:21:08 --> 02:21:13 | feeding this, this machine of nightmares, that's what you're doing. |
| 1552 | 02:21:13 --> 02:21:18 | You're just feeding nightmares with the same repeating, poor logic. You're not |
| 1553 | 02:21:18 --> 02:21:24 | doing anything to fix it. So you have to go back, go back to the origin of why |
| 1554 | 02:21:24 --> 02:21:27 | you're even here, to try to learn how to trade, and if it's for the wrong |
| 1555 | 02:21:27 --> 02:21:31 | reasons. Materialism. Show everybody that you're smart, show everybody that |
| 1556 | 02:21:31 --> 02:21:36 | you're rich. That's all the wrong reasons. Success is living well and not |
| 1557 | 02:21:36 --> 02:21:41 | needing to go around proven to everybody. You don't need to do that |
| 1558 | 02:21:41 --> 02:21:45 | because you're already comfortable. I don't know you can't sugarcoat me being |
| 1559 | 02:21:45 --> 02:21:49 | happy every day, waking up like I do. You. Tell me anything about how you |
| 1560 | 02:21:49 --> 02:21:55 | think I live is not going to make it any better than it already is. That's how |
| 1561 | 02:21:55 --> 02:21:59 | you define success. I am not worried about anybody else's opinion, whether it |
| 1562 | 02:21:59 --> 02:22:03 | be good or bad. It doesn't affect me. It literally has no effect over me, and I |
| 1563 | 02:22:03 --> 02:22:06 | like toying with everybody else that thinks that that bothers me. If it |
| 1564 | 02:22:06 --> 02:22:10 | bothered me, I wouldn't be on x. I wouldn't be there where everybody could |
| 1565 | 02:22:10 --> 02:22:15 | take a jab at me and you see how I am. But most of you aren't equipped to be |
| 1566 | 02:22:15 --> 02:22:20 | like that. Every little bad thing they say about me, you take it personal, like |
| 1567 | 02:22:20 --> 02:22:24 | they said it to you, like they talked about your dad. Don't you talk about my |
| 1568 | 02:22:24 --> 02:22:28 | dad? I'll bust your ass right here. That's how some of you act. And that |
| 1569 | 02:22:28 --> 02:22:33 | just shows that you're still immature in this you're still trying to find your |
| 1570 | 02:22:33 --> 02:22:38 | way in yourself, and by having a principle oriented approach to |
| 1571 | 02:22:38 --> 02:22:44 | journaling, you can trade nightmarish perspective on life and trading to a |
| 1572 | 02:22:44 --> 02:22:49 | dreamscape perspective where everything is a positive and you filter out all the |
| 1573 | 02:22:49 --> 02:22:55 | negativity, all of it, because if you allow one shred of it, it will it'll |
| 1574 | 02:22:55 --> 02:23:00 | fester. It's like this. It's the very, very small rock in your shoe. You can |
| 1575 | 02:23:00 --> 02:23:03 | have all the nicest cushion shoes, hiking shoes, Jordans, whatever the hell |
| 1576 | 02:23:03 --> 02:23:07 | you want to call it, best comfortable shoe in the world. Put a small little |
| 1577 | 02:23:07 --> 02:23:11 | pebble in that bitch and see what happens. That's what you're inviting. |
| 1578 | 02:23:11 --> 02:23:17 | That experience when you let one thing of toxicity into your journal, when you |
| 1579 | 02:23:17 --> 02:23:22 | let other people's influence into your circle. That means, if you're on social |
| 1580 | 02:23:22 --> 02:23:30 | media, in trading, and you're in like, the Twitter segment of x, or trading |
| 1581 | 02:23:30 --> 02:23:36 | segment of it, basically where we are and where I'm located, if you're not |
| 1582 | 02:23:36 --> 02:23:40 | equipped to handle things like this, don't ever talk. Don't comment to me. |
| 1583 | 02:23:40 --> 02:23:45 | Don't comment to anybody else. Don't share anything. Be a gray man, a gray |
| 1584 | 02:23:45 --> 02:23:50 | woman, where you're nobody notices you, and you're going to do so much better in |
| 1585 | 02:23:50 --> 02:23:55 | your development, 100% guaranteed, because you're not going to be |
| 1586 | 02:23:55 --> 02:23:58 | influenced adversely by someone's opinion, whether it be poor or toxic, it |
| 1587 | 02:23:58 --> 02:24:03 | may be completely unfounded, which most of it is, but you're going to take it |
| 1588 | 02:24:03 --> 02:24:07 | personal and you're going to dwell on that. And if you do a trade and it |
| 1589 | 02:24:07 --> 02:24:10 | misses, you're going to take, yeah, maybe there's people that do say ICTs |
| 1590 | 02:24:10 --> 02:24:13 | are fraud and ICT concepts are rebranded, or just that one thing, |
| 1591 | 02:24:13 --> 02:24:16 | anything negative, you're going to start thinking about, you're going to dwell on |
| 1592 | 02:24:16 --> 02:24:19 | it. Maybe they're true. Am I wasting my time? Because I'm telling you, I have so |
| 1593 | 02:24:19 --> 02:24:24 | many students that came back to me saying, I believe the bullshit. I messed |
| 1594 | 02:24:24 --> 02:24:29 | up, and I've been putting effort in, and now I've been behind some $1,000 here's |
| 1595 | 02:24:29 --> 02:24:33 | the Proceed, here's a receipt of it, here's what I'm doing. And they're |
| 1596 | 02:24:33 --> 02:24:38 | eating crow, basically saying you were right. Here I am telling you you're |
| 1597 | 02:24:38 --> 02:24:43 | right, and I'm thankful that I was smart enough to come back and listen to you, |
| 1598 | 02:24:43 --> 02:24:47 | because I'm the most practical guy that you're going to listen to in trading. |
| 1599 | 02:24:47 --> 02:24:51 | I've lived it all. I've done it all, and I'm proving it. There's nobody out there |
| 1600 | 02:24:51 --> 02:24:55 | that's going to be able to tell you that their system is going to operate and |
| 1601 | 02:24:55 --> 02:24:59 | give you the signal at this time of the day, every fucking day, and then do it. |
| 1602 | 02:24:59 --> 02:25:04 | Nobody. Not one mother fucker is going to be able to do that, but my students |
| 1603 | 02:25:04 --> 02:25:12 | can. They learned it from me and before me. It never existed. Never Existed. And |
| 1604 | 02:25:12 --> 02:25:17 | that's why I'm confident, because I know what time it is at all times it's time |
| 1605 | 02:25:17 --> 02:25:21 | to trade or it's not time to trade, that's how it works. I've defined |
| 1606 | 02:25:21 --> 02:25:27 | everything in those terms. If it's time to trade, I'll find a setup. You see him |
| 1607 | 02:25:27 --> 02:25:30 | the troll? Oh, he's got all these things he's gonna justify. So you're damn |
| 1608 | 02:25:30 --> 02:25:36 | right. I could fucking trade everything. I could trade it all. I could put all |
| 1609 | 02:25:36 --> 02:25:41 | these Mickey Mouse indicators on my chart, but still trade what I know and |
| 1610 | 02:25:41 --> 02:25:46 | use my PDA raise and time only the entries with the PD arrays when the |
| 1611 | 02:25:46 --> 02:25:50 | moving average is sloping down and you swear, up and down. Oh, it's working, |
| 1612 | 02:25:50 --> 02:25:54 | because the moving averages, no, I thought, I thought about doing that so |
| 1613 | 02:25:54 --> 02:25:58 | many times in the past, just the troll, just to do silly shit like that. But |
| 1614 | 02:25:58 --> 02:26:02 | it's like, you know, I would be causing more confusion by doing that, because |
| 1615 | 02:26:02 --> 02:26:05 | somebody's going to take that information as a joke, like I've done in |
| 1616 | 02:26:05 --> 02:26:10 | the past, and make it to be something it's not. So I have to be more guarded |
| 1617 | 02:26:10 --> 02:26:15 | in some of the things I do, in the antics that I do on x now, because it's |
| 1618 | 02:26:15 --> 02:26:22 | easy not to see my dry humor, and sometimes, because I can't edit I can, |
| 1619 | 02:26:22 --> 02:26:27 | but I won't edit any any post, and because I won't delete anything, once I |
| 1620 | 02:26:27 --> 02:26:31 | put it out there, it stays. And sometimes I wish I wouldn't have done |
| 1621 | 02:26:31 --> 02:26:35 | certain things, because I've had people email me say, I'm confused. You're |
| 1622 | 02:26:35 --> 02:26:37 | saying that these things don't work anymore. I'm like, No, I'm being |
| 1623 | 02:26:37 --> 02:26:40 | sarcastic, like they change the algorithm. They're not going to change |
| 1624 | 02:26:40 --> 02:26:44 | the algorithm. Okay, the market's going to go up or it's going to go down. And |
| 1625 | 02:26:44 --> 02:26:48 | the inefficiencies between two points of interest, whether it be a premium or |
| 1626 | 02:26:48 --> 02:26:52 | discount, there's going to be inefficiencies in between that it's |
| 1627 | 02:26:52 --> 02:26:56 | never a straight line, never a straight line. And the broader the difference in |
| 1628 | 02:26:56 --> 02:27:00 | chasm between the difference of the high end and the low end of that range you're |
| 1629 | 02:27:00 --> 02:27:04 | working towards in terms of defining premium and discount, the more |
| 1630 | 02:27:04 --> 02:27:06 | opportunity is going to be there. That means there's gonna be more PD arrays. |
| 1631 | 02:27:07 --> 02:27:12 | If it's a small range, only expect one or two at best. That right there is a |
| 1632 | 02:27:12 --> 02:27:16 | nugget for staying with me this long, the longer you look for the price run to |
| 1633 | 02:27:16 --> 02:27:21 | exist. You know, you're looking at an implied dealing range. That means where |
| 1634 | 02:27:21 --> 02:27:26 | it's at right now, where you think it's going. It hasn't done that yet. You can |
| 1635 | 02:27:26 --> 02:27:30 | grade that price swing and see where the lower quadrant equilibrium, upper |
| 1636 | 02:27:30 --> 02:27:35 | quadrant levels are. And you can anticipate, anticipate, scientifically |
| 1637 | 02:27:35 --> 02:27:40 | proven go back and back test that you'll see it where my PD arrays are going to |
| 1638 | 02:27:40 --> 02:27:44 | form. I know when my fair value gaps are going to form. I know when my order |
| 1639 | 02:27:44 --> 02:27:47 | blocks are going to form. I know when my institutional order flow entry drills |
| 1640 | 02:27:47 --> 02:27:52 | are going to form. I know when breakaway gaps. I've proven it, but every other |
| 1641 | 02:27:52 --> 02:27:57 | discipline in trading can't say the same, and that's what I speak against. I |
| 1642 | 02:27:57 --> 02:28:01 | speak against the infancy of all that other stuff. But anyone, anyone anyone |
| 1643 | 02:28:01 --> 02:28:04 | can start from any of that stuff. I started from that shift. It's it's all |
| 1644 | 02:28:04 --> 02:28:09 | trash, but I started there, and I'm glad that I did that, because it gives me a |
| 1645 | 02:28:09 --> 02:28:14 | greater affinity for my own life's work, because it's light years ahead of all |
| 1646 | 02:28:14 --> 02:28:20 | that other stuff. But I've said this in the past, anyone that has disciplined |
| 1647 | 02:28:20 --> 02:28:26 | themselves and they have respect for the measure of risk on every transaction, |
| 1648 | 02:28:26 --> 02:28:30 | and they're personally responsible. They don't blame anything outside themselves. |
| 1649 | 02:28:30 --> 02:28:34 | They don't blame their system. They push the button, or they don't push the |
| 1650 | 02:28:34 --> 02:28:38 | button. They assume the risk, or define the risk as it is per trade, |
| 1651 | 02:28:39 --> 02:28:47 | any system can be profitable, but I can give you literally my best model, my |
| 1652 | 02:28:47 --> 02:28:51 | best never going to share with nobody else. I could give that to somebody in |
| 1653 | 02:28:51 --> 02:28:56 | this community that's not proven themselves disciplined or profitable in |
| 1654 | 02:28:56 --> 02:29:01 | any capacity at all. It won't make that money now to a new trader, or someone |
| 1655 | 02:29:01 --> 02:29:05 | new or casual reader, or someone that's really not done anything in trading, |
| 1656 | 02:29:05 --> 02:29:08 | that's gonna sound like a bunch of shit, oh, then it's not the best, because it |
| 1657 | 02:29:08 --> 02:29:12 | should be easy. That doesn't work like that. That was the biggest lesson for |
| 1658 | 02:29:12 --> 02:29:15 | me. I thought that if I did everything Larry Williams said and put the |
| 1659 | 02:29:15 --> 02:29:19 | indicators on the chart like he said, it's gonna be easy. And it was. It was |
| 1660 | 02:29:19 --> 02:29:23 | fucking easy to blow down account. It was easy as shit to take the next losing |
| 1661 | 02:29:23 --> 02:29:26 | trade. It was real easy for me. It was like no trouble at all. It was fucking |
| 1662 | 02:29:27 --> 02:29:34 | like lightning. That was so hard, it was impossible. I was like, shit. This |
| 1663 | 02:29:34 --> 02:29:39 | Williams percent are it's like, it's in zero. It can't move any more than that, |
| 1664 | 02:29:40 --> 02:29:45 | and it's still going higher, it's still going lower, vice versa. And it was |
| 1665 | 02:29:45 --> 02:29:48 | like, What the hell am I supposed to do? Like I thought this indicator stopped |
| 1666 | 02:29:48 --> 02:29:53 | price. It was over bought. It just kept going for 19 fucking days. I was stuck |
| 1667 | 02:29:53 --> 02:30:00 | in a trade limit up. I'm short. I'm talking about fun and scary. I. I was |
| 1668 | 02:30:00 --> 02:30:04 | like, man, what. No. Hell if I would have been right. This would have been |
| 1669 | 02:30:04 --> 02:30:16 | amazing, but, but anyway, I've tapped into old memories and tapped into Old, |
| 1670 | 02:30:16 --> 02:30:21 | old experiences, and because I have so many of them, I could very easily make |
| 1671 | 02:30:21 --> 02:30:24 | this a lot longer, and honestly, I only wanted it to be about an hour long, but |
| 1672 | 02:30:26 --> 02:30:30 | get two and a half hours. It's long enough. It's about the length of a good |
| 1673 | 02:30:30 --> 02:30:34 | feature length movie, right? If you stayed this long, congratulations. It's |
| 1674 | 02:30:34 --> 02:30:44 | endurance training, but I want to close it with with this. If you enable |
| 1675 | 02:30:45 --> 02:30:51 | everyone that ever says or will say to you nay, saying that you can't do this |
| 1676 | 02:30:51 --> 02:30:55 | or you won't be successful at it, if you energize that with any concern or |
| 1677 | 02:30:55 --> 02:31:01 | thought, you give them that power, they don't have that power over you. And when |
| 1678 | 02:31:01 --> 02:31:05 | I was younger, I thought everybody that I loved had that power over me, but it's |
| 1679 | 02:31:05 --> 02:31:11 | granted to them by you. You have control over that. And when you change your |
| 1680 | 02:31:11 --> 02:31:15 | perspective, instead of focusing on the anxiety and aspects of potentially |
| 1681 | 02:31:15 --> 02:31:20 | negative results, and you say, I'm welcome if that happens, because it's |
| 1682 | 02:31:20 --> 02:31:25 | going to be a learning experience that is such a liberating perspective, you no |
| 1683 | 02:31:25 --> 02:31:29 | longer look at the hard right edge of that chart and be fearful of the |
| 1684 | 02:31:29 --> 02:31:34 | outcome, because you're looking at as I'm in a laboratory experiment back in |
| 1685 | 02:31:34 --> 02:31:39 | university, and I want to see the cause and effect and result of what is going |
| 1686 | 02:31:39 --> 02:31:44 | to happen next. This is my theoretical, scientifically anchored perspective, and |
| 1687 | 02:31:44 --> 02:31:50 | what I expect to see, and we're going to see what we get, and you get a baseline |
| 1688 | 02:31:50 --> 02:31:56 | of experience of the binary, yes, it worked. No, it didn't. And you're |
| 1689 | 02:31:56 --> 02:32:00 | completely detached from the emotional outcome of it, because you're not facing |
| 1690 | 02:32:00 --> 02:32:06 | money on the end of that in the beginning, and by you understanding and |
| 1691 | 02:32:06 --> 02:32:11 | recording your observations about yourself, the negative response, the |
| 1692 | 02:32:11 --> 02:32:16 | euphoric, I'm really better than I'm really thought I was. You need to guard |
| 1693 | 02:32:16 --> 02:32:20 | that both perspectives the extremes. You don't think that everything's going to |
| 1694 | 02:32:20 --> 02:32:23 | be a failure, and you don't think that you're better than everything. I better |
| 1695 | 02:32:23 --> 02:32:26 | than everything else, like you're not. You have to copy the walk the best of |
| 1696 | 02:32:26 --> 02:32:29 | the best, and you're not the worst of the worst. And you got to find where |
| 1697 | 02:32:29 --> 02:32:33 | those parameters are, where it's balanced. And you can only do that by |
| 1698 | 02:32:33 --> 02:32:37 | recording experiences, getting a baseline of this is what you thought was |
| 1699 | 02:32:37 --> 02:32:41 | going to do, and this is the outcome. How do you feel? Did you feel any |
| 1700 | 02:32:41 --> 02:32:45 | emotional tug of war in that transaction? And if you do, you need to |
| 1701 | 02:32:45 --> 02:32:49 | research that. What is the reason why you felt adversity? Why did you feel |
| 1702 | 02:32:49 --> 02:32:54 | anxious, even in the demo, even a tape reading session? What are you wrestling |
| 1703 | 02:32:54 --> 02:32:57 | with at the time, and what do I mean by that? What are you dealing with in your |
| 1704 | 02:32:57 --> 02:33:01 | personal life? Are you having a problem in your job? Are you sick? Are you are |
| 1705 | 02:33:01 --> 02:33:06 | you fighting a physical ailment? Are you without a job? Did you lose a job? Are |
| 1706 | 02:33:06 --> 02:33:09 | you potentially going to lose your job? Are you having a marital spat? Are you |
| 1707 | 02:33:09 --> 02:33:13 | going through a divorce? Is your is your children becoming problematic? You know |
| 1708 | 02:33:14 --> 02:33:19 | all those things are going to manifest in your decision making. And it's unfair |
| 1709 | 02:33:19 --> 02:33:26 | for you to not realize that those external forces that you may or may not |
| 1710 | 02:33:26 --> 02:33:29 | have any control over, that you're wrestling with subconsciously that is |
| 1711 | 02:33:29 --> 02:33:35 | not in any way indicative of you coming to a conclusion that you're a bad trader |
| 1712 | 02:33:35 --> 02:33:39 | because you're going through stress and you're not Learning well enough to |
| 1713 | 02:33:39 --> 02:33:44 | manage that stress. I'm thankful that God allowed me to go through severe |
| 1714 | 02:33:44 --> 02:33:50 | anxiety. My world shrunk down to just my bedroom, and I didn't like when my wife |
| 1715 | 02:33:50 --> 02:33:53 | came in. I didn't like when my children knocked on the door and I didn't want my |
| 1716 | 02:33:53 --> 02:33:59 | pets in me, near me. Where else, where can I go? My world shrank down to one |
| 1717 | 02:33:59 --> 02:34:04 | room and that I had to make a change because my world started shrinking and |
| 1718 | 02:34:04 --> 02:34:08 | shrinking and shrinking and gorophobia, they want to be around other people. And |
| 1719 | 02:34:08 --> 02:34:12 | if you're not careful, you'll do that. You'll go to furthest extremes that you |
| 1720 | 02:34:12 --> 02:34:15 | couldn't even imagine you would allow yourself to get to. And it's going to be |
| 1721 | 02:34:15 --> 02:34:20 | based on your performance on something that you didn't properly go into and |
| 1722 | 02:34:20 --> 02:34:26 | measure without any emotional stimuli attached to it, no monetary stigma |
| 1723 | 02:34:26 --> 02:34:30 | attached to the outcome making money. That's the last thing you're worried |
| 1724 | 02:34:30 --> 02:34:33 | about right now. You're not worried about the money. You need to wrestle |
| 1725 | 02:34:33 --> 02:34:37 | with who you are. What makes you feel scared? What makes you feel empowered? |
| 1726 | 02:34:37 --> 02:34:42 | When do you get cocky and arrogant? When do you get doubtful and concerned only |
| 1727 | 02:34:42 --> 02:34:45 | by back testing and recording those things are you ever going to really know |
| 1728 | 02:34:45 --> 02:34:49 | who you are, even if you're being successful right now, if you have not |
| 1729 | 02:34:49 --> 02:34:53 | been doing that part, you need to start applying that because it'll take you to |
| 1730 | 02:34:53 --> 02:34:59 | new levels and leave behind old devils you're wrestling with, things that you |
| 1731 | 02:34:59 --> 02:35:03 | choose to hold on to. It. You don't realize it, but until you journal, you |
| 1732 | 02:35:03 --> 02:35:07 | won't recognize them, and you won't be able to identify them. So that way, you |
| 1733 | 02:35:07 --> 02:35:11 | can comfortably say, You know what, I've been carrying you all this time, but I'm |
| 1734 | 02:35:11 --> 02:35:17 | not doing it anymore. I choose not to hold on to this anymore. And you |
| 1735 | 02:35:17 --> 02:35:20 | physically say it out loud, and you say, I'm no longer going to worry about the |
| 1736 | 02:35:20 --> 02:35:24 | concerns of my failed relationships in the past. I'm no longer to be concerned |
| 1737 | 02:35:24 --> 02:35:26 | about the other people's opinion, about how soon I should have been successful, |
| 1738 | 02:35:26 --> 02:35:31 | because many of you are on their schedule, not your own, and that causes |
| 1739 | 02:35:31 --> 02:35:35 | anxiety. You're trying to perform to everybody else's expectations. And these |
| 1740 | 02:35:35 --> 02:35:39 | people aren't fucking nobody, they're nobody. You've never seen them face to |
| 1741 | 02:35:39 --> 02:35:42 | face, but you know them by their name on social media. Oh, I hope that person |
| 1742 | 02:35:42 --> 02:35:46 | doesn't say something to me today. I go on, and I'm hoping I see all of them |
| 1743 | 02:35:46 --> 02:35:52 | come at me today. I love it. I love it, but you aren't equipped to be that way. |
| 1744 | 02:35:52 --> 02:35:57 | Because you don't have your success. You're not rooted in this is the |
| 1745 | 02:35:57 --> 02:36:01 | baseline that's grown in extrapolated terms of you're successful with it. You |
| 1746 | 02:36:01 --> 02:36:03 | know what you're going to do. You know how you can read price action, and |
| 1747 | 02:36:03 --> 02:36:07 | nobody's going to shake you. You have confidence that's unshakable. You're an |
| 1748 | 02:36:07 --> 02:36:11 | overcomer. Nobody's taking you out of your your rhythm and your grind. You are |
| 1749 | 02:36:11 --> 02:36:14 | dialed in, and you ain't got time for anybody that's a naysayer. If you get |
| 1750 | 02:36:14 --> 02:36:19 | away from me, you can't even get my attention. Goodbye. That's that's the |
| 1751 | 02:36:19 --> 02:36:23 | goal. But it doesn't happen overnight. It doesn't happen that transition to |
| 1752 | 02:36:23 --> 02:36:30 | that level of absolutely dialed in does not happen overnight. But is it is |
| 1753 | 02:36:30 --> 02:36:35 | achievable. If you knew me back then, what kind of a wreck I was, versus right |
| 1754 | 02:36:35 --> 02:36:39 | now, totally different. Absolutely like that. You'd swear at somebody else. |
| 1755 | 02:36:39 --> 02:36:49 | You'd swear with somebody else. It had to be somebody else, right? So I assume |
| 1756 | 02:36:49 --> 02:36:52 | it in here. I got so many things that just popped in my head. I can go on and |
| 1757 | 02:36:52 --> 02:36:57 | you're really good too, but we have to defer that to another one. Hopefully |
| 1758 | 02:36:57 --> 02:37:01 | I've given you something to think about today. If anything, I hope I entertain |
| 1759 | 02:37:01 --> 02:37:04 | you. Took your money off your own problems, if it's been rough for you or |
| 1760 | 02:37:04 --> 02:37:08 | whatever, we spent a little bit of time today. Maybe, maybe I made you smile, |
| 1761 | 02:37:08 --> 02:37:12 | maybe I made you laugh, maybe I pissed you off, good. That means you care. That |
| 1762 | 02:37:12 --> 02:37:15 | means you're engaged. And that's what I want for my audience, because if you |
| 1763 | 02:37:15 --> 02:37:19 | listen to me and you're engaged and you apply a little bit of what I'm teaching |
| 1764 | 02:37:19 --> 02:37:24 | you to do, you'll see results. It's always been that way. I've always said, |
| 1765 | 02:37:24 --> 02:37:28 | Don't believe me. Because I said, so don't believe my executions, because you |
| 1766 | 02:37:28 --> 02:37:32 | can do it too. And once you study it and you see it, and you ain't going to |
| 1767 | 02:37:32 --> 02:37:35 | listen to anybody else, they're never going to convince you otherwise. It's |
| 1768 | 02:37:35 --> 02:37:40 | not a cult, it's not mind control, it's not gatekeeping, it's not me trying to |
| 1769 | 02:37:40 --> 02:37:44 | control over you and and you just be a hateful person out there, always trying |
| 1770 | 02:37:44 --> 02:37:50 | to start up trouble. I use that aspect to draw a crowd, because if I can offend |
| 1771 | 02:37:50 --> 02:37:54 | somebody, either directly or indirectly, and I can get their audience to question |
| 1772 | 02:37:54 --> 02:37:57 | long enough to come here and listen to me and see what is this guy going on |
| 1773 | 02:37:57 --> 02:38:02 | about? Oh shit, that's how it works. I don't ever have it advertised. I don't |
| 1774 | 02:38:02 --> 02:38:06 | ever have to do any kind of monetized ads on Facebook, YouTube, none of that |
| 1775 | 02:38:06 --> 02:38:10 | bullshit. They know me because of word of mouth. I'm a good talker. I can I'm a |
| 1776 | 02:38:10 --> 02:38:15 | good shit talker, and I can walk the walk. And I let everybody have a piece |
| 1777 | 02:38:15 --> 02:38:18 | of the pie. I give them just not to throw me and think they got a opinion |
| 1778 | 02:38:18 --> 02:38:21 | about it. And I have enough where the people that really support me would go |
| 1779 | 02:38:21 --> 02:38:28 | to war for me, and I'm aiming for both camps to move to the middle. And so, you |
| 1780 | 02:38:28 --> 02:38:29 | know what? I don't |
| 1781 | 02:38:29 --> 02:38:33 | really care about the guy I'm in. I'm indifferent to the guy, but his shit |
| 1782 | 02:38:33 --> 02:38:37 | really works, and I'm I'm doing well now that's that is the outcome. I'm not here |
| 1783 | 02:38:37 --> 02:38:40 | for friends and family that you know, but hey, we're going to hang out |
| 1784 | 02:38:40 --> 02:38:44 | together. I'm here to change your life. That's all I'm here for. That's all I'm |
| 1785 | 02:38:44 --> 02:38:48 | here for, and all it takes is your effort and consistently applying it. If |
| 1786 | 02:38:48 --> 02:38:53 | you do that, I am guaranteeing you you will see changes. It won't happen |
| 1787 | 02:38:53 --> 02:38:57 | overnight. You won't be perfect, but you'll gradually move to a level where |
| 1788 | 02:38:57 --> 02:39:02 | you'll get more confidence, you'll respect risk the entire time. But |
| 1789 | 02:39:02 --> 02:39:07 | percentage wise, the percentage risk will be the same as you gain more equity |
| 1790 | 02:39:07 --> 02:39:11 | and make more money, but you're never risking any more than that one fixed |
| 1791 | 02:39:11 --> 02:39:18 | percent. It needs to be low, really, really low. And when I say start with |
| 1792 | 02:39:18 --> 02:39:23 | risking a quarter of 1% first question comes out of mind of people that listen |
| 1793 | 02:39:23 --> 02:39:26 | to me for the first time, yeah, but I can't make big money like that. Okay? |
| 1794 | 02:39:27 --> 02:39:34 | You failed at math. You failed at math because if you risk 25% of 1% a quarter |
| 1795 | 02:39:34 --> 02:39:44 | of 1% of whoever your equity is, and you're aiming for five to one okay? And |
| 1796 | 02:39:44 --> 02:39:50 | you can find that setup over time, a dozen, two dozen, three dozen times over |
| 1797 | 02:39:50 --> 02:39:53 | the course of a week, if you're in the lower time frames, that stuff compounds |
| 1798 | 02:39:53 --> 02:39:59 | quick, real, real quick. But you can't trade that way right away. It takes |
| 1799 | 02:39:59 --> 02:40:03 | time. It. Different stages and new levels and plateau. You hang around in a |
| 1800 | 02:40:03 --> 02:40:07 | little understanding, and then you gain more understanding, and you gain more |
| 1801 | 02:40:07 --> 02:40:12 | understanding. And it takes time. I am able to trade today in a manner that I |
| 1802 | 02:40:12 --> 02:40:18 | could not trade when I was 22 when I was 24 I couldn't trade as well as I can |
| 1803 | 02:40:18 --> 02:40:24 | trade right now. I had enigma. I had it in my hands, and I still would doubt. I |
| 1804 | 02:40:24 --> 02:40:28 | would wait. I would be like, I need more confirmation. I'm afraid to do this. I'm |
| 1805 | 02:40:28 --> 02:40:31 | afraid to do that. And I put on too many contracts, and the fact that I had that |
| 1806 | 02:40:31 --> 02:40:34 | much risk on would scare me out of the trade. I would close the trade. So am I |
| 1807 | 02:40:34 --> 02:40:38 | following the system? Absolutely not. But what am I finding? I'm finding where |
| 1808 | 02:40:38 --> 02:40:44 | my flaws are. That's what makes me so authoritative, like I I've lived all |
| 1809 | 02:40:44 --> 02:40:50 | this stuff. I No one's going to teach me anything. I'm unteachable when it comes |
| 1810 | 02:40:50 --> 02:40:55 | to trading because I have all my shit sorted and because I don't want to hear |
| 1811 | 02:40:55 --> 02:40:59 | anybody else's bullshit, I don't have anything broken, so I don't need anybody |
| 1812 | 02:40:59 --> 02:41:02 | else's opinion to help me fix anything. If you call that arrogance, if you call |
| 1813 | 02:41:02 --> 02:41:05 | that narcissistic, I don't give a shit what you call it. I call it winning. |
| 1814 | 02:41:06 --> 02:41:10 | That's that's me being comfortable in my own skin. I don't need any more outside |
| 1815 | 02:41:10 --> 02:41:15 | input, and I've already given you enough in ICT content. All you have to do is |
| 1816 | 02:41:15 --> 02:41:19 | dial in and what is it? What you want to do, and bloom where you're planted. |
| 1817 | 02:41:19 --> 02:41:23 | Don't try to do everything that I've ever taught. Don't try to apply every |
| 1818 | 02:41:23 --> 02:41:27 | fucking tool I've ever introduced. But there's a plethora of things that you |
| 1819 | 02:41:27 --> 02:41:32 | can literally, if you want to sample from my my whole Compendium, you can |
| 1820 | 02:41:32 --> 02:41:38 | come up with a model that's uniquely yours, and I've never traded. It isn't |
| 1821 | 02:41:38 --> 02:41:42 | that fascinating. I have so many PD array. So many ways to skin the cat get |
| 1822 | 02:41:42 --> 02:41:46 | into a trade. You could literally say, this is my model, and I've had this with |
| 1823 | 02:41:46 --> 02:41:50 | two people now, this is, this is how I'm applying this information. And I'm like, |
| 1824 | 02:41:50 --> 02:41:54 | wow, that's it. I've never looked at it that way, and that, to me, is |
| 1825 | 02:41:54 --> 02:41:59 | fascinating. It's fun, because I get to see how you brought your own personality |
| 1826 | 02:41:59 --> 02:42:04 | to my life's work, and I'm not trying to stunt anybody from doing that. I'm |
| 1827 | 02:42:04 --> 02:42:09 | encouraging you all to do that. You're not teaching me anything, but you're |
| 1828 | 02:42:09 --> 02:42:14 | showing me that it's so diverse. There's so many ways. And you're not limited by |
| 1829 | 02:42:14 --> 02:42:19 | my concepts, where everything else is limited, everything else is limited. You |
| 1830 | 02:42:19 --> 02:42:24 | have to wait for this to do a crossover, or flash this, or flash that bullshit. |
| 1831 | 02:42:24 --> 02:42:29 | All you gotta do is wait by the time. If you gotta watch, okay, you gotta set to |
| 1832 | 02:42:29 --> 02:42:35 | New York time. You know what you're looking for. With me, we set our time |
| 1833 | 02:42:35 --> 02:42:40 | based trades by our clock, and as long as you at the right time, you got the |
| 1834 | 02:42:40 --> 02:42:43 | right fucking trade. That's it. We're done. You. |